Attempted first love

The night Lu Zhouyu saw the necklace, he sat beside Xia Yan's bed for a long time.He didn't feel sleepy, and under the moonlight, he read the lettering on the metal plate repeatedly, and at the same time thought of the cake on the coffee table and the two nearby plates.

In fact, it was not impossible for him to guess, Shen Qi must have come here uninvited again, he had seen Shen Qi's tricks early in the morning - he was sure that Xia Yan was soft-hearted and would not refuse, so he approached Xia Yan softly.

Before they confirmed their relationship, Lu Zhouyu reminded Xia Yan out of bounds, and got replies of "not chasing him" and "I didn't agree to him".

Then giving this straightforward necklace should be counted as chasing.Lu Zhouyu wanted to wake Xia Yan up, and when he heard him say "no promise" again, he put his hand on his shoulder, and soon he had an answer—Xia Yan must have not promised, because he is not that kind of person.

In all fairness, Lu Zhouyu didn't think he had much advantage over Shen Qi, he just happened to be lucky enough to take over the mess Shen Qi left behind in the exhibition, so he won some goodwill and got a chance to try it out.

Like a row of goods on a shelf that are lucky to be picked because of their familiarity.

During Xia Yan and Lu Zhouyu's relationship, they will never agree to other people's pursuit.

He is very upright and has a clear distinction between likes and dislikes.

But if his liking is over and he doesn't want to try again, he will stop in time and return the product completely without nostalgia.

When it was almost two o'clock in the morning, Xia Yan babbled a few words, but couldn't make out what he said. Lu Zhouyu put the necklace back on, moved to his side, and held his hand on the quilt.

He didn't know what he was doing in his dream, his fists were clenched tightly, and his hard bones and joints protruded from Lu Zhouyu's palm, making him feel slightly cold.Not long after, he relaxed again, as if he felt his hand was being held by someone, he struggled slightly for a couple of times, and then stopped moving, Lu Zhouyu leaned close to kiss his face, but there was no response.

This defenseless appearance, and his initiative before going to bed, made Lu Zhouyu feel safe, and decided that the end was still far away.

After four o'clock, the dark blue sky tended to turn white, and Lu Zhouyu felt drowsy.He slept until six o'clock, and was woken up by Xia Yan's movements.

The moment he opened his eyes and saw him, Lu Zhouyu decided to forget about that necklace. He felt that as long as Xia Yan didn't take the initiative to end it, then nothing else was important.

Probably because of too little sleep, everything that happened on Sunday morning seemed like a dream with ups and downs.

Everything was normal at first, and it started when Xia Yan pushed the door out and turned back aggressively - he knew that Lu Zhouyu had seen the necklace, so he asked sharply.

At a certain moment last night, Lu Zhouyu really thought despicably of destroying the necklace, but in the end he put it back properly.He didn't understand how Xia Yan knew, nor why he looked so angry and unacceptable.

Everything is chaotic and incomprehensible.

When Xia Yan said that he was going to leave with Shen Qi, Lu Zhouyu suddenly started to ring in his ears, and for a few seconds, he couldn't make a sound, but he didn't want to appear dull in front of Xia Yan, and also wanted to give himself enough dignity , so he pretended to be generous and awkward, and asked him if he didn't want to try.

But the moment he said it, he began to regret it. Not only his ears were ringing, but his heart also seemed to be tightly grasped. Many potholes were pressed down, and a lot of juice was squeezed out, making his whole body anxious and dry.

Just when he felt that everything was irreversible, he suddenly saw Xia Yan blinked slowly, raised his head, the sun was shining on his face very white, his eyes were bright, but his expression looked like he was about to cry.His lips opened and closed, and he said many accusation-like confessions that Lu Zhouyu never dared to think about.

At first, Lu Zhouyu only understood the confession and felt unbelievable. When he wanted to confirm again, Xia Yan said, "Let's all calm down for a while", and then opened the door and left.

After he left, Lu Zhouyu stood there in a daze for a moment, then mechanically picked up the cup to clean it.He actually didn't have a meeting at noon, he just wanted to wait for him to come back at Xia Yan's house, so he said that.

Beside the sink is a special cupboard for cups, which is well organized. Xia Yan added a new cup holder to hang the paired cups he bought.

The restaurant has good lighting, and the sunlight is inlaid on the edges of the pair of tableware, making everything very warm and beautiful.Lu Zhouyu hung the cup in his hand on the cup holder, put it in line with the other one, and suddenly understood Xia Yan's accusation.

In this relationship, Lu Zhouyu reported a pessimistic attitude from the very beginning. He didn't think he was worthy of being loved, and he often thought of the tragic consequences of Zhou Man's dedication, so he didn't ask for it, didn't take the initiative, gave and didn't long for anything in return , as if in this way he could get out at any time and minimize the damage.

And all his reservations about himself, in Xia Yan's eyes, are signs of indifference.

Closing the cabinet, Lu Zhouyu thought of Xia Yan's face, sleeping, laughing, provocative, drunk, who looked a little pitiful when he said those words just now, and decisive when he opened the door to leave.

Good thing he promised to come back.

Maybe Lu Wenyuan is right. Lu Zhouyu really shy away from medical treatment, worried that he will be hurt in his relationship, so he is a coward with peace of mind, and even if he likes a word, he will only say it when he is drunk.

Thinking that Xia Yan might withdraw his love and leave completely, Lu Zhouyu couldn't calm down. He waited on the sofa for Xia Yan to come back, trying to figure out how to explain the troubles he had gone through for a goldfish that he might not get. The urgency to come back, and the desire buried ten years ago.

At 55:[-], the doorbell rang.

He hurried to open the door, but Ji Qilin was standing outside the door.The moment the two people's eyes met, they were a little stunned.

"Teacher Ji." Lu Zhouyu greeted first, and noticed that he was carrying a yellow plastic bag from the supermarket in his hand.

"Hey, Xiao Lu." Ji Qilin paused, and glanced in over him.

"Xia Yan is not here," Lu Zhouyu said.He wasn't sure if Ji Qilin knew about their relationship, he paused for a moment, and added: "I'm here to deliver something to him, and I'm about to leave."

"Oh, he didn't answer the call, so I came to have a look." Ji Qilin shook the bag in his hand, smiled, "I'm here to deliver things too."

Opening the mouth of the bag, there was a bagful of hawthorns inside, which had a strong sour smell. He took the initiative to say, "I won't go in if Xiaoxia isn't here. You can put him in the refrigerator."

"Okay, I'm about to go too." Lu Zhouyu took the bag, put it in the refrigerator, and went out with Ji Qilin to wait for the elevator.

The elevator door opened, he waited for Ji Qilin to go in first, followed behind, pressed the first floor and asked, "Does he like hawthorn?"

"That's right," Ji Qilin said, "My wife and daughter went to the mountains yesterday to gather scenery, and when we saw something for sale, we bought some for him, and we will celebrate the season later."

"Is there a hawthorn tree in Haicheng?"

"On the Lingshan Mountain in the next city, there is a forest dedicated to this."

After getting out of the elevator, Ji Qilin said that his car was parked outside the community, and Lu Zhouyu walked with him for a while. When he was almost at the door, Ji Qilin suddenly asked: "Xiao Xia asked about the "Echo" exhibition a few days ago, and said that he wanted to introduce friends to participate in it. ,is it you?"

"It should be," Lu Zhouyu was slightly surprised, and admitted, "He asked me."

Ji Qilin nodded, said goodbye to him without saying anything.

After sending Ji Qilin away, Lu Zhouyu turned back and stood under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree where he had been waiting for Xia Yan, when he suddenly received a call from Lu Wenyuan.He didn't really want to pick it up, he just wanted to be alone to clear his mind and think about what he should say to Xia Yan after meeting.

But the phone kept ringing persistently. He answered it, and it was Lu Wenyuan's assistant, who spoke quickly, "Your father has fainted and is being sent to the city hospital."

On the way to the hospital, Lu Zhouyu sent a message to Xia Yan, saying that he was gone and asked him to go home and have a good rest.

When we arrived at the hospital, there was another turmoil. Four or five people from Lu Wenyuan's company came. One of them saw him and came over and said, "This is Mr. Lu's mobile phone." Lu Zhouyu took it and said "Thank you."

In less than half an hour, Lu Wenyuan woke up. The preliminary examination results showed that the blood supply to the brain was insufficient, and there was no serious problem.After waking up, he was in good spirits, leaning on the hospital bed, thanking the colleague who sent him here warmly.Lu Zhouyu walked out of the ward to get his inspection sheet, and when he came back, those people had all left.

"When did you come back?" Lu Wenyuan asked.

"Yesterday." Lu Zhouyu put the list on the bedside.

"Go back and get busy, I'm fine."

"I made an appointment for a full-body examination, and I'll take you to do it after a rest."

Lu Wenyuan nodded again and said yes.

There was a faint smell of disinfectant in the ward, which Lu Zhouyu couldn't get used to, so she walked to the window to breathe. Outside the window was a tall poplar tree with half-yellow and half-green leaves, reflecting the afternoon light.

"Why did my mother like you so much at that time?" Lu Zhouyu suddenly couldn't help asking.

He seldom brought up Zhou Man on his own initiative. Lu Wenyuan was obviously taken aback, and said after consideration: "She doesn't like me, but likes my lectures. Later, when I resigned to do business, she couldn't accept it, so..."

Skipping those memories that are not good for them, Lu Wenyuan said: "What she likes is a person who has been beautified in her imagination."

Like a movie line, Lu Zhouyu nodded after hearing it, closed the window and turned around: "Let's go, go check it out."

After all the inspections, it was already dark, so Lu Wenyuan called the driver to pick him up, and invited Lu Zhouyu to go home for dinner.

"I have something else to do."

"Well, I really took up too much of your time today." Lu Wenyuan said, as if hesitating for a moment, he said, "When you are almost settled, bring someone home for dinner and meet each other."

Lu Zhouyu was silent. He probably thought it was a refusal, and smiled awkwardly, "I didn't mean to urge you."

When the car stopped in front of him, Lu Zhouyu suddenly said, "It's not with a girl."

"Huh?" Lu Wenyuan paused, then understood, "That's it."

"Is it... because of me and your mother?" he asked.

"No, it has nothing to do with you." Lu Zhouyu answered quickly this time, "I like it myself."

It seems that after walking for a long time, I finally returned to the downstairs of Xia Yan's house. The window lights on the nineteenth floor are on, and there is no rain or cloud tonight. From that window, I should be able to see the night view of the art museum in the distance.Xia Yan said it was beautiful, but because of the weather and the timing, he never saw it once.

The message in the afternoon was not answered. Lu Zhouyu held the phone, wanting to send something more, but unknowingly pressed the dial button.

After about ten rings, when he was about to be automatically hung up, the phone was picked up. At that moment, the manuscript he had typed was in a mess, and he didn't know what to say first.

After a few seconds of silence, Xia Yan spoke first, "I lost control of my emotions this morning, don't worry about it."

"It's my fault." Lu Zhouyu felt that he couldn't speak clearly on the phone. He was about to ask if he could go up, and asked him to speak face to face, when he heard Xia Yan's voice: "But what I said to calm down for a while is true. We... ..."

"Is one night enough?" Lu Zhouyu looked up at the window, a little urgently, "I have something to tell you."

Xia Yan didn't say whether it was enough or not, he paused, couldn't even hear the sound of breathing, and said after a long time: "I want to visit my parents tomorrow... I haven't seen them for a long time."

"where?"

Xia Yan said the name of a city in the northwest, which is far away. Just hearing the name reminds people of the wind and sand all over the sky.Lu Zhouyu felt that the gravel was hitting him, it didn't hurt, but it made people panic because there was nowhere to hide.

"Then can we meet now?" He asked anxiously, "I'm downstairs."

A few seconds later, a thin figure appeared behind the window, as thin as a window grille, which would be blown away by the wind.

"……when did you come?"

"just."

The shadow flickered.

The throbbing heart made Lu Zhouyu unable to wait another second. Holding the phone, he imagined that he was talking to the person behind the window.

"I know your experience is bad, but can you not return me first." After a pause, he begged: "Try again for a while."