fail love

Tao Zhi got up happily to go to school the next day. He had just entered the classroom and saw Xu Zhou holding up his textbook and started his morning reading. He walked up to Xu Zhou with unconcealed excitement and whispered to her, "Xu Zhou, let me ask you Big brother, he didn't fall in love!"

Xu Zhou was busy reciting the text with her eyes closed. She opened one eye and looked at Tao Zhi, and waved him to get out of the way: "I'm glad you are, why are you so happy if your brother doesn't fall in love?" of."

Tao Zhi could only sit back in his seat holding back his joy, but he hadn't been happy for a few days, and he soon became unhappy.

The lunch break on Friday was not over yet. Xu Zhou finished a set of papers and looked up at the time. The lunch break was almost over. When he looked back, Tao Zhi, who was sitting in the back, was still in a deep sleep with his eyes closed, and his hair was scattered in a mess on his forehead. Before, she poked Tao Zhi's face with a pen, and called him softly: "Tao Zhi, wake up, let's go buy something to eat."

Xu Zhou poked for a long time before Tao Zhi opened his eyes in bewilderment. There was a red mark on the left cheek, coupled with the messy bangs, Xu Zhou couldn't help covering his mouth and laughing in a low voice.

Tao Zhi rubbed his eyes, boarding students can go to the dormitory to rest during the lunch break, there are only some day students left in the class, almost half of the people in the huge classroom are missing, and it is still very quiet, Tao Zhi did not hear clearly Xu Zhou told him to do it Well, I dare not speak loudly, lowered my voice and asked, "What are you going to do?"

"Go to the canteen! I'll treat you to some snacks." Xu Zhou had already stood up and pulled him up. Tao Zhi randomly pulled his bangs, wiped his face, and followed Xu Zhou with his waist bent. The two quickly went downstairs and arrived. There was chattering in the open space.

When they walked halfway, the bell for lunch break rang. Fortunately, they walked fast, and there were not many people when they arrived at the canteen. When Xu Zhou was still picking from the shelves, Tao Zhi had already picked out the snacks quickly. Carrying it to the cash register to check out, he said to Xu Zhou while taking out the money: "I still have a lot of pocket money, so let me treat you to eat."

Xu Zhou refused, rushed over and said, "It's always you who invited me, and today I will spend my money no matter what."

After she finished speaking, she poured out the snacks she was holding in her hand, and pushed Tao Zhi away. Tao Zhi didn't know how Xu Zhou could have so much strength to hold him back when he looked so delicate and small. , almost knelt down for this aunt.

After Xu Zhou paid the money, he proudly stuffed his wallet back into his pocket. The next class was physical education, and they were not in a hurry to go back, chatting happily in the canteen.

Tao Zhi tore open a bag of potato chips, bit two pieces of potato chips in his mouth to make a duck mouth for Xu Zhou, Xu Zhou laughed and said that Tao Zhi was stupid, Tao Zhi also made a "quack" twice, Xu Zhou Biting a piece of potato chips, he was leaning back and forth with laughter, but suddenly stopped, and shook Tao Zhi's arm violently, "Is that your brother?"

Tao Zhi looked in the direction Xu Zhou pointed, and although there was still a distance, he could still tell that it was Yan Shu.

Yan Shu was accompanied by a boy with very fair skin, Yan Shu had long legs and he couldn't keep up, he walked a few steps and hopped around, like a little rabbit.

Before Tao Zhi could react, Xu Zhou hurriedly pulled him in and made a booing gesture to him, "You also said that your brother is not in a relationship, isn't that the two of you are getting close?"

Tao Zhi's mind went blank, and he stammered like he was stuck: "That's right, that's right? He told me himself."

"He must have thought you were a child and lied to you." Xu Zhou looked out again and patted Tao Zhi in surprise, "Oh oh oh! That boy went to hold your brother's hand just now!"

Tao Zhi quickly covered his ears and said in protest, "I won't listen."

Xu Zhou wanted to watch again, but Tao Zhi covered his face with a bag of snacks he had just packed, and ran straight out. Xu Zhou was caught off guard by his sudden movement, looked left and right, and finally turned in Tao Zhi's direction Running wildly, shouting while running: "Why are you running!"

Tao Zhi ran with his head depressed, and didn't pay attention to the road ahead. He stopped when he bumped into someone at the top of the stairs. He looked up in horror, and found that he bumped into a classmate in his class, but he was unlucky. Zheng Chen was in the class. He is the most irritable person in the world, and he is tall and tall, no one dares to provoke him.

"Damn, where are the eyes?" Zheng Chen cursed and pulled Tao Zhi's neckline, Tao Zhi struggled a few times in panic, and apologized wildly in his mouth. Zheng Chen was angry, and looked down at the man who hit him. The man was actually a little idiot in the class, he was stunned for a moment, let go of his hand, wiped his clothes with his hand, couldn't help but cursed again, "Idiot, I didn't do anything to you, why are you crying? "

Tao Zhi lowered his head and wiped his cheeks with his fingers, and he felt wetness. He didn't know when he was crying, but Xu Zhou finally caught up and stared at Zheng Chen: "What are you doing? Bullying your classmates?"

Zheng Chen rolled his eyes: "Crazy, I was bumped by him and before I said anything, he cried by himself."

Tao Zhi was afraid that they would quarrel, so he quickly pulled Xu Zhou gently, pulled Xu Zhou behind him, and said softly, "I'm fine, let's go up quickly, class is about to begin."

Tao Zhi took another cautious look in Zheng Chen's direction, and dragged Xu Zhou away.

Tao Zhi has slender limbs, and when he runs, his movements are beautiful, as dexterous as a deer, and there is a snow-white ankle leaking from the principal's trousers. When Zheng Chen looked up, he happened to see this white ankle passing by.

He pushed his tongue against his jaw, and the person next to him poked him with an elbow and asked, "Why are you so engrossed?"

Zheng Chen pressed his head hard, and scolded him for no reason: "Idiot."

Xu Zhou thought that Tao Zhi was scared to cry by Zheng Chen, and Tao Zhi returned to the classroom without much energy, lying on the table sleepy, his eyes red like rabbits, Xu Zhou said worriedly: "Don't be afraid of him, he I dare not do anything to you."

Tao Zhi shook his head. He couldn't tell the real reason for crying. Tao Zhi didn't quite understand what his state of mind represented, but he vaguely realized that these emotions were wrong, and he had no reason to restrain and express them strictly.

On the weekend, Yu Yanlun asked Tao Zhi to ask Yan Shu to come over for dinner. Tao Zhi, who is always the most active, refused for the first time. Yu Yanlun said curiously: "Why don't you go? Didn't you love doing this thing before?"

Tao Zhi said without turning his head, "I won't go, don't let him come."

But Yan Shu still came, Yan Shu's parents were abroad all the year round, in order to make Yan Shu not too lonely, Yu's parents always asked him to come to eat at home, it has become a habit to eat.

Tao Zhi was also unusually quiet at the dinner table, his face was buried in the rice bowl and he didn't lift it up, and he went upstairs without making a sound after the meal.

Tao Zhi sat at the table in the room by himself, and didn't see much with the book spread out. Most of the time, he was distracted until there was a knock on the door outside the room. Tao Zhi raised his head and asked, "Who is it?"

"it's me."

Tao Zhi heard that it was Yan Shu's voice and stopped silent. Yan Shu waited for a while but didn't hear the sound, so he hesitated for a while, and then twisted the handle to open the door.

"Don't come in!" Tao Zhi hurriedly stood up from the chair, but he didn't move as fast as Yan Shu did. Seeing Yan Shu walk into the room, he could only stop, took a few steps back and sat back on the chair again, with a low voice. He tugged at the fabric at the hem of his clothes.

Tao Zhi lowered his head, and the line of the back of his neck drew a beautiful arc, Yan Shu stood aside for a while, Tao Zhi couldn't help but look up at him, not fiercely, he looked aggrieved, Yan Shu helplessly Say, "Did I make you angry?"

Tao Zhi is not a person who can hold back secrets, he was about to explode, and when Yan Shu asked him, he was very excited and poured out all the thoughts in his head these days: "How can you lie to me! I am so Believe me, you still lied to me."

Yan Shu squatted down in front of Tao Zhi, keeping his gaze level with Tao Zhi, "I won't lie to you."

Tao Zhi flattened his mouth, "You lie, you are in love, you can't be in love, you just can't."

Tao Zhi spoke eagerly, and reached out his hand excitedly to touch Yan Shu's face, pinching the flesh on Yan Shu's face with his fingers, it hurt a little, Yan Shu held his wrist, and said a little seriously: "Tao Zhi, calm down. "

Tao Zhi couldn't calm down at all, he couldn't help shaking his body all the time, his calves were shaking faster and faster, he almost shouted: "You can't lie to me! You are fine with others, you can't lie to me like this... ..."

Yan Shu locked his hand, pressed firmly on Tao Zhi's knee, resisting to let Tao Zhi shake his leg, Tao Zhi slowly calmed down, and panting, said: "You can't treat others the same as you treat me..."

Yan Shu looked at him silently for a while, Tao Zhi looked at his dark pupils and panicked for no reason, and sure enough, Yan Shu said to Tao Zhi slowly but firmly, "I can't be with you forever."

Tao Zhi screamed, his voice was very high-pitched, like a dying bird, his body twitched violently, Yan Shu hugged him tightly, while Tao Zhi screamed and beat him, his mouth was gurgling. A lot of words came out intermittently, and some curse words that Tao Zhi would not say at all came out obliquely at this moment.

Yan Shu put his arms around Tao Zhi and covered his mouth. Tao Zhi whimpered a few times and kicked his legs unconsciously. Finally, the chair overturned and both of them fell on the carpet.

Tao Zhi's tears were very hot, and big drops fell on Yan Shu's hands, Yan Shu endured the heartache and softly comforted Tao Zhi: "Tao Tao, it's okay, listen to me, I can't be with you forever, but as long as I can I will never leave you."

"Don't be afraid, and don't think about other things anymore. I didn't lie to you. I really haven't fallen in love." Yan Shu paused for a while, and added the next sentence, "Even if we fall in love in the future..."

Tao Zhi began to struggle again, trying to bump his head against the leg of the table, Yan Shu held down Tao Zhi who was moving like a live fish in his arms, but Tao Zhi suddenly calmed down, raised his head and shed tears quietly, Tears slowly slid down his cheeks, and finally fell on the back of Yan Shu's hands.

Yan Shu let go of his hand slowly, but Tao Zhi still didn't move, like a fish that died after being exposed to the sun, spread out on Yan Shu's lap absentmindedly.

Yan Shu's palms were full of Tao Zhi's tears and saliva. He wiped his palms with a tissue, and then wiped the tears on Tao Zhi's face. .

The surrounding voices gradually poured into Tao Zhi's ears again, he felt Yan Shu raised his head slightly, Tao Zhi moved, and Anshun let someone put his face on his shoulders.

"I'm sorry, brother." Tao Zhi sobbed, "I can't control myself, I can't control myself."

"I won't say any more, I know..." Tao Zhi buried his face on Yan Shu's neck, his face was still hot from crying, Yan Shu hugged Tao Zhi with mixed feelings in his heart, and touched Touching the end of his hair, I heard the child holding back his sobs and said very softly: "It's hard work with me, isn't it?"

"It's not hard." Yan Shu patted him on the back, and Tao Zhi said "I'm sorry" again.

Tao Zhi thought, he can no longer cling to Yan Shu, he is too disobedient, always making trouble for no reason, always embarrassing.

He is unhealthy, it is already very troublesome to take care of an unhealthy person, he does not want to be a drag on Yan Shu.

The author says:

ps Tao Zhi is still too young now, Yan Shu didn't think about Tao Zhi's feelings for love, Tao Zhi himself didn't think about that, he thought Tao Zhi was possessive, he had similar behaviors before, because Tao Zhi Because of his illness, his exclusive behavior will be extreme, so Yan Shu doesn't dislike Tao Zhi at all, he just wants to turn Tao Zhi's excessive exclusive behavior away.