[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

Life is always going on, no matter how uncomfortable it is.Time is something more ruthless than God. It is selfish and vicious. It just cares about its own passing and doesn't care about anyone's wishes.

Damon's hostile attitude made me unbearable and I just wanted to escape, so I hid in a corner alone without being seen.My feelings are not cared about, even Elena, who is kind in nature, chooses to believe me, but the thickness of the relationship needs to be measured by the accumulation of time and the amount of self-emotional investment, so when Damon meets me, Elena's balance must be She will tend to the former, no matter whether she feels angry or helpless, after all, Damon has always loved her so deeply, no one can be ruthless than grass and trees, even if she can't reciprocate with love, Elena will do her best to protect Damon.

I shook my head and smiled wryly, what's wrong with me, am I starting to feel dissatisfied?I used to have nothing so I couldn't have it, and once I started to develop, I prayed for more, and why am I jealous? I should be grateful for Elena's kindness to me. It was my fault to let her choose between friends and me. How can I blame her for not being kind enough to me?And I am a dying person, so why bother to get her deeper feelings and hurt her already riddled soul. Facing the departure of many relatives, Elena is already grieving enough, and I shouldn't let this sadness become more and more serious. deeper.

I comforted myself, adjusted myself, figured out the emotional injustice at this moment, and felt a lot more relaxed. No matter what Damon will treat me next, what I have to do is to live hard and let the rest of my life be for myself and for others. more meaning.

The mobile phone seems to be just a decoration to me. Looking at the few phone books, there is nothing other than the school, the hospital, Tina, grandma, Lexi, and my father who will never be connected.

Lexi means more to me than Elena. Although our relationship seems to be her one-way effort, her spirit really gives me great strength. She may not understand me, but she respects me enough. Her human nature makes good use of her feelings to decide to like me, no matter whether I am cold or hot.This is what the considerate Lexi told me because she was afraid that I would be uneasy. She was afraid that I would feel guilty towards her because of my inactive personality. She always comforted me, saying that she likes me and she can feel me too. emotions, so this friendship is equal, I don't have to worry about it.So I even started to think about Tina's words, I am such an unpleasant person, but I can still find such a friendship, do I really have the ability to make people feel pity?

Lexi is about to graduate. She called me a month ago and told me that she was going to retreat to collect thesis materials, so my phone hasn't rang for a long time. I don't know how she is. I heard that graduating from American universities is very difficult. I wish her all the best.

Before falling asleep, I thought of Damon's eyes again, fragile, dangerous, evil, painful, surprised, happy, doubtful, playful... How can a person have such colorful emotions?Of course, it would be great if he didn't keep picking on me. Will he come looking for me tomorrow?

I have a biological clock in my body so I'm used to waking up on my own, but today my phone rang and it was a miracle.

"Hi, baby, are you up yet?" Lexi called out refreshed from the other end of the phone.

I smiled, "Yes, it's almost time to get up."

"Honey, I have a sudden plan, and I really hope you can join." Her voice was filled with obvious joy, and her tone was much higher than usual, and her hormones were probably doubled.My dear friend, what can make you so happy?

"Yeah." But I didn't know how to express my happiness, only inappropriate indifference. Lexi didn't care much, and my lack of cooperation didn't affect her good mood at all.

"I'm so happy that my tutor passed my topic. I worked all night last night and submitted the draft to my tutor not long ago. After reading it, she expressed great interest and even praised me."

"Then congratulations." Lexi, this is all the result of your hard work.

"Do you know what my thesis is?"

She was eager to tell me, and before I could answer, she continued, "My dear, it's you. It's a study on how Chinese immigrated to the United States should adapt to life in different environments. You are a model. But honey, I started my own research with you as a blueprint without your consent, you won't be angry." The more she spoke, the more uneasy she became, and the last question was more cautious than the high-pitched one just now.

"No," I answered curtly.

"That's great." The other side has started cheering.

"By the way, I haven't told you my plan yet." She was so happy that she seemed a little incoherent.

"What is it?" I quietly listened to her every word.

"I want to go to the nearby District of Columbia to have fun, and I want you to come with me, just the two of us, how about it?"

"Okay." I don't even want to ask when, for me, the most important thing is to bring happiness to my dear people in the limited time.

"Tammy, I knew you had a hot heart hidden under your introverted appearance. I really love you. You should ask the school for leave and let the teacher go to hell, haha." A person with a passion for business.

"OK, that's it. I haven't slept all night. Let me rest and get full first, and then go to Mystic Falls to pick you up. Say hello baby, the time is uncertain, so please don't promise your friend today. Please wait patiently for me to take you to be happy." After she finished speaking, she laughed twice and ended the line.I shook my head helplessly, the enthusiastic Lexi, let me face the troubles that may be coming.

After washing up, I went to school facing the rising sun.Because of the good mood brought by Lexi, I even had the urge to say hello to my classmates. The mouth shape of the word "Hi" has already been opened, meeting the strange eyes of the classmate, and suddenly swallowed the words that were about to be spit out.

History teacher Ric finally came back from leave. I just found out that he is Aunt Jena's boyfriend. Looking at his unrecovered face with obvious pain, my heart is not clear.During class, I focused on what happened to him, so that the whole person was in a state of fugue.It wasn't until he stood in front of me, "Miss Tammy," I didn't respond, he knocked on my desk again, and I returned from the fugue, and found that the teacher standing in front of me was watching me closely, I was terrified to find that my classmates were all grinning and wanting to laugh.

"Please be serious," Ric said, then turned and walked back to the podium to continue his lecture.

After this battle, I tried my best to return my attention to the text itself, but because RIC was talking about the history of the American Civil War, it was even more difficult for me to concentrate.For the first time, I felt that going to class has become a kind of pain for me. I counted the time in my heart and found that there are still two classes before school ends. It really feels like a year.

Suddenly, I became the focus of the class again, and the phone rang at this moment.I pressed the reject button in a panic, and seeing Ric looking at me with a half-smile, I was really embarrassed.

"Miss Tang",

"Teacher, this is an accident. I promise there will be no next time." I felt that Ric's next sentence was to hand over my mobile phone. It's Lexi, I can't lose touch with her.

After a pause, he said "Ok, if there is another time, you know what to do." I nodded quickly.

Ric turned around to write on the blackboard when he saw a text message, "Skip class, baby, see you at the school gate in half an hour."

Finally, this history class came to an end. Under the surprised eyes of my classmates, I packed my schoolbag in a hurry and rushed to the school gate.

Afraid to find other people's attention, I lowered my head and went forward regardless, but was blocked by the physical body in front of me.I took a step on the right side and said sorry in a low voice and wanted to continue walking, but my right arm was grabbed by the person in front of me. I raised my head in pain, and opened my mouth instantly, Damon.

He looked at me with an excited expression of catching prey and was about to slaughter him. He didn't dare to look directly into his magical eyes. When I stopped looking up, my eyes widened even more, "Your back", I couldn't help but Exclaimed, because of bumping into him, his shirt collapsed a bit, my angle was just right to see his festered skin, looming, disgusting and terrifying.

He narrowed his eyes and became even more angry, as if he was going to eat me in one bite.During the confrontation, I heard the sound of brakes coming from the school gate, and I could see Lexi's car in the distance. I didn't want her to worry, so I was eager to get rid of the man who controlled me, and I said with a pleading expression, "Damon, you can come to me at another time Settle the bill?"

"Damon", Elena and Stefan appear like angels in time.The control on my arm slowly loosened, and I breathed a sigh of relief, really saved. Damon tidied his clothes with his hands, and I took this opportunity to escape.

Without saying hello to them, I walked around Damon to Lexi.