God said I would meet you

The water in the bucket was steaming hot. Lin Jinyu took off her clothes, and with a towel over her shoulder, she sat on a low wooden stool and stretched out her hand to test the temperature of the water.

It's five o'clock in the morning, before dawn, he has already got up from the bed, the weather is too cold, Lin Jinyu boiled a pot of water, intending to take a hot bath and then go out to catch the morning market together.

It was an ordinary morning, but it was followed by an extraordinary night.

Lin Jinyu is no longer the high school student who knew nothing and nothing about anything at that time. He has borrowed many sexology-related books from the school library to read, and he knows Freud, Li Yinhe, Foucault, Lieutenant Wei also knows how in the long history, the minority orientation has completed the decriminalization and de-disease step by step with difficulty, and finally came to today.

Last night, although it was Lin Jinyu who pretended to be asleep, it was obvious that Zhang Xinli did not take the initiative.

When people take a bath, their thinking is actually very active, and it is easy to think about certain things.The water was a little hot, and Lin Jinyu recalled every bit of the night in the steaming heat, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt something was wrong.

That can't be completely explained by pure "sexual impulse".

Straight men may indeed show impulsiveness towards the same sex under certain very specific circumstances, but that must be a very special situation, such as living in a special environment without the opposite sex for a long time, or having very close contact, or Catalyzed by alcohol, drugs... Last night was clearly none of the above.

If Zhang Xinli himself has the possibility of being attracted to men physically... then is it suitable for him to marry?Lin Jinyu fell into deep thought.

Although Zhang Xinli has repeatedly denied this, what if he himself does not recognize this?Just like Lin Jinyu back then.

This is a more serious question, it can be big or small, if it is small, it is related to whether Lin Jinyu's entanglement for several years is a lonely fantasy, and if it is big, it is related to a person's exploration and cognition of himself , and the formation of a family.

Lin Jinyu was thinking about what to do in the narrow space, but before he could figure out why, he heard the sound of someone knocking on the iron door, and Zhang Xinli's voice came in clearly through the door, urging him: "Hurry up, Zhang Xinhe got up too, and I'll grab the toilet with you later."

Lin Jinyu regained consciousness and said, "Understood," he said, "The water is hot, is there any cold water?"

Zhang Xinli replied: "Yes." Then he turned and went to the courtyard: "I'll make some for you."

Lin Jinyu sat where she was, pulled on her slippers, and waited for him with her back hunched.

After a while, there was another knock on the door, and Zhang Xinli said, "I'll let you open the door, and you can exchange it yourself?"

Lin Jinyu stood up, opened the door and said, "Just bring it in, it's so cold early in the morning and you want me to go out naked to have a wind?"

There was some moisture between his brows, he was naked and had nothing on, so he opened the door directly, stood in front of Zhang Xinli, turned slightly to make room for a little space, and said, "Here, come in."

Zhang Xinli looked at him, wondering what he was thinking.Lin Jinyu said, "Bring it up, why are you always looking at me?"

"It's nothing." Zhang Xinli looked away, and brought him a small bucket of cold water into it.

There was a plastic ladle in the bucket, which was convenient for him to add water. Lin Jinyu poured two ladles into the steaming bucket and asked, "Did you take a bath in the morning?"

Zhang Xinli replied: "Wash."

There is only such a small space in this house. When there are too many people getting up at the same time, the space suddenly becomes insufficient. Lin Jinyu said: "Does your brother have to wash when he wakes up? Then I'll hurry up... He looked at Zhang Xinli and used Not sure but with a slightly teasing tone, he said, "Or simply...you come with me? "

As far as the relationship between the two of them had ever happened, this invitation seemed a little ambiguous, Lin Jinyu said and took two steps towards Zhang Xinli, and Zhang Xinli retreated as soon as he moved, as if he was afraid of him, After taking a few steps back, I came across a rough and simple wash rack.

The fog in the mountains was heavy in the morning, Lin Jinyu's handsome facial features were blurred by the heat and mist, and his lips were rosy. He walked to a place very close to Zhang Xinli and looked into his eyes in the mist.

They were almost the same height, and neither of them had to look up at the other when they faced each other.

This distance is too close, a little abnormally close, and it is not the most basic social distance that two adult men should maintain.

Lin Jinyu lowered her eyes, looked down, and then slowly stretched out her hand... Zhang Xinli just looked at him like this, as if some kind of immobilization method had been applied to him, and he remained silent.

The naked and fair body was faintly visible in the water vapor, Lin Jinyu got closer and closer... the closer and closer... Zhang Xinli's chest rose and fell faster as he approached, Lin Jinyu wiped his clothes with one hand and passed through his waist , stretch forward...

Zhang Xinli's reaction made him feel very interesting... Interesting and curious.

He also listened to a lot of pornographic stories in college, Lin Jinyu got half of an old driver's driver's license under his influence, and some roommates with girlfriends would sometimes share their sex life at bedtime meetings... He didn't look Zhang Xinli in the eye, just Starting from the Adam's apple and going down inch by inch, look at his chest covered in the unlined clothing... the lower abdomen... and then go down...

Lin Jinyu himself has a pair of handsome eyes. When he describes a person from top to bottom with that teasing and joking gaze, few people will not be unmoved.

Zhang Xinli looked at him with lowered eyebrows... His fingertips moved slightly, as if he finally couldn't help but want to reach out, and also raised his arms to hug him or do something else...

However, as soon as his warm fingertips touched Lin Jinyu's smooth, naked waist, Lin Jinyu grabbed the soap on the shelf with his outstretched hand, and then leaned back to distance himself from him.

Lin Jinyu smiled and said, "It's just something, what do you think?"

"..."

He tried the water temperature again, as if he had just made a gay joke among gay men, and said: "It seems to be ok, do you want to wash together? Tell me."

Zhang Xinli looked up at him, didn't speak for a long time, and finally frowned and said: "Hurry up and get out of the wash." After speaking, he squeezed past him, turned and left.

Lin Jinyu looked at his back, and heard Zhang Xinhe just woke up from outside the door, and asked with a hint of drowsiness: "Brother? Why are you in there... Don't leave, what's wrong with you?"

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As the New Year approached, there was a wave of returning home one after another. Lin Jinyu followed Zhang Xinli to the village entrance against the cold morning wind. She was surprised when she saw Gao Wu waiting for them.

Gao Wu obviously still remembered Lin Jinyu, he was a little surprised when he saw him, and asked, "Are you there?"

Lin Jinyu still remembers that these two people seemed to be living and dying, with you but without me, Gao Wu could even vaguely see the two scars between his eyebrows.

He was extremely surprised: "Are you going with us?"

"Yeah, the others are still on the way and haven't come back. You two can't afford to buy cigarettes, wine, meat, and vegetables."

Gao Wu is now 21 years old, he has not finished his compulsory education, he has been in a factory for a few years like other young people who have no education, he lives in a dormitory with 12 people, and earns more than 2000 yuan a month Dead wages, part of the food and clothing, part of the girl in the hair salon, and the rest sent home.

Lin Jinyu said in a daze, "Aren't you two..."

"What about us..." Gao Wu's complexion is dark, his trousers are tied with a belt, he is obviously the same age as Lin Jinyu, but he no longer has the aura of his youth, only the social atmosphere cultivated in the factory, unlike Lin Jinyu , even unlike Zhang Xinli, they could always tell that they were college students no matter what, Gao Wu probably belonged to a child who met Uncle Nabo.

Lin Jinyu said: "You two can still walk together one day. I thought we would fight when we met, Xiyangjing."

Gao Wu seemed to be awakened by these words, the long-term memories of being under the heavy machine and life... He took out a pack of cigarettes from his trousers pocket, and handed each of them a cigarette: "When will that be?" It's a big deal, and they still fight when they get older."

He spoke so plainly, as if an adult were telling a childish story.

Now Gao Wu is thinking about the piecework, length of service, and commission on the assembly line. What he cares about is how well the aunt in his hometown without her husband is doing well, whether his cousin has money to pay tuition after school starts, and when will the uncle in the bureau come out? , and going out to set up a stall after work, will there be so many people who come to him to put on the film?

In the past, the face and holidays of those young people who seemed bigger than the sky were just insignificant dust in front of life, and he didn't even need to make any effort, just like that, he easily reconciled with them.

Lin Jinyu took the cigarette, Zhang Xinli also took it, and the three of them joined forces to catch the morning market along the mountain road.

The morning market in the villages is always very lively, with grandparents, uncles, aunts, younger brothers and sisters everywhere.

There was a lot of people, Lin Jinyu couldn't understand the dialect, and she didn't have any urgent needs. She belonged to the crowd to watch the excitement, and followed Zhang Xinli and Gao Wu's familiarity all the way. They bargained for this and that, and only occasionally helped to carry things.

When they were bargaining, Lin Jinyu had nothing to do, just playing with his mobile phone.The positioning authorization of his software has always been turned on, but since he arrived in Liangshan, he hasn't boarded it to see it.

There are actually many gays in this world, but for most people, they are invisible.

It was just a habit for Lin Jinyu to go up to read the book at this time. In the past three years, most of the companions he had contacted had met through software. Howling again, there is no object.

When this kind of time is away from home, it is almost impossible for the people who swipe to have any in-depth communication. Whether it is friendship or love, a different place is a problem. He is purely bored, so he turns on the data flow and logs in. Swipe to see.

The bazaar has a large flow of people, and different people appear almost every refresh, and the distance changes again and again.Lin Jinyu stood alone by the side of the stall, swipe back and forth to refresh several times, and found that among the accounts that came and went, one of the accounts never disappeared, not only did not disappear, even the distance did not change, it was always 0.01 km.

0.01km... Isn't that within 10 meters?It's too close!

This is almost a distance from which the other party can be seen with the naked eye. Lin Jinyu raised her head from the screen of her mobile phone and looked around... There were people going to and from the market, and it was really hard to tell who it was.

The distance has remained unchanged, which means that he and the other party have not moved, which means that they are not here to go to the market, maybe they are vendors or shop owners... Lin Jinyu looked around again, and the vendors around him were either in their 60s or 22s, with white hair. The old man, or the aunts of the Yi nationality in black clothes, he clicked on the homepage of that account, and found that in the profile column, a bright "[-]" was filled in the age line.

This is not like those street vendors. Lin Jinyu finds it puzzling. Could it be that some uncle, who is four, five or sixty years old, is pretending to be young and making a false age?It's not impossible...

Forget it, it's none of his business, anyway, there will be no intersection, whether the other party is a fake age, or cheating on sex, it's not his fault.

Inside, Zhang Xinli and Gao Wu had already bought things, and told Lin Jinyu to leave, Lin Jinyu agreed, turned off the software, and went to help carry beer.

The morning market dissipated quickly. Basically, not long after dawn, the marketers and stallholders had finished their business and packed up their bags one after another.

Zhang Xinli and the others bought a lot of things. Lin Jinyu roughly estimated that according to the amount of wine and meat, at least dozens or hundreds of people's meals were in charge.

There should be hundreds of people, he thought: If you want to get married, you need to be grand, a banquet with 90 people in seven or eight, and blessings with 90 people in seven or eight, how wonderful it is.

The three of them left early and hadn't eaten yet, so Zhang Xinli and Gao Wu led him to find a small stall by the side of the road and sat down, ordering fried dough sticks and soy milk.

Lin Jinyu went to school in other provinces and had to get used to the local food, so her mouth was not so dangling long ago, so she licked the dry fried dough sticks and sucked soy milk with them.

After Zhang Xinli went to give the money, Lin Jinyu was bored, turned on the phone and took a look, and was surprised to find that the account was still there, and it was still the same "0.01km".

This is so strange, this morning was spread out on the side of the road, how could it be 10 meters away from the morning market just now?

Lin Jinyu clicked on the homepage and photo album of that account, wanting to find some further information to see what kind of person this mysterious 0.01km person is, but that account has not posted a single post, except for height, weight and model, nothing else.

What kind of supernatural power is this, it can always follow you like a shadow... Damn, it's still a 1.

Zhang Xinli was calling him over there, asking if there was any change, Lin Jinyu was all focused on the software, and answered reflexively, looked at the phone screen and walked over, asking, "What?"

Zhang Xinli said, "Ask if you have any change."

Lin Jinyu happened to have a few coins in his pocket that he didn't know when he received them. He half-moved his eyes from the screen, and just said half a sentence, "Yes..." From the corner of his eyes, he caught a glimpse of the mysterious "0.01km" on the page. With a sudden jump, the interface is automatically refreshed, and then the distance returns to zero...it becomes 0.00km.