sunk in yesterday

In Xia Zhuo's impression, he has never liked anyone, so as for how to pursue a partner, the method was given by his roommates.

Of course, at first he didn't confess that he was chasing a boy, otherwise he would have scared the three of them on the spot, and might have persuaded him to turn back before he got too deep.But even if he didn't talk about it, no one would think about it directly, only when he met the Heavenly Destiny, he was worried about how to take her down.

So after listening to the opinions, Xia Zhuo acted quite bravely in the secret room, paying attention to Guan Yuzhou's reaction at all times, waiting for the other party to show fear and trigger an intimate event of throwing himself into his arms.But the result was not very optimistic. Guan Yuzhou was thinking about the puzzles calmly from beginning to end, analyzing the plot rationally, and completing the single-player mission calmly.On the contrary, I was taken aback when I was chased by the NPC, and I was in high spirits after clearing the level all night. Even after turning off the lights in the dormitory, I felt that the wind and grass outside the balcony were bothering my mind.

After one o'clock, he still didn't feel sleepy at all. He kept replaying the exciting picture of the NPC breaking the door with a chainsaw in his mind, and he seemed to be able to hear the voice of the innocent crying in his ears.After tossing and turning, he fumbled for his cell phone from the pillow, and sent a harassing message to his crush without hope.

- Are you asleep?

Before waiting for a minute, Guan Yuzhou's remarks changed to "the other party is typing".

[Guan Yuzhou]: I fell asleep after saying goodnight to you

[Xia Zhuo]: Did I wake you up?

[Guan Yuzhou]: No.you can't sleep?

[Xia Zhuo]: One thing, maybe I finally finished the exam and felt relieved?

[Guan Yuzhou]: I thought I was scared in the secret room

[Xia Zhuo]: Don't talk nonsense, I'm very courageous

[Guan Yuzhou]: Maybe I misunderstood it. Do you still want to play horror themes in the future?

[Xia Zhuo]: If someone goes with you (hint)

[Guan Yuzhou]: I can't understand the hint.

[Xia Zhuo]: Alright, then I will have to ask my roommate next time

[Guan Yuzhou]: ...

[Guan Yuzhou]: Go to sleep quickly, don't think about it.

Xia Zhuo held the phone and said good night again, and then calmed down.

At the end of December, the first snow still hasn't fallen.Seeing that other places on the Internet have begun to post snow scene pictures one after another, Xia Zhuo is also a little greedy, and refreshes the weather forecast from time to time, waiting for the first time to hear the news of snow.

On Christmas Day, he and Guan Yuzhou made an appointment to meet at "Desting".

The surrounding streets have been appropriately decorated, and a mistletoe wreath has been hung on the glass door of the bookstore's entrance.Seeing him coming, the boss greeted him casually, saying that he had brought some bookmarks of pine and cypress branches from a friend who runs a flower shop, and he had already put them in every corner of the bookstore early in the morning. If you are interested, you can go there by yourself Looking for it is a blessing from the bookstore to everyone.

Xia Zhuo walked in, and Guan Yuzhou was sitting at the desk in the corner reading.Maybe it was because of the festival and it was the morning. There was no one in the store, which made the sound of his approaching footsteps very clear. When it was on her body, Xia Zhuo couldn't help but her heart skipped a beat.

Guan Yuzhou, 20 years old, is tall and thin. He usually wears dark colors, but today he chose a beige windbreaker.

He had always felt puzzled before, the other party was obviously a very handsome person, not only had an outstanding appearance, but also had always had excellent academic performance, but there was always a sense of contradiction and deviation that was incompatible with everything.Moreover, according to his observations in the past few months, Guan Yuzhou's sense of existence is very weak, as if everyone except him has turned a blind eye to him, which is a very strange feeling.Knowing that it is a good thing to have few competitors, but he is not willing to let others not see his goodness, which makes him feel regretful that his pearls will be covered in dust.

"Guan Yuzhou!" Xia Zhuo's eyes lit up, and when he saw the person in front of him, his soul seemed to be quite alive. He walked over with a chair intimately, "What are you looking at?"

Guan Yuzhou turned the book to the front, it was "One Hundred Years of Solitude" by Marquez.

Xia Zhuo asked: "Does it look good? What are you talking about?"

Guan Yuzhou nodded, his long eyelashes cast a shadow on his eyelids.He didn't want to spoil it, just said: "I talked about all kinds of loneliness and a good wish."

"Then I'll watch it when you finish."

"it is good."

It was a bit hot along the way, Xia Zhuo took off his coat, and walked around in front of the bookcase.

He is less fond of heavy stories and prefers light novels.So on this day full of laughter and laughter outside, he picked out a fairy tale that looked better, called "The Blue Dolphin Island".

The book was brand new, and the plastic film on the top was cut open. It seemed that someone had thought about opening it, but gave up when it was about to be opened.

I thought that I would not be able to read it, after all, the person I like is sitting next to me, but the rustling sound of flipping through the paper quickly brought him in, or it is natural for a famous book to become a famous book, even if it is written for children. Literary works, the content inside is enough to attract an adult.

He was watching with great interest, when the person beside him asked him, "Is there anywhere you want to go this afternoon?"

The excitement in Xia Zhuo's eyes could not be suppressed: "Are you going on a date?"

"What date, just go out for a walk." Guan Yuzhou smiled and closed the book, he had already read the ending, "I just thought, I can't just sit here all day."

"The movie theater must not be able to buy tickets, and the playground is full of people... Have you ever been on a swan boat?"

This seems to have touched a blind spot of knowledge.Guan Yuzhou hesitated for a moment, "No, is it the kind that needs to be pedaled?"

"Yes, I suddenly thought of it when I saw that the protagonist wanted to build a boat in the book." Xia Zhuo sighed, "But there will be a lot of people in the park even in these days."

"Yeah. And it's going to be very cold on the water right now, so we can wait until spring begins."

Xia Zhuo was lying on the table, blinking his bright black eyes, looking at him eagerly, "Where shall we go this afternoon?"

Guan Yuzhou tapped unconsciously with his fingertips on the table, and after a while suggested: "How about climbing a mountain. I know a place. I don't know if you are interested."

"There are some."

"I need to shoot some homework. I'll go back and get my camera after lunch. I may ask you to wait for me."

How could Xia Zhuo disobey him, even if Guan Yuzhou made him wait for three or four hours, he had no complaints.He nodded repeatedly, stood up and stretched his stiff limbs, and was about to put the fairy tale back, but Guan Yuzhou took it away first and settled the bill.

Xia Zhuo followed him without knowing why, and after he paid the payment, he took a pine and cypress bookmark from his pocket and put them into the bag as if by magic. It took him a while to recover, "...Huh?"

"Here." Guan Yuzhou said, "I just saw that you really like this book, why don't you just buy it and read it slowly."

The store manager looked at them, "Oh, so you know each other."

Guan Yuzhou also smiled politely, "Yes, he is my junior."

After coming into contact with the cool breeze outside, Xia Zhuo touched the rough braided rope on the carrying belt, and his heart beat irregularly again.

"What schoolboy..." Xia Zhuo muttered in a low voice, his ears felt a little hot.

"You were originally my junior." Guan Yuzhou said the truth, and asked him again: "What was written in that book? I read it so fascinated."

"I've only read half of it. It tells about an island that looks like a dolphin, and a little girl named Karana and her tribe live on it, but the tribe has moved away, and Karana chose to stay for her younger brother. As a result, her younger brother was attacked by wild dogs and died, and she struggled to survive on the island by herself."

"Sounds like an inspirational story."

"I'll tell you when I finish reading it all. But it's too lonely to be alone. If I were on a desert island... let alone a year, I might not be able to bear it for a week."

After casually solving the lunch problem, Guan Yuzhou went back to pick up the equipment, and rode a bicycle with Xia Zhuo to the unknown hill.

There is a human-made road on the unexplored wild mountains. Xia Zhuo and him stop and go, watching him occasionally pick up the camera to take pictures of some dead branches and wasteland. His figure appears thin and light in a bleak scene .When a gust of wind blew, he looked at the hem of Guan Yuzhou's clothes lifted up, and for some reason suddenly felt uneasy that the other party might disappear at any time. Looking at the edge of the other party's blurred outline in the sun, Xia Zhuo couldn't help but have a weird feeling Thoughts—the person in front of you seems to be false, imagined by yourself, and does not exist.

The other party has extraordinary stability and self-restraint, not like an inexperienced student at all, that kind of disinterested in everything seems to have been formed after seeing all the world, but this idea is just For a brief moment, he looked at Guan Yuzhou's side face again, as if he could recognize the emotion surrounding the other party from that expressionless face - it was the loneliness he just mentioned.

Guan Yuzhou looked down at the photos in the camera, and chose to delete or keep them.He originally planned to come to the mountain to take pictures of snow scenes when it snowed, but the homework on seasonal themes will be handed in next Monday. He felt that the snow might not be able to fall by then, so he simply came a few days in advance to enjoy the breeze.

Just as he was about to continue walking, Xia Zhuo suddenly hugged him from behind.

The boy's arms were tightly wrapped around his waist, and his cheeks rubbed against his shoulder like a small animal.

"..." Guan Yuzhou paused, he held Xia Zhuo's wrist a little uncomfortably, trying to pull it away, but the strength of the other party was a little stubborn, so he gave up after trying it.

"What's wrong? What are you doing hugging me?"

"I said that I like you, of course I took advantage of you!" Xia Zhuo said confidently, "I have liked you for a while, so the benefits are not too much, right?"

Guan Yuzhou patted the back of his hand amusedly, "We still have to go up, and it will be very windy on the mountain later."

Xia Zhuo thought again, how could such a coincidence happen.

Guan Yuzhou seemed to have broken into his world from the sky, no matter whether it was temperament, appearance, personality or others, none of it was in his preferences, and the whole person was tailor-made for him.He tightened his grip on the man, fearing that the other party was just a bubble in the sea and would disappear as soon as he let go.

"Guan Yuzhou, do you believe in fate?"

A muffled voice came from the side of his neck, and the heat brushed against his skin. Guan Yuzhou frowned slightly, "I never thought about it."

"Then have you ever thought about the fact that I like you? Don't change the subject, I fooled you once before."

It was quiet everywhere, Xia Zhuo suddenly had the illusion that there were only the two of them left in the whole world.

For a long time, when he thought that Guan Yuzhou would not answer at all, the other party turned his head, rubbed the broken hair on his forehead with the corner of his lips, and said, "Think about it."

Now it was Xia Zhuo's turn to be stunned.

"Ah? Then..." He couldn't help but licked his dry lips, and asked nervously, "What do you think?"

Guan Yuzhou asked him: "Why do you say you like me?"

"How can there be a reason for this? There must be a reason to like someone?"

"Is that so? I haven't figured it out—"

Xia Zhuo was in a hurry and interrupted him: "It's okay, you can think about it again!"

"I'm going to think about it again." Guan Yuzhou's voice was very steady: "Can you let me go first?"

Xia Zhuo pursed his mouth, but let go of his hand.Guan Yuzhou took a step forward, turned towards him, and the two faced each other.

The sun shone their shadows on the ground one after the other, and they were tightly stacked together.Seeing him lowering his head in frustration, Guan Yuzhou's heartstrings seemed to be twitched by something.

"Xia Zhuo."

Xia Zhuo hummed, and looked up at him suspiciously.

"I have a crush on you." Before Xia Zhuo's blank expression turned into surprise, Guan Yuzhou continued: "But I'm not sure how far I can go with you, and I don't know how to bridge the gap between us. So I can't give you an answer right now."

"The gap between us?" Xia Zhuo didn't understand this statement, "What gap can there be? Is it because I'm a man?"

Guan Yuzhou pursed his lips and shook his head silently, "Let's go, tell me if you're cold or tired."

Xia Zhuo has never had the consciousness of being an heir, nor has he thought about the consequences if he is found out to be gay one day in the future, but Guan Yuzhou has no choice but to think about these things after hearing so many discussions around him.

Because at present, their ending together is more obvious than all the novels he has read.If Xia Zhuo also realized the hardships and difficulties in the future, would she still choose to like herself?

Unable to ask this question, Guan Yuzhou turned around and walked to a higher place.

Xia Zhuo stood there bewildered, and it took him a long while to raise his legs to catch up.But he didn't know what Guan Yuzhou was thinking, most of his thoughts were occupied by the phrase "I have a good impression", and he walked lightly for the second half of the journey, without feeling tired at all.

Well, since Guan Yuzhou is still unwilling...then he can wait!

His roommate told him that a lot of patience is needed in the process of chasing people, and don't be impatient, otherwise all previous efforts will be wasted.In fact, there is no need for others to talk about this point. He knows it in his own heart. Waiting is not a bad thing. You will feel lonely without waiting. People need to have hope in life.

After returning from the mountain, the opposite side of University A was full of traffic, and the left and right were full of people going out for the holidays.

After climbing the mountain all afternoon, and cycling back and forth for more than ten miles, Xia Zhuo was so tired that he almost didn't even bother to catch his breath.After returning the car and saying goodbye to Guan Yuzhou at the school gate, he hurried back to the dormitory to take a shower, and ordered takeaway while wiping his hair, intending to comfort his hungry stomach.

The roommate pushed the door open and was surprised to see him: "Didn't you go on a date?"

"The appointment is over."

"Not to continue at night?"

"I'm a little tired, and there are crowds everywhere, he doesn't like to be noisy... forget it." Xia Zhuo clicked into a sushi restaurant that he had collected, "Have you eaten yet? If you haven't, please."

The roommate immediately jumped over enthusiastically: "Where are you tired? The little one is here to give you a shoulder!"

"Go, go!" Xia Zhuo scolded with a smile, and asked him, "What about those two?"

"Date with their respective goddesses." The roommate looked hopeless.

Xia Zhuo laughed at him as a single dog, but was soon ridiculed back not to be outdone.After hearing Guan Yuzhou's words in the afternoon, he was not in vain at all. Instead, he looked at his roommate sympathetically, making him terrified.

"...What's wrong with you?" The roommate touched his arm and asked suspiciously, "Is there something wrong?"

Xia Zhuo placed an order on the software, "Hey, if the person you like tells you that there is a gap between you, what will you do?"

"Then try to shorten the gap." The roommate blurted out, and suddenly felt that something was wrong: "You won't confess your love today and be rejected, right? She said you have a gap?"

"I didn't get rejected!" Xia Zhuo denied it like he was furious, "But I don't even understand what gap he is talking about."

"To be honest, I think this is a commonly used rejection term." The roommate slowly stroked the non-existent beard, squinting and imitating the military adviser on TV: "Who do you really like? Why don't you tell me?" Let me give you some advice, let’s analyze specific characters in detail.”

Xia Zhuo's eyes flickered: "...you really want to know?"

"What are you hiding from your brother?"

"You won't laugh at me, will you?"

"What's so funny about that."

"Oh, did I say that?"

"you say!"

"It's the boy in the black trench coat downstairs in the dormitory last week."

The roommate was taken aback for a moment, and then covered his head in pain: "Is it possible that I have stayed up too late recently, and I seem to have auditory hallucinations..."

"...You are too fake. Is it really bothering you to like the same sex?"

"Who would have thought that you would be so fucking as soon as you said it..." the roommate hesitated to speak.

On the contrary, Xia Zhuo sighed melancholy: "I was also thinking this afternoon, is it because of the gender gap that he can't associate with me."

The roommate looked at him in shock, and saw that his face was wrinkled, and then he was sure that this guy was serious.

"No." He started, but he didn't know what to say next, and it took him a long time to say: "It should be the same, it's about feelings."

"No way, it's normal if you don't understand, this is sweet distress." Xia Zhuo shrugged, all troubles were thrown away immediately, and she giggled twice as if possessed, grabbed her book and slippers and kicked onto the bed, "My novel I haven't finished reading it yet, you can go downstairs to get the takeaway after a while."

The roommate was still silent in the excitement of his brother being gay, unable to recover for a long time: "The guest you invited, of course I will take it..."

"Don't get me wrong, I don't like all men!" Seeing him in a daze, Xia Zhuo hurriedly added.

"I know! I didn't misunderstand!!" The roommate called louder than him.

"Then why are you in a daze?"

"No, I'm thinking... It's just weird, I saw the boy waiting for you downstairs last time, but I just thought about it, and I can't remember what he looks like at all, and then I miss you and him What on earth does Mom like about that guy, is he good-looking?"

"Of course it looks good." Xia Zhuo said smoothly, "Can the person I like be bad?"

But that strange feeling came again - why didn't others notice Guan Yuzhou?Logically speaking, that is obviously an unforgettable face, but everyone... but the hot topic in school didn't mention this person at all.

After he knew Guan Yuzhou's name, he searched everywhere for news about him.He can search the records of his scholarship on the school website, and he can find pictures of him receiving the award, but no one talks about him, as if he is an invisible air, or is hidden by fog, making people There is no way to dig.

The more he thought about it, the more he thought about it, and when the delivery man called, his whole body shivered, and he realized that he was actually in a cold sweat.

The roommate put down the earphones and moved them out from the computer. The chairs rubbed against each other and made a harsh sound.

"Then I'll go down and get it."

Xia Zhuo waved his hand absently.

When the door of the dormitory was closed, the panic in his heart could not be calmed down, so he quickly turned to Guan Yuzhou's name and sent a video request.

The sound of the music played for a long ten seconds, Xia Zhuo bit her nails lightly, staring at the "Blue Dolphin Island" stuck upside down on the bed sheet, the special bookmark was pinned on the book cover.He still remembered the temperature of Guan Yuzhou's fingertips when he took the bag, and also remembered the gentle smile on the other side's face, which made him feel so delicate and soft.

The other party was finally connected, and the face of the other party was reflected on the screen that turned from dark to bright.

Unexpectedly, the video was sent just an hour after we separated, and Guan Yuzhou's nose came out with a doubtful single voice: "...Huh?"

After waiting for a few seconds, Xia Zhuo was still in a daze, and his face was not natural. Guan Yuzhou moved a little closer to the camera, "What's wrong? Are you cold?"

Xia Zhuo opened her mouth and said stupidly: "No, it's just suddenly... um... I miss you so much."