God said I would meet you

She passed him, still kissing him a little rudely.

The cold wind was blowing, the weather was cold, and one piece of clothes was taken off, Lin Jinyu soon couldn't stand it anymore.He couldn't escape, so he had to bite Zhang Xinli's lips... At first, he wanted to force Zhang Xinli to stop and look at him, but Zhang Xinli panted a little harder, and directly hugged Lin Jinyu's thigh.

In this way, Lin Jinyu was taller than him. He struggled to break away from Zhang Xinli, and cursed: "Slow down, I will block you even if you dare to flirt, and you will be happy."

There is an old-fashioned latch window sill beside it. The glass is dirty and painted with old black paint. You can't see anything. I don't know if it is abandoned or an old window of an old residential house.

Zhang Xinli didn't even reply when he was scolded, he carried Lin Jinyu around half a circle, supported him, and let him sit on the window sill.

The two adjusted each other, Lin Jinyu huddled in the depression, Zhang Xinli covered him, so the wind could not blow in.

The broken window sill was covered in dust. Before Lin Jinyu could scold him for being so dirty and let him sit, Zhang Xinli had already leaned on the window sill and kissed him again. Lin Jinyu couldn't refuse this kiss...he didn't want to refuse either.

Sitting like this, he was slightly taller than Zhang Xinli, so he had to lean slightly.Lin Jinyu's legs were dangling, she simply rubbed against his waist, and finally got entangled.

With his eyes closed, he could hear the creaking sound of the fabric. This position is too high, it's not easy... After a while, Lin Jinyu felt that Zhang Xinli let him go temporarily, and whispered in his ear: "Get down, turn around."

Lin Jinyu didn't understand why, so Zhang Xinli couldn't help but hold him under his armpit and hug him down, let him turn around, and put his hands on the window sill.

Lin Jinyu's scalp began to tingle inexplicably, he turned half of his face and said, "Hey, aren't you..."

Zhang Xinli covered him from behind, with one hand on the outside of him supporting the window sill with him, and he didn't know what he was doing with the other hand.

……

"Hey..." Lin Jinyu began to resist: "You are crazy, I don't know if there is anyone here!"

Zhang Xinli pressed against him from behind, panting in his ear: "Either you are crazy, or I am crazy."

……

Lin Jinyu's heart was beating like a drum. He didn't know what Zhang Xinli wanted to do and what step he was going to take. He was just instinctively afraid.

Judging from the knowledge he acquired from Lin Ye, they couldn't do that directly...and the progress was too fast, he wasn't mentally prepared at all.

The average age of marriage in Shanghai is about 34 years old, while in Sichuan it is about 29 years old. This number is even lower in Liangshan. When the average age of marriage in Shanghai is rising year by year, in some places in Liangshan village officials have to go door to door to publicize the marriage law that stipulates that men should marry. No earlier than 22 years old, no earlier than 20 years old for women, no earlier than 20 and 18 years old for Yi people.

This means that Zhang Xinli's sexual concept may actually be more open than his. Around him, it is not uncommon for people of the same age in his 19s and 20s to get engaged, get married, or have relationships.

Lin Jinyu didn't know if he had any idea about this aspect, even if he had an idea... Sometimes men can't control anything because of their hormones.

"Zhang Xinli," Lin Jinyu called him, "Don't...you can't!"

Zhang Xinli stretched out one hand in front of him, pinched his chin with his jaws wide open, and put it close to his ear, saying, "What do you think I'm going to do?"

You want... Lin Jinyu actually doesn't know what he is going to do, probably because the colorful scenes have appeared too many times in his imagination and dreams, so when the two of them really have some intimate contact one day, Lin Jinyu It is easy to think of some random places to go.

Zhang Xinli said: "You are a man...so am I, do you know that?"

This sentence was so familiar, as if he had said it to Zhang Xinli... It was like the key that opened the door of memory, Lin Jinyu's heart moved suddenly, and suddenly said: "You... you actually remember that night, right? "

This time Zhang Xinli did not deny it, he said: "Lin Jinyu, are you really sure you love me? Love a man? Or do you think of me as a girl, or a companion that can be replaced."

What kind of girl...companion, Lin Jinyu does not deny that he has thought about this question, but the feeling is different: "I don't have one," he said, "...it's completely different."

"Really?" Zhang Xinli's mouth still pressed against his throat: "Then can you accept doing this kind of thing with a man?"

This kind of thing, what kind of thing... Lin Jinyu wants to hold hands with him, hug him, kiss him, and other things, he doesn't know if he can accept it, for example...

Seeing that he hadn't answered for a long time, Zhang Xinli lost his patience, and left with his hand on his neck... Lin Jinyu only heard a rustling sound.

Zhang Xinli pressed him from behind like this, sticking to his back.

This action is strong and cannot be rejected. In fact, Zhang Xinli may not really want to do anything, but just let him realize that love is not such a simple thing. It is not only an emotional connection, but sometimes it is also involved in physical sex. Together.

But Lin Jinyu had no way of knowing his exact thoughts, and the feeling that something was about to happen made him panic, and he didn't want to take that step...at least he was far from ready yet.

He began to resist and struggle, but Zhang Xinli restrained him from behind: "Can you accept it?"

"Let go..." Lin Jinyu couldn't turn around, so she could only be pressed against the edge of the window sill and tried to stop her: "Let go!"

There was faint anger in his voice, he liked Zhang Xinli, but it didn't mean that the other party could force and humiliate him wantonly.

Two or three seconds after the sound of "let go" dissipated in the alley, Lin Jinyu felt the touch disappear, and two or three seconds later, Zhang Xinli let him go.

The previous struggle was very exhausting. Lin Jinyu panted and turned around. Zhang Xinli stood in the dark and looked at him: "Jinyu," he said, "You can't accept it. Don't take this feeling as love. It's just a sin. An illusion by mistake."

Lin Jinyu said in her heart to fuck your mother, I don't accept it because I am not ready and you are forcing me.

He said: "Fuck off, even a woman would not accept doing that with you now, does this have anything to do with love or not?"

"Related," Zhang Xinli said in a low voice, "Ask yourself, do you really care about 'now' or 'doing', you can't accept this kind of thing happening with a man."

……

Lin Jinyu really didn't think about going to that step, no matter now or later, even if he was given Simmons immediately, he didn't want to do that with Zhang Xinli.

But even if they are gay, not every couple will do that, and some couples will not adopt the 10 way of life.

He said: "Do you have to be so far-fetched? I'm not against being with you...I'm just...just not ready for the time being, and..." Besides this way, he doesn't reject other forms of contact with Zhang Xinli.

Lin Jinyu leaned on the window sill. He was troubled by this meaningless debate, and his words became more and more rude: "You must use this method to prove whether my feelings for you are love, what about you? Show that you love me? "

"..." Zhang Xinli said, "No..."

"Isn't this your logic?" Lin Jinyu spoke quickly: "If this logic is valid, it can only come to 'I don't love you, you love me'; if it doesn't hold, it can only come to 'I love you, I share If you know what love is, you can’t have a set of logic that applies to me and doesn’t apply to you, right? Can you justify yourself?”

Zhang Xinli couldn't beat him, and said, "Okay, I don't want to discuss this issue with you, I..."

"So I love you, do you hear clearly?" Lin Jinyu said: "It's no use whitewashing the peace, just recognize the reality."

Now that he is really not afraid of anything, the separation is already doomed, so what else is there to be afraid of?

Zhang Xinli looked irritable and helpless, he said: "...Jinyu, you will meet many people in the future, and you will understand that a short-term heartbeat is not love."

Lin Jinyu really convinced him of his stubbornness. He felt that he was going crazy... Both sides were silent. After a while, Lin Jinyu suddenly stepped forward, knelt down in front of Zhang Xinli, and quickly reached out to untie his pants: "You must Do I dare to face the reality like this...you must make me like this..."

He moved very fast, fast, rude and crazy, Zhang Xinli went to stop him: "Don't do this...you get up..." He said: "Get up!"

……

Lin Jinyu waved his hand away, pulled down the last layer of underwear a little, and looked up at him.

It was obviously a matter of infinite lust, but Lin Jinyu's eyes were fierce and determined... Zhang Xinli took a breath and ended the farce.

He also knelt down in front of Lin Jinyu, hugged him, and said in his neck: "I can't..." Zhang Xinli's voice contained infinite pain: "I really can't...I can't be sorry to your grandpa, I can't be sorry to you dad."

"What does this have to do with my grandpa and dad?"

"They don't want to see this kind of thing," Zhang Xinli said, "They helped my family, helped my father... and sent me to go to school here, uncle..."

uncle?Uncle... Lin Jinyu felt sad and funny. He remembered what Lin Huainan said: "It doesn't matter what others do, and I don't discriminate against them, but you are different. You are my child."

The family should be one of the people who love him the most in the world, but it seems that they are often the family, and it is the most difficult to accept him for who he really is.

Lin Jinyu said: "Don't be uncle, uncle, do you know why you transferred schools?" With a broken mentality, he said: "Because he knows, he knows everything, your student status is not yours. It can't be done, but he just wants to send you away, just to play with you, just to make you empty the bamboo basket and start everything again! Do you understand?"

Zhang Xinli lowered his eyes, and after a while, he said, "Is that so..." He said, "So that's how it is."

"You hate him," Lin Jinyu said to him, "You can hate him."

However, after a short silence, Zhang Xinli said: "You are his son, there is nothing wrong with uncle choosing this way..."

He didn't complain or grit his teeth, he just said "nothing wrong" so lightly, as if he knew that the night when he was going to transfer to another school, he hugged Lin Jinyu tightly and snuggled into his arms like a child, but he wasn't himself.

Lin Jinyu hated the way he didn't say anything. He didn't say anything when he was happy or unhappy. He didn't say anything about loss, sadness, love or hate.

"What bullshit?" Lin Jinyu suddenly looked at Zhang Xinli angrily, and said, "If you're sad, just say it!"

Zhang Xinli still lowered his eyes, hiding his expression in his heart.Lin Jinyu's eyes were red, he raised his arms and hugged him back, and said, "I know you're sad...but why don't you tell me?"

"It's pretty good..." Zhang Xinli murmured mechanically: "My original life path should be like that. I just went back. There is nothing unreasonable."

He seems to have accepted the truth without any struggle...even though human beings' small struggles are not worth mentioning in the face of fate.

Zhang Xinli said: "Listen to your father... forget about me, you still have a long way to go."

forget?How could I forget, that was the person I loved at the best age in my life, who can forget?

Lin Jinyu is well aware of her powerlessness, but she is still not reconciled. People often say that it is not easy to meet someone who loves you, but in fact, meeting someone who can give you everything to love is also a miracle that cannot be repeated in our life .

He asked the last question in Zhang Xinli's ear, he said: "Have you ever loved me?"