God said I would meet you

Zhang Xinli never expected that Lin Jinyu would take the initiative to ask to come over.

Maybe it's because it was his mother and not his father who sat in the cafe. If Lin Huainan was sitting there in a serious manner, he believed that Lin Jinyu would never pass by.

An ordinary glass door separates the pair of mother and child. The long-lost "Mom" is as light as a breeze blowing on the face, but as heavy as a boulder weighing on the top.

Lin Jinyu felt as if something was clogged in her throat, her throat was choked, and she couldn't say anything except those two simple words.

"Okay, do you scan the code or swipe the card? Do you need anything else?"

On the other side of the door, the clerk took the medicine, put it in a plastic bag, and delivered it to Mama Lin, but the latter didn't reach out to take it.

She turned her head and looked outside the door in a daze, she didn't move for a long, long time, she also seemed to be immersed in huge and complicated emotions, unable to make any response.

The mother and son just stared at each other in a daze, and no one broke this fragile balance for a long time.

Zhang Xinli was standing a few steps away from Lin Jinyu diagonally behind, his figure was covered by the wall - that place was a blind spot from the inside of the pharmacy.

He had been observing and observing what Lin Jinyu was going to do. Did he just come over and take a look at her mother behind the glass from a distance, and then leave quietly, or did he go all out and work up the courage to go in and face her mother face to face?From an ideal point of view, of course he hopes to be the latter, but he is afraid that it will be a flashback.Is this unexpected encounter good or bad?

Lin Jinyu called "Mom" very weakly, quietly, and without confidence. Zhang Xinli was filled with hope and waited with bated breath. However, after waiting for a long time without follow-up, he was a little ready to move.

He wanted to push.

Lin's mother is not Lin Huainan, Lin Jinyu doesn't reject her that much, and after taking the medicine for so long, her condition has stabilized, such a good opportunity may be fleeting.

Taking a cold medicine may have side effects, and there is probably no risk at all.The silence has lasted for too long, Zhang Xinli thought: Maybe it's time to help him... help them.

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During the few minutes she saw her son, Mother Lin didn't know what she was thinking.

She thought that she would think about some grand and speculative things, such as about the orientation of her son, whether the happy life he thought was really as happy as he thought, and whether the conflict of three views between him and his parents had been proved to be correct by time. Who is the person and so on.She thought she would think about these things, just like Lin Huainan.

However none.

The moment she saw Lin Jinyu, she just thought: Xiaoyu seems to be taller and stronger than before...it's great.

It's great that the son is doing well. Compared with this, all other things are not worth mentioning.

During those long minutes, they just carefully looked at the face in front of them that they hadn't seen for a long time, and they didn't have time to pay attention to the different voices that had been made.

"Little..." Mother Lin also felt that she had suddenly become dumb. She was so shocked, so surprised, and so teary-eyed that she suspected that the scene in front of her was not real. Maybe it was just a person who looked like Xiaoyu. Passers-by, and her real son hates her and will never come back.

At this moment, the glass door suddenly opened, and another man appeared out of nowhere—Mother Lin didn't pay attention to anyone except her son at all. walked in.

The clerk at the side was still carrying the bag of diazepam that had not been picked up, and she also had a very surprised expression, but it was just because of the strange scene in front of her, why suddenly there were two people who seemed to be possessed by evil together standing outside the store, Really puzzling.

"mom, Mom, Mom."

The last layer of transparent barrier had also disappeared. Lin Jinyu was led by Zhang Xinli, stood in front of Mother Lin, and finally yelled again.

It's hard to describe the expressions on the faces of the two of them at this time. Mother Lin's eyes seemed to be a little red, but she didn't really shed tears for the time being.She was in a series of complicated emotional vortexes, such as disbelief, at a loss, and confusion. She stared at Lin Jinyu for a few seconds and then suddenly looked away, as if she was afraid of meeting his eyes. She covered her mouth with her hand and turned to look at Lin Jinyu. side.

Lin Jinyu hadn't seen her mother cry yet.

His mother is so beautiful, but she is not the kind of little girl who likes to cry and cry. When she was in college, she never thought that if she was a woman, she would lose to her male classmates. turn" self-denial thoughts.

In Lin Jinyu's memory, her mother was always smiling.She should also laugh, beautiful appearance, handsome husband, happy family, she has everything.

The silver drop-shaped earrings swayed with her movements, more like a teardrop. Mother Lin covered her mouth, with crystal water in her eyes, but she tried her best not to let it fall.

"Auntie," Zhang Xinli said, "We... are back."

That sentence seemed to be a statement, but also like a declaration, Lin Jinyu's throat tightened, and she remained silent in front of her mother.

Mother Lin raised her free hand, as if to tell them not to come, or to give herself a little time to slow down.With a blink of her slender eyelashes, the tears finally flowed through the skin around the eyes that had already developed fine wrinkles like broken beads, and slipped from the back of her hands and between her fingers.

His beautiful, gentle, heroic mother was crying for him.

Lin Jinyu took a step forward and said, "Mom... I'm sorry."

He has never felt that language is so poor, and the language that can be studied to write a vast amount of classics can also be so weak in self-expression.That "I'm sorry" wasn't for his chosen lover or his will, but he still wanted to say...sorry.

Mother Lin covered her eyes with both hands instead, or she actually wanted to cover her entire face. Seeing the expression on her face, Lin Jinyu wanted to suppress it, but couldn't suppress it in the end.

Zhang Xinli didn't go forward, but just stood there, watching Lin Jinyu approach her mother step by step, and then gently wrapped her adult arms around her.

"Mom..." He also choked up and said, "I'm back. I..."

Lin's mother tightly grasped the clothes behind him, and Lin Jinyu finally heard the crying that belonged to a mother that she had been holding back with all her might.

Anyone who hears it will cry.

"Xiaoyu..." Mama Lin said, "Do you know how my father and I got here in the past two years?"

The departure of the only son undoubtedly brought a devastating blow to this originally harmonious and happy family.The depressive and painful family atmosphere made the couple who were already struggling with conflicting emotions even more discordant. For the first time, Lin's mother felt that her husband might have made a wrong decision on a major issue. No matter how reasonable Lin Huainan's thoughts seemed, a No mother can tolerate the abandonment of her child.

Lin Jinyu hasn't even graduated yet. He has never worried about life since he was a child. He has never lived alone away from his parents. When most people still need to rely on family assistance, he suddenly lost his financial resources. How is he going to live? Sample?Will it be cold and hungry?

Mother Lin thought countless times: Xiaoyu, he doesn't even know how to cook by himself.

Lin Jinyu didn't know exactly how her parents got here in the past two years, just like her parents didn't know how he got here.Just because of the ridiculous difference in orientation and concept, the people who were supposed to be the closest have become enemies who have been inseparable for two years.

Why?Because the world is like this?

"I'm sorry, Mom." Lin Jinyu hugged her mother and said with difficulty, "I don't want to either, I just... love him very much."

Always loved him.

Too many things have happened. He has gone through the transition period before graduation alone, met many people who are disgusting, homophobic or non-homophobic, and had quarreled with his lover for various big and small reasons. After fighting and breaking up, the previous suspicions were resolved, and the reconciliation was as good as before.

Part of what his father said was indeed true. The moment they walked out of the house, they may have not yet understood what it really meant to walk through a lifetime hand in hand without the bondage of marriage, but now it is different.

At that time, Lin Jinyu didn't know how to cook and never did housework. She didn't know what Zhang Xinli liked to eat, had no work experience, and did many different stupid things; Zhang Xinli never took the initiative emotionally. Consciously or unintentionally hiding Lin Jinyu as a partner in the social circle, they paid a lot of price and experienced a lot of pain.

After listening to his words, Lin's mother belatedly recalled why they broke up for two years. Is that reason... important?What is the big right and wrong reason enough to take it for granted that parents do not know their son for two years, and the son does not know their parents for two years?

"Xiaoyu, have you made up your mind?" Mama Lin stopped crying and wiped away the tears from her eyes with her fingers—this beautiful woman was trying her best to maintain her appearance and not let her make-up wear off completely.

Only at this time did she notice Zhang Xinli on the side. Mama Lin actually wanted to ask a lot of questions about her son's two years of life, studies, future, and other major issues. In short, it would not be about a small sexual orientation.

But it seems that we should first figure out the starting point of everything. Lin Jinyu's eyes are still filled with uneasiness and sadness. People's thoughts are hard to change. He is not sure whether his parents, who were facing the enemy two years ago, will change their minds two years later.

Mom said again: "When I saw him, I already knew it in my heart. It's just Xiaoyu, are you sure you won't regret it?"

No, how long will it take to determine an answer?A few months are not enough, are those two years enough?Is eight years enough?It has been nearly eight years since Lin Jinyu first stood in the dilapidated field in front of Zhang Xinli's house, wearing earphones and talking to him impolitely. What is there to regret?

Lin Jinyu once thought: If you are desolate and exhausted, why don't you meet her in the first place.

"Mom," he said at this moment, "I will regret many things, the only thing I don't regret is loving him."

Even though it was painful, he still chose to meet.