God said I would meet you

……

What the hell...? ? ?

Lin Jinyu raised her head in disbelief, her eyes widened, and she looked at Zhang Xinli as if looking at something.

Zhang Xinli: "?" He said, "Change, why are you staring at me?"

Lin Jinyu took a lot of effort to look away from Zhang Xinli, took out a coin and handed it to him.

Also... It doesn't have to be, there are so many people in the world, it doesn't have to be... Come on, he doesn't even believe this reason, there can be such a coincidence in this world.

To be on the safe side, Lin Jinyu refreshed several times in different places, and the results were without exception. When he was beside Zhang Xinli, the distance was zero, and when he was farther away from Zhang Xinli, the distance increased.

This is just like a dream, how is this possible?Lin Jinyu felt a sense of horror and absurdity when she woke up and suddenly traveled to a parallel world, or received a Hogwarts exchange notice, but she couldn't express it yet.

After breakfast, after giving the money, Gao Wu said that he still had to go shopping, led them to a ride, and walked all the way to the commercial street.

Lin Jinyu was completely absent-minded now, even Zhang Xinli asked him several times if there was anything he wanted to eat, and he could buy something, but he didn't hear him.

"Whatever," Lin Jinyu said, "I'd like to bring some special products or something, and I'll take it home and give some to my relatives."

Regardless of the poverty of this place, those handicrafts are really not cheap. Whether it is black, red and yellow lacquerware, silverware, or silver ornaments, many of them are sold in sets, not for ten yuan in other tourist attractions. grade.

Lin Jinyu is not very interested in local food, and she doesn't necessarily have to buy beef here. Instead, she likes to collect these handicrafts, but the price is not something that can be spent casually, and it is not easy to bring the big ones. , so I weighed it and was ready to stop.

Zhang Xinli saw that he had been staring at those small ornaments, and asked, "Want it?"

"Not really..." Before he could finish speaking, Zhang Xinli used local dialect to ask the shopkeepers how much it was.

The owner typed a number with a calculator, and Lin Jinyu clicked her tongue. It was just a few half-slap-sized wooden embryo lacquerware, carved into the appearance of dogs, cows, horses and other small animals. Although it is indeed very delicate, it costs 300 Maybe it's too dark.

Zhang Xinli said something again. It seemed that he was negotiating the price. The old lady of the Yi nationality who was looking at the goods shook her head. Lin Jinyu said, "Forget it, it's a little play, it's too expensive, so I won't buy it."

"It's okay." Zhang Xinli said this to him, then turned back, and talked to the old lady in a different language. The pair of painted ox and tiger took away.

The wood carving was a bit abstract, although it looked similar, it was not very exquisite. Lin Jinyu watched him give the money, and after walking a little further, said: "You are quite generous now."

"No," Zhang Xinli said, "I make some small things by myself and sell them. It's not good, and it's too cruel." He said, handing the wood carving to Lin Jinyu, and said, "Give it to you."

"You're pretty good at choosing." Lin Jinyu took it over and looked at it. It was really interesting, and the more he watched it, the more he liked it.He asked, "How much do you spend on living expenses per month now? And this spare money."

"Spend when you earn more, and save when you earn less," Zhang Xinli replied, "I teach children to play outside, plus scholarships, it's enough."

"That's it..." Lin Jinyu himself is still living at home, and he doesn't count his living expenses every month. Anyway, his father or his mother will ask him every few weeks if he has any money, and transfer him a few thousand. If there is too much, it will be messed up. , I don’t know how much I gave in a month.

He stared at the big-horned ox and the big-headed tiger for a while, and said, "I really admire you, this is financial independence."

"Where is this? Now I go to school and eat in the cafeteria. I don't have to worry about the rent or what I eat every day. At least I have to work to talk about it..."

"OKOKOK, it's okay, it's okay," Lin Jinyu said, "I know my brother."

Zhang Xinli stopped talking.

Lin Jinyu wanted to talk to him about... about the software, but she didn't know how to start.

Gao Wu went shopping by himself, and he didn't know what to look for. At this time, the two of them happened to be standing at the street corner waiting for someone.

The weather was already cold, and it got even colder when standing still. Lin Jinyu put the wood carvings in her pocket, stood shoulder to shoulder with Zhang Xinli, and each of them lit a cigarette to drive away the cold, watching the pedestrians come and go.

He tried to seize this opportunity to speak... Lin Jinyu took time to organize his words, and decided to make a tactful insinuation first: "Then what..." He said, "Now... what major are you studying?"

Zhang Xinli told him that Lin Jinyu was thinking about how to make a peaceful transition from chattering about family matters to orientation issues, so Zhang Xinli asked, "What about you?"

"I..." Lin Jinyu also told the truth, and said, "Is... all right?"

"Ah."

"Did you... try something new?"

He spoke cryptically, but Zhang Xinli didn't understand what he meant, and said, "What?"

The wind is a bit strong, and it's easy to snow in this place. It's cloudy at the moment. It seems that there will be snow tonight at the earliest, and tomorrow night at the latest. Lin Jinyu put her hands in her pockets, turned to look at him, and said, "Just What's new, didn't you play social software or something?"

Zhang Xinli said: "What's new about social software?"

"It's not the ordinary kind." Lin Jinyu took a deep breath, feeling the hot smoke slowly sinking into his chest: "It's the special kind, filled with height and weight... and the model."

The smoke escaping between Zhang Xinli's lips seemed to stop suddenly: "...I don't know what you're talking about."

"Really?" Lin Jinyu seemed to have a watery face and didn't care, but in fact he had been paying attention to his expression. Zhang Xinli's momentary blankness made the last point of uncertainty in his heart disappear: "You understand, model number , zero or something."

From the moment he heard the question, Zhang Xinli became visibly embarrassed. It was a kind of uncontrollable panic, as if a little secret hidden in his heart suddenly saw the sun.

Lin Jinyu asked: "...Why did you register for that?"

"I really don't know what you're talking about." Zhang Xinli threw away the cigarette, looking like he wanted to leave.As soon as he turned half of his body, Lin Jinyu said, "Are you so interesting!"

Zhang Xinli's footsteps stopped... However, after he paused for a moment, he turned around and turned into the alley.

It was still an evasive gesture. Lin Jinyu was a little angry and a little bit resentful, but there was nothing he could do.

When Gao Wu came out, it was already past ten o'clock and eleven o'clock. He bought a little girl's skirt and a pair of snow boots, packed them in a bag and carried them in his hand.

The car to go back was only available in the afternoon, so Gao Wu asked, "Where is Zhang Xinli?"

Lin Jinyu replied, "Don't ask me, I'm not familiar with you."

They had several big bags, and the two of them couldn't carry them. Gao Wu turned in to find someone. Lin Jinyu squatted on the spot and finished smoking the cigarette, and pressed the butt of the cigarette hard on the ground.

OK, you just don't want to face it head-on, right? I just want to force you to avoid it.

Not long after, Gao Wu still called Zhang Xinli back to pick up his things. When the three of them came, Lin Jinyu walked in the middle, Zhang Xinli and Gao Wu walked next to him, but when they left, they changed, and Gao Wu walked in the middle. No matter how he turned, Zhang Xinli stayed away from Lin Jinyu intentionally, and did not talk to him.

At noon, you have to find a place to eat. Gao Wu found a small restaurant, sat down with the three of them, and exchanged cups. Lin Jinyu proposed to visit their old school.

"What's so interesting about that," Gao Wu said, "It's just a poor middle school with bad teachers and bad students. It's cold, if you want to play, I'll take you to get a foot massage."

People like him often lack the awe of education and other things in the world. Lin Jinyu knew what the massage and foot therapy he was talking about, and said: "Forget it, I'm not interested, I just want to come to the old place to revisit."

Zhang Xinli remained silent while Gao Wu scratched his head: "That's fine, anyway, it's still early, I'll take a car later... I really don't know what's so good about a school. After studying for so many years, I didn't come out to work for my boss. Read for nothing."

Lin Jinyu despised this point of view, but said nothing.

Zhang Xinli still didn't pay much attention to him, it's okay to ask him something else, as soon as he talked about that topic, even if it was a small problem, he would adopt an evasive attitude, either shut up or just walk away.

Lin Jinyu tried several times, but he left impatiently.

With such a wide street and such a large land boundary, Lin Jinyu couldn't tie him up and force Zhang Xinli to listen to his own words with his legs growing on his body.

Just wait and see, Lin Jinyu thought: Let's see how long you can hide.

When he was in the car, he didn't stay with Zhang Xinli, but sat in the last row with Gao Wu, and Zhang Xinli stood alone near the car door holding the ring.

Lin Jinyu waited for a while, and the number of people in the car gradually increased, and the aisle was lined up with people.Seeing that Zhang Xinli's view of them was blocked, Lin Jinyu hurriedly took this opportunity to hook Gao Wu and said, "Come here, let me tell you something..."

……

After such a discussion, Gao Wu asked inexplicably, "Ah? Why?"

"Don't worry about why, just do it," Lin Jinyu said, "Do you remember what you promised me, if I need you, I'll do whatever you can, does it count?"

"It counts."

This is actually not a difficult thing to do, it's just a little weird, Gao Wudao: "But what are you doing?"

Lin Jinyu found an excuse at random, and said, "Just... there is something to talk about, personal matters, you don't understand."

"What's a personal matter, he owes you money and won't pay it back?"

The first thing Gao Wu thought of was this kind of thing about money, especially when borrowing money from friends with a little friendship is the most difficult to handle. Those workers are like this, borrowing money to buy cigarettes to find a younger sister, and no one will take the initiative to pay back the money when they have money, and they always have to go round and round to get the money back.

"..." Lin Jinyu said, "You can understand it that way."

Gao Wudao: "Understood, the relationship between you two is very good, I'm sorry to ask him to pay it back, it doesn't have to be like this, or I can ask for it for you, I can't say anything shameful to him."

"No need," Lin Jinyu said, "It's not just that... It's complicated anyway, and I can't stay here for a few days. In a normal environment, I talk to him and he always avoids it. Just help me once, and I will talk to him about the rest." explain."

Gao Wu seemed to want to make some suggestions, but Lin Jinyu pretended to be vicious, and said directly: "You can just do a good job of supporting, my own friends, my own affairs, I am sure I will say it myself, listen to you or listen to me ?”

……

Most universities start winter vacation earlier than high schools. When Lin Jinyu stepped into the school that was shrunk in a corner of the county town and built with donations after five years, there were one or two classes on the playground in physical education class. The bustling scene is no longer the quiet look of that year.

They couldn't get in at first, but thanks to Gao Wu, he was barely considered a former student of this school. He passed cigarettes to the guard and lied about visiting the teacher, so the guard let them in.

I haven't been here for a few years, and the school seems to have expanded a lot. Lin Jinyu still remembers that at that time in his memory, the school only had a few buildings surrounded by a palm-sized cinder playground. Plastic track.

Those slightly old basketball hoops and parallel bars are still there. Lin Jinyu still remembers that when she was fifteen or sixteen years old, she stepped on a skateboard and recruited Zhang Xinli to chase him like a dick. Xia madly ran across most of the playground, playing and fighting, treating kisses as childish jokes.

They were so youthful, fearless and dubious back then.

After wandering up and down, and after visiting all the old places, Gao Wu introduced: "There is a newly expanded playground behind the teaching building. Do you want to take a look?"

Lin Jinyu pushed the boat smoothly: "Of course."

There are also classes running against the wind on the plastic playground. The playground is well-built, and everything is brand new. In addition to the 800-meter open-air track, there are also supporting indoor tracks, training rooms, and equipment rooms.

Gao Wudao: "I did it the year I dropped out of school, and it seems to be pretty good."

"That's good," Lin Jinyu rubbed her hands together: "It's so cold, the winter here seems to be colder than Shanghai."

"The altitude is high," Zhang Xinli replied, "Shanghai is damp and cold, with more humidity than air-conditioning."

Although there are occasional snowfalls in winter in Shanghai, most of the time there are only one or two occasions a year. Unlike here, when the snow is heavy, the roads can be half blocked, making it difficult for people to get in and out.

Lin Jinyu didn't wear a hat, and her ears were red from the cold in the bitter wind. Gao Wu said, "There is nothing to see in the playground, and the wind is still blowing. Why don't you go indoors for a while and put your things away."

After walking for a long time with such a pile of old things, Lin Jinyu felt that he was an idiot, so he immediately agreed.

They went straight to the indoor track built under the auditorium on the opposite side... The room was really warmer. On the red track marked with numbers, there were messy things like medicine balls, mats, and railings for the [-]-meter hurdles. There are also broken ones.

Lin Jinyu and the others threw aside all the things they were carrying, feeling their whole bodies were liberated.

Gao Wudao: "Don't stand at the door, I remember there is an equipment room over there, and there are stools to sit on."

This section of the runway was in a straight line, about 100 meters long. Lin Jinyu and the others followed Gao Wu to the end, and saw two small doors side by side, one with a window on the side and the other without.

"Hey, the door of the equipment room is locked today." Gao Wu pushed the window glass on the window sill, but found that he couldn't open it, and a few small benches could be vaguely seen through the window glass.

"It's weird," he said, "When I was in school, no one cared about me. I didn't lock the door at all from Monday to Friday. After these years, it has become more and more regular."

"Don't worry about it," Zhang Xinli said, "I can just take a break and sit on the ground if I want to."

The runway looks like a lot of shoes that have been stepped on many times, and this is an indoor corner, half of which are only patronized by special students, and the cleaning is not very serious. Lin Jinyu glanced casually and saw several dry spider corpses.

Gao Wu probed his head for a while, and pointed to another unlocked door five or six meters away: "Go over there and have a look, there should be plastic benches in the utility room."

Originally, Zhang Xinli was too lazy to bother with this kind of effort. When he was a child, he hadn't rolled any mud or dust, so now he's pretending to be a fussy person.

But Lin Jinyu urged him to go, so he had no choice but to turn around and follow along to have a look.

There was no window, and the utility room looked very dark. Lin Jinyu opened the door, and before she could take a few steps inside, she guessed that it was some kind of discarded equipment, and almost fell over.

Zhang Xinli told him to slow down, and by the sunlight coming in from the door, he saw a few small plastic benches sitting quietly in the innermost corner.

Lin Jinyu didn't look in that direction, and kept yelling "Where is it?" Zhang Xinli, who was always quick on his feet, said "There" and went straight to the corner to get a stool.

Just as he passed Lin Jinyu and walked into the depths, Lin Jinyu turned his head back without a trace, and gave Gao Wu a wink.

Gao Wu nodded, and quietly closed the door.

Losing the only light source, the utility room immediately became completely dark. Zhang Xinli turned around and asked doubtfully, "Why are you closing the door?"

However, there was no sound outside the door. Zhang Xinli walked back in three steps at a time, and pulled the latch, only to find that it remained motionless as if it was stuck.

"Sick?" Zhang Xinli knocked on the door: "What are you doing?"

Lin Jinyu's voice came from behind: "Don't bother, the outside is against what can't be opened from the inside."

Zhang Xinli turned on the flashlight that came with the phone, and by the snow-white light, he saw Lin Jinyu sitting on an old military green sports mat on the ground at some point, and lit a cigarette with the lighter with a "crack".

The orange flames illuminated his face, and he was so calm, calm, and unsurprised.

Zhang Xinli understood in an instant: "It's surprising that you and Gao Wu can still collude together."

"After all, all are brothers." Lin Jinyu took a puff of cigarette, said loudly towards the direction of the door, and said, "Okay, we can settle our affairs by ourselves, you can go to the gate of the runway and help us watch, someone will come to know Will speak!"

Gao Wu's promised voice came from outside the door: "I know." He even warned Zhang Xinli when he finished, saying, "Hurry up and pay back what you owe to others." After speaking, he left.

The noisy voices of the students could not be heard here, and the utility room was eerily dark and silent.

Zhang Xinli stood quietly facing Lin Jinyu with his back to the door, and said, "...I don't remember what I owe you."

"Really?" Lin Jinyu spread her feet apart, her elbows resting on her knees, she didn't look at him, she just smoked one after another, "Maybe not."

Zhang Xinli frowned, Lin Jinyu smoked half of the cigarette, looked up at him, and said, "You owe me an answer."

He stared at Zhang Xinli's frowning eyebrows, and said, "Zhang Xinli...you've liked men before, haven't you?"

……

Suddenly, it seemed that even the air froze and died.

Zhang Xinli dodged his eyes: "I don't know what you are talking about, why do you..."

Lin Jinyu said casually, just took out her mobile phone without any disturbance, looked at the screen with a cigarette in her mouth, and said out of nowhere: "You forgot to turn off the positioning."

Zhang Xinli was taken aback, Lin Jinyu pressed the send button on the screen, and at the same time, the mobile phone Zhang Xinli held in his hand sent out a vibrating reminder that both of them were very familiar with.

Zhang Xinli said, "You..."

Lin Jinyu said, "Tell me, why did you register for this software?"

Although he occasionally came across some accounts with confusing words such as "straight man, has a girlfriend, just curious" in his signature, it is obvious that Zhang Xinli is definitely not such a boring person with strong curiosity.

There were only the two of them in the confined space, and there was no way to escape or hide. After a long time, Zhang Xinli didn't speak. I don't know if he was defending his right to remain silent, or because the evidence was so overwhelming that he had nothing to say.

"You..." Just when Lin Jinyu thought this silence would last forever, Zhang Xinli finally said, "Why did you register this software?"

"Isn't it obvious?" Lin Jinyu said calmly, "Because I always like men."

He is so frank and straightforward, without any trace of hesitation when he was 17 years old.

Zhang Xinli said: "How can you be sure that you like men? Is it because of those accidents and accidents in high school?"

Lin Jinyu squinted her eyes in the nicotine smoke and said, "Yes, what else?"

"Since it's an accident and a coincidence, how can you be sure."

"Your language logic is still the same as before, so I can't understand it," Lin Jinyu lit the cigarette ash on the ground: "'I have experienced some accidental things' and 'I have identified myself from these accidental things' Is there any conflict between 'would like someone'?"

Lin Jinyu said: "...I'm telling you now, I really like men, if it makes you feel sick...I'm sorry."

Zhang Xinli looked anxious: "Don't say such things."

Lin Jinyu continued: "I answered your question, can you answer mine?"

Zhang Xinli stood still, and Lin Jinyu patted the cushion next to him: "It's okay, you can say what you think, just chat with friends... just chat, there is no one else here, there will be no one people know."

Zhang Xinli was silent for two or three seconds, and finally walked towards him, and sat down next to Lin Jinyu.

He didn't speak after sitting down, Lin Jinyu didn't force him, just quietly smoking a cigarette and waiting for him to speak.

It seemed as long as a century before Zhang Xinli said slowly: "I don't know..." He finally said: "Jinyu, I never thought that one day I would think about this question."

"What are you thinking about?" Lin Jinyu said, "Orientation? Coincidentally, I haven't thought about it either... But do you know why I suddenly thought about it one day?"

Zhang Xinli asked, "Why?"

"Because..." Lin Jinyu turned to look at him, as if telling a fairy tale: "One day a long time ago, I suddenly realized that I seemed to be in love with you."

Now that I think about it, it seems that it was indeed a long time ago, so long that now one of them is going to get married...but it seems like yesterday.

Zhang Xinli seemed to be pondering over a few words, and he repeated it again: "Falling in love with... me?"

"Yes," Lin Jinyu recalled those long-ago events: "But I can't remember exactly which day it was, whether it was in the heavy rain, or by the pool, or by the desk, or on the field, I don't remember."

Love grows silently.

"Jinyu," Zhang Xinli said hesitantly, "Have you ever thought that the reason you say you like me is because I'm always by your side."

He said: "I know your parents are always away. Think about it carefully, is it because I was always with you at that age when you just needed someone to accompany you, so you thought you liked me."

That year, Zhang Xinli was indeed always by his side, accompanying him to school, after school, reading, doing homework, traveling, playing games, Zhang Xinli would accompany him wherever he went.

Lin Jinyu opened his mouth, but the first sentence was to correct him: "I don't like you." He looked at Zhang Xinli and said, "I love you."

Those tea-brown eyes were solemn, just like Lin Jinyu told Zhang Xinli that he would never betray his love for survival under the lamp in the room in Liangshan.

Zhang Xinli's fingertips trembled slightly, and he said: "...Even if you love me because of these, you still have a long way to go, and there will be another person who will accompany you and take care of you, and you will fall in love with her of."

"No, there won't be any," Lin Jinyu looked into Zhang Xinli's eyes and said, "Because I won't have another 17 years old."

The best and most youthful age in those people's life is past. It planted the seeds of heartbeat in people's hearts. These seeds are unique. Some of them took root and sprouted, while others were burned to ashes.

But no matter whether these seeds are born or dead, whether they are cultivated to a positive result or not ended well, they will never exist again for countless years to come.

Many years to come, we will mature, we will grow up, we will be independent, we will be independent, we will meet many people again, maybe we will still be moved, like, hold hands, hug, and kiss, but they will never It was the feeling of that year.

Because those people in the future have never seen you who had nothing when you were young.

The light of the flashlight was as white as the moon, and they looked at each other quietly in the only ray of light in the world.

Lin Jinyu said softly, "May I ask you again..." He said, "Have you ever loved me, even if it's only for a moment, a second, a breath, or a blink of an eye."

"I..." Zhang Xinli's silent heart began to beat violently...he murmured, "I...I really don't know."

"Oh." Lin Jinyu looked away, not showing much disappointment on the surface.

The cigarette in his hand was almost at the end of its flame. After taking the last puff, Lin Jinyu suddenly turned over and stepped onto Zhang Xinli's body. The puff of smoke came out from between his lips and swept over Zhang Xinli's lips.

... If he is going to get married tomorrow, can I kiss him today?

"Would you like to try it?" Lin Jinyu looked at him with lowered eyebrows and said, "Sometimes a kiss is worth thousands of dialogues."

Zhang Xinli looked straight at him. Lin Jinyu straddled him with both legs, knelt on the mat, and put his hand on Zhang Xinli's shoulder... He didn't move quickly, and he gave Zhang Xinli enough time to push him away, but Zhang Xinli did not.

Lin Jinyu stuck it up, and gently stroked Zhang Xinli's with dry lips.

That was what he had recalled countless times in countless days and nights of separation.

He thought Zhang Xinli would resist, but he didn't... Zhang Xinli quickly reached out his hand, as if he had been waiting for this moment for a long time.

He opened his mouth slightly, and rubbed Lin Jinyu's earlobe with the pad of his thumb.

It was a too obvious gesture, Lin Jinyu stretched out her tongue and began to lick his lips lightly, then poked in, their lips were equally warm and moist.

It was a jerky but equally lingering kiss. Lin Jinyu supported Zhang Xinli's shoulder, and Zhang Xinli wrapped his arms around his waist. Both sides closed their eyes, kissing intently as if tomorrow was the end of the world, and no one was distracted.

After the long lingering, Lin Jinyu backed away a little, and both of them gasped a little.

Lin Jinyu looked at him and asked, "Do you like it?" He said, "Say it, if you like it...just say it."

Zhang Xinli gasped and looked at him, was silent for three seconds, and finally said: "...Yes...I like it."

When they kissed for the second time, it was almost impossible to tell who started it first, as if a traveler lost in the desert finally found himself in an oasis of clear springs, Lin Jinyu put his arms around his shoulders, while Zhang Xinli clasped his neck, their lips and teeth Clinging to each other, both of them breathed warm and short breaths on each other's faces.

This time it was no longer a tentative, gentle kiss, they kissed close to each other like beasts, Lin Jinyu stuck out his tongue and licked Zhang Xinli's lips, then slipped in, swept his soft tongue and palate, Zhang Xinli Then kissed him back with the same vicious force, even hooked his tongue, and pushed it into Lin Jinyu's mouth.

It was an extremely rude, savage, and also extremely passionate kiss. They were hugging and doing the most intimate thing, and their lips and tongues were intertwined with each other, like a pair of lovers who have been together for several years, so tacit, in tune, and heart-to-heart Unannounced.

Once the fire was lit, it was out of control. Even though there were cushions to support her, her knees still hurt after kneeling like this for a long time. Lin Jinyu was a little tired, so she simply sat astride, riding on Zhang Xinli's body and sticking to him.

(following youknow)

……

Obviously she should be very happy, but Lin Jinyu couldn't help but her eyes were red.

What they are most afraid of is that the world will trick others. When they finally see their hearts clearly, Zhang Xinli is going to get married.

Lin Jinyu blinked, trying to hold back the water in her eye sockets, but the tears didn't listen to him, and dripped from the corners of her eyes instead.

Zhang Xinli sensed something was wrong with him, he opened his eyes, saw the tear stains in the corners of Lin Jinyu's eyes, was startled, stopped his movements and tried to release him, and asked, "Jinyu, what's wrong with you?"

But Lin Jinyu hugged him tightly, and hugged Zhang Xinli, not letting him look at her: "It's nothing," he said, "Convulsion, don't look at me."

Zhang Xinli paused, then patted him on the back lightly: "What's the matter, talk."

"It's nothing." Lin Jinyu pushed him away suddenly, not letting Zhang Xinli hug her, and said, "I think you're getting married soon, I'm touched, today will be the last one, I won't attend the wedding the day after tomorrow, happy newlyweds, I wish you happiness in the future."

"..."

It took Zhang Xinli several seconds to digest his words, and said, "Who said I'm getting married?"

He bit the word "I" very hard, Zhang Xinli looked speechless and disbelieving: "Who told you?"

"?" Lin Jinyu said, "All the wedding invitations have been delivered to me, what else can..."

In the middle of the conversation, he suddenly stopped. Lin Jinyu carefully went through all the things that happened recently in his mind, and then he realized it after a while. It seemed that no one had ever told him that Zhang Xinli was going to get married. It was all because of his own subconscious thinking of.

So...so he wasn't the one who got married?He didn't want to get married?Everything has not become a foregone conclusion, they still have countless possibilities?

After a short period of shock and sudden realization, Lin Jinyu felt a feeling of joy. He punched Zhang Xinli and said angrily, "Why didn't you fucking say it earlier!"

Zhang Xinli was at a loss when he was beaten up: "How did I know you would think so?"

"You fucking..." Lin Jinyu couldn't swear in the middle of cursing. He glared at Zhang Xinli for two or three seconds, then suddenly rushed forward to hug him again, and hammered his back hard: "I thought you were going to get married……"

Zhang Xinli is very innocent, he was slapped and stuffed with sweet dates for no reason, what a mess!

He patted Lin Jinyu on the back and said, "Okay, I don't want to get married."

"Who cares if you get married or not!" Lin Jinyu gave him a firm hug and then let go of him, riding on him and said, "I almost thought you were the kind of scumbag who got married the day after tomorrow and kissed someone else today. "

Zhang Xinli said, "Am I so irresponsible?"

Lin Jinyu knew in his heart that he was not that kind of person, but he said: "Then who knows." He put one hand on the cabinet behind Zhang Xinli's back for storing equipment, and said viciously: "Do you know how tortured I am? Mom thought she was coveting someone else's husband-to-be."

Zhang Xinli replied indifferently: "Really."

What is it... is what a fart is.

Zhang Xinli said, "Don't you dislike me?"

"Get out," Lin Jinyu's silver earrings reflected the light of the flashlight, making them extraordinarily dazzling. He leaned forward, almost touching Zhang Xinli's cheek, and asked, "You don't hate kissing men, do you?"

Zhang Xinli still said: "I don't know, I don't hate kissing you."

Those eyes were dark, neither perfunctory nor evasive, he answered this question very seriously.

Lin Jinyu asked again: "Then do you love me, love in that sense."

Zhang Xinli lowered his eyes and thought for a moment, then said, "I don't know, I never thought that I would be interested in men, nor would I have a relationship with you."

Lin Jinyu almost wanted to hit him with a stick: "Are you going to say anything else besides 'I don't know'?"

"I……"

"Okay, don't talk about it," Lin Jinyu interrupted him: "If you can't tell a flower, don't talk about it."

……

The bad taste in Lin Jinyu's heart came up again, and he said blankly: "Oh, but there is one thing you should know."

Zhang Xinli asked, "What?"

Lin Jinyu looked at him, and reached out to touch him... Zhang Xinli trembled, and Lin Jinyu said, "Want me...to help you?"

He said, "...Want me to help you? Stop saying you don't know."

Memories of the student days emerge one after another, such as drunken nights, bathrooms in valley B&Bs, underground parking lots with no one in bars, and cold dark alleys under street lights...Those things that may be absurd or incredible really happened in In the lives of the two of them, they learned to be moved, prayed, cared, and loved and missed in those things.

Everything piled up together, and finally when they reunited, they rushed out like a flood that broke a bank.

Zhang Xinli looked at Lin Jinyu under the only light that came in. In that look, five years passed by.

He said: "...Think."

It seemed that it was Lin Jinyu who kissed him, and it seemed that it was Lin Jinyu who kissed him on his own initiative. None of them could explain this question clearly, and this question was no longer important. Lin Jinyu unbuttoned him while kissing him, and Zhang Xinli hugged him , motioned Lin Jinyu to reach out, and took off the cotton jacket that got in the way.

The small utility room was very cold, and Lin Jinyu's hands were also very cold. He kissed Zhang Xinli for a while, then suddenly pushed his chest lightly, and separated from Zhang Xinli a little.

Zhang Xinli gasped and looked at him, Lin Jinyu exhaled two breaths and said, "It's too cold, I'm afraid I'll freeze you."

Zhang Xinli didn't understand what he meant at first, Lin Jinyu said: "Get up, sit on the cabinet."

Zhang Xinli didn't know what he was going to do, but he did it anyway.

The equipment was piled up miscellaneously. Lin Jinyu got up in the mess and walked to Zhang Xinli, then knelt down.

……

After the passion subsided, they leaned together to calm their breath. Lin Jinyu picked up his coat and put it on. Looking at the dark roof, he suddenly remembered something: "You said... you didn't get married?" His mind was on, and now he remembered it belatedly, and asked Zhang Xinli, "Who is getting married then?"

"Remember to ask, I thought you didn't care." Zhang Xinli put his arm around him and said, "The one who is going to get married is...Chen Hui."