Straight male cannon fodder is attracted by the protagonist

Zou Yun came to see Meng Chan today, and when he saw him lying on the bed, he couldn't help laughing, "I've never seen you in such a mess."

"How did you come?"

"Come and see you." Zou Yun sat on the sofa, "Don't worry, I'm not interested in you anymore, and I have a companion, so don't be nervous."

She casually took a washed apple and took a bite, "Hey, why did you have a car accident? Everyone around me has a car accident these days."

Meng Chan glanced at the phone, Yu Zhiyi said half an hour ago that he had already set off, why hasn't he arrived yet.

He was a little absent-minded, and said casually: "Really?"

"Do you remember that I told you before that my friend has a younger brother who is mentally ill?" Zou Yun chatted with him.

Yu Zhiyi, who came from the school, had just walked outside the door, just when he heard this sentence, he stopped in his tracks and did not open the door to go in by accident.

"Huh?" Meng Chan said.

"He died a few weeks ago."

Meng Chan became a little interested and raised his head.

Zou Yun looked regretful, "He suddenly had hallucinations, thinking that his girlfriend was cheating on someone else, and there was an argument in the car, and in a fit of anger, he rushed into the sea."

"In the end he died, but his girlfriend hasn't woken up until now, and I don't know when she will wake up." Zou Yun sighed, "It's too scary to fall in love with a mentally ill person, and I don't know when I will burp. "

She shook her head, "My friend cried terribly. Now that I think about it, sometimes such mentally ill people may really not be suitable to be with others."

"Suspicion will also harm others."

Yu Zhiyi's body felt densely icy, his fingers trembled uncontrollably, and his eyes straightened.

Meng Chan said suddenly, "Not necessarily."

"What?" Zou Yun didn't hear clearly.

"Nothing." Meng Chan said.

"Where's your little boyfriend?" Zou Yun began to gossip again, "I really didn't expect that you would like men, Meng Chan, I can't tell."

"I don't like men." Meng Chan stated the facts calmly, "I'm not gay."

Yu Zhiyi stood outside the door, his whole body was as stiff as a dead tree in winter, his body temperature was poured with ice water, from the beginning to the end there was a shivering cold, his heart was suppressed by sadness, he almost forgot How did you jump.

Meng Chan doesn't like men. He is a straight man and only likes women.

He doesn't like me as a man.

Why did God make me a man.

For a moment, Yu Zhiyi thought radically.

"Ah." Zou Yun didn't understand, "How is it possible, didn't that pretty boy say you are his boyfriend?"

The door was opened, and Yu Zhiyi entered, interrupting their chat, "Brother."

When Zou Yun saw Yu Zhiyi coming, although she had doubts in her heart, it was a matter between the two of them, so she couldn't ask more questions.

"Then I'll go first." Zou Yun picked up the bag.

After Zou Yun left, there were only the two of them in the ward.

"No class yet?" Meng Chan raised his chin and motioned him to come and sit down.

"There is still an experimental class in the afternoon." Yu Zhiyi sat beside him obediently, and opened the lunch he brought, "Brother, are you hungry?"

"It's okay." Meng Chan looked at him, and suddenly said, "Why do you feel like you're avoiding me?"

Yu Zhiyi was stunned for a moment, then laughed, "No brother, how could I avoid you."

Meng Chan already knew him very well, and he could tell at a glance that his smile was a little forced. He didn't like that smile very much, but he really didn't know what happened to Yu Zhiyi.

Although Yu Zhiyi often came to see him recently, he always looked preoccupied and occasionally avoided his gaze.

Meng Chan even suspected that the kid had smashed his head.

The two ate in silence, Yu Zhiyi had a poor appetite, and after a few mouthfuls he didn't want to eat anymore.

"Don't eat?" Meng Chan asked.

"Yeah," he said, "I just had something to eat at school, so I'm not very hungry."

"Eat some more." Meng Chan said forcefully.

Yu Zhiyi knew that Meng Chan cared about him, but now he didn't have the face to accept Meng Chan's kindness at all. Meng Chan's concern was all cheated by him.

Yu Zhiyi knew that he couldn't hide it anymore, it was unfair to Meng Chan, he didn't need to accept the pervert who had followed him.

How should I speak?

The truth is so sad.

"Brother..." Yu Zhiyi suddenly said, "You..."

He wanted to ask if you ever liked me?But he can think of the answer, it must be no.

Meng Chan put down the spoon, "Why didn't you say anything?"

"It's nothing..." Yu Zhiyi still didn't dare to speak, and spat at himself deeply.

"What's the matter with you?" Meng Chan frowned, "I'm squirming, did something happen again?"

Yu Zhiyi raised the corners of his mouth and smiled softly, "Brother, I've been pestering you before, isn't it annoying?"

Meng Chan didn't know what he asked suddenly, and said casually, "A little bit."

At the beginning, Yu Zhiyi stalked him, and Meng Chan was more or less annoying, but he was more used to it, and even occasionally enjoyed it.

But before he could say the rest, his phone rang, and it was Meng Lian.

"Brother, I just got out of school, what do you want to eat, I'll bring it to you."

"No, I ate."

"Okay, then I'll come directly."

After Meng Chan hung up the phone, he saw Yu Zhiyi's blank expression, "Yu Zhiyi?"

"Ah." Yu Zhiyi was stunned, "What's wrong?"

Meng Chan felt more and more that something was wrong with him, "What were you thinking just now?"

Yu Zhiyi plucked up the courage to put his hand on the back of Meng Chan's hand, feeling his warmth, with his long eyes drooping, and said softly, "I'm just thinking, spring is coming to an end."

"Spring is over long ago." Meng Chan said.

"Oh yes." Yu Zhiyi's expression was slightly in a trance, something was collapsing on his extremely beautiful face, and he smiled, "I forgot."

In fact, I have never had spring.

Meng Chan's heart was stabbed for no reason.

Meng Lian came in quickly, and when she saw Yu Zhiyi, she was pleasantly surprised, "Brother beauty, you have come to see my brother."

Yu Zhiyi smiled at him, stood up, still with a smile on his face.

"Brother, I'll go first then."

"Goodbye."

Meng Chan looked at his thin back, his shoulder-length hair was black and soft, he was wearing a white shirt, propped up two abrupt shoulder blades, and his exposed neck was pale and lingling.

The whole person is like white porcelain, which is fragile and fragile.

Meng Chan had a strange feeling, as if Yu Zhiyi would never look back.

He frowned deeply, feeling very irritable.

Yu Zhiyi finished the experiment absent-mindedly, and as soon as he left the door, he bumped into Lu Li who was passing by.

Lu Li came over to make a fool of himself, "Why are you still wearing a bandage? Did you get beaten? Oh, I forgot, you and Meng Chan got into a car accident."

Yu Zhiyi looked at him coldly, "Get lost."

Lu Li laughed ferociously a few times, "Yu Zhiyi, I heard your brother say that your mother and your sister were all killed by you, you are such a disaster, it's also true that Meng Chan didn't die by your side Miracle."

He added harshly, "It's a pity that you and Meng Chan didn't die!"

Yu Zhiyi punched him hard, and wanted to punch him a second time, but was held back by his classmates.

Lu Li was not afraid of death and said, "Aren't you just a pervert? You are also an idiot if Meng Chan would like you. Both of them are the same thing."

There were more and more people around, Lu Li ran away long ago when he saw something was wrong, Yu Zhiyi's face was gloomy.

"Are you okay?" someone asked him.

"I'm fine." Yu Zhiyi said blankly, turned and left.

By the time he got home, it was already dark.

He lay on the bed like a dead fish, and suddenly felt very tired.

Tired of breathing and tired of thinking.

When there is no one around, he likes to think a lot.All the words he heard during the day flooded into his brain at this moment.

The continuous blows made Yu Zhiyi's mental state extremely bad, and he hadn't had a good night's sleep for a long, long time.

Probably because of the despair of shattered dreams, Yu Zhiyi's heart was bloody and bloody from the shards of despair.

He really likes Meng Chan and wants to be with him very much.But Meng Chan doesn't love him, it's all his unrequited love.All the connections between him and Meng Chan were obtained through his stalking by a mental illness.

Mistakes are to be corrected.

It is impossible for Yu Zhiyi to lie to Meng Chan for a lifetime.

Not to mention Meng Chan bothering him.

Probably as everyone said, he was indeed a disaster, almost killing Meng Chan. If it wasn't for his appearance, how could Meng Chan have such an innocent disaster.

The more Meng Chan treated him well, the more terrified Yu Zhiyi became. After all, he was a disgusting fantasist.

Come to think of it, they shouldn't have been together in the first place.

This cognition is delayed, like cutting a belated blunt knife in his limbs. Losing Meng Chan is painful, and not being able to be with him is also sad.

Why did this dream wake up so quickly.

Those times with Meng Chan, those laughter and the moments when Meng Chan dotes on him, why are they all illusions, and what I am happy for is nothingness.

Why did all the memories that made me happy become disasters for me?

In the end, Meng Chan also became his disaster.

The pain squeezed Yu Zhiyi's heart, he couldn't help digging at his arm with his nails, the bandage on his wrist was torn off, Yu Zhiyi nervously went to pick at the scar that hadn't fully healed, tears welled up in his eyes, and blood flowed on the bed. with tears.

Yu Zhiyi curled up on the bed, calling Meng Chan's name in his heart.

Meng Chan.Meng Chan.Meng Chan.Meng Chan.

my dearest brother.

Why do not you love me.

His limbs started to go numb again, the dark night bred wriggling maggots and crawled all over Yu Zhiyi's body, he was covered in cold sweat and couldn't move.

Many distorted shadows appeared in front of his eyes, as if one abyss after another was about to swallow him up.

He didn't even have the strength to sit up, so he could only lie on the bed, tears running down his cheeks.

"elder brother……"

help me.

When Shen Lai entered the door, he saw Yu Zhiyi fainted on the bed. His wrist was dripping with blood, and a large red spot spread on the bed.

Startled, she hurried in.

Yu Zhiyi didn't know why he fainted, all he knew was that he kept crying and crying until he lost consciousness.

"Are you okay?" Seeing that he woke up, Shen Lai hurriedly asked.

Yu Zhiyi rolled his eyes sluggishly, and his voice was hoarse, "Sister Shenlai..."

"I'm here." Shen Lai asked worriedly, "What's wrong with you? Did something happen?"

Yu Zhiyi was lying on the bed, his long curled eyelashes trembling slightly, his whole body was extremely tired, as if extremely tired, the end of his eyes was flushed.

Like a limp, dead flower.

Shen Lai looked worried for a while, "Zhiyi, why can't I tell my sister?"

Yu Zhiyi was silent for a long time before slowly opening his mouth, "...Sister Shenlai, I have woken up from my dream."

Meng Chan's physical fitness is very good, the night of the last car accident was not very serious, recently he was able to get out of bed for a short time.

He stood by the window, watching the people coming and going outside the window indifferently, as if he was looking at someone, but he didn't wait for it.

He was a little annoyed and had a sudden urge to smoke.

At this time, someone knocked on the door, Meng Chan went to open the door, and there was a woman standing outside the door.

"Hello." Shen Lai smiled slightly, "I'm Yu Zhiyi's psychiatrist, can we chat?"

Meng Chan sat on the bed, and after listening to the words of the so-called psychiatrist Yu Zhiyi, there was no expression on his face, he just squinted his eyes and said, "You mean the relationship between me and Yu Zhiyi is his illusion?"

"Yes." Shen Lai said, "Zhiyi has always had mental problems, and often has auditory hallucinations. No matter how much medicine he takes, it doesn't help. Regarding his harassment of you during this period, I apologize to you on his behalf, which affected you. Your life, we will accept any claim from you, such as emotional damages."

Her tone was very calm. To him, Meng Chan was just an object of Yu Zhiyi's hallucinations. The man in front of him had a stern look on his face, and there was no disturbance in what she just said, which proved that all this was not important to him, including Yu Zhiyi.

"Why didn't he tell me in person." Meng Chan suddenly asked other questions.

Shen Lai didn't even know why this man could be so calm. According to ordinary people, after being haunted by a mentally ill patient for so long as an object of hallucination, shouldn't he feel overwhelmed?

Why is there no disturbance in Meng Chan.

Is it indifferent or the focus is not here?

Shen Lai said truthfully, "Because of the continuous withdrawal of drugs and the recent events, his mental state is very poor, and he has no strength to go out. I let him rest at home."

In fact, there is another point, Yu Zhiyi asked him to come. Yu Zhiyi didn't have the guts to explain the facts to Meng Chan, so he asked Shenlai.

At that time he said, "I don't want to see him loathe my face, I will be very sad."

Obviously, Meng Chan also guessed this.

He laughed inwardly, without courage.

Shen Lai couldn't figure out what he was thinking, and continued, "I'm really sorry that Zhiyi pestered you, please forgive him, and please don't hate him. Zhiyi...it's true that he likes you, he mentioned Always happy when your name is called, he is rarely happy."

Shen Lai mentioned Yu Zhiyi's past, with a pitiful expression on his face, "Since his sister died, I seldom saw him smile. But since he was with you, he began to really look like a person, able to laugh and act like a baby."

Maybe he talked a little too much, Shen Lai shrugged the broken hair next to his ears in embarrassment, and said, "I'm not trying to excuse Zhiyi, this matter is his fault, and it's his insanity that caused you a lot of bad things." I'm really sorry for the influence. But I just want to say, please don't hate him, if you can, please break up with him in a peaceful and friendly way."

"Why should I disconnect from him?" Meng Chan said abruptly, with a calm expression, "Did I ever say that?"

Shen Lai was stunned, "What do you mean? Your relationship is fake, and you don't like him. Before, it was because he stalked you so hard that you couldn't push him away. This time, Zhiyi let go voluntarily." ,you should not……"

"I won't break up with him." Meng Chan's voice was very soft, but there was softness in his long and narrow eyes, and his tone was a little lazy, "Before he told me in person, Yu Zhiyi was mine."

Shen Lai was really a little silly this time, he had already thought about Meng Chan's expression when he knew the truth.

Disgust, reaction, the ease of losing the dog skin plaster.

But he didn't expect Meng Chan to react like this.

As if the facts, which sounded awful, didn't matter to him.

Shen Lai showed a sincere smile, "You are a very special person, no wonder Yu Zhiyi likes you."

Meng Chan also hooked a smile, which was a response.

"Then what kind of feelings do you have for Zhiyi?" Shen Lai was curious, "You don't seem to hate him?"

"I don't know." Meng Chan said quietly, raising his eyebrows slightly, "Probably the same as you, I don't like his sad appearance."

Shen Lai talked to Meng Chan again about Yu Zhiyi's high school affairs. Before she left, she turned her head and said, "Mr. Meng, if one day you... have feelings for Zhiyi, please treat him well."

"You are too important to Zhiyi."

The ward became quiet, Meng Chan bent one leg, his expression was calm, he didn't know what he was thinking.

Seeing the dried white camellia flowers placed here by Meng Lian by the bed, he inexplicably thought of the boy with white camellias in his ears, his eyebrows and eyes were as beautiful as the spring breeze, engraved in his barren heart at that moment, more than admiration and amazement, It's more of a throbbing at a loss.

That was his first heartbeat.

Meng Chan couldn't treat Yu Zhiyi as someone who could be treated casually.

Yu Zhiyi did a lot of stupid things for him: eating spicy food with him, suffering from painful stomach problems to cater to his preferences, fearing that he would have a car accident, waiting in the snowy night, ignoring his fear of heights just to accompany him, to accompany him to see fireworks……

All kinds of things in the past were faint throbbing again and again.

As early as many moments, Meng Chan had naturalized Yu Zhiyi as his own.

Even if this is all caused by Yu Zhiyi's self-illusion, what does it matter.

He loves me.

Meng Chan thought.

There is no denying this.

To be honest, after hearing what Shen Lai said, Meng Chan didn't have the so-called sense of relief or shock, Meng Chan didn't have any of these feelings.

At that time, he was just thinking, why didn't Yu Zhiyi tell himself.

Is he that afraid of me?

But more is the distress for Yu Zhiyi.

It is how much one loves a person that creates an illusion.

How uneasy again, I dare not come to see myself.

Mine, restless puppy.