fail love

The third year of senior high school has a lot of homework, starting from 05:30 in the morning to start a day's study, and it doesn't end until 10:30 in the evening, so Yu Yanlun and Yan Shu both chose boarding, Tao Zhi chose to go to school, except for weekends and holidays after school, they basically There is no chance to leave school together.

City Z is located in the hilly area. If you go to the more open suburbs, you can see the faint mountain. The top of the mountain is filled with white mist all the year round. This is a humid southern city. In April, the night wind is still damp and cold. , got into Tao Zhi's loose school uniform, which made him shiver.

When Yan Shu and Yu Yanlun left school after graduating from junior high school, Tao Zhi was also very uncomfortable. He hoped that he would finish elementary school soon so that he could catch up with them again, but when he reached junior high school, he found that the distance between them There is no slight recovery due to the closer geographical location.

Tao Zhi is still lonely, he will not complain about it, Tao Zhi has always been a person who is easy to satisfy, but the big confession this evening made Tao Zhi feel unexplainably sour.

The campus at night is very quiet, especially in the high school before the end of class, the whole building is silent, occasionally there are a few black shadows as big as beans running past the incandescent lights of the classroom, Tao Zhi is standing in the high school He took a few glances downstairs from the department, and he didn't move until the driver called him.

He told the driver that he would come out later, and then squatted alone under the big tree next to the guard room. He was wearing a little less clothes today, and was shivering under the night wind.

Tao Zhi didn't know how long he had been waiting, maybe half an hour, maybe 10 minutes, but these were not important to Tao Zhi, he squatted quietly and silently, with his chin resting on his knee , In the nasal cavity, you can still smell the damp earthy smell in the flower bed.

Tao Zhi felt a little strange, the white light on the other side of the teaching building was like jumping cold flames, his eyes were sore after staring at it for a long time, and the night wind blew a little tear, Tao Zhi thought that he would see someone later, so he hurriedly shook his head Buried in his arms, now he is more like a silent little rock.

He thought in his heart, let him just turn into a stone, with his feet buried in the moist soil, and a few flowers will bloom in April. No one will move him away, and no one will order him to be a stone. When Shi Shi grew up, he only needed to enjoy the wind and sun to stay here all the time, watching Yan Shu go to and from school.

I hope that when Yan Shu graduates, he can be dug out and taken away, and buried in the flower bed in his university.

It wasn't until the bell for the end of get out of class came from the teaching building that he collected his scattered thoughts, stood up slowly, stomped his feet that had been numb for a long time, cheered himself up a few times, bowed his head and started to walk towards the teaching building of the high school. Walk.

Yan Shu's rocket class is at the stairs on the sixth floor. There are only thirty students in one class. Tao Zhi tries his best to shrink himself as small as possible, leaning on the door frame and looking into the classroom. Inside the classroom.

Even after class was over, there were not many people making noise in the rocket class, and most of them were still immersed in their studies. The students sitting by the door noticed Tao Zhi and were obviously stunned for a moment, because Tao Zhi's face looked fresh and fresh, and his body One look at the school uniform and you can tell that you are not a high school student.

"Who are you looking for?" The classmate asked him in a low voice, and Tao Zhi replied in a lower voice: "I'm looking for Yan Shu..."

The classmate didn't hear clearly, "Ah?" Tao Zhi was very afraid of communicating with strangers, his face was blushing, and he was about to repeat it louder, when Yan Shu appeared with a pile of homework.

"Tao Tao?" Yan Shu was surprised to see Tao Zhi at the door of the classroom. Tao Zhi turned his head and saw Yan Shu immediately showed a surprised expression, but this expression didn't last long before he collapsed.

The corners of Tao Zhi's eyes were red, and the tip of his nose was also red from the wind. He looked like he had cried. Yan Shu put the homework book on the podium, walked out again and pulled Tao Zhi to the quiet corridor.

"What's the matter? Came to look for brother all of a sudden?" Yan Shu touched Tao Zhi's eyes, and there was no trace of moisture. He heaved a sigh of relief. As soon as he opened his mouth, he swallowed softly.

"I saw..." Tao Zhi lowered his voice very low, sounding sticky, "You have a puppy love! You are not allowed to have a puppy love, you are not allowed to like that person."

After Tao Zhi finished speaking, seeing that Yan Shu didn't move, he moved his gaze up inch by inch to Yan Shu's face, his expression was still calm and indifferent, only Tao Zhi's face was flushed, which was very shameful.

Tao Zhi knew that he was making trouble out of no reason, but he just didn't want to accept it. He grabbed Yan Shu's forearm with both hands almost begging and shook it, hoping that Yan Shu could give him some response.

Yan Shu raised his hand to touch his hair, Tao Zhi felt so sad that he wanted to cry, he thought Yan Shu was too bad, if Yan Shu touched his hair like this, he might touch that person's hair gently, In Yan Shu's world, there is no uniqueness at all.

"No puppy love." Yan Shu closed his eyes helplessly, "Is it because of this that you haven't come home yet?"

He lowered his head and raised his hand to look at his watch, and said expressionlessly: "It's nine twenty, you should be at home at this time."

Tao Zhi frowned, he felt that Yan Shu's attitude towards this matter was too light, obviously it was a very heavy and serious matter, he warned Yan Shu fiercely: "You can't fall in love now, You are still in the third year of high school, during the sprint period of the third year of high school, you can't neglect your studies for the sake of love, do you think the current love can last? No!"

Yan Shu pinched Tao Zhi's red nose, it was cold, and turned to Tao Zhi fiercely: "I don't need you to worry about wearing so little and still wandering outside, just go back to me immediately."

Tao Zhi's fierceness was soft and had no deterrent effect, but Yan Shu's fierceness was real. Tao Zhi wanted to talk back but was afraid of making Yan Shu angry, so he closed his mouth and slammed his head into Yan Shu's chest in aggrieved manner.

Yan Shu almost vomited blood when he hit him on the head. Tao Zhi tried to run away, but was grabbed by Yan Shu. He struggled like a cub caught in a trap. He was so angry that he decided that Yan Shu The description must be in love with someone, and scolded him with staring eyes: "You are dead!"

Tao Zhi doesn't know how to swear, his vocabulary is limited, if he can, he would like to insult Yan Shu for an hour now.

Yan Shu pulled him back with force, and Tao Zhi was as powerless as a chicken in front of him. He was lifted up and placed on a higher step as soon as he was held by his arms.

Even standing on a higher step, Tao Zhi was no taller than Yan Shu, he felt even more depressed when he realized this, wishing he could hit Yan Shu's pretty face.

Because of emotional ups and downs, Tao Zhi's chest heaved and heaved, and the baggy school uniform couldn't cover it. Yan Shu pinched the bridge of his nose, put his hips on his hips and asked him, "Which eye of yours saw my puppy love?"

"I just saw it, with both eyes." Tao Zhi pointed to his own eyes, Yan Shu looked at him silently for a while, then hugged him into his arms, and patted him on the back comfortingly , said in a softer tone: "I didn't agree, I didn't fall in love, and I won't leave you behind if I fall in love, don't be afraid."

Tao Zhi kept trembling in his arms, he knew that Yan Shu was good enough for him, but he couldn't help but feel sad, Yan Shu could see through his awkwardness at a glance, he made a fuss like a clown, he was very disobedient Very annoying.

Yan Shu glanced at the time again, and wanted to take Tao Zhi down, Tao Zhi resisted a little, but was still pulled away.

In the empty campus, Tao Zhi held Yan Shu's hand stubbornly. He counted the steps they walked with his head down. When he counted to two hundred and three, he said softly: "Brother, can you fall in love later ?”

At that time, Tao Zhi didn't know that his behavior was considered humble. At the age of the first love, Tao Zhi didn't have the joy and drive of a newborn calf, but was trembling, subconsciously labeling his love as cheap.

Yan Shu didn't answer him. Yan Shu is a very old-fashioned person, and he made promises strictly. He would not make promises without absolute certainty. Tao Zhi turned his head and looked at him anxiously, his moist eyes looked at him. Looking soft and harmless, Yan Shu pursed his lips and said, "Okay."

Tao Zhi leaned against him, the night wind blew away his bangs, exposing his smooth forehead, Yan Shu lowered his head and could see the sparkling teardrops under his eyes, a small and inadvertent teardrop, which was quickly touched by Tao Zhi It was wiped off secretly, leaving only the moist reddish lower eyelid.

Yan Shu's heart suddenly shrank and beat violently. The cold sweat rolled down his back, and his scalp was numb. He didn't dare to think about what this teardrop that hadn't been blown away by the night wind meant.

If he hadn't noticed this small crystal teardrop, he could have pretended that nothing had happened, but he saw it, and finally realized that the person holding his hand was really not a child.

Yan Shu has always hoped that some of his actions would bring any hints to Tao Zhi and mislead Tao Zhi, so he has always paid attention to his words and deeds. When Tao Zhi reached puberty, he naturally alienated Tao Zhi.

Tao Zhi also acted very naturally, occasionally feeling grievances and bewilderment, but it didn't last long. At least in Yan Shu's view, Tao Zhi had learned how to be independent from them and started to socialize. To other people's names, but recently someone else's name was mentioned.

Yan Shu knew that Tao Zhi had to go through this, and it was also what he had to go through, so he pushed his child out to see the beauty and grandeur of the world.

But this is not voluntary. If he can be selfish, he will choose to keep Tao Zhi by his side all the time. He can do this. Tao Zhi is extremely dependent on him. Just a little hint, he It will walk into the cage obediently like a lamb with a chain around its neck.

The difference between humans and animals is that humans have rationality, and Yan Shu's rationality has always been higher than sensibility.

On this dark campus path that was not illuminated by street lights, Tao Zhi twitched as if startled by the sudden sharp ringing of the class bell. Yan Shu hugged him even tighter, and Tao Zhi almost buried himself in his school uniform.

Yan Shu's school uniform was dry and warm, with a mild camellia fragrance. Tao Zhi felt very comfortable, and was a little greedy for this embrace.

Yan Shu sent Tao Zhi to the car all the time, and Tao Zhi sat in the back seat of the car, raised his head and whispered to Yan Shu, "I'm sorry."

Yan Shu wanted to say that there was nothing to apologize for, but looking at Tao Zhi's small face with a sharp chin, everything revealed his confusion. After all, relying on one person is not good for Tao Zhi, even if that person is himself.

Yan Shu supported the car door and bent slightly, nodded slightly, "Tao Tao, good night."

Tao Zhi didn't know what Yan Shu was thinking, his pure and stubborn possessiveness was easily seen through, but he was still feeling at ease because of Yan Shu's words, and he showed a small sweet smile to Yan Shu: "Good night, brother Yan Shu."