[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

Except for the two times when I was sucked blood by Damon, I have never experienced the feeling of fainting, but this time I passed out again with regret, did I reach the limit?That place jumped extremely violently, then slowly subsided, and then decelerated and approached silence.

I thought there would be no tomorrow, but the warmth of the sun miraculously woke me up with a kiss.Eyes opened in the stinging pain, I showed a pale smile, tears flowed down, it must be thanks, thank you for being able to see the sun again.It's just that I couldn't get out of bed, as if I was paralyzed, my lower body was numb, and even my hands were about to lose control of my brain.I think I should be mentally prepared.It took a lot of effort to dial the number of the hospital, I gasped, I tried to open my eyes wide to not lose consciousness again, but I couldn't do what I wanted.

When I opened my eyes again, I saw the unique white scenery of the hospital. My attending doctor Tina looked at me worriedly, and her expression was still a little angry.

"Tammy, how do you feel?" She examined me with a stethoscope and said softly.

"Doctor Tina, is my condition getting worse?" I spoke with difficulty.

She gave me a glare, and stroked my forehead like a mother, stroking my hair, "What happened recently?" Her blue eyes stared at me, and I could only confess everything.

I nodded honestly, "Yes."

"Are things so important that you don't care about your body?" she continued.

This made me wonder, I don’t know, to be precise, things come to me, and I can only accept it passively, I don’t have the right to choose whether to want it or not, to do it or not to do it, I naturally want a body Take care, but things backfired.

So I couldn't answer, "I don't know."

"Do you remember what I told you?" This time I nodded affirmatively.

"Tammy, you have always been aware of your situation, do you still insist on not informing your family?"

I smiled helplessly, "Tina, I have turned 18, and I can be my own master." It's not that I don't want to inform my family, but that no one will care about me, so I would rather be regarded as a rebellious rejection Don't be surrounded by sympathetic and pitiful eyes.

Tina pursed her lower lips, feeling quite helpless towards me, she leaned down and kissed my forehead, "Tammy, you always make me love you. Take a good rest, I will come to see you later." Tina was about to get up and leave My bedside left.

Tina is the doctor who has been treating me since I came to the United States. She is a middle-aged American woman in her 40s, but if I don’t meet her every time in the hospital, I think I would like to see her often , because she has a good impression of oriental people, and her care and pity for me has surpassed the responsibility of ordinary doctors for patients, with the care of relatives and friends, I am very moved.

"Tina..." The moment she was about to step out of the ward, I stopped her.

She turned around and waited gently for my next words.

I took a deep breath, "How much time do I have?" Although the result is doomed, I still want to know the exact time to make all the preparations, so that everything is not too late.

Tina looked a little embarrassed, "You know I have the right to know." Maybe I was influenced by American life values, and I will use some personal rights to protect myself.

"At most half a year..." She left these words softly and closed the door for me.

The ward was quiet, I had no roommates, let alone visitors, and I could not be discharged from the hospital yet, so during Tina's working hours, I could only lie on the bed alone and stare out the window in a daze.There are many people and things in my mind, but besides myself, Elena is the most important person.I have long been indifferent to life and death, but that is only mine, others should have a wanton future, I shed tears because of reluctance, but there is no long-lasting sadness because I am born cold. Elena died before me, leaving great pain for the living. She had so many people who loved her, unlike me alone.And among those who miss her is me too, but I must have missed her funeral, Damon they don't know if they will believe me, will I have a chance to see Elena's tombstone?I thought, I asked, and there was no answer.

For several days in a row, I listened to the clock ticking by in loneliness.Only the sounds of nurses changing my dressings in and out and the nurses' shouts of delivering meals will add to the popularity of my ward.

"Tammy, you can be discharged from the hospital tomorrow." Tina told me the news when I got off work today.

"Tina, thank you." I really like this doctor who is like my mother. Her care is so selfless. At first we met each other and had nothing to do with each other. But she was able to treat me so well. For my favor.I asked her why she was so kind to me, she said it was because of her eyesight, and she also said that it was because I had such a pitiful temperament that people couldn't help but want to cherish her, she even joked that if I could live a healthy and crazy life Then an oriental girl like me will definitely be able to get the admiration of a lot of men. She said that it is the protection of a man's psychology and heroic complex.

"You don't have to thank me, you have to take good care of yourself."

Because of Tina, MsMartinson got my leave information and the doctor's certificate in time, so she didn't embarrass me this time, and even expressed her willingness to visit me during my hospitalization, but I refused and even asked her Keep it a secret for me and don't tell anyone the fact that I'm in the hospital.In fact, maybe I did this completely superfluously. If Elena was still alive, maybe she would come to see me, but...

Linda behind me poked my back, "Tammy, are you okay?" She asked cautiously, and looked at the reactions of the people around her inattentively.The students secretly peeked at our interactions, occasionally glanced at them and then talked with the people around them. I don’t want to eavesdrop on the content anymore.But in fact, they are not malicious, but Americans are more likely to accept lively and outgoing friends who are willing to take the initiative to make friends, and they still have some prejudices against Orientals.

I was a little surprised and a little surprised, but someone cared about me. Linda is a relatively silent white girl, perhaps because of her personality, except for a few friends who grew up together, the rest of the students don't want to associate with her too much.

And me, for the students, is someone who is not even willing to say hello, because I am a weird oriental person.

Maybe because of our small similarities, Linda is the only student in the class who is friendly to me, maybe she can understand me a little bit.

With a genuine smile, I said, "I'm fine, thank you, Linda."

She smiled shyly, then retracted and stopped talking to me.

The old-fashioned math teacher expressed great importance to my return, "Welcome back, Tammy." At this time, I became the focus again, I tightened my shoulders to minimize the sense of presence, those eyes were like rays, how could I resist.I was so nervous that I even forgot to express my gratitude to the teacher.

"She has come back."

"She has asked for a lot of days off, do you know what they are doing?"

"..."

During lunch, the girls at the next table were whispering something, and I just focused on eating.I'm still thinking about whether I should go to Stefan's house after school in the afternoon, Elena's funeral must be over.

Suddenly, the restaurant became lively, and everyone looked up at the entrance.

"She seems to be haggard again, what a pity." It was a few boys who spoke.

"But it's a pity Stefan is standing next to her," another boy said.

Hearing Stefan's name, I looked up immediately, and what I saw was the smiling faces of Caroline and Bonnie. Jeremy was standing next to Bonnie, and they were slowly walking towards me. Stefan's figure became more and more clear between the intersections. Well, there is also the person next to him with a bad face.Why did she, I opened my eyes wide, I couldn't believe it, my heart was beating violently, how could it be?I rubbed my eyes again, she had already seen me, God, how could that be?