[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

How is it possible, I clearly saw it with my own eyes.

It's Elena.

She's alive, and there's so much joy left after the incredible, it's great that she's alive.

Too excited, I lowered my head and tried my best to control my emotions, forcing myself to calm down.Because I lowered my eyes, I couldn't see the expressions of other people when they saw me, but soon a few people walked past me.Oh, not exactly, two slender legs came into sight out of the corner of my eye, and its owner stood in front of me as if waiting for me to look up and see its true face.

She looked at me firmly with a pale face, "Tammy, wait for me at the school gate after school, okay?" She begged me like this, and I could only nod in a daze.After finishing speaking, she pursed her lips and nodded to me, then returned to Stefan and their team.

Once again, I tried to focus on my unfinished lunch, when someone looked at me with interest out of the corner of my right eye.So I secretly raised my head slightly, and some boys and girls looked at me and whispered, and I felt uncomfortable all over.Oh, by the way, it is indeed a big news that a weirdo like me has contact with a star on campus, and it is worth passing on after dinner.I feel uneasy, I can't bear this kind of stare, I enjoy the contact with them and at the same time I want to remain invisible, but it seems that these two situations must be chosen, I smile wryly.

She was alone, with her back against the wall and her right foot resting on it, looking very relaxed.My hanging heart settled down. Fortunately, she was the only one. I was really afraid of being surrounded by several people.

She saw me and waved to me, and I walked straight in her direction.

Or she, stay with me, go home.

The sun has set, and we are chasing after our own shadows, silent to each other, or thinking about how to speak.

"Tammy, can I trust you?" She still asked the question that lingered in my head.

I stopped, and she turned her head to look at me puzzled. She was facing the sun and was dazzled by the light, while my back was facing the light source, which was destined to belong only to darkness.I took two deep breaths and said the long sentence I have never said in my life, "Elena, I don't know how to convince you that it has nothing to do with me, but the truth is that it has nothing to do with me, I admit that it is in me There are many puzzles, but these puzzles even I am at a loss, and these confusions may be a threat or betrayal to you but it is not a good thing for me, if I have not been with Damon has something to do with it, so I’m just me, an unbeautiful me, but because of that, I’m dragged by the situation and passively accept it.” After organizing the whole afternoon in one breath, I seemed to be much more relaxed, no I know whether these sentences express my meaning clearly or explain my innocence, but I am very happy to have someone who listens to me. Even if she can't understand, accept, or believe, she is at least willing to listen.

Elena looked into my eyes, and I suddenly remembered what Caroline said that night, and I joked, "Elena, are you looking at me like this because you are good at judging people's hearts from their eyes?" It's over, I'm stunned, I'm overstepping, who allowed me to talk to a good person who doubts me like a friend?It's the desire in my heart, the desire, to be friends with Elena.

"I believe in you," Elena said.

"Why?" I blinked my uncontrollable eyes in confusion, and the shadow of my eyelashes was seen very clearly.

"Tammy, I'm sorry, none of this really has anything to do with you," she continued.

My trembling stopped, hot blood shot to my whole body, the temperature of my body rose instantly, a feeling of being trusted warmed my lonely soul.

What's it like, friend?A good female friend will visit your bedroom with interest and share your precious treasures. Elena came to my house for the second time. She marveled at the structure of my house for the first time. One large space is my bedroom with the living room, and the other slightly smaller room is arranged as a study, which is the real study. The big bookcase is full of books I brought from China, and the empty space is waiting for me to shop for treasures bit by bit.There are more bowls and chopsticks in my kitchen than them. Elena expressed great interest in chopsticks. She expressed regret for my books. Unfortunately, most of the books that look good are Chinese versions, and she has no interest in square characters. No research.

"Hi, honey, are you okay?" I heard a gentle female voice on the other end of the phone.

"Bonnie, I'm fine now, I know how to regulate myself, don't worry too much about me." Although Elena was pale, it could be seen that the spirit inside was still good.

For the few days when I disappeared, Elena expressed great concern. I lied to her and said that I was shocked in the woods that day, had a high fever and went to the hospital to lie down for a few days.

But I was dawdling about her matter, not knowing whether I should mention it or not.

"Your expression betrays your heart, Tammy, you are such a simple person, that's why I choose to trust you, if you are not very good at lying then you don't know how to hide at all, and the clarity of your eyes gives me an intuition It's the latter, so, Honey, what do you want to ask?"

I'm embarrassed, no matter who is seen through, I will always be embarrassed, so I bite my lower lip tightly to divert the feeling of embarrassment.

"Why are you still alive," she laughed, and I suddenly realized that my choice of words was inappropriate.

"I didn't mean that, I mean, you should have died," I quickly explained, but the more I explained, the more confusing it became, I might as well not speak.So I decided to keep silent, "Tammy, you are so cute, I know what you mean."

"My life was exchanged for another's life," she looked at me earnestly, with sadness in her eyes.

I can no longer be curious, as long as she is alive, that is enough. "So, you have to cherish your life more and live well." If I leave, please help me continue to look at the world, I continued in my heart.

"Thank you, I will, and I only have Jeremy left, and Jeremy only has me left, for him, for myself, for those who have died or are alive, I will live a good life." She said with determination. Gaze, promise yourself.

"Is everything about your aunt settled?"

"Yes." Mentioning her aunt, Elena's expression was full of tears again.

"I, can I go and see her?" When I think of that mature woman, I feel sad. In such a short time, I have experienced encounters with her, and she passed away quietly in her best years. How could I not leave sad?

"Tammy, thank you, Jena is buried with my uncle, my father John, we can go together tomorrow." I wonder, isn't John her uncle?But this is not the right time to ask, so I decided to drop the question.

I should say something, Elena is really sad, and this sadness seems to be caused by me, but if I say sorry, it will embarrass her, so I move my lips from time to time with a distressed expression He comforted her silently with his eyes.

"I think I should go back." Elena stood up from the sofa and said goodbye to me.

I followed suit and stood up, playing with each other's hands, and tremblingly decided to express my concern, "I, I will send you back." With words, I can't organize and have no experience to comfort a sad person, but if you let go The person who hurts alone will feel guilty, regret and afraid of leaving her indifferent feelings in her heart, so if I am not good at the way of vocal comfort, please let me use my silent company to pass on your strength.

But it was getting late, and Elena was also worried about my comfort, but she understood my personality more or less, and she was also worried that if I refused directly, it would take away the self-confidence I finally had.

Knock knock knock, when she was conflicted, someone knocked on my door.I was shocked, who is it?No one has ever come to me.With suspicion, I opened the door, Damon's face appeared in front of my eyes, I suddenly stiffened my back, his complexion was pale, a kind of sickly weakness, and his calm expression concealed the threat of ferocity and hatred, I My heart can't face such emotions.Seeing me standing in front of the door for a long time, Elena came to my side, "Damon, why are you here?" She was also a little surprised.Seeing Elena's appearance, Damon's eyes immediately glowed and became soft.

"Let me take you home." Damon said to Elena irresistibly, holding her back as he spoke and pulling her out of my house like I was a virus trying to stay as far away as possible.

"Damon, don't do this." Seeing his hostility towards me, Elena said with some embarrassment.She looked at me worriedly, and I smiled understandingly, "Elena, then let Damon take you home." After hearing what I said, she nodded and followed Damon away.

I had walked about ten meters away, but I saw Damon turned to look at me with a gloomy face, completely without the warmth when facing Elena.I smiled wryly, the feeling of being loved and protected by others is really good.