East Berlin's June Boat Song

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In France in 1941, the battlefield on the Eastern Front was in full swing. He sat on the square in front of the Louvre and watched white pigeons hovering in the grayish-yellow sky.

At this time, his name is not Sasha, but Kuvanev, code-named "Brown Bear". Secret agents carry out assassination activities.

The target was an officer of the German Panzer Army who was about to go to the Eastern Front.

He will disguise himself as an officer's club attendant, and press the remote control that starts the explosion at the right moment.

The major told him that he only had tens of seconds to escape after pressing the remote control, but he didn't tell him that he had no intention of escaping from the beginning.He was prepared to let himself fall into the hands of the SS, to be tortured to death in every possible way.He didn't know why, but he didn't want Julian's heartache, but he just wanted to die like this.Perhaps, he had already developed a tendency to self-abuse.

But the dramatic scene came, when he hid in the corner of the venue, the crowd started to make noise, he didn't care why, but pressed the remote control according to the set time, causing an explosion, and then looked at the group of howling German officers Squirming hard on the floor with their beautiful mistresses.He thought that when someone recovered, they would come to arrest him immediately.I heard that the Germans have a good way of interrogating prisoners, and they will make themselves miserable.

He suddenly smiled happily, and stood on the edge of the venue waiting to be caught, but the next second he met his companion's eyes, the French major ran into the venue inexplicably, and left before he could react. He snatched the remote control from his hand, freeing him from suspicion.Although he later learned that the major was trying to rescue a certain German naval officer related to him, for him at the time, this unbelievable situation undoubtedly gave him some inspiration.

Perhaps the time has not yet come.

He thought so, otherwise how could such a strange thing happen?He walked out of the officers' club in a daze, no one paid attention to him, and everyone chased after the major.As for him, he was the one who started the explosion, but no one paid any attention to him.

Later, he encountered many such things, and every time he escaped without any danger, he thought it was ridiculous. He wanted to die so much, but he couldn't die every time.The world seemed meaningless to him, he was confused and at a loss, he missed Julian who was nowhere, but thought, it would be good if he never saw him again.

But he had a vague feeling that he couldn't die because he entrusted his life to Julian.

Because this life was saved countless times by Julian at his own risk, and no one else has the right to take it away.

He believed it must be so.

Until the end of the war, he wandered aimlessly in Berlin after it was captured by the Soviet army.He disguised himself as a doctor, spoke authentic German, and rescued wounded soldiers or refugees in the urban area of ​​Berlin.

If only he were a doctor, he thought.Maybe I can completely hide my identity and just keep my name incognito.With such a naive idea, he received another blow to the head.

He was regarded as a German and was almost killed by Soviet soldiers. It was not until he revealed his identity that he gained their admiration and respect.At that time, he learned from the soldiers that Julian had become a major.

He has that ability, Sasha thought, maybe I should bless him.

But his heart hurts, every time he wants to bless him, his heart hurts.He hated himself for being so selfish, but there was nothing he could do.

Later he came to Dresden again, the street was very noisy that day, he walked into the alley and saw that the Soviet soldiers were actually abusing a woman, although the woman screamed for help, it was too late .By the time he dispersed the low-ranking soldiers, the woman was almost out of breath, just looking at the piled corpses on the other side, showing a desperate plea for help.Sasha understood that maybe there was something there.

So he dug out a red-haired boy from the dead man's heap.

Seeing the boy with blood all over his face and yelling "Mom" incessantly, Sasha was completely disappointed.

He is disappointed in this world.

Not in the many desperate moments before, but in the call to mother one after another at this time.

Holding the boy in his arms, he developed a strong rebellious emotion, and it was this emotion that led him to a road that he could never turn back.

He took him back to his residence, treated him carefully, and took care of him.The boy, who witnessed his mother's humiliation and death, and was beaten unconscious as a young soldier, suffered from aphasia after recovering from the illness, and did not open his mouth for a whole month.Sasha gave him medicine every day, fed him, told him jokes that used to make Julian laugh.

So one day, the boy finally spoke.

He looked at Sasha and said, My name is Alan Crowder.

Sasha responded with a smile, my name is Sasha Kopatsky.

Sasha didn't know at that time that his name would linger in this 15-year-old boy's heart for a lifetime, and he would never forget it.He just tried his best to take care of him, as if it was a kind of compensation, but he couldn't tell what it was for.The damage caused by the war to both sides is enormous, and he doesn't need to feel sorry, but he just wants to lower his posture and make some kind of atonement.

Maybe it's for the lives that died under my hands, he told himself, otherwise he would be overwhelmed by emotions of bewilderment, wandering in the world like a ghost.

Allen obviously regarded Sasha as his only support, and he had to curl up in Sasha's arms every night to fall asleep.And Sasha was willing to help him, but every night when he held the boy and listened to his steady breathing, something else was on his mind.

This originated from another doctor he met during the rescue process. At that time, they were jointly rescuing a girl whose head was injured by a stone during the bombing. The doctor seemed to have inexplicable friendly feelings towards the Germans. But he is clearly American.

Richard Helms, he introduced himself.

He said that he had been studying in Germany before the war, and he had very good memories.

He was very sincere and talked with Sasha for a long time after the rescue, talking about war, medicine, and his views on the world.

It was ridiculous, Richard exhaled a puff of smoke ring, and said with some melancholy, don't you think so?The meaning of war is nothing more than a wild and unrealistic fantasy embodied in the minds of politicians, but so many innocent and fresh lives have to be buried with them.The same is true of this world, he said, he really hopes he can learn Schopenhauer's set - "the world is my appearance".

Although he said so, there was a strange light in his gray eyes.Sasha could tell at a glance that he was the same kind of person as himself. Years of intelligence work made him keenly aware that this person had seen through his identity and wanted to win him over, because the conflict between the Soviet Union and the United States had emerged after the war Clue.

Suddenly, he had a feeling of wanting to play.

Play everything, play everyone.

So from then on, he started his own rebellion.

Later he sent Alan Crowder away and arranged a ship for him to go to England to find his English father.The night before parting, Allen blushed and said that he liked him.

He was a little surprised, this expression was so sincere that there was no room for the slightest doubt.He didn't know how to respond to the boy, he could only stroke his head and tell him to live well.

I will come back, the boy said, you promise me, when I come back, you can go to my hometown to watch the sunset with me, okay?There are the most beautiful mountains and sunsets in the world, and the bushes are full of berries, which seem to be endless.It's very secret there, just like its name, called Geheimnis, where my mother and I were saved from the war.My father said that day that he was going to England to handle business, but after he left, the war broke out. We agreed to meet after the war, so my mother took me out, otherwise I would never leave there.

He kissed the boy deeply on the head and wrote down the name of the place.

It was August, 1945, and in those few months he had transformed Alan Crowder, restoring him to vivacity and health from a speechless child.But he has no idea that this person will spend the rest of his life pursuing his own path.

A month later, he met Julian.

There was no heart-warming reunion scene, no bitter tears, they just stood, looked at each other, showed familiar but strange smiles, and a few sincere and silent tears.

Since the outbreak of the Soviet-German War, they have been separated for more than four years.Four years doesn't seem to be that long, but what they have experienced is something that most people have never experienced in their entire lives.They have changed, especially Julian, who almost died on the battlefield, has become an indestructible rock.

Whether it's appearance or heart, Sasha thought, he must be tough to a certain extent.

They hugged each other, kissed each other, resolved the misunderstanding, as if they were back in the past, but they stopped kissing.

Unspoken, no one knows why.

Perhaps they were just afraid that the bitterness seeping from each other's lips would remind them of the pain of the past. Now that they have experienced this unprecedented war, they are no longer the ignorant teenagers at the time. At this time, he is Major Azrael, and he It was Captain Kopaczki.

A bloody warrior, a top secret agent.

But Sasha discovered that there may be other reasons.

One day, he saw Julian leaning against the window, with a tender and gentle expression, his eyes fell on the misty place in the distance, and there was a tranquil smile in the corner of his mouth.He has not seen this expression on his face for many years, no, it seems that he has never seen it, because it is an expression of longing.

Who is he missing?

Will he miss anyone other than himself?

Sasha felt that he had to find out everything, so when he knew Julian's experience in the past few years, he thought that that person should come to Julian's side.

Perhaps, that person would be the only antidote to the cursed bond between him and Julian.

Julian is now a lieutenant colonel.His rapid rise in military rank was due to his astonishing military exploits on the battlefield, and on the other hand, due to his clever use of Beria's power.

Because that man was afraid of them who were growing mature, he threatened Sasha's life to force Julian to join the national defense army. In the first few months, Julian was almost in pain, because he knew that Sasha was in pain, so he was in pain too.Guilt almost overwhelmed him, and his charge on the battlefield was almost self-destructive.

It turned out that he, like Sasha, wanted to die.But as long as he thinks that he is dead, the misunderstanding will never be resolved. Sasha will eventually live in the pain of being abandoned, so he tells himself to survive.Only by surviving can we meet again, and only by surviving can we make up for him.

But he also has weak moments. During the battle in Romania, he felt that he was about to lose his hold.

When he led his team to the battlefield, he heard the intertwined sound of Katyusha rocket launchers and German Tiger tank guns, which caused a huge sense of vertigo.As soon as the bullet sank into his body, he still ran forward with his gun, because he had to win, win to survive, and survive to meet again.

But when a shell fell on his side and blasted him out into a trench, he looked at the gray sky and suddenly felt that everything was enough.

He felt that he had worked hard so far, and it was enough.

He did everything he could.

It doesn't seem to matter whether the misunderstanding is solved or whether they can meet again.

At that moment, he completely let go of everything, and the desire to live also ebbed in an instant, and he smiled with relief.

He sat peacefully in the trench, waiting for the predetermined death, the pain was eating away at him bit by bit, attacking him, but he felt very at ease.He didn't think about anything. For the first time, he felt that he was really going to die.

This feeling has been experienced many times in the past, but it has never been as strong as this moment.Probably because he was tired.

He stared blankly at the continuously pouring mud and yellow sand in front of him, watching the blood ooze out of his body. Just when he was about to close his eyes, a sudden change occurred. With the sound of a cannon, the person who changed his life appeared.

With a bang, the child fell from the sky and fell in front of him, so close that he could touch it with his hand.

But it's a German, he thought, and maybe he'll get a shot.But after the child got up, he stared at him with a small face, lost in thought.

At that moment, in Julian's world, everything was quiet.He looked at the child in an extremely relaxed state, and there was an indescribable warmth in his heart.He couldn't remember anyone, even himself, he couldn't hear the gunfire, he wasn't on the battlefield, only those innocent eyes.

Angel, he had such a funny idea.He is a materialist himself, but why, he thought so when he saw this child at first sight.

And this child also lived up to his strange idea, and rushed forward to treat him as an enemy, injected him with precious morphine, wound him with gauze, and even used his body to protect him when the next explosion happened .

He was held in his arms and heard the sound of his heart.

It is fresh, the sound of life.

He suddenly liked it.

After that, the child held his face again and wiped the blood on his face with gauze.He had never experienced that kind of careful tenderness in others, without pain, without guilt, just relying on an instinctive and spontaneous feeling deep in his heart to do this.This feeling is amazing and makes him want to have it.He saw in the child's gray-blue eyes that his blood-stained self gradually became clean, as if, it was not only his body that became clean, but also his scarred heart.

It seemed, he thought, that he might survive again.

He tried his best to remember the child's name, sent him off the battlefield in his own way, and then struggled to survive.Since then, the name Rhein Müller has never been erased from his heart.

This is also the first person in his life that he will miss besides Sasha Kopaczki.

Sasha later understood that it was the child who brought him back to life.

Reborn under the blue-grey sky of Romania, reborn in the dirty and muddy trenches, reborn in the gray-blue eyes like the Rhine River, reborn in the child's voice telling him not to die.

He wants to see him.

He wants to see him too.

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PS: Anyone who has seen Funy Island will know that there is a fantasy linkage here again.