sunk in yesterday

Ever since there was Guan Yuzhou's handwriting on the notebook, it has become Xia Zhuo's treasure, no matter what class he takes, he must take it with him.

When he encountered something he didn’t understand or didn’t want to hear, he would open the inner pages and start scribbling. Sometimes he would write Guan Yuzhou’s name in rows, and sometimes he would draw some meaningless graffiti. Over time, those densely packed names There is a flower and a heart beside it.

The calendar turned over a year, and it finally snowed at the end of January.But it came too late, and before seeing the campus in silver, Xia Zhuo took a photo of the garden downstairs and sent it to the dormitory group, and then shared it with Guan Yuzhou, taking the opportunity to ask him what he was doing.

In the days when we can't meet each other, the vacation seems boring and long.

He doesn't like staying in Xia's house. This place is too spacious. His bedroom is arranged at the innermost side of the top floor. He knows very well in his heart that his powerful grandfather doesn't want to see him often. The time and place of the three meals a day are also deliberately staggered.

The minds of the elders are always difficult to understand. Xia Hong threw him an old photo album on the first day he came, and told him with a cold face that the man and woman in it were his biological parents, and asked him to remember clearly and make a plan with the Si family. open relationship.But while telling him not to think about going back to the Si family, he also repelled him from integrating into the Xia family, and refused to introduce any guests to the house for him. He said that he was protecting him, but in fact it was more like confining him. Get up, because of the blood flowing in his body.

Xia Zhuo was brought up by people who had no blood relationship, so he couldn't resonate with his grandfather's view that he only recognizes blood relationship.

He took out a fuzzy and yellowed photo from the drawer. The woman in it was young and beautiful, about the same age as him now.It seemed that she realized that she had been secretly photographed, and she looked over vigilantly and panickedly. The loose clothes could barely cover her round belly.

He was wrapped in a quilt and curled up on the bedside, not feeling sad, but every time he saw this photo, he missed Aunt Fang and Uncle Si, as well as the small but warm home.

The Si family has a small yard. With his arrival, Uncle Si planted a fig tree in the yard, hoping that the tree would grow up with him.One winter after he entered junior high school, there was a heavy snowfall in the city. He was afraid that the tree would not be able to withstand the cold, so he wrapped it in straw clumsily. Under the eaves, invite him into the house to drink the freshly made white fungus and pear soup.

——I am studying how to use video software.

The phone in his hand vibrated, and Guan Yuzhou sent him a message, bringing back his wandering thoughts.

In addition to this line of text, the other party also sent an additional picture:

The software with the purple icon on the computer was running, the darkened screen reflected the silhouette and shadow of the person opposite, and there was a cup of steaming water on the desktop.

It seemed that she was not free, Xia Zhuo thought about it, sent a cheering emoji, and didn't bother any more.

On New Year's Eve, for the first time, Xia Hong asked his servant to take him downstairs to have a New Year's Eve dinner together.

For this old man, he is in awe, his old face is always straight, his dry wood-like hands have bulging blood vessels, and he always carries a black long-handled cane wherever he goes, which seems to be a certain identity symbol of.

Said it was a reunion festival, but in fact there were only two of them at the dinner table.Without eating two bites, Xia Hong went back to his room to rest under the care of his servants on the grounds that he was getting old and had a bad appetite. He didn't intend to talk to him much. It seemed that the trip was just a ceremony. After satisfying his selfish desires, he was left alone in a daze in front of a table of sumptuous food in the huge restaurant.

There were a few helpers waiting to clean up, Xia Zhuo filled his stomach, put on his coat and went out to breathe the night air.

The place where he is located is far away from the city center, and the bustle and bustle are invisible and intangible.He sat on a bench in the garden and watched someone set off a few bunches of fireworks in the sky. After the brilliant colors disappeared completely, he raised his arms and slowly exhaled a few breaths of hot air into his hands, took out his cell phone and called the Si family. Make phone call.

Aunt Fang answered quickly, and happily called him by his nickname, asking him if he had dinner and if he watched the Spring Festival Gala.Xia Zhuo said that he ate very well, so he went out to digest food, and we will watch it later in the Spring Festival Gala.

Aunt Fang babbled a lot, saying that the snow had not cleared, so she told him not to be playful, and that now that many people had returned to their hometowns, the big cities were empty, and it was not safe to stay outside for a long time.Xia Zhuo looked at the high power grid on the fence, smiled with his lips pursed, and said that he is not a child anymore, he will take good care of himself, and he will not get lost.

Aunt Fang is a very gentle person, her heart is basically given to Xia Zhuo, and she has treated him wholeheartedly for more than ten years.When she spoke, her voice choked up, she seemed to notice that Xia Zhuo's voice was not as energetic as before, and asked him repeatedly if he was really doing well.Xia Zhuo kicked a rose next to her feet, it was not a cold-resistant variety, so it hadn't bloomed yet in the snowy February, and a few small leaves were trembling.He gripped the phone tightly with his fingertips, and after a long time said that he was doing well.

It wasn't until his hands and face became stiff that he hung up the phone after saying goodbye.He was really too cold, his head ached after being blown by the wind for so long, he sniffed and rubbed his face and hid in the room, feeling better surrounded by the heating.

Picking some drinks and snacks from the refrigerator and carrying them back to the room, Xia Zhuo simply took a hot shower.He looked through the messages about the Spring Festival Gala in the dormitory group one by one, thinking that Guan Yuzhou should also be watching the new year with his family at this time, and he didn't know what kind of family the other party was in.

Missing is like a tide, coming fiercely, and it is difficult to calm down once the momentum is together.He turned on the TV and made a longing request over the din of voices.

"Call?"

Xia Zhuo felt that he was also a little lonely. He lost his playmate in his hometown and his parents who loved him, like an animal locked in a cage.Others said that he was "lucky" after being found by the Xia family, and he even felt that he was like Karana in a fairy tale at this time. The Xia family was just a dolphin island isolated from the world, and he was alone and helpless. I can't wait for the boat to pick me up.

And most importantly, he couldn't be as strong as Karana.

Within 2 minutes after the message was sent, Guan Yuzhou took the initiative to invite him to call.

Xia Zhuo immediately sat up straight, he quickly nodded to accept, and asked hesitantly when he heard the quiet atmosphere opposite: "Aren't you watching the Spring Festival Gala?"

"I received an order in the morning, and I'm in a hurry to get it, so I'm working on it now." Guan Yuzhou's voice was like a spring, calming his anxiety and insecurity.

"Well, I thought you were free today, did I bother you?"

"No, but..." Guan Yuzhou paused, "Can I switch to a video? I can't hold my phone all the time, nor can I talk to you all the time."

Xia Zhuo blinked her shining eyes, "Of course."

So Guan Yuzhou fixed the phone on the bracket.

He knew that what Xia Zhuo wanted to see was not the computer but himself, so he pointed the camera at his side face, and when Xia Zhuo's appearance appeared on the other end, he raised his thin eyelids and said, "Play for a while, I will I have to deal with some things, and I will accompany you when I am done."

Xia Zhuo wanted to act like a baby with him, but he held back.He hummed obediently, rubbed his chin against the soft pillow, and watched Guan Yuzhou work with a focused expression, his nimble fingers wandering between the keyboard and mouse, as if he could easily create a wonderful world.Xia Zhuo stared at him for a long time, and became obsessed without knowing it. After meeting his eyes in the short interval of drinking water, he coughed and coughed with flushed cheeks, pretending not to care, and started playing the game machine.

The moment he lowered his head, he seemed to hear Guan Yuzhou's short laugh, but when he looked over with doubts, the boy had already re-entered the next round of operation, and there was no sign of any fluctuation in the expression on his face.

Guan Yuzhou was always very busy, perhaps because he was getting closer to graduation, he was not idle when talking on the phone after the holiday.Xia Zhuo also tried her best to control the number of times she harassed him, fearing that it would delay him from doing important things.But just looking at it like this is good, it seems that no matter where he is, Guan Yuzhou will leave a little space for himself, and he feels palpitations every time he thinks about it.

"Guan Yuzhou." He couldn't help shouting.

Guan Yuzhou moved his eyes from the computer following the call, and raised his chin slightly: "Huh?"

"Why isn't the winter vacation over yet?"

"Didn't you always think about taking a vacation before?"

"I don't want to stay at home anymore...how about I go play with you!"

Guan Yuzhou was startled, "Looking for me?"

"Can you?" Xia Zhuo stared at him with bright eyes.

Guan Yuzhou didn't speak, and his actions on the keyboard slowed down.He frowned, as if facing a problem that couldn't be solved temporarily, and said after a while: "Do you really want to come?"

"Of course I want to, but it definitely depends on your opinion."

Xia Hong only said that he was restricted from going back to Si's house, but he didn't say that he was not allowed to go to other places to play.Xia Zhuo pursed her lips nervously, "I'm not saying why I want to find you, I just want to see you, and I won't do anything random... We haven't seen each other for more than two weeks! Or you Tell me the address, I will go to the city you are in for a walk for two days by myself, have a meal with me if you are free, and do your work if you are not free."

Guan Yuzhou nodded, "Well, I will give you the address later. But it will be two days late. After I finish the order, I can take you around."

Xia Zhuo laughed so hard that he couldn't help but roll around on the bed.

It seems that Guan Yuzhou has never refused his request. Except for the matter of falling in love, everything else is responsive.

"What do uncles and aunts like, such as tea, cigarettes, or cosmetics that they are used to, I will prepare them in these two days."

"No need to prepare." Guan Yuzhou said, "It's fine when you come."

"Hey~ This is not good, even if we are still friends now, we have to bring gifts when we visit. This is the most basic politeness issue. You have to leave a good impression on them, so that when I come to the door as your boyfriend in the future— —”

He was still teasing the other party with relish, but Guan Yuzhou interrupted him coldly before he finished speaking, "I don't have parents, so you don't have to think about that."

"..."

Xia Zhuo turned off the fire.

It was the first time I heard this news, it was like a thunderbolt knocked Xia Zhuo into a stunned place.He rarely panicked, didn't know how to answer the conversation, and thought wildly that Guan Yuzhou was also abandoned, or did something happen to his parents?

But he looked over there through the video, and the boy on the opposite side looked at the computer without blinking, and his slender fingers were still typing on the letters precisely, without being affected at all.

"...Then what do you want, I'll give it to you." These were the only words he could hold back so far.

"I don't have anything I want." Sensing his cautiousness, Guan Yuzhou said helplessly: "I don't care about it myself, what do you care about? Stop chatting, and if you continue talking, you won't be able to come in two days."

Xia Zhuo made a movement of zipping his mouth, but he didn't know if he saw it from the other side.But he was not in the mood for fun anymore. He couldn’t pass the game level, and his heart seemed to be blocked by a piece of cotton. After tossing and turning, he took out the half-read "The Blue Dolphin Island" from the suitcase , intending to finish reading it before crossing twelve o'clock.

Hearing the noisy sound of pressing keys turned into a gentle flipping sound, Guan Yuzhou glanced over.

On the screen of the palm-sized phone, the boy's natural black hair hangs softly and obediently by his ears, and his eyes, which were always shining, have changed due to the angle or other reasons, but at this time they are covered with a layer of melancholy .

He ground his back molars back and forth, looked away from them, and devoted himself to his work at a faster pace.

At eleven o'clock, Guan Yuzhou turned off the computer.Xia Zhuo didn't know anything about his movements, and was completely immersed in the text. After seeing that there were few left, Guan Yuzhou sat with him for a while.After Xia Zhuo stretched his neck, he picked up his mobile phone and went to the kitchen to boil water, "Have you finished reading?"

"Ah? Well, it's over!" Xia Zhuo showed him the last page as if showing off.

"Aren't you going to talk?"

Xia Zhuo remembered that last time he told him after reading it.

"Karana didn't wait for the white people to pick her up, because the ship carrying all her people sank in a storm. She was really strong and knew that some memories would only make her sad, so she never thought about it But how can people control their own thoughts so easily. But seeing her life on Dolphin Island is so tortuous, and she can have a happy ending in the end, it can be regarded as an encouragement."

"Humans are inherently complex creatures." Guan Yuzhou stood in front of the kettle, touched a cigarette and lit it.

"You still smoke?"

"Well, one will come when I'm tired."

Xia Zhuo looked at his finger holding the cigarette, saw his lips holding the cigarette holder all the way, and suddenly asked: "Guan Yuzhou, have you ever kissed?"

Guan Yuzhou: "..."

Sometimes what Xia Zhuo said would catch him off guard.

Xia Zhuo's thinking was jumping too fast. He had just finished talking about the kiss, and then thought of the unfinished ending, "Karana finally left Dolphin Island and returned to the land. The dog named Langtu who has been with her has also died, but it died of natural old age."

Guan Yuzhou nodded, as if he had listened, but he didn't talk about it.He puffed out a puff of smoke. "I haven't kissed. You have?"

"If you want to know, you have to practice it yourself." Xia Zhuo smiled slyly, "If you don't try it, how will you know whether what I said is true or not?"

Guan Yuzhou twitched the corners of his mouth and refused to comment.

The two said this to each other, and when it was twelve o'clock, Xia Zhuo told him Happy New Year.

"Happy New Year." Guan Yuzhou replied, "When will you go to bed?"

"After a while." Xia Zhuo was a little hungry, tore open a small bag of bread and stuffed it into his mouth.

"Didn't you eat well tonight?"

Xia Zhuo hummed vaguely.

"Then you eat first, I'll take a shower."

"Oh, do you bring your phone in?"

"What do you say?"

"I don't mind." Xia Zhuo smiled at him and rolled his eyes.

Guan Yuzhou ignored his teasing, "Hang up, go to bed after eating, and don't stay up late."

"Understood." Xia Zhuo nodded, "Good night."

"Good night."

The screen jumps to the chat box, showing that the call lasted three hours and 47 minutes.

Xia Zhuo obediently finished brushing his teeth and got into bed. He opened the curtains and closed his eyes against the dark night.

What happened today is running through my mind over and over again.

Not long after lying down, he turned over and sat up again, turned on the bedside lamp, took a pen on a whim, and scribbled a line on the title page of the book.

——Darkness can make people feel lonely, and Langtu is Karana's bright light.We will meet each other eventually, and we will be each other's beacon.