God said I would meet you

After a full minute, Zhang Xinli did not move.

Seeing that he didn't move for a while, Lin Jinyu didn't know what this reaction meant, was it happy or unhappy?Three years, more than 1000 days and nights, seeing each other suddenly, are you more at a loss than embarrassment, or more embarrassment than at a loss... Will there ever be a second, thinking of me like I miss you? ?

"Hey," he greeted casually, "Long time no see."

Zhang Xinli still didn't speak, Zhang Xinhe called out, "Brother?"

"Hmm..." Zhang Xinli seemed to have just come back to his senses: "You guys..."

"Us?" Lin Jinyu chatted casually with a cigarette in his mouth, "We can chat casually, and we can be considered old friends anyway. It's not inappropriate for me to come here at this time."

Zhang Xinhe interjected: "Brother Jinyu has just arrived, brother, you have nothing else to do, just in time to prepare together, the day after tomorrow will be a good day."

"Okay," Zhang Xinli looked away from Lin Jinyu very slowly: "Get your things ready, I put the money in the drawer of my parents' room."

Zhang Xinhe agreed with a "hey": "I bought some of them today, I'll go and have a look." Then he went back to the room.

"Okay, don't miss anything." After Zhang Xinli finished speaking, he was about to continue what he was going to do at the beginning, take a towel and go to the yard to wash his hands, but Lin Jinyu took the initiative to stop him, raised the corners of his mouth, and said with a smile: "I haven't had time to congratulate you .”

Zhang Xinli: "?"

Seeing his stunned look, Lin Jinyu thought that Zhang Xinli was still worrying about something, so she said in a nonchalant tone: "Don't worry, the past is the past, you have your own life, and I have mine... don't you You will think that it has been three or four years, and I still like you? You are not a child anymore."

Nicotine smoke escaped from his slightly parted lips, and the minimalist sterling silver earrings on one earlobe made him look quite rebellious. It was the most indifferent and indifferent tone in the world, as if gently brushing Remove a petal of insignificant fallen flowers on the shoulder.

"..." Zhang Xinli was silent for a moment, then said, "Really."

"Well," Lin Jinyu smoked the cigarette until only the butt was left, and threw it in the courtyard... He took advantage of the moment he passed by Zhang Xinli and patted the wedding invitation in his hand on his shoulder: "Here, I am invited Congratulations, I wish a happy marriage for a hundred years."

Zhang Xinli said again: "?"

When he went to press the wedding invitation, he also pressed down on Lin Jinyu's fingertips, but Lin Jinyu quickly pulled it away forcefully.He walked past Zhang Xinli, opened the door and went into the courtyard without looking back, leaving Zhang Xinli alone behind him watching his back.

Lin Jinyu pressed the butt of the cigarette out on the concrete steps. In order not to let the chickens eat it by mistake, he walked around to throw it at the dustpan in the corner. Zhang Xinli came out after him, and washed his hands and face with well-pressed water.

The altitude here is about 3000 meters, the wind blows on the face and the ground is cold, and the well is not far from the door. If Lin Jinyu wants to go back indoors, he has to pass by Zhang Xinli.

It was obvious that they hadn't seen each other for more than three years, but Lin Jinyu always felt as if they just said goodbye yesterday.He pretended not to care, and without looking sideways, he walked straight into the room, but before he walked over... Zhang Xinli wiped his face with a towel, and said casually, "Are you still smoking?"

Lin Jinyu stopped. He stood on the same level as Zhang Xinli, turned to look at him, and smiled politely, "Why, what's the big deal?"

Zhang Xinli didn't look at him, but just wiped the water off his hands: "No, just ask."

Lin Jinyu patted him on the shoulder, and the old friend said as if reminiscing about the old days: "How have you been these past few years, have you been admitted to university?"

In fact, Zhang Xinhe told him just now that he passed the exam, but Lin Jinyu was so nervous right now that he didn't have any high-level thinking ability, and he relied on instinct to talk out... Fortunately, his language talent is not bad.

Zhang Xinli looked at the hand on his shoulder and said, "... so-so."

Generally...how is it generally?Good or bad?Happy or unhappy?To be specific, will it die?Lin Jinyu thought so in her heart, and said, "Oh, I'm doing pretty well."

"..." Zhang Xinli said, "Yes."

Lin Jinyu replied, "Yes."

……

Neither of them spoke. They stared wide-eyed and small-eyed for a moment, and Lin Jinyu said, "Where do I sleep at night?"

"Only two rooms, you see what you want..."

Before he finished speaking, Lin Jinyu said, "It's not good for me to sleep in your parents' room, how do you usually sleep?"

"I'm usually not at home."

"Oh, so," Lin Jinyu said, "whatever you want, you want me to sleep with your brother? That's fine, as long as you don't mind that I have a previous record of liking men...but don't worry, I won't like you...it's impossible to like you .”

Zhang Xinli glanced at him, said nothing, squeezed the towel, rolled it up and entered the room.

……

It got dark very early in this season, it was only six or seven o'clock, and it was already dark outside.

Lin Jinyu left at six o'clock in the morning, flew directly over and then changed trains.Before going out, he deliberately took a hot bath and cleaned himself up. Although solar water heaters have begun to be popularized here, it is still inconvenient for most people to have hot water at home. Boiled a pot of hot water to wash and then went to bed.

He thought that if Zhang Xinli was chosen, he would definitely let himself sleep with Zhang Xinhe...or sleep in a room alone, and Zhang Xin would sleep with the two brothers, but unexpectedly, Zhang Xinli did not.

It was as if he didn't remember the things that happened between them, nor did he remember that Lin Jinyu once said loudly that he loved him in the deserted alley. When it was time, he usually urged Lin Jinyu to go to bed, and they would go to the morning market tomorrow.

Would a straight man be willing to sleep in the same bed with a man after knowing that he once liked him?

Lin Jinyu didn't know...he only knew that he was flustered now, even more flustered than when he first saw Zhang Xinli during the day, his heart was like a little kangaroo, bumping against his chest continuously.

After taking a shower, Zhang Xinli came in with a body full of heat.He usually doesn't wear a shirt when he sleeps at night, but today he somehow wore one. Lin Jinyu could only see his exposed arms and familiar scars, some of which were reserved for him.

With the light on, Zhang Xinli sat on the edge of the bed with his back to Lin Jinyu wiping his hair. Under the incandescent light, his broad shoulders were slightly different from the picture in Lin Jinyu's memory, and he was already an adult.

The same is true for Lin Jinyu herself.

He was also sitting with his back to Zhang Xinli, but from time to time he turned his face halfway to peek while he was not paying attention.Lin Jinyu had nothing to do, so he touched another cigarette and lit it. In fact, he was not so addicted to cigarettes at all, and now he was so nervous that he relied on nicotine to keep calm.

The smell of smoke floated to Zhang Xinli along the flowing air. After wiping his hair, Zhang Xinli threw the towel on the railing at the foot of the bed and asked, "When did you become so addicted?"

Is that considered big?Lin Jinyu didn't think it was a big deal. There were plenty of people who smoked one or two packs a day, so he said, "Where is this? Why do you care so much?"

Zhang Xinli really had no position to care about him. He remained silent for a few seconds and asked, "When will the meeting start?"

"School three," Lin Jinyu dusted off the dust very skillfully: "What?"

"Because of what?"

Why are there so many problems... Lin Jinyu was struggling to deal with it, he thought: Do you want to make up any reason, will it look fake?Will he see it...

The room was quiet, and both of them looked calm, but in fact, Lin Jinyu's brain cells were running so fast that they almost burst into flames.

After much deliberation and deliberation, finally finalized the major policy... Lin Jinyu squinted her eyes, exhaled mist, smiled, and said as if teasing: "Because of you."

Zhang Xinli looked at him and said, "Me?"

"Otherwise?" Lin Jinyu's tone was relaxed, as if she was talking about something that had been put aside for a long time: "Didn't I tell you earlier that I liked you at that time, but you didn't like me, and smoked a cigarette when you were unhappy?"

He spoke frankly, and Zhang Xinli actually listened carefully.

"...But it's all about when I was a child," Lin Jinyu added after finishing speaking: "Don't worry about it, it definitely doesn't mean anything like that now."

There is absolutely no such meaning. You are about to get married, and it will not disturb your normal life.

Where Lin Jinyu couldn't see, Zhang Xinli's hands on his knees trembled slightly with his words, and then clenched into fists when the second half of the sentence came out.

It's almost time, Lin Jinyu glanced at the time on the phone: "It's late, it's time to go to bed."

His wrists were bare, and the black and red student watch was gone.

"Where's that watch from before?" Zhang Xinli asked again, "Is it broken?"

Lin Jinyu had been wearing that miscellaneous brand student watch for three and a half years, and the maintenance fees spent on this watch in the three and a half years were enough to buy another similar one... He just replaced it before leaving the house.

Before going out, Lin Jinyu carefully checked her whole body, and replaced everything related to Zhang Xinli without leaving any clues.

But he replied to Zhang Xinli: "Ah, that... I don't know, I forgot, it has been changed for several years, and I didn't pay attention."

Zhang Xinli was completely silent.

He got up to turn off the light, and it seemed that he was going to sleep. Lin Jinyu pinched a cigarette, thought about it in his head, and asked tentatively, "What... do you... have a lot of quilts here?"

……

The lights went out, and the room became dark. Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli, each covered by a quilt, slept on both sides of the bed, Zhang Xinli lay on his back, and Lin Jinyu turned his back to him.

The furnishings in this room are the same as when he came here three years ago, the old-fashioned latch window, the glass-covered table, the photos pressed under the glass, as well as the dust and smell in the air , are still exactly the same as before.

It seems that nothing has changed, they just slept, and many years have passed.

Lin Jinyu couldn't sleep, but he was wrapped in that separate quilt, closed his eyes, and pretended to be falling asleep without any anxiety.

This was brought up by him on purpose. He said that he didn't like to sleep with others under the same quilt, but in fact it was to save himself from being tortured... It's been so long since I've seen each other. In fact, I don't like Zhang Xinli that much. What he likes is just a beautified fantasy. When we meet again, the fantasy will not shine into reality, but will dissipate in the sun.

But it seems not, some people are so strange, he inserts into your life at a certain important node, this node may be when you are hurt, maybe when you are sad, maybe when you are lonely, or maybe it is you A critical period for the formation of personality and consciousness.

It is such an unclear node, once someone walks into your life, he will become special and irreplaceable.

This afternoon, when Lin Jinyu saw Zhang Xinli for the first time, he knew that there was something that could not be diluted even if there was time. This love never had a chance to germinate, but the seeds under the white snow never die.

Maybe it's because he has never owned it, so the longing is endless... He can't lie together under the same quilt with Zhang Xinli, Lin Jinyu thought, if he and Zhang Xinli rubbed their arms together and breathed together in such a quiet and deserted night... Hearing, he must not be able to continue pretending that it doesn't matter, he would want to touch him and hold him to death.

Lin Jinyu was lying peacefully like this, his breathing was even, his face was peaceful and serene, as if he had fallen asleep.

He prayed in his heart that this long night would not pass.

I don't know how long it has passed... It may have been a long time, but no sound can be heard outside the window, and it seems that even the insects and the wind have fallen asleep.Lin Jinyu heard a very soft tinkling of bells, like the sound of some small bells colliding... The sound was very slight, like a needle, piercing the tranquility of the night.

Lin Jinyu didn't dare to open his eyes, let alone let Zhang Xinli realize that he was actually awake. He still closed his eyes calmly, as if he was in a deep sleep.

People tend to perform supernormally under stress. Lin Jinyu pretended to be realistic, even the rhythm of her breathing did not change.

He vaguely felt a shadow approaching, and then a hand was gently placed on his shoulder through the quilt.

Lin Jinyu didn't move, and after a few seconds, probably to make sure that he wasn't awake, the hand slowly moved up, and the fingertips brushed against his exposed neck... Finally, Lin Jinyu felt Zhang Xinli's warm palm against him. The callused index finger gently brushed against his lips, like a dragonfly gliding across the water.

...What is he doing?There were 1 question marks in Lin Jinyu's heart, but she still dutifully pretended to be asleep without even shaking her eyelashes.

About three or four seconds later, Lin Jinyu vaguely felt the shadow cast on him intensify, and the sound of the folds rubbing against the quilt, skin and quilt was soft and intermittent... In the darkness, Zhang Xinli stared at him for a moment , and then slowly leaned over... gently kissed him on the cheek.

An atomic bomb quietly exploded in Lin Jinyu's heart... He hadn't seen me for several years, but he kissed me at this reunion... Why did he kiss me? Could it be...he actually likes me?But he clearly said that he doesn't like me. If he does, why would he say he doesn't like me? If he doesn't like it, why would he kiss me... So... So does he like me or not?

It was as if there were two villains arguing in his heart. One said that there was absolutely something wrong with her secretly kissing you while you were asleep, and the other said wake up. This is another classic trick of straight men.

After thinking a lot, Lin Jinyu suddenly realized: But... But... His pupils trembled wildly: But... Isn't he going to get married? !

Could it be some kind of farewell ceremony... It's like I didn't care about kissing Zhang Xinli that day, some kind of sense of ritual before the complete farewell, it might be awkward to say it when I'm awake, so I waited for him to fall asleep secretly?

...It seems impossible, according to Lin Jinyu's understanding of Zhang Xinli, how can a person with his personality be afraid of these things, it is not difficult for him to say goodbye generously, and... if it is a farewell, then kiss him What are you doing?

Lin Jinyu's heart was in a mess. He desperately wanted to figure out Zhang Xinli's motives, but he had no clue.

Perhaps... Lin Jinyu moved suddenly in a trance, just like a sleeping person who occasionally turns over inadvertently, turned around, and changed from facing Zhang Xinli to lying on his back.

In stark contrast to this, Zhang Xinli immediately fell into a stillness, as if afraid of waking him up, Lin Jinyu couldn't even feel his breathing.

Lin Jinyu turned over and stopped moving, and the room became quiet again.

Zhang Xinli remained still for half a minute. Seeing that Lin Jinyu had no signs of waking up, he relaxed again and lay down slowly.

The subtle tinkling sound rang again with his movements. Lin Jinyu couldn't identify what it was that made the sound. Due to his professionalism and personality, Zhang Xinli usually didn't wear any accessories on his body, let alone bells. This kind of thing seems a little childish.

He held his breath and waited for about ten minutes. After guessing that Zhang Xinli had let down his vigilance, he quietly leaned towards him.

At this time, he began to feel that the two quilts were in the way, and it was winter on the mountain again, and one quilt was thick enough, let alone two, but when he just lay down, he still squeezed the corners of the quilt tightly. No matter how close we were at this time, we felt far away.

Lin Jinyu moved again, and slowly moved the piece of quilt that was pressed by her out from under her body, using both hands and feet, slowly moved under the bed little by little.

When people fall asleep, they will also subconsciously change their positions, tossing and turning the quilt to slide on the floor. This is quite normal. After a while, Lin Jinyu felt that there was only a quilt left on her body, and the cold air pricked against her skin.

Zhang Xinli soon discovered the situation here, and he called out quietly, "Jinyu."

Of course Lin Jinyu wouldn't wake up, the idiot woke up at this fucking time.He continued to maintain his even breathing, like an old Buddha in meditation.

It was really cold at night, and he quickly developed goose bumps, but he still endured it.

Zhang Xinli seemed to want to pull back the quilt at first, but he was afraid of waking him up. It was cold outside, and most people would not want to get out of bed at this time.

With all these factors superimposed, Zhang Xinli thought about it, and finally lifted a corner of his quilt, covered it with Lin Jinyu, and gave half of it to him.

Lin Jinyu's trick succeeded, afraid that he would notice it, and there was no movement for more than ten minutes... until he guessed that it was almost the same, then he turned over and moved again, and then moved to Zhang Xinli's side as he did at the beginning.

Because of the tossing and tossing just now, the little heat realized in the quilt has basically run away, but Zhang Xinli's side is very warm.Lin Jinyu was half hot and half cold, pretending to lean towards the hot place unconsciously, turned over to face Zhang Xinli, and squeezed closer and closer to him.

The bed was not big at first, and Zhang Xinli slept on the side. Soon, Lin Jinyu felt her chest pressed against his shoulder.

Zhang Xinli moved a little uneasily, but Lin Jinyu didn't seem to notice it. He just closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep. He hid one arm in the quilt, moved it inadvertently, and stabbed across Zhang Xinli's chest.

The long-lost physical contact made both of them feel strange and familiar at the same time. Zhang Xinli called him again: "Jinyu."

Of course Lin Jinyu was still awake, so he purposely slipped into Zhang Xinli's arms when he raised his hand to pat him on the back, where it was warm and comfortable.

Zhang Xinli seemed embarrassed and at a loss. Anyway, unless he was really determined, he would make a big noise to Lin Jinyu and let him pretend that he had nothing to do. Lin Jinyu would pretend not to know about other small movements and voices.

He just pressed on one arm of Zhang Xinli. Zhang Xinli waited for a while, and seeing that he was no longer moving, he slowly lowered his hand and put his arms around him.

Lin Jinyu was lying on his side, leaning against Zhang Xinli's neck, breathing in the smell of his body quietly, and rubbing his hands restlessly twice every few minutes or ten minutes, from his chest to his abdomen, and then from his abdomen Going down, Kankan stopped at the edge of the lower abdomen.

Feeling his even breathing, Zhang Xinli seemed to be a little restless and moved uneasily from time to time.

Both of them are used to wearing big underpants when they sleep, and Lin Jinyu's calf under the quilt naturally rubs against him, and the feeling of skin friction makes people feel intimate and comfortable.

A boy in his early twenties is at the peak of all his body functions. Under this kind of intimate contact, Lin Jinyu has not yet achieved his goal of testing Zhang Xinli, so he reacted first.

Although he was no longer as tense and shy as he was in his teens when facing this ordinary physiological reaction, and he was not so easy to be noticed, but Lin Jinyu turned over slightly and turned around again.

He just turned around, not far away from Zhang Xinli, and even still lay his pillow on his arm.From the beginning to the end, Lin Jinyu never opened her eyes, and acted entirely by feeling.

After a while... Lin Jinyu felt that Zhang Xinli also turned around, facing him, and stretched out the hand that was not occupied by him, and put it gently on his waist.

This should be regarded as Zhang Xinli's second conscious initiative. Lin Jinyu's eyes rolled under the closed eyelids, and all his attention was placed behind him.

Zhang Xinli really took the initiative to stick to him, and the airflow he exhaled went down, sweeping over his bare skin on the back of his neck.

Lin Jinyu felt that Zhang Xinli hadn't moved for a while since he was holding him... After that time passed, his hands were not as honest as before, and he began to touch a small area between his upper abdomen and chest through his clothes in a small way.

Three and a half years later, Lin Jinyu is almost as tall as Zhang Xinli. He is the type who is not easy to get fat, and his body fat is not high. Although there is no exaggerated eight-pack abs on his flat belly, lines are still faintly visible.

Zhang Xinli's chest rose and fell slowly with his breathing, and Lin Jinyu felt his calf move, slightly stretched out, and the well-developed Achilles tendon was attached to his calf.

He thought Lin Jinyu was asleep, but in fact Lin Jinyu was so awake that he couldn't wake up again. Although he didn't open his eyes, his sense of hearing and touch became more acute than usual. Lin Jinyu moved back a little, and he could feel Zhang Xinli pressing against him as well. .

When the two came into contact, Zhang Xinli took a deep breath, and his cheek was pressed against Lin Jinyu's short hair.

... What is this? Lin Jinyu didn't know whether to cry or laugh. After all, they had crossed the line a lot. He knew that Zhang Xinli would have impulses towards him since a long time ago... Oh, it wasn't about him, it was about his physiology. Stimulation, but Lin Jinyu couldn't accept that everything happened only on a physiological basis.

Even though he actually likes it... but he actually likes it too.

Lin Jinyu didn't move, the hand became more and more presumptuous, at first it was only through the clothes... then it gradually stretched in, and it became directly against the flesh... Then it started to go down, and the fingertips were inserted into the waist of the trousers inside……

Lin Jinyu's heart was gradually filled with guilt, which not only came from his dirty little thoughts, but also from his sudden realization that Zhang Xinli was going to get married the day after tomorrow.

So what is it now?How shameful and despicable.

Irritability filled his mind, and it was almost overflowing. When he felt Zhang Xinli and him getting closer and closer, that playful figure was unavoidably pressed against his waist, and with some breaths struggling, When the petty movements rubbed against him, Lin Jinyu knew that she had to stop.

He pretended to be woken up and turned around suddenly in Zhang Xinli's arms, and said, "What are you doing?"

Zhang Xinli was hugging him at first, but now he didn't go away, instead he raised half of his body, half covered him, looked at Lin Jinyu, and said, "Are you awake or asleep?"

"What?" Lin Jinyu smoothed her hair back and said, "What's wrong with you in the middle of the night?" He pushed Zhang Xinli outward with his elbow, "Get up."

Zhang Xinli didn't move, Lin Jinyu breathed out impatiently, and asked, "What exactly do you want?"

Zhang Xinli's eyes moved, and the hand on Lin Jinyu's left was retracted, as if he wanted to touch his face... I don't know if he was answering his question or just expressing comfort.

Lin Jinyu opened the hand with a "snap". He used a lot of energy, and the sound of skin and flesh hitting was clean and crisp: "Go away," he said, "Let me remind you, the day after tomorrow is the wedding."

Zhang Xinli didn't understand, so he said, "So what's the matter, what's the matter, I don't care."

"I have something to say," Lin Jinyu said: "Listen well, now you live your life and I live mine. I advise you to do what you promised, and choose a road and go to the dark. I hate words." and unbelievers."

Zhang Xinli was puzzled: "I don't understand what you are talking about."

"I don't understand, pull me down," Lin Jinyu waved him away, turned his hand and dropped most of his body under the bed, pulling back the quilt with only one corner on the bed, and said irritably, "Stay away from me, sleep, this sentence is understandable Yet?"

Zhang Xinli looked down at the small piece of bed sheet in front of him, and Lin Jinyu had the illusion of seeing "disappointment" in his eyes.

Disappointed, who should be disappointed? Annoyed and angry, he took his mobile phone from the bedside table, called up the alarm clock, and asked, "What time is the assembly tomorrow?"

Zhang Xinli replied, "I get up at five o'clock."

"Okay," Lin Jinyu set the time: "Have you made a list of what to buy?"

"Tobacco, alcohol, sugar, etc.," Zhang Xinli said, "It's for the banquet on the day of the wedding. There are few people there and we can't leave, so I'll go buy it."

Lin Jinyu thought that the "over there" he was talking about referred to the family of the woman who was about to marry him, and instantly became more annoyed and annoyed, but she just put on an "oh, that's it" look and said, "Yes, you are very diligent, you He will definitely be a good husband in the future." After speaking, he turned over and slept in his own bed, ignoring him.