paranoid dependence

On the last day of the holiday, Shen Nian was still sitting on the corner of the street watching the crowd as usual, but today's weather was not very good, it was gloomy as if a heavy rain could fall at any time, Shen Nian didn't want to get wet in the rain, didn't want to Sick so prepared to go back early.

When walking towards the bus stop sign, two people walked quickly behind him, walking side by side with Shen Nian, sandwiching him from left to right, Shen Nian didn't pay attention at first, until one of them took his arm put it on his shoulders, and said to him:

"Little brother, take a step to talk?"

Only then did Shen Nian's sluggish nerves realize the danger, but before he had any reaction, he was dragged and dragged into a side alley.

The street corner where Shen Nian is located is not busy, he chose to look here because it is convenient to take a car back and forth, and he doesn't have to walk too far, the weather is bad today, and there are far fewer pedestrians than before, otherwise the two people in front of him wouldn't be like this He did it blatantly, but Shen Nian didn't want to be caught without a fight. He opened his mouth to call out, but the thin man in front of him took a handful of guns out of his pocket one second before he opened his mouth. Spin around the flowers a few times:

"Little brother, let's settle the matter between us, and don't bother others."

Shen Nian stared at the gun in his hand, inexplicably not afraid at all, he even thought, if he died here today, would he be liberated?Even if he survived and was injured, would someone come back to care and take care of him? If you think about it this way, it seems pretty good.

The two of them saw that Shen Nian had calmed down, so they didn't say anything, and went directly to Shen Nian's pocket, trying to dig out something valuable.

They are not doing business and mixing in this film, they will focus on Shen Nian, but they have been watching him sitting here alone these few days, so they can start. They have seen this kind of child a lot. If the parents are not at home, they will give them Keep some money, and don't worry about being retaliated or calling the police, because they don't dare to tell their family members at all when they go back.

But Shen Nian didn't have the habit of bringing money with him when he went out. All the money was stored in the card Shen Chongshan gave him, and he only took out a little when he needed it. Usually, there were only a dozen or so pocket change in his pocket at most, and it would be fine if he took it. Take it, Shen Nian doesn't care, even if you don't leave him the travel expenses, he doesn't care, at worst, walk back.

The man took out more than a dozen yuan and clicked his tongue: "That's all?"

Shen Nian saw that he didn't speak, but the man still refused to let go, and wanted to look through the right pocket again. Shen Nian, who had been silently bearing it, didn't know what to think at this moment, and suddenly resisted. Jump, slammed him against the wall, and pointed at him:

"Tell you again, don't move!"

But Shen Nian didn't seem to hear what they said, and kept struggling, even though he was punched twice in the back, he still held onto his pocket and didn't let go.

In his pocket was the mobile phone Liang Qiu gave him. Although it was not the latest model, it was still worth some money. Shen Nian didn't care about money, nor was he reluctant to part with the mobile phone. He was just reluctant to part with the last thing Liang Qiu gave him. It was a tool for him to contact Liang Qiu anytime and anywhere, and he didn't want to lose it just like that.

He guarded it tightly.

"There must be something valuable in this kid's pocket." The man spat, furiously wanting to snatch it over to see what it was.

After all, Shen Nian is only a high school student, how can he stand up to these two bastards, he was beaten again, the kick on the ribs made Shen Nian so painful that he let go, that person would go to his pocket if he got a gap. The things were taken out, but before they moved, a voice behind them stopped their movements:

"Hey, shameless? Bullying a child."

At first, the two thought that an adult was passing by, and they panicked for a moment, but when they looked back, they were a pupil who was a little shorter than Shen Nian, and they immediately laughed:

"Little friend, I advise you not to meddle in your own business."

"Then I also advise you not to look down on me."

Shen Nian lay on the ground looking for the sound, saw Gu Zhi, he put the woven bag in his hand at the base of the wall, walked over, bent down and picked up a brick by the wall:

"Whether you dare to beat me to death or not, I don't know, but I will definitely dare to beat you to death. Isn't it life, who will be tough if you fight, dare you?"

After saying this, without waiting for the other party to react, he threw half of the brick in his hand viciously. No one would have imagined that such a child would be so daring, unable to dodge in time, he could only subconsciously raise his arms to protect it. The face and the arm that was smashed were so painful that they were almost numb.

"You fucking..." The anger of being beaten was just about to rush over, but Gu Zhi was not afraid at all. He bent down and picked up another brick, turned his head and spit as if he was angry, and ran towards them. come over.

Those two people were really intimidated by his desperate posture, and they hesitated in their rushing steps, and when Gu Zhi turned his head towards the piece thrown at them again, they were obviously scared , Not wanting to provoke this lunatic again, they looked at each other, left the dozen or so dollars they had snatched, turned and left.

Leave a ruthless sentence in the same way: "You wait for the boy, and I will kill you another day."

Gu Zhi sneered, not even giving them a look.

The two bastards left, and the alley was quiet again. Gu Zhi glanced at the gloomy weather, his face was full of unbearable pain, but he still squatted down and picked up the money on the ground, and walked to the place enduring the pain. In front of Shen Nian who just sat up, handed over the money.

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi, didn't speak, and didn't take the money.

Gu Zhi seemed a little impatient, he didn't wait for Shen Nian's reaction, he just slapped the money on his chest and got up and left, as if he didn't care who he saved, he looked at Shen Nian from the beginning to the end They were so indifferent as if they didn't know each other.

Like a stranger.

They were indeed strangers, without the bondage of that family, they would have nothing to do with each other.

When Gu Zhi bent down to pick up the woven bag, big raindrops fell, Shen Nian also got up at this time, he could clearly feel Gu Zhi's back trembling, although he couldn't see his expression , but because Shen Nian had seen it before, he could imagine the look of fear on Gu Zhi's face.

Gu Zhi was always afraid of such a rainy day.

Gu Zhi stood leaning against the wall for a while, and when he was sure that there would be no thunder, he quickly walked towards the entrance of the alley. Shen Nian also walked out of the alley behind him, watching the direction Gu Zhi left.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier. Although there was no thunder, the occasional rumble could make Gu Zhi stop, and his whole body froze.

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi who was hiding under the wall, looked at his frightened appearance, and looked at the sky carefully, as if he was very afraid that there would be another thunder later.It's not at all like the ruthless him who took his life in the alley just now.

In any case, it was Gu Zhi who helped him just now, but Shen Nian didn't walk over in the end, never said thank you, and never gave him a hand to hold when he was afraid of the thunderstorm, he didn't seem to be watching. Arriving at the same place, he turned and left in the other direction.

It's as if they didn't meet at all today, as if the danger just now never happened, they were just strangers they met while walking on the street.

Shen Nian doesn't want to get sick because there is no one to take care of him. The sickness is uncomfortable and fragile, and he can only bear it alone. Recently, he may not even be able to bear it. But this world is always strange, the more you don't want anything to happen, Things will always come to you one after another, fearing that you are not fragile enough, fearing that you are not lonely enough, and only when you have been polished and lost your edges and corners will you take back his magical powers triumphantly.

Shen Nian had a fever. He couldn't remember the last time he was sick, but it was not as fierce as this time. He took medicine, drank water and lay on the bed, wrapped in a thick quilt, hoping to sleep , Sweating all over and being able to carry it over, but the medicine seemed useless at all, his headache was about to explode, he curled up, and began to persuasion and comfort himself non-stop:

"Xiao Nian go to sleep, it will be fine when you fall asleep, and the pain won't hurt when you fall asleep..."

"Xiao Nian, good boy..."

"Xiao Nian is obedient..."

"Go to sleep, go to sleep..."

He coaxed himself, comforted himself, but this kind of comfort did nothing but make him feel more pitiful and pitiful. He was still in pain and uncomfortable.He even wondered why the two bastards in the alley didn't stab the knife at him.

In that case, wouldn't it hurt me so much?

It was still raining, and he heard the deafening sound of the rain continuously hitting the glass windows. This sound seemed to give Shen Nian confidence and a good protective look. He finally found himself in such a place where everyone was listening to the sound of rain. , no one noticed him crying out in the night:

"It hurts...I really hurt...Is there someone to hug me...Is there someone to hug me...Just a moment..."

No one, except the raindrops, knocked on Shen Nian's window this night.

Shen Nian cried loudly, as if he wanted to release all the grievances, loss and loneliness of these years at once, but the rain was so loud that his cries and cries could only be suppressed in this small room. In the room, no one could hear.

Maybe it was the effect of the medicine, maybe he was tired from crying, or maybe he was really sleepy, Shen Nian also fell asleep later, maintaining a curled up position, like returning to his mother's belly, but once he thought of him It's not the child that mother likes, and he didn't come to this world because of being expected, Shen Nian began to feel cold again.

Unprecedented cold.

In a daze, he seemed to see Grandma Qin, who came to his bedside with a bowl of hot porridge, and called him with a smile:

"Xiao Nian, get up and eat. After eating, the illness will recover quickly. After eating, go to bed and get up quickly."

Shen Nian stretched out his hand in a daze, and someone grabbed him, but it wasn't Grandma Qin, but Liang Qiu. He seemed to be holding the basketball to take him to play, but his complexion might be really bad. Poor, Liang Qiu, put down the basketball full of worry and walked over, raising his hand to touch his forehead:

"Do you have a fever? I'll take you to the hospital."

Shen Nian actually didn't like injections, and was even a little afraid, but he was not so afraid when he had someone to accompany him, so he obediently followed Liang Qiu and listened to his words to go to the hospital.But as soon as he walked out of the north room, he couldn't see Liang Qiu anymore. He stood alone in the small courtyard and could hear his own breathing quietly.

He called Liang Qiu, but no one answered him. He called Grandma Qin, but it was equally quiet.

He is still alone, no one cooks porridge for him, and no one wants to accompany him to the hospital.

He wanted to escape from this yard, but he couldn't move no matter what. He seemed to be trapped, so he could only stay here.

No one heard him, and no one came to rescue him.

When Shen Nian woke up the next day, he stared at the ceiling for a long time. He thought of yesterday's dream, and also thought of his crying last night. The distant and illusory things were not real at all. He didn't like himself last night, but Shen Nian Thoughtful but clearly aware that last night is the truest self.

He's actually not strong at all.

When I got up, my waist was still aching. The kick I kicked here was already bruised last night, but Shen Nian didn't care. He wasn't even afraid of death yesterday. He even hoped to die just like that. It's nothing.

It seemed that he still had a little fever, and the moment he got out of bed he was still top-heavy, and almost fell, but after a while, Shen Nian went to wash up after making sure he could walk and stand, because he had to go to school.

It's not that his studies are so important, but that he will go crazy if he stays at home any longer.

He should choose to stay, at least he can hear human voices, even if they are noisy, even if they do not belong to him.

After a holiday, after a sudden illness, Shen Nian seemed to be less talkative, he began to be in a daze for a long time, even in class, he often couldn't help being distracted, the first test, he always ranked among the best He didn't even finish the test paper.

The teacher talked to him, but he didn't know how to tell the teacher. The teacher wanted him to call his parents, but even Shen Chongshan's phone number, the teacher couldn't get through.

During that time, the teacher stayed with him all the time, but he still couldn't say some words, and he didn't know how to say them.

Shen Nian is also aware of the changes and abnormalities in his state. He doesn't speak at school and is in a daze. Hearing hallucinations, you can feel someone talking to you when you close your eyes.

When did you know you couldn't go on like this?It was one night that Shen Nian suddenly realized that he was talking to the air, asking and answering, coming and going.

Only then did he realize that he was sick, and if he didn't take it seriously, it might ruin him.

Shen Nian re-applied for accommodation, and the teacher agreed without much questioning. Chatting with him every day during this time allowed the teacher to see Shen Nian's family situation. It was better to keep the child closer to him than to leave him alone. at home.

The application still couldn't be done immediately, the teacher asked Shen Nian to wait a few more days, Shen Nian agreed and said, "I'm not in a hurry."

The waiting time for this application is a bit long, almost half a month has passed, and there is still no news from the teacher. It will be November soon, and the two days have been gray and depressing. The students in the class said that it might be It's going to snow, the weather forecast said.

Shen Nian looked out the window, remembering the snowfall during Chinese New Year last year.

He had to admit that after staying alone for a long time, he would think of many, many people, even those he didn't like and those he hated.

After school this day, Shen Nian was almost the last one to leave school again, but what was different was that this time when he returned to Jianjia Lane, he was not alone, someone was waiting for him.