God said I would meet you

The last lingering sigh-like lingering sound dissipated on the stage. Lin Jinyu bowed generously and gracefully at the curtain call. There was warm applause from the audience, and even the teachers kept nodding and applauding.

If the first few medleys are only the level of excellent works in middle school art performances, then the last classical piece has reached another level, and it is a serious and spiritual performance.

The logistics came up to move the props, and Lin Jinyu, Xu Zhao, and Huang Jiayao stepped off the stage together and returned to their own class.

"Yes, whale!" The boys came up one after another, hooked their shoulders and hammered him: "Nice, the music teacher is full of praise."

"That's right, it doesn't matter who I am." Lin Jinyu was hooked by them, and looked around for Zhang Xinli.

Xu Zhao was also very happy to be in the limelight, and said, "I'll treat you after the class meeting later, let's get together."

The boys all agreed, Lin Jinyu was absent-minded, got out from the hands of his good buddies, walked a few steps, looked around, and saw Zhang Xinli in the distance.

"Come here," Lin Jinyu said, "What are you doing standing so far away?"

Zhang Xinli walked towards him slowly, Lin Jinyu said, "Did you hear that?"

After a few seconds, Zhang Xinli replied, "I heard it."

"I heard it when I heard it. I dawdled for so long." Lin Jinyu looked frank and indifferent, without saying anything else, just said: "Let's go play together after the class meeting later, don't slip away by yourself."

"playing what?"

"You'll know when you arrive," Lin Jinyu said, "Aren't you... going to transfer schools? I'll practice it for you. Remember to wait for me after school."

Zhang Xinli didn't show much expression before the sensitive topic of "transfer", probably because he accepted the doomed fact, he just said calmly: "Okay."

After the performance, it was about four o'clock in the afternoon. All grades came out of the auditorium and returned to the teaching building for the class meeting.

This day is December 12st, Christmas, and tomorrow is the three-day New Year's Day holiday. Except for Lin Jinyu, everyone else has studied hard for a long time, and they can't wait to relax and have a good time.

The blackboard in the classroom is painted gaudyly with chalks of various colors. The fat Santa Claus and the chubby snowman embrace each other in love and hug each other. The blue whale is holding a fiery red lantern. In the center are four large Chinese characters painted as window grilles: Huan! Celebrating New Year's Day.

"Oh, the blackboard drawing of our cultural and entertainment committee is really good!" The boys came back to the class in groups, shocked by the huge and vivid chalk drawings. smile.

"The lottery has been drawn!" The cultural and entertainment committee member was a little girl who didn't dare to stand on the podium and yell at others. Qiao Qian went up to help her without saying a word, and knocked the pointer on the podium loudly: "Your gifts are all ready! No?"

Amidst the voices that filled the classroom one after another, there were several scattered "ready-ready-ready-"

"Speak up!" Qiao Mo said, "Draw lots when you're ready, and we'll be out of school after we get the presents!"

This time the voice was much louder, as if the roof was going to be blown off: "Ready! Ready! Okay! It's done!"

Lin Jinyu left her seat, walked to Zhang Xinli, and said, "Go up and draw lots."

"I haven't prepared anything," Zhang Xinli said, "Can you tell the class committee not to participate, don't put my student number in it, I won't smoke it, and I won't take it."

Exchanging gifts is a tradition in their class meeting on New Year’s Day. What you receive depends on luck. Some girls will prepare small scarves they knit or DIY biscuits, desserts, bracelets, etc. Boys buy sports headphones, mice, school bags, and snacks to give away It's almost the same as giving away, but Xu Zhao is too lazy to spend this thought, and fixes a 666 red envelope every year, and gives it to whoever gets it.

"That won't work," Lin Jinyu propped him up on the table, and said, "Our class has an even number of people. If you don't participate, it means that there is one person who has no one to exchange gifts. Isn't that bad?"

"This..." Zhang Xinli asked, "How do you exchange gifts when I'm not here?"

Lin Jinyu thought for a while and said, "Ms. Xia has prepared a copy, but this year you come, the teacher should not have prepared one."

"Then what should we do?" Zhang Xinli obviously didn't know what to do: "I'm really not prepared."

"You can take anything as a gift now." Lin Jinyu made a symbolic comment.He knew that it was impossible for Zhang Xinli to have anything decent as a present on his body now. Could it be a gel pen?Don't be kidding, the person who gave it won't be able to show it, and the person who received it will not be happy.

"Or..." He changed the subject: "You tell the cultural and entertainment committee that you will decide to draw my student number. I don't care. I don't lack this gift anyway."

This is an emergency solution, but Zhang Xinli still hesitates: "But then someone will give me a gift, but I don't give it to others, it's not fair... Otherwise, I will give you the gift I received later. "

"Why are you so grumpy?" Lin Jinyu pretended to be understated and said, "Then what if I get you, will you return it to me?"

"It can't be such a coincidence."

Lin Jinyu looked at him and said, "If it's such a coincidence, does it mean that we are destined?"

Zhang Xinli felt in his heart that this was an impossible event, with a probability of nearly one in fifty, how could it happen by such a coincidence.

Lin Jinyu said: "There are some things that you find unbelievable, but they just happen."

More than a dozen people on the stage had gone up to draw a number. Lin Jinyu got up and said, "Actually, I don't think it's possible, but let's take a draw and see. If you don't win, there's nothing you can do... But what if, what if the fate is here? ,right?"

Zhang Xinli didn't understand why he always emphasized that fate was not fate, Lin Jinyu raised an eyebrow at him, and turned to draw the student number on the podium.

The small cultural and entertainment committee member stood by the box where the balls of paper were placed, Lin Jinyu turned his back to the seats under the stage, and nodded to her.

The cultural and entertainment committee member pursed his lips, and quietly stuffed the small wrinkled piece of paper into his hand.

Lin Jinyu unfolded it to take a look, pretending to be very surprised, and turned over the note to the students below. A number equal to the number of people in their class was written on the note... which means that this student is all students in the class. The last one to report.

"Hey, I really got it," Lin Jinyu jumped off the podium, and returned to Zhang Xinli's seat with a look of surprise and disbelief: "This is too coincidental!"

"Why..." Zhang Xinli looked confused, "...Maybe."

"I don't know, why is it such a coincidence, maybe there is God's will in the dark." Lin Jinyu turned around, took out a box and put it in front of him: "Here, the gift I am going to exchange."

Zhang Xinli was still immersed in the unbelievable, and he opened the box mechanically... There was a small white box inside the big log-colored box, with a simple and elegant silver Apple logo on the bottom, and there seemed to be a necklace on the side.

The students around who saw it exclaimed, this is a damn big gift, a hundred times more attractive than Xu Dazhao's big red envelope, the transfer students are really lucky.

"This..." Zhang Xinli pushed the box back and said, "What is this? Jinyu, this is too precious."

Lin Jinyu knew that Zhang Xinli's first reaction would be to refuse, so he said indifferently, "Don't rush to make a fuss, I just prepared this, and it's not specially for you, so don't be moved, you're just lucky."

Zhang Xinli picked up the necklace beside the box, a small silver bullet was strung under the silver bead chain.

This was a deliberate deliberation disguised as a coincidence. Lin Jinyu actually prepared for a long time from choosing the model to choosing the color, to finding a master in an old shop for silver plating and choosing the silver chain.

Zhang Xinli still wanted to return the "premeditated plan" disguised as a coincidence: "Jinyu, you can't spend money like this. Anyway, I didn't prepare anything later, so you should take it back."

"What?" Lin Jinyu frowned and said, "I said I prepared this in the first place, and it wasn't for you alone. What's the point of returning it? Anyway, if you don't take it, I'll give it to someone else. Don't disappoint the good New Year's Day meeting." ?”

Zhang Xinli didn't want to make him unhappy, and was a bit in a dilemma. Lin Jinyu pushed the box back to him directly: "You keep it safe, the necklace is a gift, it's silver, don't lose it." After speaking, he stood up and returned to his seat. up.

The whole class was waiting for Xu Zhao's 666 red envelope drawing, but Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli didn't care.

……

After the class meeting, Xu Zhao put Lin Jinyu's shoulders on his shoulders and led a group of boys including Zhang Xinli out of the school gate in a mighty way: "Let's eat first, and go to the old place to get together after eating. No one is allowed to slip away!"

The "old place" is the one they used to frequent. It has a billiard room and a chess and card room, where they can play chess, sing songs, play billiards and so on.

Zhang Xinli couldn't evade the excuses, but finally accepted the phone and necklace, and only said that they would pay you back after work.

The word "return" made Lin Jinyu uncomfortable, even if it was changed to "send", it was always like this, as if Zhang Xinli owed him or their family something.

Only when we arrived at the place did everyone know that Xu Dazhao is really generous today, and he even booked the venue. The boys in the [-]s quickly occupied every corner of the bar. Lin Jinyu took a can of drinks from the boss and found Lin Ye in the crowd. It's there.

"Why does he..."

"He," Xu Zhao put his shoulders on his shoulders and clinked glasses with him: "I called him, after all, he is our 'professional mentor', let's play together."

Lin Jinyu thinks that Lin Ye is very nice and doesn't mind him coming to play together.

"Hey, let me say," Xu Zhao winked at him, "I didn't realize that you're quite romantic. Tell me honestly, who did you play that song for today?"

"What who..."

"Don't play dumb with me, when did it happen, which girl? Yes, Whale, the teacher is still sitting below, you dare to say it openly."

"Hehehehe." Lin Jinyu smiled awkwardly back, he thought that I would be okay with you complimenting me, but he is not "what girl", he is sitting diagonally across from you.

Zhang Xinli sat on the long sofa diagonally across from Xu Zhao, and casually took a drink.After such a long time of running in, he has a good relationship with the special students in the class, but he is not very familiar with the people around Xu Zhao. The two sides are not a group of people, and they don't play together very much, so they don't get along with anyone. Just the occasional small talk.

Lin Ye didn't even know the other seventeen or eighteen-year-old students, so he approached Lin Jinyu and Xu Zhao to ask them how the performance was going.

"It's great!" Xu Zhao slapped his thigh: "Our music teacher was shocked! He just boasted that the one who played the guitar was an unborn genius!"

The first half of the sentence was true, but the second half was purely his free play. Lin Jinyu beat him up and scolded with a smile, "Shameless."

Xu Zhao laughed for a while and then closed his voice: "But it's really good, especially the whale, who dares to use the song to confess his love! Talent!"

"Oh," Lin Ye asked knowingly, "Who are you confessing to?"

"I don't know that, so hurry up and ask me, which girl is it?"

Lin Ye saw Lin Jinyu's expression of rolling his eyes to the sky, and said, "Well...forget it, it's inconvenient to ask, you have to leave some private space for others."

He hugged Lin Jinyu as he said, "Come on, tell me how you played today."

Lin Jinyu was cornered by him, and Lin Ye clinked glasses with him: "What's your reaction, don't tell me he's an elm head."

"I don't know." Lin Jinyu looked at the field between his knees and said, "I guess he didn't hear the previous paragraph, but only the tune."

Lin Ye patted his head: "Stupid, that's enough, you should understand when you hear it."

Lin Jinyu recalled Zhang Xinli's reaction: "I always feel that he doesn't understand... He didn't respond at all."

"'Straight man' is really troublesome," Lin Ye said, "I don't feel it yet, either he's out of his mind, or he's just pretending to be stupid."

play dumb?Lin Jinyu said dully: "He doesn't look like..." He stopped talking halfway, and if Zhang Xinli was pretending to be stupid, he wouldn't be able to see it.

"It doesn't matter," he said, "I originally just wanted to tell the world, not to mention that I was really panicked, and I didn't expect to get any response."

"Tsk tsk tsk," Lin Ye said while drinking a drink, "Young man, let's aim higher."

The students around were playing chess, playing billiards, and singing, and the noise was very lively. Lin Jinyu automatically filtered out a certain buddy's outrageous tune, and kept huddling in the corner and muttering to Lin Ye.

Zhang Xinli has been looking at them intentionally or unintentionally, probably because Lin Jinyu and Lin Ye have been muttering for too long, Zhang Xinli finally walked towards them, lifted Lin Jinyu up and said, "Go play with others, don't keep talking here .”

Lin Jinyu habitually responded and stood up, but Lin Ye grabbed him and said, "Shouldn't we just talk for a while, are you so reluctant?" He said, "Are you jealous?"

Lin Jinyu was going crazy, my God, what the hell is Lin Ye talking about!

Zhang Xinli stood, looked down at him, and said, "I just asked him to communicate with his classmates more, and not to communicate too frequently with people in society."

"What kind of social person, it seems that I am very old," Lin Ye said, "I haven't graduated yet."

Zhang Xinli changed his words: "People outside the school."

The atmosphere between the two of them was not right. Although Zhang Xinli and Lin Ye had gotten to know each other a little bit because they were always rehearsing together a few days ago, they still couldn't say they were too familiar with each other. It was just a cold and reserved business partnership.

Lin Jinyu said: "Okay, okay, I just wanted to play chess with them, don't talk nonsense, why are you jealous, it's disgusting."

Lin Ye let out a "tch", and watched Lin Jinyu dragging Zhang Xinli away.

Over there, backgammon and chess were played on both sides, and they went hand in hand. There were only a few players playing chess, and a group of boys shouted loudly around. Lin Jinyu pulled Zhang Xinli into the battle, pointing to and fro.

In the corner, Lin Ye lit a cigarette, took a puff, and watched them from a distance through the misty smoke.

Lin Jinyu kept staring at the chess game, beeping at the tactics, but Zhang Xinli kept looking at him... But occasionally when Lin Jinyu raised his head to talk to him, he always looked away just right.

Lin Ye sneered and shook his head.

……

Drinking too much inevitably made her anxious, so Lin Jinyu left the happy crowd and turned into the corner bathroom.

Seeing him move, Lin Ye took a breath, waited for dozens of seconds, and followed him in.

Lin Jinyu came out after going to the toilet, and saw Lin Ye standing by the sink with no boiling water, so she didn't know what he was doing.

"What are you doing standing here?" He asked, "You're not going in."

"Smoking a cigarette," Lin Ye said, "What time do you plan to go back?"

"I don't know, let's see." Lin Jinyu didn't know why he asked this: "You go out to smoke, there are no girls here, a bunch of old men are not disgusted, why hide in the bathroom and smoke."

"Oh...that's it, I'm used to it," Lin Ye was delaying, "What are you thinking about your little boyfriend?"

"What are you thinking..." Lin Jinyu was at a loss: "Why are you asking this again?"

"Just ask," Lin Ye said, "You put so much effort into practicing a piece of music for two months, are you really satisfied with your current state? Didn't you have any other thoughts?"

"Can you have any other thoughts?" Lin Jinyu couldn't help feeling depressed when talking about this: "It's impossible to like me."

"Well... I don't think so," Lin Ye said, "Tell him."

"I already told him, just now..."

Lin Ye interrupted him: "I'm not talking about such cryptic hints, I'm talking about...tell him, in your native language, tell him clearly, so that he can't pretend to be stupid, and he can't avoid it. "

"Are you crazy?" Lin Jinyu said, "You don't think about the consequences..."

"What consequences could there be?" Lin Ye shook the soot, "Didn't you say he was going to transfer schools?"

"I'm going to transfer schools, but..."

"Since you have transferred to another school, what worse consequences can there be, and it's not that you really want to come out to the world," Lin Ye said: "At present, this matter can still be just a matter between the two of you. If you If you want an answer, tell him, if you are really such a saint, vowing to carry your secret love to the end, and never thought of asking for an answer... then just pretend I didn't say it."

Although Lin Jinyu always said that he didn't have any extravagant hopes, and that he would be satisfied if he could have a chance to express it to Zhang Xinli, but was that really all he wanted?

"I..." Lin Jinyu muttered for a long time: "I'm afraid he will alienate me."

"Oh, that would be so much fun," Lin Ye said, "You know that the most tormenting thing is not strangers, but the tricks of straight men, who obviously don't like you but still tease you, making you toss and turn, under the big tree Counting the petals..." He asked, "Do you think the pain should be severed with a knife, or the pain of thinking about it day and night?"

"..." Lin Jinyu didn't speak, but said in her heart: the most painful thing is the slim hope, probably people are so cheap, if they don't tell you it's impossible, they can't give up on torturing themselves.

Lin Ye said: "So tell him, just give yourself a sense of ritual, and then welcome the result... To be honest, I think your little straight man feels the same way about you as you do about him. If you love each other , just get ready to face hardships, remember "Symphony of Destiny"? Notes burst out from the flames, and only resistance is the only way out."

The bathroom in the clean bar is a one-way exit, and the sink is in the middle. Lin Ye deliberately stood facing the exit, so that Lin Jinyu had to turn his back to the exit when talking to him.

"It can't be...he won't..." won't love me.

Out of the corner of his eye, Lin Ye saw the familiar corner of his clothes reflected in the mirror: "You don't believe it?" He suddenly lowered his voice and said something strange: "Then why don't you make a bet that he will come over after seeing it?"

Lin Jinyu turned his back to the bathroom door and couldn't see what was going on behind him. He asked in a daze, "What?" Lin Ye suddenly came over, almost face to face with him... He was too close Now, the pale lips are almost only two fingers away from his.

Lin Ye looked at him and whispered, "Can I really kiss you?"

"What?" Lin Jinyu was startled, and subconsciously leaned back, trying to jump away, but Lin Ye reacted quickly and pressed the back of his neck: "Shh," he said, "Be careful if you are found out to be acting. "

Lin Ye just clasped his neck and didn't really kiss him. Lin Jinyu looked blank, not knowing what was going on, but Lin Ye closed his eyes and turned his face slightly.

Lin Jinyu could only see his expression that seemed to be very devoted and intoxicated, and Lin Ye's breath brushed his cheek lightly, like a gentle wind.

Lin Ye is an adult, most of his shoulders block him, there is a corner at the door, and when he looks sideways, he just can't see the other side reflected in the mirror, and with the cover of his arm, from behind, they look like a pair immersed in heat. Kissing couple.

Lin Jinyu was immersed in a daze, until the sound of hurried footsteps broke the silence of the bathroom, she grabbed his shoulders with both hands, and pulled him away forcefully. Lin Jinyu saw Zhang Xinli rushing forward to touch Lin Ye's chest. Pushed him until he hit the hard sink.

The remaining water stains stained his clothes, Lin Ye smiled indifferently, and said, "Why, is it too rude of you to do this?"

"I'm not polite and want others to be polite to you?" Zhang Xinli was obviously very angry: "Go as far as you can."

"Why am I being impolite?" Lin Ye said, "Didn't you see that, and I didn't force him, who are you, please be lenient."

"Hey..." Lin Jinyu also recalled: "What kind of plane are you doing, we don't have..."

But Zhang Xinli couldn't listen to what he said, he said to Lin Ye: "I've said it before, don't try to think of him."

"Your reaction is really funny," Lin Ye continued to ridicule him: "You discriminate against gays? Why?"

"Whatever you like, I don't care if you like men or women, but he can't," Zhang Xinli said, "Stay away from him!"

Lin Jinyu went up and tugged him: "Hey, I didn't..."

Zhang Xinli fended him off with a wave of his hand, and pushed him back, "Be honest," he said, "Your account will be settled with you later."

What is my account?Lin Jinyu was also angry when he was so merciless, what happened to me, murdered or set fire?So indiscriminate!

"Are you settling accounts with me?" Lin Jinyu said coldly: "Is it your turn to settle accounts with me?" He said: "A group of psychopaths have something to do with me. You beat me however you like, and you fiddle around as you like. I will not accompany you." After speaking, there was no unnecessary movement, and he turned his face and walked out.

"Jinyu!" Zhang Xinli called him from behind, but Lin Jinyu didn't look back.

He walked out of the bathroom door quickly, with a gust of wind, Xu Zhao said: "Hey, whale! Where are you going?"

Lin Jinyu said loudly: "Hide from the idiot!"

He angrily walked out of the gate of Qing Bar all the way, and was finally overtaken by someone at a corner not facing the street.

Zhang Xinli grabbed his elbow and said, "Jinyu! Can you stop flirting like this?"

"Who is throwing face?" Lin Jinyu said: "Didn't you throw face? You two are baffled, are you fucking playing with me? Who do you think I am? There are so many lectures, I am the kind..." He was so angry that he lost his face, and said loudly: "A person who is messing with a man he has known for three months in the bathroom!"

He was not only angry that Zhang Xinli talked about him indiscriminately, but also angry that he didn't seem to understand his intentions no matter what, and also angry that he was so cowardly, but he didn't dare to tell him clearly.

It was already dark, and although there were not many people at the corner during this time, there were always two or three pedestrians passing by here. Zhang Xinli looked around uneasy, and pulled him into a narrow dark alley behind the Qing Bar. He swung it heavily and said, "Do you know what you are doing?"

"I didn't do it, I didn't do anything!" Lin Jinyu said, "I don't like him, don't you understand!"

"Then don't get so close to him!" Zhang Xinli was also angry: "You don't like him now, but he has thoughts about you. Why do you want to be so close to him if you don't like him?"

"Who said he has thoughts about me?" Lin Jinyu felt that this was nonsense: "I'm close to him, why are you so anxious?"

"I..." Zhang Xinli said, "I'm afraid that you will gradually like him..."

Lin Jinyu was in an atmosphere of quarreling, anger, disappointment, sadness, and twists occupied his entire brain, so much so that he ignored the fact that "Zhang Xinli naturally acquiesced that men can like men": "I don't like him!" He Finally said loudly: "I like you!"

This roar, which was similar to a roar, exploded in the dark and unlit alley, and Zhang Xinli suddenly fell silent.

"It's you I like..." Lin Jinyu seemed to have finally let go of some heavy burden, and murmured, "Only you, always...you."

Occasionally, yellow and white car lights swept across this small, unnoticed space. Lin Jinyu didn't look up to see Zhang Xinli's expression, but just grabbed the clothes on his upper arm.

At this moment, the doubts accumulated in his heart for a long time poured out like a flood, Zhang Xinli's various reactions when he saw Lin Ye kissing him, those ambiguous moments and the night of surging hormones... Lin Jinyu lowered her head slightly , black forehead hair scattered on his smooth forehead.

He said, "Actually... you already knew that, didn't you?"

Zhang Xinli did not speak. He had been silent since the very beginning. The bar street not far away was brightly lit. They were two lonely shadows in the city.

"It doesn't matter whether you know it or not," Lin Jinyu said to himself, "Whether you know it or not...I love you."

"What are you talking about?" He felt a pair of hands supporting his elbow, and Zhang Xinli's voice sounded above his head: "Don't make such a joke."

"I'm not joking!" Once Lin Jinyu said it, he couldn't stop, he almost went crazy holding back these words: "I'm not joking, I love you, I really... love you."

"Listen, today is not April Fool's Day, don't do such inexplicable..."

Lin Jinyu looked up at Zhang Xinli's opening and closing lips, and couldn't help but lean forward and touch his lips suddenly and firmly.

Zhang Xinli seemed to lose his ability to speak in an instant, and all his words disappeared.

Lin Jinyu looked into his eyes very closely, and repeated again: "I love you, do you believe it now?"

Zhang Xinli's breathing became slightly rapid, and he seemed to become panicked in an instant: "You...you don't love me," Zhang Xinli said in a low voice, "Lin Jinyu, you can't love me, we are all..."

"What is it? A man?" Lin Jinyu smiled self-deprecatingly: "I know, you can't accept this kind of thing, do you think I'm very perverted, or something special?"

Zhang Xinli was just breathing, with complicated expressions in his eyes.

"Speak," Lin Jinyu stared at him viciously: "I hate that you always don't say anything. And even if you think I'm abnormal, you can't help it. You made me like this."

"I don't want this," Zhang Xinli looked at the ground next to him: "I don't want this..."

It doesn’t matter if you don’t want to, Lin Jinyu doesn’t think about it, if people are a precision instrument, if everyone can consciously choose who to love and who not to love, there probably won’t be so many unloved poems in this world .

Lin Jinyu said: "Don't pretend to be innocent. If you don't want to say anything now, why did you carry me on your back, why did you teach me to peel onions, why did you accompany me, and why did you love me?"

Although maybe just love him like a younger brother.

Zhang Xinli just murmured: "I don't want...I can't control it..."

Lin Jinyu didn't know the exact thoughts in his heart, and he had no way of knowing all the struggles and pains in Zhang Xinli's heart at the moment. He felt that Zhang Xinli was trying to stay out of the matter, and it was his wishful thinking that gave birth to this abnormal love. It was him, it was always just him.

The salty feeling filled his chest, like sea water flowing over his heart, Lin Jinyu pushed him, and said viciously: "You don't want to, you don't want to...don't act like you are so innocent, you are the one who caused the trouble, you know I want to hide, hide forever, you acquiesced, the first time, that night you don't remember... dare you say that you have never had any impulse towards me? "

If they had never had any cross-border physical contact, Lin Jinyu might not have so many extravagant hopes and fantasies... That night that did not exist in Zhang Xinli's memory was the beginning of Lin Jinyu crossing the line.

Zhang Xinli was silent, he should have denied it, but he couldn't deny it.

"Do you want to touch me every time I hug you? Don't you?"

Under Lin Jinyu's increasingly aggressive questioning, Zhang Xinli finally said: "Enough, no...it's not like this, that's wrong, we are too restless at this age, it doesn't mean..."

"Doesn't that mean you will react?" Lin Jinyu took a step forward, his chest was almost touching Zhang Xinli's chest, his tea-brown eyes reflected the faint neon light: "Do you want to try?"

……

(The following youknow~um...)

From the initial resistance and rejection towards himself, to the later shame, escape, and then to the pain of not getting what he wanted...Lin Jinyu's state of mind has changed several times. He used to be afraid of what he was different from others, and he also hated himself, but now, Everything doesn't seem so important anymore.

They're going to separate, whether it's love, perversion, or nausea, in another 20 days, everything will cease to exist.

This kind of mentality of "no tomorrow after today" often makes emotional people fall into a state of "evil is born on the edge of courage", grasping what can be grasped now, without thinking about any future.

So when Lin Jinyu kissed Zhang Xinli again, he didn't have any hesitation, hesitation or timidity, even that kiss was bold.

Without the shyness, charm and eagerness of any girl, Lin Jinyu kissed him so boldly and directly, with her lips pressed against his lips, and her hand clasped his neck, making Zhang Xinli unable to avoid it.

Zhang Xinli's breath sprayed lightly on his face, it was a man's smell that he was very familiar with.

The gravel was run over by the upper of the shoe, making a rustling sound. Zhang Xinli subconsciously took a few steps back, pushing Lin Jinyu's upper arm, wanting him to stop this wrong farce, but Lin Jinyu resisted tit-for-tat and followed his footsteps Going forward, pushing his hand away, just kissing him with all her heart.

Zhang Xinli's back hit the rough wall of the dark alley with a muffled sound. Looking down, he could see Lin Jinyu's slightly trembling eyelashes and those beautiful closed eyes... These eyes are always full of vigor, unlike any pair of eyes he had ever seen.

Lin Jinyu pushed his hand away, felt that Zhang Xinli stopped backing up, stuck out his tongue, and touched his lips lightly.

In fact, he had no experience at all, he only knew the general idea on paper, and this light lick was a temptation. He felt Zhang Xinli's heart beat faster, and he breathed, and it beat on his heart.

Lin Jinyu opened her eyes slightly, looked at Zhang Xinli, and further deepened the kiss.

He wouldn't have dared to do this without all the previous contacts, but whether it was in the bathroom or in the car, or the night that Zhang Xinli couldn't remember a long time ago... There are signs that Zhang Xinli probably doesn't hate contact with him very much.

But it was only in theory, the moment Lin Jinyu really went in, she was still uneasy.

He kissed Zhang Xinli's lips, then leaned in, and kissed him deeply with restraint but passion.

Zhang Xinli looked around several times, as if he wanted to call his name, but for some reason he didn't make a sound.

Lin Jinyu took advantage of this dazed effort to really reach in and touch Zhang Xinli's warm tongue.

It was a desperate lingering, I don't know how long it took... like 1 years, or just a moment, Lin Jinyu felt a pair of hands reach out and hold his cheeks.

He was startled, and suddenly opened his eyes, Zhang Xinli's face was close at hand, those dark eyes were closed... Lin Jinyu really felt something hooked his tongue, and began to respond to him.

In the warm and passionate entanglement, Lin Jinyu felt as if he had been caught. He obviously started it himself, but he seemed unable to get away.

The long kiss made him feel hypoxic, Lin Jinyu felt like a fish in a steamer, hypoxic and hot, he wanted to take it easy, but Zhang Xinli didn't let him go.

Lin Jinyu groaned inexplicably, wanting Zhang Xinli to let him go, but Zhang Xinli kissed him harder. His hand holding Lin Jinyu's cheek slowly moved to the middle, and the tiger's mouth was stuck between his neck, and then it went down inch by inch. , brushed his Adam's apple, and touched his collarbone.

...It's winter, and there are thick sweaters and woolen vests below. Zhang Xinli reached down and lifted the hem of his clothes, but because there were too many clothes and it was inconvenient to move, it was just scratching the surface.

Lin Jinyu finally found a reason to pant, and pressed against his chest to push him away... Zhang Xinli temporarily separated from him, panting lightly and looking at him.

The two looked into each other's eyes under the occasional car lights that swept in, and there was no one around, only the sound of their breathing in the whole alley.

Lin Jinyu was also panting a little. He looked into Zhang Xinli's eyes, grabbed the hem with his backhand, and took off the heavy sweater.

Zhang Xinli's hand came in again, Lin Jinyu kissed him while letting his calloused and scarred hand walk on her lower back and back.

The second kiss was even more intense than the first, as if they both put everything aside for a moment and just kissed regardless.

Zhang Xinli's clothes were much easier to take off than Lin Jinyu's. Lin Jinyu unzipped his coat and unbuttoned his plaid shirt indiscriminately, while Zhang Xinli hugged his waist, and the hand that had been stretched in reached in from behind the waistband of his trousers.

While they took off each other's clothes like a game, Zhang Xinli still refused to let go.