if only hug

In the first autumn when he came to Germany, the flower seedlings finally took shape. Wu Xie went to the flower shop to change a big flowerpot. It can produce large camellia flowers.Wu Xie smiled and nodded to thank him. Before leaving, the proprietress called him, Wu Xie turned her head, the proprietress squinted her eyes and pointed to the new store regulations at the door of the store. It turned out that she wanted him to help write some post-it notes and stick them on the wall to attract customers.Wu Xie took the paper, hesitated for a long time but could not write. The proprietress saw his embarrassment, and told him with a smile that he could write some opinions on the shop, or on the person you love. When it arrives, it may be possible to create a relationship.When the proprietress smiled, her cheeks were red, like a girl in first love. Wu Xie was a little surprised. After several inquiries, she found out that the proprietress was going to remarry. Wu Xie was very surprised. Unlike the polite and red tape outside, Wu Xie's blessing this time is serious, and the other party is obviously very happy that someone can share this joy with him, and warmly invites him to the wedding.During the time of the wedding, there was an important class, Wu Xie thought about it, but declined, the proprietress was not annoyed, and said that she must take Wu Xie to visit her fiancé's studio, Wu Xie nodded and agreed.

I went to find out that the fiance of the proprietress is a wax figure master. He opened a private wax figure museum by himself. He is well-known in the local area. The master's craftsmanship is very good. The wax figures he makes can be faked, so people who come to him every day There is an endless stream.But this master is very strange, he doesn't take all the orders, especially the wax figures of people, he is only willing to make people who have eyes, and according to himself, if you don't have feelings for this person, the wax figures you make will not It will look good, Wu Xie absolutely believes what he said, because the most realistic and similar thing in the whole museum is the wax figure of the proprietress. At first glance, Wu Xie almost thought it was a real person.

After visiting the wax figure, he drank some self-brewed beer with the master proprietress. Wu Xie thanked him respectfully, and then left. When he was leaving, the proprietress personally sent him to the door. He said to the proprietress in German, he is a good man, and he loves you very much. The proprietress smiled and nodded, saying that she is very happy now, and then looked at Wu Xie's thin cheeks, and persuaded you to find someone you love to live with. Don't always be immersed in the past, time waits for no one, Wu Xie nodded, turned around, got in the car and left.

Autumn in Germany is very cold, there are few people on the street, the leaves are fluttering, and the withered yellow leaves are gliding and floating over the car windows and being crushed under the tires. Under the gray sky, there is a desolate scene.

Wu Xie turned on the air conditioner to the maximum, but the cold still couldn't restrain the sudden rise from his back.

It turns out that the coldest thing is not darkness, but being alone.

Back home, Wu Xie picked up the long-lost drawing book and began to write——

Brother, how are you? What are you doing at this time? It will rain in Hangzhou today. Have you brought an umbrella?

You don't have to worry about me, I'm fine, really, look, I haven't written to you for a while, I've gotten used to life here, after a while, I might really forget you Woolen cloth.

The people here are very kind to me, but I can't become friends with them. Do you think I have lost the ability to have feelings?

The flower seedlings are growing very well, even better than me. The proprietress said that at this time next year, they will be able to bloom. At that time, where will you be?

It also snows here in winter, brother, when it snows, don’t forget to add a coat, you always only wear a hoodie, it will be cold.

Brother, I haven't dreamed of you for a long time, and I feel more and more that missing you is more terrifying than missing you. I'm really afraid that one day I will forget you like this.I regret so much, I didn’t take a good look at you in the past so much time, your eyebrows, your eyes, your lips, the way you are in a daze, the way you read a book, the way you rub my hair... I haven't had time to engrave them firmly in my mind. The time is terrible. If one day these pictures fade away and all memories about you disappear, I will still be your Wu evil?

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Winter in Germany comes very late, today is Valentine's Day, the streets and alleys are full of red roses, symbolizing endless love.The sky cleared up after the snow, Wu Xie didn't drive, and wandered around the street alone, he needed some sunshine.Yesterday was Chinese New Year's Eve, Wu Xie spent the whole night reading books alone in the dormitory, and was awakened by Xiao Hua's transoceanic phone call in the morning, Wu Xie was very curious about how Xiao Hua knew his number, Xiao Hua was on the other end of the phone Laughing all the time, saying that you thought we would forget you if you were far away, Wu Xie didn’t say anything, Xiaohua explained, because the two schools have a cooperative relationship, it is not difficult to find information about exchange students in Germany, as long as Put some thought into it, there is always a way.Xiao Hua's tone was flat, Wu Xie stood alone in the empty room, silent for a long time, it was too easy for Zhang Qiling to find him, with his ability, it was too easy, but no, for a whole year, no...

After hanging up the phone, Wu Xie clutched the phone tightly, it was funny, he suddenly thought it was funny, followed by overwhelming despair, really cruel, damn it, why didn't I find out that this stuffy bottle is so cruel before?

Scenes from the past, warm, sad, and peaceful, all suddenly came to mind, and then were shattered, broken into pieces and scattered in the bottom of my heart, Wu Xie covered his eyes with his hands, feeling the sunshine outside the window bit by bit It's really cold when it shines on his cheek, it's really cold...

Then, he put away his phone, brushed his teeth and washed his face, changed his clothes and went downstairs. Everything was as usual, as calm as if nothing had happened.

He is too tired. For so long, he has been like a balloon, supporting and persisting alone, but now, Xiaohua's words are like a needle that awakens his only fantasy, and all hopes are like air from this pinhole. He couldn't stop leaking, he was powerless to stop, let alone resist, all his strength had already been exhausted, only exhaustion remained.

I don't know if it's because the temperature in Germany is too low or the sun is not warm enough. Standing at this street corner full of happiness, Wu Xie only felt trembling all over his body.He wrapped his coat tightly and walked aimlessly, he didn't know where he was going, and he didn't know where he could go. In this city that he had lived in for a year but was still unfamiliar, he couldn't find a sense of belonging because he didn't have a home.

Passing by a barber shop, Wu Xie stopped, a thin and haggard man was reflected on the glass door, Wu Xie reached out and touched his face, is that still the same Wu Xie?That Wu Xie with crystal clear eyes, that Wu Xie with a sunny and warm smile, that simple and kind Wu Xie... Brother, is this the Wu Xie you want?

There was only one boss in the barber shop watching a DVD, Wu Xie opened the door and stepped in, the shrewd man immediately turned off the TV and came over to greet him: "What kind of haircut?"

"It's all shaved."

"All shaved?"

"Ah."

The boss didn't ask any more questions, and began to perform skillful movements. Wu Xie looked at the gradually shortening hair in the mirror, and closed his eyes. That was Zhang Qiling's favorite movement. He didn't like to talk. When comforting and encouraging, When intimacy, I always like to scratch the back of his head with my hands, pat the top of his head, the warm big hand, the slightly cool finger warmth, transmits the nerves through the hair one by one, injecting his temperature into the bottom of my heart, That's right.

No one will play with his hair anymore, what is he still hoping for?What kind of luck is still there?

Shave it, shave it, shave it all...

After leaving the barbershop, a gust of cold wind came, Wu Xie touched the top of his bare head, and wisely went to the market to buy a hat. Men's hats are available in blue and brown. Wu Xie chose brown, and he suddenly Think, maybe he never liked blue.

The German carnival lasted for a long time, and Wu Xie finally started to try to go to parties and evenings with them. His gentle personality is very popular with girls.He is no longer as dull as when he first entered school, and now he gradually has his own small circle, bars, nightclubs, casinos, and he no longer rejects them. Occasionally, he will appear in these places. On his birthday, he smashed A large sum of money invited classmates and friends he knew and didn’t know to go to the seaside for a carnival. Everyone had a good time, laughing and clamoring for Wu Xie to tell about his love history and first night. The bottle screams, what I love is that it...

The atmosphere was very high, and when everyone was slightly drunk, Wu Xie returned to the car silently, curled up on the back seat, leaned his head weakly against the glass window, staring at the waves in a daze, he suddenly I really want to see his camellia, it will bloom in another eight months, after all, it has been a year...

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Anjiuxi

Unicorn smile 11

Wu Xie didn't expect that the flowers would grow buds earlier than expected. On that day, Wu Xie was preparing to go to a banquet.The other party was a beautiful Chinese girl, the latest batch of exchange students who came to Germany. It is always exciting to see people from home in a foreign country, so soon, the girl invited Wu Xie to have dinner. She hasn’t spoken Chinese for more than a year. , Wu Xie almost thought that he had almost forgotten how to say hello, but fortunately, before taking his seat, the other party first smiled and said "Hello".

Wu Xie nodded, took off his coat and handed it to the waiter, took the menu and handed it to the girl gracefully: "You can order whatever you want, but the roast duck here is not authentic at all, so don't leave any shadows when you eat it."

The girl smiled, and instead of looking at the menu, she tilted her head and looked at Wu Xie: "Mr. Wu, you are more humorous than I thought."

"Oh?" Wu Xie also laughed, "I'm telling the truth. Last time I came to eat, I didn't dare to touch the Chinese food in the restaurant for a long time when I went back."

"Can you cook Chinese food?" The girl continued to ask.

Wu Xie nodded: "Yes, if you like, I can make it for you."

The girl was very happy: "Well, next time I go to your place, don't break your promise."

Wu Xie smiled at her: "Do I look like someone who would break my promise?"

The girl didn't speak, blushed slightly, lowered her head and began to look at the menu, Wu Xie sat motionless opposite and drank water.The water was mixed with some lemon juice, and it smelled very good. After smelling it, the smile that had always stayed on his face suddenly disappeared. Wu Xie lowered his head, smiled wryly, and continued to smile again. Everyone wanted to see What I saw was this kind of Wu Xie, a warm and always smiling Wu Xie, even though he was still very thin and often suffered from insomnia.

The girl was very sensible and didn't order any expensive dishes. Wu Xie took the menu without looking at it, and added the three most expensive special dishes, and asked the waiter to fetch a bottle of cellar red wine. The girl stopped her softly, Wu Xie just looked at him with a glass of water and smiled gracefully.He could see that the other party was happy. For girls, Wu Xie was finally not as at a loss as before. He began to study the psychology of passers-by, learned to observe words and expressions, and also began to understand the weaknesses and darkness of human nature. Get in the way of him becoming more and more tactful.The first time he succeeded in tricking a designer who repeatedly plagiarized other people's ideas into the French Open, and at the same time he was able to escape unscathed, Wu Xie finally got to know himself again.It turned out that he was not as kind as he imagined, nor was he as innocent as he imagined. What flowed in his bones was actually the unbearable blood of the old Jiumen.

Some nervously pretended to look around, but the corner of the eye was always on Wu Xie. The girl's thoughts were obvious, but Wu Xie didn't want to make it clear, hanging on to the other party's appetite. It's not too much for a person who is in a superior and low position emotionally. .

The food is Chinese. In order to cater to the tastes of the locals, it is somewhat Westernized. The knives and forks are still on display as usual. The girls are a little hesitant. Using knives and forks is too pretentious, and using chopsticks is not high-end enough.Wu Xie chuckled, took his unused chopsticks, wiped them carefully with a paper towel, and handed them over with both hands.The girl was obviously flattered, she took it with a blushing face, and began to sandwich the dishes delicately. Naturally, the taste cannot be compared with that in China, but for two people who are far away from home, seven or eight points are enough. .

The meal was very quiet, the girl only picked up the shrimp in front of her, Wu Xie was thinking about the next day's proposal, but didn't care.His mind was so wandering that he didn't even notice when the girl stopped and stared at him.

"Mr. Wu?" the girl called him softly.

Wu Xie was startled, only then came back to his senses, and smiled apologetically.

The girl didn't mind, she squinted her eyes and looked at him with her head propped up: "What are you thinking, so engrossed?"

"It's nothing, I'm thinking about what to cook for you next time." When getting along with the opposite sex, if you say that you are thinking about work, it will make them feel impolite, and they will think that they are not as attractive as work , Wu Xie is very aware of this, occasionally telling a little lie can not only avoid a lot of embarrassment, but also adjust the atmosphere, even if they think you are frivolous, they still feel comfortable in their hearts.

When thinking of this, a car light came in from the window and crossed the dim corner of the table. Wu Xie stared at it blankly. At that time, the mottled light flashed in his mind for a moment, and he suddenly realized that the coolest thing was not The appearance is getting old, but the innocence is no longer.

Sure enough, the girl smiled: "Then what do you want to do?"

"Pork knuckle with rock sugar, nourishes the skin, and black-bone chicken with red dates, nourishes qi and nourishes blood." Wu Xie smiled and answered freely.

The girl nodded, raised her chin and smiled slyly: "Then...remember to put more carrots."

Wu Xie was a little surprised: "Carrot?"

The girl nodded in satisfaction, but Wu Xie was still puzzled: "Sorry, I didn't understand what you mean,"

"Don't you like carrots?" The girl was surprised, and pointed to the dishes in front of the two of them, "Look, you picked out all the carrots in the seven dishes and ate them as soon as they came out."

Wu Xie frowned, and her face instantly turned cold. The girl thought she had said something wrong, and was too scared to speak out. Wu Xie looked up at her, and then smiled slightly, obviously reluctantly: "I'm sorry, I... I don't really like carrots."

The girl nodded silently, picked up the chopsticks and started eating her own food, raising her head to glance at Wu Xie from time to time.

Wu Xie shook the goblet, looked at the dishes on the table, and suddenly lost his appetite.

"I'm sorry, I suddenly remembered something, I'm leaving first." Regardless of the girl's stunned expression, Wu Xie summoned the waiter, took the coat, paid for the tip, stood up and smiled at her: "You Go to my place, I will cook for you."

"Mr. Wu——" the girl called him, Wu Xie turned her head, the girl looked at him, and suddenly smiled with relief, "You...do you have someone you like?"

Wu Xie looked at her, a little surprised: "Why do you ask that?"

"The action you just did was the action of picking up carrots. It was completely unconscious. This is a long-term habit. The person you like hates carrots, right?" The girl said without reservation. After discovering the secret that Wu Xie had buried deep in her heart, Wu Xie froze on the spot, smiled at her in a panic, then grabbed her clothes and rushed out of the restaurant as if fleeing.

Snow began to fall outside the window, and Wu Xie was still unable to resolve the mania in his heart while driving the car all the way to [-] miles. After running through a few red lights, he finally slammed on the brakes and stopped at the intersection of a certain park.Leaning weakly on the steering wheel, Wu Xie supported his head, trying to laugh but couldn't.For a long time, he always thought that he had changed. In the past six months, he had a good life, so good that he almost thought that he had forgotten that person, but he didn't know, no matter how he changed, how he became different from before , Those times and feelings in the past will leave some traces on your body inadvertently, deeply buried in your life, no matter how the trajectory of fate moves, it will not disappear.And some feelings can be engraved from the moment they happen, even if they are buried in the torrent of time with the distance, they can be easily awakened as long as there is an opportunity. At this time, you will know that you have never Changed, all the changes you think are all vain, you are just playing the you you want to be, a you who can live a good life after forgetting him.

But, the truth is, are you living a really good life?You just acted well.

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Anjiuxi

Unicorn smile 11