God said I would meet you

"Jinyu... Lin Jinyu!" Zhang Xinli really felt that he was abnormal. He didn't have the time for a normal person to warm up a meal, and he suddenly behaved in such an incomprehensible way: "Let go," he said. Said: "Don't do this, you don't need to do this."

"Why," Lin Jinyu hugged him tightly: "Don't you want it...it's okay, I'm fine."

The repeated stereotyped words and superficial efforts to prove one's worth through unconventional means are exactly the manifestation of the inner feeling that self is meaningless-at that moment, Zhang Xinli immediately understood.

He struggled a few more times, and after realizing that the effect was not great, he took a deep breath to calm himself down, and stayed still in place.

Just like if you don't run, you won't chase. Once the struggle disappeared, Lin Jinyu also calmed down, but still circled him from behind.

"...You are fine, I understand," Zhang Xinli said with his back turned to him, "Let go first."

"Why," Lin Jinyu said, "you don't know, you don't believe me, right?"

"No," Zhang Xinli's mind began to run rapidly: "...this is a public place," he said, "Jinyu, you can't mess around."

They are renting together, not the whole rent next to the university town. Basic public morals must be abided by. Lin Jinyu's self-awareness and sense of moral shame are still there. After three seconds, he slowly let go of Zhang Xinli: "...You're right. right."

Zhang Xinli turned to look at him, and finally heaved a sigh of relief. The situation looked very difficult. Combined with the illogical conversation in the living room before, he suspected that Lin Jinyu's situation was even worse than before.

"Then there's no need to go to the hospital tomorrow," Lin Jinyu stood in front of him, "There's no need."

"Okay...don't go..." Zhang Xinli quickly thought about the countermeasures, trying to stabilize Lin Jinyu first and distract him: "You go to the books first, and I will call you when the meal is ready."

Lin Jinyu hasn't read a book for many days, now it's hard for him to concentrate, and he can't study inadvertently: "No," he said, "I'll just watch you here."

"..." Zhang Xinli looked back. There were cut vegetables on the chopping board. The water in the pot was not poured, and the oil was not hot yet. The meal would take at least 10 minutes to be ready, but he didn't dare to wait. Leo: "The kitchen is only so big. It would be a hindrance to cram two people in. Let me go out with you. You can read a book for a while, and it seems that every day is getting closer."

Lin Jinyu had been lying to him before, trying to create the illusion of studying hard. Zhang Xinli said that, no matter how stubborn he seemed, it didn't make sense. Lin Jinyu hesitated for a while, and said, "Okay."

Zhang Xinli cleaned up the bowl that he accidentally knocked over just now, and went out with him.

The kitchen has been reformed and is fully partitioned. They opened the glass door and went out, bypassing half of the wall. They were just about to return to their room, but stopped in their tracks.

"You...cooking, haha...haha." Behind the half partition wall, the girl who shared the rent stood a little awkwardly, ran into them head-on, and said, "Uh, I'm here to get drinks...you go ahead .”

The uncle who rented together and the couple usually didn’t come back until eight or nine o’clock. When Zhang Xinli and Lin Jinyu came back, the living room was pitch black, the three doors were closed, and there was no sound—this made them subconsciously think that no one else was there.

Zhang Xinli didn't know when she was here, let alone what she saw specifically, so he could only pretend that nothing happened, and greeted him: "...I came back very early today."

"Oh, I'm back right after I don't have class tonight." The girl glanced at Lin Jinyu and said, "Today is Friday."

When she saw the two of them together at the washbasin before, she had a hunch in her heart, and it really was.

Zhang Xinli usually didn't go home until eleven or twelve o'clock in the evening. Of course, he didn't know that they would come back earlier every weekend, and the two chatted with each other for a while.

Lin Jinyu didn't want to see anyone, so he waited for a while, seeing that they were still talking, he suddenly took a step, walked around Zhang Xinli and sat on the sofa by himself, sat there for a while, then took the fruit knife on the coffee table for some reason Start peeling pears.

Another inexplicable behavior, the pears were not even bought by them, Lin Jinyu moved very frizzy, with the knife pointing at her, it didn't look like peeling fruit to eat, but she simply transformed the restlessness in her heart into a destructive desire to cut things.

Zhang Xinli looked over there frequently while talking to the girl, he had to do something right away, but...

"Jinyu, put down the knife, don't cut it," he said, "It's someone else's."

Lin Jinyu raised his head. He used a lot of strength. The peeled skin was estimated to be half a centimeter thick, and the sticky juice flowed all over his hand. He held the fruit knife, stared at Zhang Xinli for a second, and put it back. There is not even a cup on the coffee table, there is nowhere to put it.

"Ah...it's okay," the girl said, "My boyfriend bought it, you can eat it."

"...I'm sorry," Zhang Xinli hurriedly took a cup from his hand and put it over: "Have you guys eaten yet, why don't you eat together later."

Lin Jinyu put the peeled pear on the edge of the cup, but didn't let go of the fruit knife. Zhang Xinli looked at it and wanted to grab it, but he was afraid of irritating him, so he couldn't do it.

In a dilemma, the girl said, "I haven't eaten yet..." She looked at Zhang Xinli, assessed the situation, and said, "Ne...do you need my help?"

"Hmm... can you help me..." There was really no help at the moment, Zhang Xinli said, "Just watch him, just watch him."

The girl should have noticed something, but she didn't ask a word, didn't say 'Is this person abnormal', just nodded: "You are busy with your work, my boyfriend is also in the room, what's the matter?" I'll call him."

Zhang Xinli said, "Thank you."

The girl sat down next to Lin Jinyu and began to talk to him in a soft voice. Zhang Xinli didn't listen to what he was talking about. Finally, he was able to catch his breath temporarily. He took the mobile phone on the coffee table, turned back to the kitchen, and hid in the corner.

It finally came.

Illnesses come and go like a mountain, and go away like a thread. The most tormenting thing about mental illness is that you seem to be fine, but you never know if it will come back, and when it will find you again.At that moment, Zhang Xinli didn't even have time to feel sadness, powerlessness, or any other personal emotions, but only felt a choking urgency... must... must take him to the hospital now.

He was so anxious that he entered the lock screen password three times before he entered the correct lock screen password, and then used the cover of the wall to send a message to his little cousin to briefly explain the situation, telling him to come right away, and telling him not to call.

……

When the hot dishes were served, Zhang Xinli's expression returned to calm.

The girl took the fruit knife from Lin Jinyu's hand and put it on the edge of the coffee table. Zhang Xinli took four bowls and asked the girl and her boyfriend to eat together. The four of them sat around a table and ate in silence.

It may be that there are too many people, and the extra two people are just nodding acquaintances, so they are not very familiar. Lin Jinyu looked very uncomfortable, unlike when he was alone in front of Zhang Xinli, acting seamlessly. The grains counted, and he was slow to respond to voices other than Zhang Xinli, and he didn't talk much.

The girl's boyfriend couldn't figure out the situation. He only knew that he was playing games with headphones on when he came back, and suddenly he was kicked up to eat for no reason.Was it when he played the game that some milestone event in the establishment of a revolutionary friendship happened?

Although they are all home-cooked dishes, Zhang Xinli's cooking skills are not bad, not comparable to that of a five-star chef, but from childhood to adulthood, they are much more delicious than those made by the couple themselves.

The little cousin should arrive within half an hour by car, Zhang Xinli pretended to be fine, and looked at his watch frequently from the corner of his eye.

He was anxious, and his movements were concealed as much as possible, but Lin Jinyu still noticed: "What are you looking at?" His eyes were suspicious, full of distrust: "Hurry up?"

Zhang Xinli had already told him that today was a day off, and there was obviously something wrong with looking at his watch so frequently. Lin Jinyu was only suspected by him, and at the moment when he was thinking about it, he couldn't help asking.

"No," Zhang Xinli mobilized all his brain cells to lie, "The kitchen is still hot."

People who don't usually lie are the most difficult to be exposed when they suddenly lie. Lin Jinyu has an instinctive sense of trust in him, and she didn't ask him after hearing what he said. The girl's boyfriend said: "What else is there, you are too polite , we are almost finished eating, you don’t need to do it anymore.”

The girl picked up the food and stepped on him silently under the table by the way.

The boyfriend said: "Why are you stepping on me?"

Lin Jinyu said, "What dish did you heat up?"

More than 20 minutes had passed, and Zhang Xinli got up: "Steam eggs, I'll go and have a look." After speaking, he stood up, turned slowly and walked towards the kitchen, halfway there - the doorbell rang.

To be precise, it wasn't the doorbell, but the sound of knocking on the doorbell. The brother outside the door obviously used his fist as a sledgehammer, pressing and smashing, as if Sima Guang was smashing a big tank with a hammer.

Zhang Xinli paused, Lin Jinyu was still reacting, her boyfriend had consciously gone over and opened the door: "Yo, it's so late, who is it, then uncle should have the key himself."

"Xiao Yu!" As soon as the door opened a crack, the little cousin rushed in, panting and said to Lin Jinyu, "Didn't you say it's ready? What's going on?"

He obviously ran all the way upstairs, Lin Jinyu shook her hands, let go of her chopsticks and stood up.

Everyone is here, and the time has come. If you pretend to be stupid again, you will be really stupid. Zhang Xinli turned around and said quickly, "Help him to the hospital, immediately."

Previous experience has proved that trying to use gentle means to get Lin Jinyu to go to the hospital voluntarily in a short period of time will not work, and judging from the trend, he will not be able to get out by himself, and the more he delays, the worse it will become. Even if Lin Jinyu blamed him and hated him for this, it was better than him watching Lin Jinyu get sick.

The wooden chopsticks fell to the ground, and there was a series of muffled noises. The little cousin wanted to drag him to the hospital a long time ago. He had no objection to the strong method, so he wanted to drag him when he went up. Lin Jinyu said with a sullen face, "You lie You never believed me, did you?"

Zhang Xinli said, "Send him to the hospital."

Lin Jinyu pointed at them and began to step back step by step: "I said no, none of you come here!"

"You really have to go to the hospital, you're just sick, you're sick, you know that?"

The girl seemed very calm, she opened her mouth consciously, and helped to comfort him. Zhang Xinli and his little cousin said, "It's just going to the hospital. You've already been there once, haven't you? It's nothing, just calm down."

Lin Jinyu couldn't calm down. He had been there not once, but many times, and now he didn't want to go again.

Why, he obviously worked very hard, tried hard to think about it, tried hard to be happy, and worked hard to live a positive and optimistic life, but he still couldn't live well. He felt that he might be the reincarnation of a lone star from the sky, and he was surrounded by malicious people, including friends. , Lovers are also implicated.

Doesn't everyone want him dead.

The little cousin was anxious, and said: "My car is right below, and I'm not tired. I'll be there in a few minutes. Come here quickly." He said and grabbed his hand.

Lin Jinyu was like a frightened bird. The anger of being deceived had overwhelmed everything. He threw off his little cousin's hand and said angrily, "Get out!"

Zhang Xinli came to help, and the people who were driven by anger became very strong. Lin Jinyu kept yelling at them to get out, and moved his hands while pushing.

The three men fought in a small space, causing the tables and chairs to be skewed, and a bowl on the coffee table was also broken, and the fragments were scattered everywhere. The boy didn't know anything, he was already in a daze, and the girl was also frightened. He said anxiously: "What to do, what to do...you go up and help too!"

"Who am I helping?" The boy was completely confused: "What's the situation?"

The girl said: "Help the normal two."

Sometimes it's easy to beat someone up, but it's hard to subdue a person and make him obedient. Lin Jinyu is not made of mud, and the little cousin and Zhang Xinli can't be serious. They can't do anything about each other for a while. Urged to join in, one of the three attracted Lin Jinyu's attention, and the two clasped their hands together, finally gaining the upper hand.

"Let me go!" Lin Jinyu was already furious. His father said he was sick, and never really respected his opinion, controlled him, and monitored him. Why did Zhang Xinli do the same?That was his lover, who stood with him unconditionally and vowed never to lie to his lover.

Zhang Xinli tried to clasp one of his hands behind his back, but Lin Jinyu suddenly became violent—who knows where he got so much strength, he leaped forward, broke free from the shackles of his little cousin and Zhang Xinli, and also No matter whether he stepped on the broken tiles or not, he stumbled and took a few steps forward.

Lin Jinyu was full of anger, his cheeks were as hard as a stone, and the veins on his forehead were bulging. Panting, he grabbed the fruit knife that was used to peel pears on the corner of the coffee table, and turned to face them. , yelling word by word: "I told you not to come near me!" He said: "Get out, you liars, get out!"

This scene was too scary. At that moment, he really looked like a mental patient. The girl and his boyfriend were so frightened that they backed away a few steps... I guess I will have nightmares tonight.

"Xiaoyu, what are you doing," said the little cousin, "You...don't scare me..."

With a cold light shining on the tip of the knife, Lin Jinyu leaned against the wall as though losing all strength, and murmured, "Don't come...don't come...please..."

"You put it down," the little cousin was also at a loss: "It's easy to say anything, you put it down first, can you let it go..."

Lin Jinyu said word by word, "I'm not going to the hospital."

"Okay, okay, you first..." The little cousin was scared to death, just wanted him to calm down first, and agreed to any treaty first, he just said halfway, but was interrupted by another more powerful voice: " You have to go to the hospital."

Several people turned their heads and saw that Zhang Xinli's chest was rising and falling, and his dark eyes were staring at Lin Jinyu like nails, and he repeated: "I must go, did you hear me?"

Lin Jinyu stared at him fiercely, gritted his teeth, Zhang Xinli's throat moved, his tone was very firm, he did not dodge or dodge the dangerous blade, even passed his little cousin, and took a few steps forward, standing in front of Lin Jinyu alone , pointing the sharp knife point at his chest.

"Lin Jinyu, look at yourself," he said with a very tough attitude, but everyone could hear the trembling that was suppressed in the end: "...what do you want to do, are you going to stab me?" He said: "Then come .”

Lin Jinyu's hands trembled with his voice, and every word Zhang Xinli uttered contained great pain: "...It's my fault, it's all my fault... Come on."

Going back to the source of everything, Zhang Xinli blamed himself countless times, why he didn't dare to come out with him at the beginning, if the two of them had faced each other from the beginning, wouldn't they have developed to this point...or earlier , why should he fall in love with him, why should he kiss him by the campfire.

He began to walk forward against the blade.

The clothes in spring are not thick, and sharp steel objects can easily pierce the clothes and cut the flesh. Lin Jinyu trembled, and immediately let go of her hands as if scalded by sparks.

He looked at Zhang Xinli's face and shouted loudly, "Are you fucking crazy?"

They are in love, maybe this is crazy.

The little cousin breathed a sigh of relief. Judging from the results, it was obvious that Lin Jinyu had given in.

However, what greeted his cousin was not gentle comfort and hugs. Zhang Xinli bet that Lin Jinyu would not hurt him. With the crisp sound of the fruit knife falling to the ground, he quickly stepped forward and grabbed Lin Jinyu with one hand behind his back, and pinched He backed his neck, and with all brute force, rudely led him toward the door.

"I'll take him down," he said to his little cousin with a gloomy face, "the case is in the drawer in the room, take it out and drive."