sunk in yesterday

On the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, Xia Zhuo packed his suitcase and took a ride to Guan Yuzhou's city.

He used to travel with someone, be it his parents or friends, but now looking at the gradually unfamiliar scenery alone, he feels more at ease than ever before.

The distance between him and the person he wanted to see was getting closer. When he got in the car, Guan Yuzhou sent him a location sharing message. Xia Zhuo took a picture every once in a while and put it in the album, intending to keep it as a souvenir.

The highway was very crowded, and the number of people visiting relatives and friends increased several times after the year. Xia Zhuo sat in the back row with another girl in her 20s.

The other party was watching a soap opera with earphones on. He didn't know how ups and downs the plot was, but it made people teary-eyed.From the corner of the eye, she saw that she took out her bag but didn't take out anything, Xia Zhuo thought for a while, and handed over a small bag of handkerchief paper.

"Thank you, thank you." The girl took it sheepishly, took out one of them, and returned the rest.

With a strong nasal voice, she covered her face and said, "I'm sorry for making you laugh, but this drama is really too cruel..." She sniffed her nose twice after speaking.

Xia Zhuo asked her a lot, "What drama?", and the chatter was completely opened up.

The girl took off her earphones, and talked to him endlessly about the hero and heroine who fell in love at first sight in the play, saying how well matched they are, they are a match made in heaven.However, the female lead was unable to agree to the male lead's courtship due to a strange illness. She didn't know if she could wake up the next day after closing her eyes every day.The male protagonist learned the reason why the female protagonist rejected him, so he was also in deep pain. He kept asking for medical treatment, but the answers he got were shaking his head one after another, hoping to gradually fade away. Now the female protagonist is terminally ill. And refused his visit, every scene in the play made the audience feel deeply powerless.

"Now the male protagonist's friends are constantly persuading him to give up, because the deeper he gets in, the more painful it will be. In fact, how can these two protagonists not know this truth? But things like heart are really difficult to control, and they can't stop at all. The longing and admiration for the other party. Woohoo, how can such a tragic thing happen, it is really difficult for lovers to get married in the end, knowing that they will die in the end, but still unable to stop it in time. "

"Is it BE in the end?"

"The original book is BE." The girl shed a few more tears, "But the drama hasn't been updated yet, so I don't know if the ending will be changed. When I read the novel before, I felt that the sky is not what people want, and people claim to be the strongest in the world." Big creatures can't control life and death, and they will still be at a loss when facing fate. But the protagonist has worked very hard, and they love each other very much, why do they have to be separated in the end?"

Xia Zhuo couldn't comfort her, she could only sigh with her.

The girl has a very lively personality, and seems to be apologetic for passing on her bad mood. Later, she recommended several comedies to Xia Zhuo. Is Zhuo the same as himself, going to other cities alone during the Chinese New Year?

Xia Zhuo thought for a while and said, "There is just one person I really want to see."

The girl immediately brought it into a certain film and television plot she had finished watching, covered her mouth and let out an exaggerated exclamation, "Did you come here because you wanted to see her? My God, your girlfriend is so happy!"

Seeing her like this, Xia Zhuo smiled, "It should be me who is happier."

The girl was startled, and then said after a while: "It's a roar. It seems that everyone agrees that the loved one is happy. In fact, love should be two-way. When you love others, you can also feel happy... It seems that your girlfriend He is a person worthy of your liking, which is very good!"

In many cases, the pain experienced in love is not brought by the other party, but by "begging" by oneself.Once one expects that one's love will be reciprocated, people will have expectations, and pain will follow when expectations fail.

Xia Zhuo is not a saint who is empty of all four things. He can't live without expectations, and he also knows what kind of pain Guan Yuzhou will bring if he rejects him one day.He thought of the sentence the girl said just now, "I can't stop it in time", and thought of the person who said on the phone with Guan Yuzhou that night that he couldn't control his thoughts. The moment he saw Guan Yuzhou after getting off the car, his thoughts became clear as if the clouds were cleared , as if as long as you see those dark eyes, all the doubts in your heart will disappear.

The boy stood like a bamboo among the humming crowd, the hustle and bustle around him had nothing to do with him, he just stood there without emotion, and did not attract the eyes of any passers-by.

The reason why the world parted ways with him cannot be found out, but Xia Zhuo wanted to establish a bond between them.

Whether it's a movie or reality, the reason why people can't block their hearts is because they already know what they want in their hearts.No one can give up greed easily, since the idea of ​​wanting, even if a bad ending is expected, it is still impossible to give up halfway.

This is human nature.

Xia Zhuo let go of the suitcase and rushed to hug the person in the crowded street.

This bump made Guan Yuzhou's heel unstable, and he leaned back slightly.He subconsciously wrapped his arms around the boy's waist so as not to fall in public.

"Guan Yuzhou!" Xia Zhuo happily called his name.

Like a sound of spring thunder passing by the ear, people passing by who were not looking sideways cast their eyes frequently.They seemed to have noticed an outstanding-looking man standing by the side of the street, and they couldn't help whispering to each other.

"There are still cars on the road, why don't you look at them?" Guan Yuzhou frowned. He should have been waiting in the fierce cold wind for a long time, and he could feel the coldness of his fingertips through his clothes.

Xia Zhuo let go, and wanted to take off the scarf around her neck in twos and twos, but was quickly stopped by her eyesight and hands.

"Are you hungry? I'll take you to dinner first." Guan Yuzhou took the initiative to pull his suitcase.

Xia Zhuo followed him, his eyes stuck to him and he couldn't take it off, and raised his hand to propose: "Then I want to eat noodle soup!"

The girl who was still moving things out of the trunk was shocked in place. Recalling the topic of the conversation just now, her face slowly flushed red, as if she knew some terrible secret, she stomped on the spot excitedly. Stamped, then quietly dragged her best friend and disappeared into the crowd.

After going to the noodle shop to eat a bowl of hot beef noodles, Xia Zhuo gradually warmed up all over.Guan Yuzhou took him back to the apartment to put his luggage, and the two entered a low gray building in the alley.

The corridor is quite clean, the walls are covered with small advertisements, and the shallow sunlight in the evening sprinkles on the steps through the mottled windows, illuminating the puddles of white paint left by the renovation of the walls.

Guan Yuzhou took the key and opened the anti-theft door, revealing the narrow layout of two rooms and one living room inside.

"Is it your house?" Xia Zhuo stood at the door and looked around curiously.

Guan Yuzhou took a pair of brand new plush slippers from the cabinet and put them at his feet, and said succinctly: "Rented."

Although the sparrow is small and well-equipped, the house has a refrigerator, washing machine, and independent bathroom facilities, but there are no additional decorations except for the basic facilities. This is like a temporary stronghold.

Xia Zhuo stretched his head, "Can I visit?" Although he was asking, he had actually walked in and looked around.

Guan Yuzhou nodded, "You can do whatever you want."

With a little thought, Xia Zhuo's first reaction was to see if there were two beds in the house.

But presumably not, because he knew through the video that Guan Yuzhou had a small study.He walked around quickly, walked into the only bedroom with satisfaction, and blinked his eyes pretentiously, "Then can I live with you?"

For Xia Zhuo, even if he didn't use the money Xia Hong gave, it would not be a problem to book a hotel for seven or eight days in such a small city.Guan Yuzhou was silent for a few seconds, his deep eyes drooping slightly, staring straight at Xia Zhuo's heart, but he still maintained his composure.

"Okay, you can sleep in my bed."

Xia Zhuo deliberately teased him: "Can you sleep with your person?"

Guan Yuzhou's brows moved slightly, and the slogan "Don't push yourself further" was written on his face.

Seeing the red nose of the boy who came from afar, he opened the bedside drawer and searched for the remote control of the air conditioner.In the end, the remote control was found, but the battery in it was already dead, so I had to bring my next plan to the table, "Let's go, let's go to the supermarket first."

When we went out again, night had already fallen.

There are no people in the narrow alley, and the lights along the way are dim.He would be afraid if Xia Zhuo was allowed to walk this kind of night road alone, but now that Guan Yuzhou was by his side, he had no fear at all, and instead felt that this situation could be called romantic.It was only when he got to the crowded road that he felt a bit of the excitement of the New Year.Afraid of getting lost, he grabbed the corner of Guan Yuzhou's down jacket and dutifully acted as a tail.

The familiar "Gong Xi Fa Cai" was played in the overcrowded supermarket. Xia Zhuo pushed a shopping cart and hummed along happily.

It was the first time Guan Yuzhou heard him sing, and he felt that it was difficult to explain, but he didn't say anything, but thought the way the other party shook his head was cute.

Hmm... People who don't know that they are tone-deaf sing, it should be described as cute, right?

After visiting the fresh food area, Guan Yuzhou lowered his head in the noise and asked him, "Do you want to eat at home or go out tomorrow?"

Xia Zhuo was not surprised: "Do you know how to cook?"

"Only a few, to the extent that no one can die from starvation."

"Then eat at home!"

"it is good."

Watching the tall boy carefully choose the ribs, Xia Zhuo felt itchy in his heart, took out his mobile phone and sent a circle of friends invisible to the elders, and said bluntly: life after marriage is nothing more than this.

The attached picture shows Guan Yuzhou pointing to a piece of meat on the counter and asking the chef to process it for him.

No matter how he shoots, Guan Yuzhou is very photogenic.Seeing the messages of friends pouring into the comment area asking who this person is, he was proud, but at the same time, he felt ambivalence about simply hiding him like this.

Messages ridiculing and wishing him gradually filled the screen. No one really took his accompanying text seriously, and they were completely unaware that this was the first time the young master of the Xia family came out in the circle of friends.But Xia Zhuo replied back one by one with a smile. Only roommate A, who knew the insider, sent three question marks, but he responded with a smiling expression.

After shopping in the supermarket for more than an hour, Xia Zhuo pre-empted the payment on the grounds of submitting the accommodation fee.On the way back, he saw someone selling roasted sweet potatoes on the side of the road, and pestered Guan Yuzhou to buy him one for a few dollars.

It can't be said that he is obsessed. When his eyes kept drifting to the smelling stove cart, Guan Yuzhou knew that he was thinking about him.

The small details of getting along are really hard to ignore, Xia Zhuo was entangled all the way, and couldn't help asking him when climbing the stairs: "Are we really not in love?"

Guan Yuzhou didn't answer, but just followed the plastic bag he was carrying in his hand, and walked up without panting, leaving Xia Zhuo looking up blankly below.

This question echoed in the corridor, and the voice-activated lights were awakened, casting the boy's slender shadow on the front wall.The combination of black and white immediately gave off some cold and hard taste.

Xia Zhuo sighed in his heart, and as he followed slowly, he lowered his head and said angrily: "Sweet potatoes are delicious, I'll give you half of them."

Guan Yuzhou opened the door, stared at the half sweet potato that was handed to him, leaned over and took a bite with his hand, and said, "I'm tidying up my things and putting them in the refrigerator. The water heater is already on. Turn on the air conditioner first." Go take a shower, so it won't be too cold when you come out."

"Got it." Xia Zhuo took out the toiletries she just bought, and got into the bathroom to wash up.

He was on the road almost all day, and he got up very early. After washing, his eyelids were sore, he squinted and yawned.

The sheets and quilt were replaced with new ones, with a faint scent of lemon on them, Xia Zhuo kicked off the slippers and climbed up, wrapping herself in the quilt.His roommate was frantically playing messages to him half an hour ago, asking him if he had already started dating that boy, why did he still get together during the Chinese New Year, could it be that the progress was so fast and he met the parents directly?How dare you be so arrogant.

Xia Zhuo was dazzled by the long string of characters. He flipped up ten lines at a glance, and he couldn't help but pause when he slid to the top.

——As soon as I saw the photo, I remembered it. When I saw him greeting you downstairs, I felt sour for his astonishing face, but it didn’t take long before I looked back and I forgot all about it , It's really strange.

Xia Zhuo reviewed this sentence from the beginning to the end, and replied: No way, no way, no one really can't find his excellence.

The roommate came back quickly, and spent the whole day at home on vacation, surfing the Internet all day long, imitating his tone: no way, no way, no way, someone really got a beauty and got angry at his good brother.

Xia Zhuo: Not yet, I will invite you to dinner when I catch up.

Roommate: Must win!

A good one must be taken.Xia Zhuo pursed her lips in joy.

Everything went relatively smoothly.He was really sleepy, and he became unconscious in a short time, sinking into the soft pillow, thinking about what Guan Yuzhou was busy with, but his legs and feet were a little sore, he was too lazy to move more, and he didn't forget to leave half of it before falling asleep The space of the bed gives it its true owner.

Half an hour later, Guan Yuzhou pushed open the half-covered door, holding a box of just warmed milk in his hand.

Seeing the motionless figure on the bed, he stopped unexpectedly.After a brief hesitation, he still put the milk on the bedside, and the fragrance of the bath liquid was still wafting in the room. Xia Zhuo seemed to be very insecure, and the whole person was hidden under the quilt, only a few wisps were exposed. Hair, not afraid to bore yourself.

Guan Yuzhou reached out and pulled down the quilt covering the boy's mouth and nose, revealing his peaceful sleeping face.

Xia Zhuo slept deeply, her brows and eyes completely stretched.Guan Yuzhou's eyes slid across his forehead, extended from the brow bone to the bridge of the nose, lips, and finally stopped on the chin.

In the silence where there was only the sound of gentle breathing, he used his fingertips to trace the outline of Xia Zhuo's face. Just as he turned off the light in the room and was about to leave, a hand suddenly grabbed his wrist.

"...Where are you going?" Xia Zhuo asked him confusedly with a slightly hoarse voice.

Guan Yuzhou struggled a little, "I'm going to sleep on the sofa."

The two were in a stalemate, neither one would let the other, Xia Zhuo said nothing and let him squeeze on the palm-sized sofa.

"I'm going out to live tomorrow, anyway, you can't sleep on the sofa." Xia Zhuo glared at him in the dark.

After a long time, Guan Yuzhou was defeated, and he rubbed his brows, "I saw your circle of friends."

Xia Zhuo pouted, indicating that if he had anything to say, he could just say it.

"Aren't you worried that others will talk nonsense?"

"What nonsense?"

Seeing him like this, Guan Yuzhou knew that Xia Zhuo didn't care about those things at all.

After thinking for a moment, he sat down on the edge of the bed, intending to speak clearly, "Even if you don't care about your liking for me, other people will. Your friends, relatives, and everyone who is watching you will care. They Not only do they care, they will definitely stop you, thinking that you shouldn't do this."

"So you also hope that I don't like you?" Xia Zhuo got up, and her mind was completely clear.

Guan Yuzhou didn't speak.

His silence made Xia Zhuo a little annoyed, his chest in thin pajamas heaved and heaved like an irritated beast, "If I don't even have the courage to admit that I like you, then why can I be with you ? And..." He choked up, and lowered his voice aggrievedly, "It's my business to like you, why are you attacking me?"

Guan Yuzhou opened and closed his mouth, then closed it, and explained, "I didn't kill you."

He twitched his wrist back, this time Xia Zhuo didn't hold on to it anymore.

The arm drew an arc in the air, and it was supposed to fall to the side, but changed its course halfway, and gently rubbed the top of Xia Zhuo's head twice.The touch under the palm made Guan Yuzhou sigh: "I see, I'm sorry."

Xia Zhuo immediately put his nose on his face, and whispered: "Then you come up to sleep, it's an apology."

Guan Yuzhou: "..."

He got up without a word, and the person on the bed suddenly cried louder, which made him feel a headache and compromised: "I'll go wash up first."

Xia Zhuo's crying face suddenly turned into a smiling face, and he lay back comfortably, not forgetting to urge: "Then come back quickly."

Guan Yuzhou took a deep breath and turned on the light in front of the sink. In the mirror, his ears were covered with a layer of powder, and his expression changed slightly.After Xia Zhuo's chatter disappeared, he heard the powerful beating of the heart in his chest.

That was the first time he clearly felt that he was moved by Xia Zhuo.It was also the first time he realized the meaning of life since he lived a boring life for so long.