God said I would meet you

Lin Jinyu is stubborn. Although the relationship between father and son is embarrassing and discordant now, when Mother Lin heard the answer that has not changed in the slightest, she really saw the shadow of her husband in her son in a daze.

The five flavors were mixed, and both parties almost burst into tears.

The person involved was immersed in strong and complicated emotions, and had no intention of caring about the outside world. Zhang Xinli thought for a while, went out to the next door to buy a pack of tissues, and came back, borrowing the gesture of handing something to Mama Lin, interjected: "Auntie, here. This is not a place to talk, Sit down and talk slowly."

When he said this, Lin Jinyu also realized that this was a pharmacy, not a mother-child association. The entire store was quiet just now, but he and his mother were the only ones who couldn't help themselves, probably disturbing people's business.

So he collected his mind and said: "Yes, Mom, let's find a place to sit first."

Mother Lin was still crying, Zhang Xinli helped her pick up the plastic bag handed over by the clerk, carried it by himself, and signaled everyone to go out together.

Lin Jinyu's eyes fell on the bag of medicine, her expression became puzzled, and she said, "Mom, why are you... what is that?"

Although the name is weird, he himself has been taking sleeping pills for a period of time, and this is one of them, so Lin Jinyu understood what was in it just by looking at it, and said, "Mom, have you been sleeping well lately?"

Mother Lin didn't look at him, but stretched out her hand to brush her hair again, smiled very lightly and helplessly, and didn't answer, just said: "It's okay, I have a little insomnia, let's go first."

The three of them walked out of the door under the watchful eye of a group of shop assistants.There are quite a lot of leisure and entertainment shops nearby, but now no one is in the mood to pick and choose places carefully, so they just go back to the nearest cafe where Lin's mother came out just now.

They sat down at the same place, the table was still the same table, but there were already two more people sitting around the table. Mother Lin sat on the side, watching her son and Zhang Xinli sit together subconsciously and very naturally. the other side.

"Hmm..." She couldn't tell what she was feeling, and straight to the point, she said to Lin Jinyu, "Xiaoyu, have you been... well these two years?"

"Good" is actually a very abstract concept. Abstraction means that it is easy to be perfunctory. It can be used as an answer if you just say a few words. This question is actually meaningless, but for countless years, countless parents have always asked it again and again.

"Very good..." Lin Jinyu had habitually wanted to answer 'very good', but in the middle of the answer, all the events of the past few years passed before her eyes, and the word 'good' couldn't be uttered.

In the end, he just smiled very lightly and helplessly, and said, "It's fine now."

In the past, whether it was good or not was meaningless, but now it is bittersweet and sweet in retrospect, and it is difficult to define it.

Mother Lin glanced at Zhang Xinli without showing any trace. She knew this man who had lived in her home for a long time. grandson.

The first time she saw this child, Lin's mother felt that she looked quite mature and sensible, unlike Lin Jinyu, who was always worry-free.A good relationship between the seniors does not change the fact that Zhang Xinli was able to get the opportunity to study in Shanghai thanks to Lin Huainan, nor can it change the fact that he lives and eats for nothing in other people's homes. Therefore, Zhang Xinli was very cautious in his words and deeds throughout his high school years, and did not dare to He collects the things that Lin's mother bought for him, and after finishing his homework, he will take the initiative to help with some housework, and speak for his parents when Lin Jinyu has conflicts with his family.

Mother Lin was once pleased with Zhang Xinli's appearance, and with him, Xiaoyu looked very happy.She never expected that many years later, Lin Jinyu would solemnly tell her that they were lovers.

spouse?How can it be.

Zhang Xinli noticed her gaze, and Lin's mother hadn't expressed any attitude about his existence. He thought that he was still an outsider, and it was not convenient for him to talk, so he didn't say much, leaving the space for Lin Jinyu and his son.

Mother Lin said: "I'm sorry, Xiao Zhang, I was...too surprised just now, I didn't care about other things, and I haven't greeted you yet."

"No...you are being polite," Zhang Xinli felt flattered: "I...it doesn't matter, you two talk first."

Although the two sides generally maintained basic politeness, even on the day when the revelation was revealed, Lin Huainan only sent his anger and pain to his son, and never did anything to him, but Zhang Xinli knew in his heart that as parents, they must reject him. To become like this is to be corrupted by oneself.

"It's 'we' talking," Lin Jinyu said, "I think what I just said is very clear."

His mood has completely stabilized, and it's even hard to imagine that the person who was sad and angry on the way here, like a real lunatic, is the same person as Lin Jinyu now.

"I understand, Xiaoyu," said Mother Lin, "Mom didn't say anything, but just wanted to ask about your recent situation...can we talk alone first?"

Zhang Xinli wanted to say "Okay, let's talk first", but before he could say it, Lin Jinyu said, "No, Mom, we are a family... If you still treat me as a family. The three of us have to be together, no one else Hiding someone, or...you still can't accept it, we can go." Everything that happened to him was related to Zhang Xinli, whether his mother wanted to ask about the past, present or future, Zhang Xinli was not a bystander.

Upon hearing the word "go", Mother Lin hurriedly said: "No, no, no... I just... haven't figured out what to do... Xiaoyu, after so long, you have already graduated. Hothead."

"Yes, Mom," Lin Jinyu replied, "...I admit that I was still young at the time, and my thoughts were indeed not fully mature, but people gradually mature when they love and love."

Mother Lin tried: "You are also very young now."

"If the standard of 'not young' is that I must be the same age as my mother, then I will indeed be young forever." Lin Jinyu said: "Mom, even if I am 40 years old, I must still be a junior in your eyes. How old are you? Married to...dad? 24? And I'm 23."

He said: "Someone should not be qualified to choose their own partner until they are old...Mom, I really look forward to your blessings, but if not, I still have to live my own life... Although I don't think so... It’s so idealistic, but that’s my life.”

The random things ordered to find an excuse to sit for a long time came up, but Mama Lin still didn't move, Zhang Xinli sat on the outside, he reached out to bring Lin Jinyu's coffee to him, and then said out of habit: "Ice coffee, Drink less, it will affect the efficacy of the medicine."

"I know," Lin Jinyu glanced at his, and said casually, "Aren't you a mess, yours is very bitter, or you drink mine, let's change."

Zhang Xinli was really messed up. When he was in high school, he didn't even go to a milk tea shop a few times, and he didn't even dare to go out for coffee with Lin Jinyu - he was away from home at that time, and his living expenses were very tight.

Zhang Xinli shook his head, he didn't intend to drink anyway.

Mother Lin watched silently.

Lin Jinyu didn't realize that there was something wrong with her desertion. Seeing that he signaled not to use it, she seamlessly continued what she said just now: "...Mom, in short...we have already graduated, and each has a school career in Shanghai. I used to be able to take care of myself really well." Not much, to tell you the truth, when I first went out I..."

He began to talk to his mother about the separation and reunion of the two over the years.Those happy, unhappy, depressed, and painful things are all told by him on this table.

Too much has happened in the past few years, Lin Jinyu spoke in a general way, more inclined to express the lessons she learned during this experience, her thoughts on the future, and Zhang Xinli's kindness to him, without saying too bitterly or deeply, Especially when I was really sick, I only said that I had follow-up visits on time, and it was maintained at a mild level. The basic performance was that I didn't sleep well, so I kept taking medicine.

It's just that no matter how lightly he said, his mother was still worried when she heard it.

"Now...that's the situation." After Lin Jinyu finished speaking, she looked down at her desk from years ago: "I know that people's ideas are hard to change, Mom, if you really still feel...disgusted, I can't say What, maybe, you can have another child."

There are too many things in the world that cannot be reconciled until the end. He sees it, no one's life is complete, and it is normal to make choices and leave regrets.

His mother listened carefully to every word he said. When Lin Jinyu said the phrase 'I want another child', she smiled wryly and said, "Having a child is so painful, half my life is over, what more children do I need? You, my father and I feel that enough is enough... well, Xiaoyu, mother respects your choice. It's just... just are you sure to convince dad?"

Except for a few cold-blooded scum, normal parents will never be able to fight their children. Hearing this answer, Lin Jinyu felt ecstasy in her heart, and her voice almost trembled: "Mom, what do you mean...you don't object to him anymore, do you? Do you really accept him?"

"What position do I have against it?" Mother Lin said with a wry smile, "You choose the person you want to spend your whole life with. For the rest of your long life, your mother is actually just a bystander. People's concepts are not well understood, but...will try to accept, give mom a little time, okay?"

She used to hope that her son would look good-looking, and when Lin Jinyu carved jade, he would indeed look good-looking. She began to hope that her son would be taller in the future, and when her son grew taller, she hoped that he would study more and take the exam. Good university, when Lin Jinyu was admitted to university, she hoped that he would love a certain girl... so many complicated and heavy expectations that the mother herself forgot. At first, she just hoped that the child could grow up healthily and freely, It's good to be happy.

Ms. Lin has always thought that she is a very trendy person. She knows how to wear makeup and clothes. She does not look old in her 40s. Before today, she never thought that one day she would admit in front of her son that she is old and does not understand young people enough concept.

She couldn't bear the second two years without her son.

Lin Jinyu didn't know how long he had been waiting for this sentence. He thought he would never wait for the person who was supposed to love him the most to bless his love.

"Mom... thank you."

This thank you was intermittent and choked up, thank you is too thin a word, but at this moment, all he can say is thank you, thank you mother for bringing him into this world so that he can love and experience, Let him and Zhang Xinli meet.

"What's there to thank?" Lin's mother looked down at her hands on her knees, as if she felt a little embarrassed in front of her son and his son's boyfriend: "Do you have our continuation? Who do you fall in love with? Need to beg our approval."

It's just that parents always have a heart hanging in their hearts, fearing that their children will have a bad life because they made wrong choices when they were young.

Zhang Xinli also thanked him and said, "Auntie, how are you and uncle?"

Not only his mother, but he knew that Lin Jinyu actually wanted to know about his father, but he didn't say anything about it, and he didn't admit it in his heart, so he asked Lin's mother for the opportunity to mention it together.

Lin's mother heard the voice and looked at him - her son's boyfriend. Adapting to the fact that her family had a new member, she said, "Okay, that's it."

Zhang Xinli said: "Xiaoyu and I actually care about you very much, but...it's not convenient to come back."

It's not that they don't want to go back, but that it's inconvenient. As for who made them inconvenient, Zhang Xinli didn't explain clearly.

Mother Lin gave a haggard smile and said, "...I know."

"So..." Zhang Xinli considered his words: "Uncle..."

"I don't know very well," said Lin's mother. "In the two years since Xiaoyu left, the family has been very depressed, and we always quarrel. He often locks himself in the study, I don't know what he is thinking."

The worst quarrel Lin Jinyu has ever seen between his parents was when he came out. His parents accused each other of being the fault of each other. They confronted each other in the living room, and even dropped things. Lin Jinyu hid in the room and gave Zhang Xinli a hand before the supervision became stricter. Made a phone call.

Accepted by Lin's mother at this table, they succeeded in half, and the other half.Zhang Xinli was always worried about Lin Huainan, the person who left too many shadows in Lin Jinyu's life, but at the same time was absent too much time.

He said, "Auntie, if it's convenient, may I ask you..."

"I know," Ms. Lin said, "his father is just like me...he's not in a good mood. I'll find an opportunity to help Xiaoyu test it out. You should be well in Shanghai. Even if you don't go home, take care of yourself. "

The author says:

The title comes from Jiang Shiquan's "Home at the End of the Year", and the original poem is not a sentence.