fail love

For many years after that, Yan Shu would still dream of Tao Zhi's expression of looking back after getting off the car, his wet and red eyes under shock, his slightly bent back, his face full of tears, his drenched face, let him see It looked like some kind of alert little animal with nowhere to hide.

In the dream, Yan Shu always felt sad. He imagined that as usual, he got out of the car to comfort the shivering Tao Zhi. Tao Zhi was a timid child, and Yan Shu never seriously accused him, but this time he no action.

Human feelings are really too difficult to define. Yan Shu's ten years is not worth Wang Siyu's two years. Yan Shu doesn't want to complain or resent. He naturally knows that emotional matters cannot be forced, but his grief and jealousy are unavoidable.

Obviously all this had been predicted, but it really made him brutally face the fact that Tao Zhi liked others. Hearing Tao Zhi's confession to others, there was nowhere to hide the pain, and every breath was a new torture.

Under the dim light of the roof lights, a teardrop quickly rolled down on the steering wheel, condensed into a wet water mark, and quickly disappeared.

The relationship between Yan Shu and Tao Zhi became very awkward, they didn't need to deliberately avoid them, and the two hardly had many chances to meet each other.

Yan Shu's grandfather had four children, but the relationship was not harmonious, and the whole family had little affection to speak of.Yan Shu's mother has been the most outstanding Alpha among the four children since she was a child. Her grandfather raised her as the heir, but she has lived in the high-pressure Yan family since she was a child, and she has long been bored with the family's resource plundering wars, so she When he became an adult, he resolutely left the Yan family and stayed away from family disputes. After getting married, he was dissatisfied with his grandfather's gradually strengthening desire for control, so he directly moved to country J to settle down.

Grandpa gradually accepted the fact that his favorite daughter would not come back, but in the past few years, he put his mind on Yan Shu, frequently calling Yan Shu back to the old house for dinner, and mother heard the old man's abacus from as far away as J country. I always want to ask Yan Shu to go abroad and settle down together, and enjoy the idle and rich life with them.

The relationship between mother and grandpa can be said to be bad or not. As grandpa’s favorite daughter, she has not received much criticism, but at the same time, she has not received much warmth. She has established herself in country J, although she is not as good as her roots The Yan family is huge, and the property under its name is enough for Yan Shu to take over.

Yan Shu rejected his mother's request with little hesitation, and instead accepted the olive branch thrown by his grandfather. His mother was so angry that he scolded him in the video for an hour. In the end, his father had to come out and coax him into submission.

Yan Shu has been in a numb and busy period of time. As a family business, although the Yan family has a strong foundation, there are also many diseases caused by kinship. Yan Shu, as a person who was suddenly inserted by the old man, everyone's The vigilance has been raised, the family has never been so unanimous in the outside world.

On the day Tao Zhi left the country, Yan Shu was not present.

In the past three months, Yan Shu didn't get a moment's respite. When he walked out of the conference room, he saw that the sunlight in the corridor was pale, and there was not much warmth on his body. Looking out of the window, there is a wisp of cloud that looks very much like the wake cloud left by a plane passing by.

Yan Shu leaned on the wall, his heart convulsed, and the pain soon spread all over his body. He slowly bent down and slid down the wall. The assistant noticed his strangeness and called his name a few times. He gritted his teeth and couldn't speak, his eyes turned black, and he felt something strange in his body.

He opened his mouth and forced himself to inhale more air. After finding it was useless, his throat made a sound similar to being pinched and twitching. He could barely hear the words with two syllables. The surrounding voices became more and more noisy , but he was like an unsatisfied dying person, stretching out his hand stubbornly, trying to grab something, but in the end he could only hang down weakly with exhaustion, and completely passed out.

Yan Shu, who collapsed into the hospital due to overwork, was forced by the old man to take a one-month vacation. Yan Shu did not feel much happiness after getting the vacation. He seemed to have lost all vitality. He needed high-intensity work to paralyze himself , let yourself have no time to immerse yourself in sadness.

Maybe he can use time to dilute this secret love that ended without saying anything. In the next ten years, he can reconcile with this relationship and be willing to be Tao Zhi's good brother again.

Yan Shu did make a lot of plans. He fought his way out in the Yan family's battle for succession, and climbed to a high position at a young age. He had both rights and money at his fingertips, but he still didn't feel distinctly happy.

Chasing power can make people forget their original intentions, but Yan Shu always remembers that Tao Zhi waited outside his classroom for half an hour before class was over, and slipped in through the back door of the classroom to give him a boxed cake with With the word "Red" printed in gold, Tao Zhi squatted in the aisle like a thief and whispered to him: "This is a new product, I finally bought it."

Ruide’s new product adopts the method of hunger marketing, and the limited supply of new products is hard to get. Tao Zhi managed to get this bite. , Swallowing saliva secretly.

In the end, the two shared the piece of cake. Tao Zhi carefully licked the cream around his mouth, and when he laughed like a happy kitten, he said while eating: "Red's mousse is too sweet, It would be nice if it could be lighter.”

Ruide is a brand industry under the name of Yan's family. Because of Tao Zhi's words, Yan Shu came up with an idea that seemed absurd at the time.

Years later, Yan Shu did it, and part of Reid’s property has been transferred to him. In two years, Reid plans to expand overseas, and the first stop will be country D, but Yan Shu still doesn’t know if Tao Zhi can eat it. This is a mousse cake that is not very sweet.

He made an appointment for a weekly psychological consultation for himself, but was stimulated by the psychiatrist's suggestion during the first conversation, and directly canceled the next appointment.

He chose to use another extreme to explain himself. He missed Tao Zhi repeatedly and strongly. He printed out Tao Zhi's photo on a piece of paper and pasted it all over the room, so that he could see Tao Zhi's face in the photo when he opened his eyes. , every one of his perfumes has the fruity fragrance of peaches. Anyone who smells such a sweet fruity fragrance on a cold and hard-working person in a high position will be more or less surprised, but he is crazy infatuated with This smell cannot be extricated, even if this smell is not suitable for his current identity.

Yan Shu thought that he would be relieved by doing this, but he really felt a rare peace, and his emotions were no longer as turbulent as in previous years, but when he found out that Tao Zhila blackmailed him, he impulsively bought a ticket to country D .

After the impulsiveness, Yan Shu regretted it very much. He didn't know if Tao Zhi still wanted to see him. He was afraid of seeing Tao Zhi's disgusting eyes, but he couldn't accept that he would never be able to contact Tao Zhi.

During the first two hours of getting on the plane, Yan Shu was in a state of excessive anxiety, until the plane landed, he still didn't dare to step out of the cabin.

But these worries, anxieties, and panics disappeared the moment he saw Tao Zhi.

They met downstairs in Tao Zhi's apartment. Tao Zhi was wearing a gray woolen cardigan and dragging a pair of slippers downstairs to help his neighbors walk their dogs. His face was as young and energetic as Yan Shu remembered, green and brown. His eyes still haunted him, the moment he looked at him, Yan Shu's heart beat vigorously, showing his vitality.

"Yan Shu?" Tao Zhi called out in surprise and doubt, and ran up to him. The wind messed up his bangs and Yan Shu's heart at the same time. Yan Shu looked so flustered, while Tao Zhi behaved like Incomparably natural and intimate, as if there hadn't been that embarrassingly obscure two years between them.

Tao Zhi hooked his neck, put his face on his chest, and said in a low voice with a little aggrieved: "Brother, you haven't seen me for a long time."

Yan Shu was a little dazed, wondering which dream he was in, but Tao Zhi in his arms felt real to the touch, and he couldn't fake it. He lowered his head, smelled the green peach smell on Tao Zhi's body, took a few more breaths obsessively, and then Good perfume can't copy this kind of taste, this is a fact that Yan Shu cannot deny.

"I'm sorry, Tao Tao, are you angry with me because of this?" Yan Shu felt that he was in pain at first, but now he felt that he was giving himself a hard time. Zhi, he should be more honest and face up to his own desires, "Brother is wrong, don't be angry with me."

Tao Zhi looked up at him and shook his head lightly, "I'm not angry, I won't be angry with my brother."

The neighbor's Samoyed tilted his head to look at Tao Zhi and then at Yan Shu, stood up and "barked" twice to attract their attention, but no one paid attention to him, and he pawed Tao Zhi with his two fat claws Tao Zhi woke up like a dream, "I have to go for a walk with the dog."

Yan Shu accompanied him for a walk with the dog. Tao Zhi looked very happy, and even Yan Shu was also happy. The lost vitality came back to his body bit by bit. Tao Zhi didn't ask him why he suddenly appeared. Shu didn't ask him about the past, Yan Shu didn't want to waste such a good time worrying about other things.

In the apartment, Tao Zhi squatted down and found a pair of bigger slippers for Yan Shu at the bottom of the shoe rack. Yan Shu changed his shoes and went into the room to look around, but found no trace of the second person’s residence. Yan Shu entered the room He was embraced by Tao Zhi, who put his cheek against his shoulder, pouted slightly and said, "You haven't been here for a long time, I miss you so much, please stay longer this time, okay?"

Yan Shu held Tao Zhi's face with both hands, Tao Zhi looked at him expectantly, Yan Shu said "Yes", Tao Zhi laughed, and rubbed his cheek fondly against his palm.

"Tao Tao, where's Wang Siyu?" Yan Shu was a little puzzled, but couldn't help asking, "Why isn't he here to take care of you?"

Tao Zhi asked strangely when he heard the words: "Why did you ask him? He is not in the same place as me, and I don't need him to take care of me. I am independent now."

Yan Shu felt a kind of anger at being deceived, as well as anger at his own stupidity. He actually easily believed Wang Siyu's casual promise. He really thought that this uncertain person would be responsible for Tao Zhi to the end.

Tao Zhi was abandoned by his lover when he was in a foreign country, Yan Shu dared not think about how Tao Zhi had lived these past few years, he hated himself for being so negligent, and only now knew the truth.

"It's okay, my brother will take care of you from now on." Yan Shu hugged Tao Zhi and said to him, although Tao Zhi couldn't understand Yan Shu's words, he also knew that what he said was good, so he replied in a sticky voice: "Okay. "

Tao Zhi's heart is as beautiful as blossoming. This time "Yan Shu" disappeared for so long that Tao Zhi thought he had messed up and he would never appear again, but "Yan Shu" came back unexpectedly, and opened his eyes wide open. Holding him in his arms, nothing could make Tao Zhi happier than this.

He hugged Yan Shu's hand cherishingly, and asked him cautiously: "Can you spend more time with me this time?"

In the past, "Yan Shu" always stood aside, far away from him, neither communicated nor contacted him, and disappeared inexplicably. Tao Zhi was angry for a long time, and in a fit of frustration, he blocked all contact information up.

But now when the person came back, he posted it like a puppy again. Tao Zhi knew that he was spineless, but seeing "Yan Shu" made him even more sad, so it's better to be spineless.

Tao Zhi looked so timid, and his pleading expression made people feel pity. Although Yan Shu's rationality told him that there were still a lot of domestic affairs waiting for him to do, and the operation and projects had to be followed up, but he agreed without hesitation for a second. .

The author says:

In order to distinguish better, double quotation marks will be added to the strict statement in Tao Tao's delusion.