if only hug

When all the illusions were shattered by a casual remark, Wu Xie just felt ridiculous.Rubbing his cheeks stiff with a smile, he skillfully lit a cigarette and sat in the car smoking silently.The wind is blowing hard, the weather forecast says it will snow tomorrow, winter is already here, next week is Christmas, and in a blink of an eye, it has been almost two years.

Sitting in the car, those memories that he didn't dare to touch flooded into his mind like a long-lost flood. Wu Xie didn't stop him. He quietly puffed out smoke rings, closed his eyes slightly, and imagined the familiar dining table, the one who saw The person who frowns at carrots, the self who habitually picks up the red objects on the plate... Everything is clearer than he imagined, and Wu Xie even felt that as long as he raised his hand, he could touch it. To the corners of his brows, his deep eyes, the curvature of his face...

For a long time, he just wanted to forget, wanted to forget the warmth that he could no longer touch, but he didn't know what those specifically referred to, and he didn't know where this almost paranoid idea came from. He just kept working hard, waiting When I came back to my senses, I realized that my increasingly tired heart was so painful.Then one day, when he looked at the porcelain plate without a piece of carrot, he suddenly realized that the forgetting he had tried so hard to achieve was so ridiculous.It turned out that he learned to drive a car, learn to draw architectural drawings, learned to smoke, and even learned to calculate people, but he still couldn't learn to get used to being without him.

Wu Xie took a deep breath of the light blue smoke, and leaned back on the seat weakly.Brother, when did getting used to you become my habit?

Snowflakes are falling quietly over this lonely city, beautiful and sad.In stark contrast, there is a noisy underground bar in Hangzhou——

The black glasses opened the curtain, and he scanned keenly, and immediately found a person drinking quietly in the corner. The aura exuding from him was obviously incompatible with this crazy place, and he was easy to identify.The black glasses passed through the dancing men and women, and sat down on the sofa opposite, crossing their legs.

"What's the matter, I'm in such a hurry, I haven't even bought any cigarettes."

As soon as the words fell, a bag of familiar things was thrown from the opposite side. The black glasses caught it and grinned: "It seems to be a big deal."

Zhang Qiling didn't speak, and lowered his head, taking sips of his wine, his black glasses didn't stop him, he just took out a cigarette and smoked on his own.A slow song was changed on the dance floor, and the swinging crowd gradually slowed down following the rhythm of the music. The black glasses glanced at the person in front of him. This person was more silent than before. He didn't talk much. Since Wu Xie left Well, for more than a whole year, the total number of words he said did not exceed ten sentences, and his face was so cold that ice scum could fall off.

But the black glasses could not dissuade him, he remembered the day Zhang Qiling decided to let Wu Xie leave, he asked him why, Zhang Qiling just shook his head lightly, and asked, when the fear of losing him is greater than the desire to have him, how would you choose?The black glasses were dumb, and then he smiled. He thought of his own person, so they were all the same.

"The preparations that should be made are all done?" The black glasses broke the silence, and the other party didn't speak. The black glasses glanced at the wound on his wrist, understood, and continued to ask, "For the sake of such an old friend Come on, if you fail, I will collect your body for you."

Zhang Qiling, who was pouring wine, suddenly paused, then took out a check from one side, threw it over with a flick of his finger, and took it with black glasses, obviously a little unbelievable, raised the glasses and looked carefully, it was indeed that huge number .He suddenly stopped smiling, and his expression suddenly became serious: "Mute, are you serious?"

The person opposite was still silent, and the black glasses clicked his tongue: "Are you sure? Collecting corpses is not worth the price, and I always collect corpses for free."

Zhang Qiling supported the sofa and stood up, sweeping away the darkness of the past, his eyes were empty at the moment: "Half of the shares of Crescent Real Estate, the car, the house and the apartment, I have all transferred to your name."

The black glasses sneered: "Are you confessing your last words? If you want to give it to you, you should give it to that kid."

"He doesn't need it, and he won't."

"Damn, then don't give it to me, I do everything with a price tag, your life is not worth so much money."

Zhang Qiling shook his head silently: "I will buy you for the rest of my life."

The black glasses were obviously taken aback, and Zhang Qiling gave him a solemn look.

"Protect him for me."

After all, he turned and left without looking back.

When Wu Xie drove back home, it was already dark, and a layer of white snow had accumulated on the ground, which was faintly glowing under the reflection of the street lamps.

Back in the dormitory, opened the door, and saw the green plant on the window sill in a blink of an eye. Wu Xie approached, and was surprised to find that a small flower bud had grown between the branches. He was busy with school affairs these days, so he didn't take care of it properly. , It's really uplifting, Wu Xie looked at the bud and smiled.The camellia is not particularly cold-resistant, and I don't know what to do to maintain it. Wu Xie scratched his head, grabbed the key and went downstairs.When she came to the flower shop, the lady proprietress was about to close the door. She saw Wu Xie and warmly invited him in for tea. Wu Xie glanced at the inner hall where the lights had been turned off, smiled and refused, and simply asked for some knowledge. And bought a pack of flower fertilizer.When leaving the store, Wu Xie glanced at the post-it notes on the wall, and the one he wrote was still posted on it. Wu Xie couldn't help but sigh, the quality of foreign post-it notes is really good, and it hasn't broken after more than a year. If it were in China, it would have been rotten to mud.

"Written by an old customer, we won't take it away." The proprietress smiled and interrupted Wu Xie's thoughts.

Wu Xie nodded, and took another look. His own copy was written in Chinese, which seemed particularly abrupt in the middle of the wall full of German. When I wrote this note, I was probably full of expectations. Wu Smiling evilly, he turned and left.

"The proprietress said that you can make a wish when the flowers bloom. What is your wish?"

The snowflakes were still falling quietly, Wu Xie wrapped her scarf tightly, breathed out with her hands, and walked slowly on the snow.In the quiet alley, under the dim street lamps, pieces of white elves floated towards the world gracefully, the light and shadow intertwined, unexpectedly it was a familiar scene again, just thinking about it again, now he is not as heartbroken as before, yes, memories Flooded in every corner of life, if the heart hurts all the time, how can we live?

The buds grow very fast, and within a week, the tips of the buds have gradually revealed a little bit of white, waiting to bloom at any time.

Wu Xie sat in front of the desk in a daze, propped her head and stared at the flowers in a daze, tonight was Christmas Eve, thousands of houses were lit up outside, the streets were empty, only snowflakes fell quietly.The family members, the family members will gather together for the holidays, sighed almost unrecognizably, Wu Xie lowered his head and continued the work at hand, yes, he is still alone.

The ink of the brush was suddenly used up. He obviously wanted to invest a little, but he didn't even give him this chance. Wu Xie squeezed the sore and swollen eyebrows, put on his coat and got up to go out.Next to the art gallery two stops away, there is a small shop specializing in drawing pens, which has everything you can expect.

The snow is too thick and it is inconvenient to drive. It is not far anyway. Wu Xie put his hands in his pockets and bowed his head to meet the snow. When he arrived at the shop, the boss was reading a book and drinking hot cocoa. Post the bill, open the door and leave.Since he came to Germany, he has never asked his family for a penny. Although there will be a large sum of money in the account every month, he will transfer all the money back, and will not even deduct the handling fee. , but pay for it yourself.He himself couldn't explain why he did this, maybe subconsciously, he still hoped that he could be as independent as that person.

When it snows, the road is very slippery. Usually, there will be traffic police on duty at the intersection in this kind of weather, but unexpectedly there is no traffic police today, probably because of Christmas.

After crossing the road, Wu Xie was about to go back, when suddenly a scream came from behind, Wu Xie suddenly turned around, and saw an apparently speeding off-road vehicle running through a red light and approaching a little boy behind him , the boy froze on the spot and was completely frightened. Seeing the car getting closer and closer, Wu Xie had an impulse from nowhere. He stepped forward and hugged the little boy, just a second before the off-road vehicle hit him, " With a squeak, he put his elbows on the ground and drew a few meters away on the snow.

The spectators around were stunned by this scene. After a long time, someone took out their phone and started calling the police car.The child's mother ran over with her bag in her hands. Wu Xie let go of her hand. The child was stunned for two seconds before he realized it. He stood there with a "wow" and began to cry loudly.The child's mother didn't seem to be very enthusiastic about Wu Xie's help. She just smiled lightly and carried the child away. Wu Xie didn't speak. Saving people was originally out of instinct, and she didn't expect others to be kind to him. Thanks.Some of the spectators came forward to ask, and Wu Xie told them in proficient German that it was all right, and then he was about to stand up while supporting the snow.Wu Xie gritted her teeth with a frown, forced herself to stand up, and looked down, her wrist was twisted strangely.Without seeking help from anyone, Wu Xieqiang endured the piercing pain and went to the hospital. There were very few people in the hospital, so he took a film and put on a plaster cast. The doctor on duty told him that it was just a dislocation and a slight bone fracture, but it was enough. He has been hanging his arm for half a month.

It's okay to say nothing else, Wu Xie's biggest headache is that he is doing design, and it will be quite troublesome to lose one hand.In order to make money, he took a lot of orders from the society. With such pressure, he would run out of food before he got his hands.

Returning to the dormitory exhausted, Wu Xie felt dizzy while lying on the bed. In fact, he still had some injuries on his body. A large piece of skin was scratched on his leg, but he was too lazy to take off his coat, so he lay on his stomach. He fell asleep just like that.

The big city in Germany is quiet, so quiet that only snowflakes are left wantonly dancing outside the window. In sleep, it is still the same face. In the dimness, it seems that some light and shadow are changing outside the eyelids, and the forehead is slightly cool. It must be dawn, Wu Xie murmured.

I don't know how long I slept until a scent of fragrance penetrated into my nostrils, and Wu Xie slowly opened his eyelids. Strangely, the sky was not bright yet, and he habitually turned his head to look at the camellias. Surprisingly, the flowers were not on the window sill , fell down?Wu Xie's chaotic mind suddenly cleared up, and immediately propped himself up and got out of bed, the quilt fell to the ground with a "squeak", followed by the overwhelming cold, Wu Xie froze in place, looked at the pajamas on his body, sleeping Before...he didn't take off his clothes before going to bed, and there was a quilt, who covered him with the quilt?

The heart that had been sinking for two years suddenly came to his throat, and a bold speculation suddenly jumped into his mind. Just thinking about it made Wu Xie yell almost uncontrollably, is it possible?is it possible?

Regardless of the hand that was still in plaster, Wu Xie quickly jumped out of the bed and ran to the balcony barefoot. The flowers were still there, but they were moved from the window sill to the side near the room.Wu Xie suddenly remembered that the proprietress had told him that camellias were not very cold-resistant, and that they had to be moved into the house when it snowed. Wu Xie stretched out his hand and touched the flower pot tremblingly.The flowers bloomed, and the thin white petals bloomed one by one, neat and moist. Although there were only two flowers, the faint fragrance of the flowers was enough to fill this small house. It was not strong, but refreshing, and the fragrance of the flowers Wu Xie will not forget the faint breath remaining under the cover, even in another 100 years, there will be no one else, there will be no one else...

Trembling uncontrollably, he hurriedly put on his coat, threw his socks aside, and before he could tie his shoelaces, Wu Xie broke through the door and chased him out. He has been here, he has really been here...

In the empty alley, there was no one there, and there were four footprints on the thick snow, following the footprints on the snow step by step, Wu Xie couldn't restrain the urgency in his heart, and walked faster and faster, In the end, he started to run wildly on the snow.Snowflakes fluttered on his body, on his head, and even on his bandages. Holding his breath, he turned a few alleys, but he never saw the familiar figure. The footprints were too messy, and Wu Xie knew the footprints There was one of them that he was looking for, but he chased after the footprints again and again, but he couldn't find that person no matter what.

Until today, Wu Xie knew that in the past two years, he had never forgotten this person, and his love for him had never diminished. Not only did it not decrease, but it became stronger under the fermentation of time Now, he no longer wants to suppress, no longer wants to hide, he misses him, meets him, misses him very much.

At this moment, the longing that had been suppressed for two years suddenly swept all his rationality out of control. He clenched his teeth and ran wildly on the snowy ground. His chest heaved violently, and his arms throbbed with pain. He couldn't understand it. He just wants to see him, he wants to hear him talk, he wants to touch his face, he wants to reach out and hug him...

In the empty alley, large flakes of snowflakes fell profusely. Wu Xie finally lost his strength and knelt down on the ground. He coughed twice and supported the snow with one hand. Despair, despair again, this is a deeper despair than last time .

Can't find it, he can't find it.

"Brother——" Wu Xie panted heavily, raised his head, his eyes were reddened, and shouted at the quiet empty alley, "Come out——"

"Zhang Qi Ling--"

"You come out—"

"I know you're here, come out the fuck—"

The hoarse shout echoed in the empty alley, but the only answer to him was the snowflakes falling quietly all around, covering the sky and covering the sky.

The heart is like the most brilliant firework in summer, rising suddenly, exploding, and falling suddenly.

"I miss you so much, I really miss you so much..." Wu Xie supported his body weakly, choked up against the snow, "I can't find you, don't hide from me, okay, I know you're here Everything around here is good, let me meet you, just one time, just one time... as long as you are your younger brother..."

The snowflakes are flying, everything is quiet, and the tears that have not been shed for two years suddenly burst the embankment at this moment.

Anjiuxi

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