paranoid dependence

Grandma Qin is back, this is something Shen Nian did not expect, he even thought that the last time he separated from Grandma Qin was a farewell, she would live with her daughter forever, Grandma Qin thought the same way when she left, so he didn't say anything Goodbye, what happened when you came back now?

Shen Nian didn't know, but no matter what, it was a good thing for Shen Nian.

But even so, Shen Nian didn't go back right away. It's important to go back to see Grandma Qin, but he must also face Gu Zhi. He finally calmed down now, and doesn't want to make any more troubles. Let's talk about it later, anyway, he had one or two before It's also a common thing when Yue doesn't go home. Grandma Qin won't blame him.

Another week passed, and it was Friday again in a blink of an eye, but this time the holiday is not only on Saturday and Sunday, but also New Year's Day, and the class will be on Tuesday again.

The school bell has already rang, and the students in the class have almost left. Shen Nian is also preparing to go back. Liang Qiu will not be back until tomorrow afternoon. He can take advantage of this time to go back and see Grandma Qin, and then spend a good time with Liang Qiu , As for Gu Zhi, let's take it one step at a time, he doesn't think so much for the time being.

It's just that he couldn't go according to the plan, because the phone rang in the next second, and Liang Qiu's name appeared on the screen. Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu's name, and subconsciously didn't want to answer it. He didn't forget ten During a holiday, Liang Qiu made a phone call and told himself that he had no way to come back.

He was afraid that it would be the same this time.

Shen Nian knew that after leaving, they each had their own circles of life, and many things were beyond their control, but it was inevitable that he would feel disappointed.

It's just that what should come can't be escaped, Shen Nian let out a breath slowly, and picked it up:

"Liang Qiu."

"After school, everyone else has come out. What about you? What is the ink?"

Shen Nian's heart paused because of these words, and he looked out of the window almost subconsciously. Although he could not see the school gate from the window of his classroom, he looked at the playground and realized that his voice was Some tension:

"You're back?"

"I'm back!" Liang Qiu said with a smile: "Come out and let me have a look, brother will take you to eat delicious food!"

Shen Nian seemed to have never been so excited, he couldn't wait, even the textbooks on the desk were randomly stuffed into the schoolbag, and then he rushed out of the classroom and ran all the way out of the school gate, he never had such a gesture in school , Not even in physical education class.

Liang Qiu really came back.

Shen Nian saw the figure standing under the tree waving to him, he laughed, ran over to stand in front of Liang Qiu, panted and looked at him in surprise: "Didn't it mean that we will arrive tomorrow afternoon?"

"If I arrive tomorrow, I can only stay with you for a day and a half, which is not enough, so I asked for a day off in advance to stay with you for an extra day."

After asking for leave, Shen Nian was a little worried: "Does Aunt Su know?"

"She doesn't agree that I can come back? Did she buy the ticket for me? Don't worry!" Liang Qiu reached out and took off the schoolbag on Shen Nian's shoulder, carried it on his body, and put it on his shoulder by the way: "Go, Brother will take you to eat something delicious."

Liang Qiu used to do this to Shen Nian often. Shen Nian never felt that there was any problem. In the crook of his arms, he raised his head to look at him with difficulty, and asked:

"Have you grown taller again?"

"Yo?" Liang Qiu looked at him with a smile: "Did you see it? That's right! Brother is 170 now!"

Shen Nian also smiled: "It seems that the food in Shanghai is really good."

"Why haven't you grown at all?" Liang Qiu squinted his eyes and looked him up and down: "Still thin? Shen Xiaonian! Let me warn you, if you don't eat well, you won't grow taller! You won't be able to get married in the future." My daughter-in-law can't eat hot food, so don't go to my house!"

"I won't go." Shen Nian said, "If you ask me, I won't go either."

Liang Qiu clicked his tongue, and walked forward with his arms in his arms: "I haven't seen you for a few months, why is this little temper so angry? But it's good, if you have a temper, you won't be bullied, so don't worry."

"Don't worry, I can't sleep well at night because you are talking about it."

"You think I'm annoying? You thought I wouldn't dare to touch you when we first met, didn't you? How dare you talk to me like that!" Liang Qiu started to scratch Shen Nian's itch after saying this, even though wearing thick clothes could block most of the Itching, but Shen Nian still felt a little uncomfortable, and hid with a smile, the two of them started fighting on the sidewalk where people came and went.

The smile on Liang Qiu's Shen Nian's face has never stopped since he saw him. He was so happy that he ignored everything around him happily, and he didn't see a person on the other side of the road following them for a long, long time.

That person had never seen Shen Nian laughing like this before, and even thought that he couldn't laugh.

In the past few days when Liang Qiu came back, Shen Nian has been following Liang Qiu, eating and living together, and there are endless topics to talk about, although Liang Qiu is still talking and Shen Nian is listening most of the time, but he can still talk until midnight. Not sleepy yet.During the day, Shen Nian accompanied Liang Qiu to play golf, and when he was tired, Liang Qiu took Shen Nian to eat his favorite snacks. In short, they were very busy, and Shen Nian forgot about Gu Zhi and Jianjia Lane when he was busy.

He hadn't had such a good time in a long time, and wished that time could stay at this moment forever.

But the happier and the more comfortable the time is, the faster time passes. By the time you realize it, most of the time has slipped away quietly, and you are still laughing at your reluctance.

Maybe it's because they're both tired from the turmoil of the past few days, or maybe it's because we're about to part and we don't know when we'll meet again, so it's inevitable that I'm a little sad, and the atmosphere has subsided unconsciously.

In the past, Liang Qiu was always responsible for mobilizing the atmosphere at this time, and Shen Nian was always the one who didn't talk much, but this time he took the initiative.

The two were sitting on the sofa watching TV, Shen Nian touched Liang Qiu and asked him:

"Do you like your deskmate?"

"Shen Xiaonian!" Liang Qiu, who was originally sitting paralyzed, sat up straight almost by reflex, and turned to look at him: "I didn't seem to say this in front of you, did I?"

"Well, I didn't say anything." Shen Nian nodded indifferently: "But every time you call me, you will definitely mention your deskmate. In the past two days, you told me about your stay in Shanghai. Among the five things, There are three of them are hers, this frequency... makes it difficult for me not to think about it."

Liang Qiu looked at Shen Nian without words: "I... am I so obvious?"

Shen Nian looked at him with a smile: "Is it right?"

"Ah..." Liang Qiu didn't intend to hide it. He didn't take the initiative to say that it was just that he didn't know how to talk to him. Now that he was exposed, he simply accepted it: "It seems that I like it a little."

"What is it like?" Shen Nian asked with a smile.

"What are you laughing at?" Liang Qiu stroked his hair: "I've never liked anyone, how do I know if I like her? I just think she's pretty and special, and then I'm a bit brainy when I hear people speak Shanghai dialect." Big, but she said that I think it sounds good, although I can't understand it, so it should be different from others, and it seems to like it, right?"

Shen Nian smiled and said nothing when Liang Qiu saw his expression, clicked his tongue, and put his arms around him: "How dare you laugh at your brother? Huh?"

Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu from the side, his breathing was a little difficult due to his suppression: "No, I just think it's pretty good. Liang Qiu has grown up and has someone he likes."

Liang Qiu let go of Shen Nian slightly: "What about you, do you have any?"

Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu with the expression of seeing a ghost, Liang Qiu felt that he had asked a stupid question after being stared at, and shook his head: "Forget it, forget it, I really can't figure out what kind of person you like .”

"I can't think of it myself." Shen Nian said, "I don't have any thoughts about it either."

Liang Qiu stared at Shen Nian, and narrowed his eyes slightly: "You have to be paired with someone who is passionate, otherwise the two ice cubes will not freeze to death together?"

Shen Nian smiled and said nothing, he didn't think about the future so far, he couldn't think about his own future.

Even though he was very reluctant, Liang Qiu still had to go, he said he would come back during the Chinese New Year, Shen Nian asked him: "Are Aunt Su and Uncle Liang coming back?"

"Come back." Liang Qiu said, "Why are relatives and friends still here?"

Shen Nian smiled: "Okay, then I'll wait for you and say hello to Aunt Su and Uncle Liang for me."

"it is good."

Liang Qiu left, but Shen Nian was not sent to the airport, and Shen Nian did not insist, anyway, we had to separate, an hour earlier and an hour later did not make much difference, Shen Nian watched Liang Qiu's car disappear at the corner of the street. Nian stood there for a long time, not knowing what he was thinking. After being accidentally bumped by a passerby, he walked to the bus stop and returned to Jianjia Lane.

There was snow on both sides of the alley, only a path was cleared in the middle, Shen Nian followed the path to Grandma Qin's house.

He had doubted whether the news that Gu Zhi brought him was fake before, just to get him back, but then he thought that Gu Zhi would not be so stupid, and it would be useless to deceive himself. Now seeing Grandma Qin's house Opening the door confirmed his own thoughts even more.

Grandma Qin really came back, Shen Nian didn't seem so sad to see Grandma Qin after sending Liang Qiu away.

When Shen Nian entered Grandma Qin's house, the snow in the courtyard was also cleaned up and piled up at the bottom of the south wall.The neighbors living in the alley may not have much contact with each other at ordinary times, but they are still very enthusiastic when something happens. For lonely old people like Grandma Qin who have mobility problems, the neighbors will help clean up when it snows.

"Grandma." Shen Nian yelled and entered the room. Grandma Qin also heard Shen Nian's voice. When Shen Nian entered the room, she was getting off the bed with a smile on her face. When Shen Nian walked in front of her, Qin Nian Grandma held Shen Nian's face in her hands: "I haven't seen you in a year, I've grown taller and thinner, I'm a big boy now."

Shen Nian was really happy, but he also noticed that Grandma Qin seemed much older and thinner than a year ago.

Don't you live with your daughter?Why does it seem that Grandma Qin is worse than the one in Jianjia Lane, and how can she be so old?

But Shen Nian didn't ask. Grandma Qin's heart was tied to her children. When she left, she left with the attitude of not coming back. Now that she came back, something must have happened, but after all, it shouldn't be something good, otherwise He won't come back either, if Grandma Qin didn't take the initiative to say so, there would be no need for Shen Nian to stab Grandma Qin's uncomfortable place.

After not seeing each other for a long time, Shen Nian talked with Grandma Qin for a long time, and somehow she talked about Gu Zhi, Grandma Qin asked Shen Nian:

"Did your father leave him to you?"

"No." Shen Nian said truthfully, "I didn't take much care of him either."

Grandma Qin smiled: "Don't put too much pressure on yourself, your dad is not at home all year round, just treat it as if someone is with you at home, at least it won't be empty when you come back."

Shen Nian responded lightly, and didn't say anything else. Everyone has bad things. Although Grandma Qin didn't say anything, she must be no less than him. I really don't know what to say about Gu Zhi's matter.

It's getting late, Shen Nian didn't plan to stay overnight today, so he said goodbye to Grandma Qin, and made an appointment to come back to see her next week, Grandma Qin smiled and said no, she still puts her studies first.

Standing at the door of Grandma Qin's house and looking at the door of Shen's house, Shen Nian walked over in silence for a few seconds. He came back once a week before and didn't bring much clothes. This time he hasn't come back for half a month. Clothes to take away.

The small courtyard is very quiet. If it wasn't for the snow being swept away, it would look like no one lives there.

There is still a snowman under the tree, which looks much better than before, at least the head is round, and a lot of effort must have been put into stacking it.

Shen Nian stared at it for a while and walked to the north room. He forgot that all his belongings had been moved into his room by Gu Zhi, and went straight back to his hut, but stopped in his tracks the first time he walked in. .

There was a person lying on his bed, wrapped in a thick quilt, sleeping peacefully, even breathing lightly, not aware of his arrival at all.

It was only at this time that Shen Nian realized that his things had been taken away by Gu Zhi, but now that the room was not as empty as last time, and there were books on the desk again, Shen Nian could see the open space at a glance. The book he got was the first grade book he found for Gu Zhi.

Shen Nian glanced at Gu Zhi, and found that he hadn't woken up, so he walked over to take a look, and found that he should have studied a lot during this period, but he had already read most of it, and there were many things written on the notepad next to him. Little knowledge points.

Did he move his things into this room?Have you been resting here these days?

Such a cold day, such a dark room, is it a trick?

Shen Nian didn't know if it was true, but he didn't bother to tell the difference. Anyway, there is no heating equipment in the house, and the liquefied petroleum gas is already full anyway. Whether he likes to use it or not, eats it or not, it has nothing to do with him.

Gu Zhi still didn't wake up, and Shen Nian didn't intend to wake him up, so he quietly left and went to Gu Zhi's room.He guessed right, his own things are all here, but the ones that belonged to Gu Zhi are gone, even the electric blanket is still on the bed, and the unwashed clothes when he left before have been washed and folded. Neatly placed on the bed.

I haven't come back for two weeks, there is no dust on the desk, and someone cleans it every day.

Shen Nian was still untouched, he packed his clothes and put them in his schoolbag and was about to leave. When he passed by the Westinghouse kitchen, he subconsciously stopped. After thinking about it, he went in and took a look. Originally he thought it would be a cold room and a cold stove. , The kind that didn’t cook for a few days, but found that there were leftovers wrapped in plastic bags on the dining table, and there were still unfinished ingredients on the vegetable rack.

He has a good meal.

For some reason, Shen Nian remembered the night when Gu Zhi used liquefied gas to pretend to be pitiful. Before going to bed, he said softly to himself: "I will eat well in the future."

Now it seems that he did not lie to himself.

But the order of appearance of some things is very important. Now after the deception, even if some small incidents are sincere, it doesn't matter.

It's just that Shen Nian still didn't leave quietly after all. After he left the west room, he went back to the north room and returned to the small room where Gu Zhi was. He still had no intention of waking Gu Zhi up. As far as he was concerned, he came back just because he wanted to leave some money for him.

Since the money he saved is useful, he should keep it well. The extra money Shen Chongshan gave himself was for Gu Zhi. He had no reason and didn't want to embarrass Gu Zhi in this regard.

He took out the money from his pocket and put it in the textbook that Gu Zhi spread out on the desk. Shen Nian closed the book and walked away, but it happened that Gu Zhi woke up at this time. There was another person who sat up almost instantly, with a face full of defense, when he saw Shen Nian standing at the door, his expression changed into disbelief again.

As if he didn't believe that Shen Nian would appear in front of him at this time, he spoke tentatively:

"Never mind?"

Gu Zhi's voice was so hoarse that he almost couldn't hear what he was saying clearly, maybe he breathed in cold air and coughed again, Shen Nian kept looking at him, and left the room in silence for a few seconds, but he didn't go back to school directly , he found the medicine box, took antipyretics and cough medicines from it, then went back to Gu Zhi's room and put them on the desk.

"Take the dosage according to the method above. If it's still not good, go to the health center on the street." Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi: "I'm not as stupid as you think, bitter tricks are useless to me, don't ask for trouble have eaten."

Shen Nian's last sentence shocked Gu Zhi's coughing for a moment, but it was only for a moment. After a brief pause, the cough became more aggressive, as if he was about to cough up his lungs. He seemed to want to say something, But he couldn't utter a single sentence when he opened his mouth:

"Nian Nian, I cough...I don't...cough..."

Shen Nian glanced at him, ignored him, and walked away.