God said I would meet you

Many hospitals do not have emergency departments in psychological departments, and normal registration stops at 5:[-] pm. Zhang Xinli pushed Lin Jinyu down the stairs roughly, grabbed the back of her neck and stuffed her into the car. After shifting the gear twice, I realized that I forgot to step on the brake at all.

They galloped all the way, went to the nearest one first, found that there was no number, and then moved to the hospital where Mr. Lin was treated. Many old doctors in the hospital were old friends with Mr. Lin, and they also knew the little cousin, so they called to call colleagues in the department. Come overtime.

"Why did you come here for a follow-up visit at this time? How long has it been since you stopped taking the medicine?"

Looking around, everything is white, a vast expanse, like a thick snow, which makes people breathless.Lin Jinyu was still very resistant when she was in the car, and kept swearing at people, even regardless of whether the car was still moving, she just wanted to open the door, and now she just refused to answer.

The old doctor had a gentle tone, observed him, and asked again. Lin Jinyu sat without answering, twisted his shoulders and said, "Don't touch me!"

Zhang Xinli stood beside him, put one hand on his shoulder, and pressed him on the stool in the consulting room. No matter how hard he struggled, the old doctor would not let others talk, and only asked Lin Jinyu. After going back and forth a few times, he chose to let the nurse in He took it out to understand the situation with himself and his family.

The female nurse was neither tall nor strong. Lin Jinyu was very uncooperative, and her mouth was not very clean. Zhang Xinli said, "Let me accompany you."

The little cousin, the "only" family member, was left in the consultation room. The old doctor flipped through Lin Jinyu's medical records and began to inquire about physical symptoms and recent experiences in detail.

The little cousin recalled, and said: "Withdrawal of the drug... About two or three months? He looks very excited... He will be very excited when he hears that he is going to the hospital. Usually there is no abnormality, so maybe he will talk less... Oh, and it scared me to death when it came..."

The old doctor said: "It's been a while, I have to start again with a small dose, what else?"

The little cousin spoke intermittently, and could only provide very limited information, and he couldn’t tell more about it. The old doctor knew Grandpa, so he didn’t dare to tell the truth, so he just said: “I’ll go out first, because the daytime is… um, The caretaker outside, let's talk to each other and answer you."

Zhang Xinli was in the corridor, the little cousin rushed out and told all the doctor's questions, because when he first met him, he thought Zhang Xinli was overly forceful, rude, impolite and like to shirk responsibility I don't care much about my cousin, so these questions can only be ambiguous, and it's a little bit of information to provide.

But the fact is quite the opposite. Zhang Xinli thought about it for a moment, and he actually reported Lin Jinyu's situation in detail since they returned to Shanghai, including the recent sleep time every day. He actually paid attention to it. Some are impressed.

"How about...you can go in with me later," the little cousin saw that Lin Jinyu seemed to have returned to the silent mode and stopped making trouble, and said, "The nurse can just watch, after all...after you go back, it's your time to spend with him At most, you have to listen to what the doctor says for yourself."

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"Also have a history of alcoholism? Come on," said the old doctor, after listening to the statement, he took a pen and wrote on the open medical record: "How can you drink alcohol frequently during the medication cycle? It's just nonsense."

Previously, when Zhang Xinli took Lin Jinyu for the first follow-up consultation, he only registered with the regular number. The doctor may have seen the medical records for several visits, thinking that some foolish precautions should have been emphasized countless times, so he didn't say that alcohol should not be consumed. Zhang Xinli didn't know about it either—Lin Jinyu himself might have known about it, but he was like a dead duck and didn't say a word.

"The symptoms seem to have gotten worse. You just said that the patient got up much earlier than usual in the past two weeks," the old doctor said, "It's not that he suddenly worked hard. It's an obvious manifestation of insomnia, an important early signal of relapse, so many times. Didn’t the doctor tell you before, I didn’t notice such an obvious signal.”

"There is also day and night reversal...Frequently staying up late...Alcoholism...Long-term exposure to noisy nightclub noise environment, and after that, private drug withdrawal..." The old doctor continued: "Basically everything is accounted for, no wonder it will get worse, Young man, why are you so ignorant of the importance."

The little cousin looked at Zhang Xinli with a dignified and unbelievable expression. He didn’t know that he didn’t see a doctor. This, this, this... It’s really a mess, and the pitiful favorability points that were added just now dropped again. , He even felt that it was his fault that Lin Jinyu became what he is now.

Zhang Xinli was silent, he couldn't say anything, and he didn't have anything to say. He was with Lin Jinyu when he was going through all this, and for various reasons he couldn't or couldn't stop it.

To some extent, he watched Lin Jinyu step by step become what he is today without doing anything.

He thought he was the instigator of doing nothing.

Without him, it wouldn't be all this.

"Then what should we do?" The little cousin asked, "Do I need to be hospitalized?"

"Hospitalization for non-organic psychological problems is of little significance," said the old doctor, "in order to avoid accidents in the acute stage, we can stay for one night today... and you said that he is very sensitive to the hospital. In this case, it is not recommended to be hospitalized." , go home and recuperate... Don't continue working for the time being."

The unit is also a bunch of messy things that are constantly cut and messed up. For the sake of treatment, it is best to stay away.

The little cousin said, "You mean to ask for a long vacation?"

"Because the drug was discontinued privately, now we have to start from a small dose and increase it. Before the drug has obvious effects, it is best to recuperate at home within a month," the old doctor said: "I suggest that, it is up to the family members to listen to it or not."

I also suggest something to play. The little cousin thinks that it must be what the doctor said. He has already started to think about whether it is enough to ask for a month, or he will just be absent from work until the end.

"But..." Zhang Xinli said, "Abstaining from leave will affect the performance of the internship."

"When is it? Are you still thinking about your internship results?" He said, "Can't tell the priority? Do you have a brain?"

"..." Zhang Xinli listened to his scolding, but didn't reply.

"To the greatest extent possible, he will not have contact with those people you just mentioned in the near future," the old doctor began to write a prescription: "Don't contact colleagues and those who ask for money, but you can't always leave him alone, with no social opportunities at all." It’s counterproductive, let him spend more time with friends, eat more bananas, spinach, fish, stew some chicken soup if possible, and take medicine on time, and it will gradually work.”

"Friends? Friends, friends... Which classmates and friends does Xiaoyu have in Shanghai?"

Lin Jinyu himself looks like he doesn't want to socialize at all, wishing he could turn into a transparent person, or has the low presence skills of Tetsuya in "Heizi's Basketball", and stays quietly, without desires and desires, expecting him to attract friends The partner obviously wanted to fart, so the little cousin could only pin his hopes on Zhang Xinli: "Can you get in touch?"

Zhang Xinli knew Lin Jinyu's friends only a few old acquaintances, he said: "...the few I know seem to be in other places."

"What is it like? You have to contact to find out. Why are there so many excuses before you start?" The little cousin doesn't like the kind of people who make a lot of reasons before they start. The old doctor's words have affected him. It’s not easy to accuse Zhang Xinli of causing everything, so I can only use my guns and sticks in my words: “I beg you, please contact everyone who can be contacted.”

"..."

After the prescription was written, the little cousin hurriedly went out to pay for the medicine. Zhang Xinli thanked the old doctor, then slowly turned and walked out. His back had never been so downcast.

Seeing a doctor is always cumbersome, and it took half a night to pass without knowing it.

The little cousin ran from the sixth floor to the first floor to bargain prices, and then climbed from the first floor to the third and fourth floors to get medicine. He ran out of sweat at night, and his physical fatigue made him feel more and more dissatisfied. Little cousin Carrying a big bag of medicine, while climbing the stairs, he slandered: This is nothing, how can a normal person be made like this by a man, look at this sack of medicine, what evil did my little cousin do to eat this plant something.

Zhang Xinli didn't come down with him, the little cousin was a little speechless, thinking: He can really sit still, although I was the one who swiped the card, I don't need him, but he ran after him, and it was his intention to mention something... Could it be? Afraid of asking him to pay for it, just avoid it on purpose, that would be too contemptuous.

The little cousin is not afraid to speculate on human nature with the deepest malice. People are always stingy with what they don't have enough, and the poorer they are, the more they care about money.

...Maybe he wasn't as concerned about his condition as the idiot cousin thought.The little cousin walked back full of complaints, thinking that if he saw Zhang Xinli doing nothing, sitting there enjoying the blessings of being an old man, or avoiding watching his mobile phone and smoking, he would definitely go up and stab him.

The sixth floor was quiet, and the overhead light in the corridor was emitting a pale light. Tonight, Lin Jinyu was the only patient in this department.

When the little cousin was out of breath and climbed the number of floors he had climbed today, and was about to go over and make sidelines, run on "Master Zhang", and complain a little bit by the way, he saw Zhang Xinli at the end of the corridor, beside the lonely bench. He didn't sit with his legs crossed as he guessed, he didn't play with his mobile phone, and he didn't smoke.

He just stood there alone, beside Lin Jinyu who was sitting silently.

On Lin Jinyu's arms and neck were small scars from when Zhang Xinli knocked him down the stairs. He obviously didn't want to see him. Even from such a distance, the little cousin could hear Lin Jinyu's impatience and told him to go back and don't show up. voice before him.

— More than sound.

Zhang Xinli tried to touch him gently, tried to touch his cheek or hair lightly with the back of his hand, but even such a shallow touch made Lin Jinyu very repulsed, he shook Zhang Xinli's hand away fiercely, and then - beyond all Unexpectedly, he shook his hand and gave him a solid slap in the face that wasn't exactly loud.

From the moment Zhang Xinli lied to him and sent him to the hospital by force, his figure overlapped with Lin Huainan in Lin Jinyu's impression. Lin Jinyu hated his father and was affected by that hatred. What is he afraid of, still choose to deceive his Zhang Xinli in this way.

The little cousin stopped at the other end of the corridor.

Zhang Xinli waited for him to finish, but did nothing and said nothing. After a few seconds of silence, as if nothing had happened, he half knelt down in front of Lin Jinyu, then lowered his head, and slowly held him on the hands on knees.

Lin Jinyu didn't move this time.

The little cousin watched the scene quietly. Under the pale light, for the first time, Lin Jinyu looked down at Zhang Xinli expressionlessly with a look of seeing a stranger. Zhang Xinli lowered his eyes and bowed his head, leaning over in front of Lin Jinyu, holding his hands.

It was the first time that my little cousin saw such a complex expression on a man's face, which was difficult to describe in words, like worry, sadness, depression, sorrow, and remorse.