Straight male cannon fodder is attracted by the protagonist

Yu Zhiyi took several days off work, after that night his mental state was extremely poor, he would always have all kinds of hallucinations, his sister's, father's, Meng Chan hated his face, all kinds, Yu Zhiyi Medication doesn't help.

He didn't dare to sleep, as long as he fell asleep, he would dream of Meng Chan's expression of spurning him, which was more terrifying than a nightmare.

His mental state has returned to high school, even worse than high school, his body is weak, his organs seem to be rusted, and the rot is carved into his flesh and blood, making him dilapidated.

He wanted to see Meng Chan, but he couldn't muster any strength. In just a few days, his cheeks became even thinner.

Compared with not being able to love, what makes people more desperate is a big dream.

It turns out that loving someone is not pleasant, like expired candy, but also bitter.

It was raining tonight, Yu Zhiyi took sleeping pills, but he still couldn't sleep well, he was having all kinds of nightmares, his brows were tightly frowned, his face was in pain, the bell rang several times but no one heard it.

Meng Chan ran away from the hospital. Ever since Shenlai said that Yu Zhiyi was not in good spirits and couldn't go out last time, he wanted to come and see Yu Zhiyi.

But after ringing the doorbell several times, no one answered. Meng Chan was afraid that something might happen to him, so he didn't care about being polite, so he directly entered the password and entered.

As soon as he opened the bedroom door, he saw Yu Zhiyi rolled off the bed and made a "bang" sound on the floor.

Meng Chan strode forward, picked him up and put him on the bed. After this set of movements, he felt a little tired, probably because the injury hadn't fully healed yet.

Yu Zhiyi smelled a familiar scent in a haze, and suddenly hugged Meng Chan, arching his waist, "Brother..."

Meng Chan patted him on the back, "It's me."

Yu Zhiyi's voice was muffled, and his tone was choked with sobs, "Brother...is this a dream again? Why do you always appear in my dreams?"

Meng Chan's heart was heavy, "Yu Zhiyi, open your eyes."

Yu Zhiyi shook his head, "I don't want it, I don't want to open my eyes... There will be you in my dream."

Meng Chan stroked his smooth and black hair, lowered his eyes, "Is there no me in reality?"

"Reality... my brother will hate me." Yu Zhiyi said softly.

"Why do I hate you?"

Yu Zhiyi's brain was in a daze, what to say, he laughed in a muffled voice, "Because I lied to my brother, I said we are a couple, but... actually it's not, it's all my self-indulgence."

"I'm just a disaster with a sick mind. It's only natural for my brother to hate me. I... almost killed my brother."

Meng Chan turned on the light with a click, and said coldly, "So that's why you're afraid to see me?"

The dazzling light made Yu Zhiyi close his eyes unconsciously, and he opened them slowly after he got used to it.Realizing that he was still hugging someone, his eyes widened suddenly, and he immediately sat up, and when he saw clearly who was in front of him, he murmured "Brother..."

"Are you awake?" Meng Chan sat on the bed and looked at him.

Yu Zhiyi blinked, a little dazed, as if he hadn't fully reacted yet.

"You don't recognize me?" Meng Chan said again.

This time Yu Zhiyi finally came to his senses, and suddenly grabbed Meng Chan's shoulder in a hurry, and hurriedly said, "Isn't brother in the hospital? Why did you show up at my house? Isn't your injury still healed?"

Seeing his panic, Meng Chan laughed loudly, "It's better to worry about yourself than worrying about me. Look at yourself now."

Yu Zhiyi pursed his lips tightly and stopped talking.

"What are you doing? You're dumb again." Meng Chan said to him, "Didn't you know how to speak before?"

Yu Zhiyi crossed his legs and remained silent. After a long silence, he said in a hoarse voice, "Brother, I'm sorry."

"Ok?"

Yu Zhiyi didn't look at him, but just lowered his head, "Sister Shenlai told you everything, we...have nothing to do with each other."

He wanted to cry again as he spoke, but he didn't want to be in such a mess, so he could only hold back, tears rolled in his eyes, and his voice was hopeless.

"As you said, I'm sick. Everything about us is an illusion constructed by me. You really don't love me."

Yu Zhiyi couldn't help but covered his face with his hands, weeping in a voice, "I'm sorry...brother, I've pestered you for so long, I'm just being sentimental, no matter how much you scold me and beat me, I have no complaints."

Yu Zhiyi's back bowed fragilely, trembling with the sound of crying, his whole body looked thinner.

Meng Chan looked at his puppy quietly.

"Little one." After a long time, Meng Chan suddenly spoke.

Yu Zhiyi's body shook, and he looked at him suddenly, tears stopped flowing, his eyes were dazed and shocked.

Meng Chan helped him wipe away his tears, "It's you, little one."

"I remember you."

Meng Chan was originally just guessing, but later he heard Shen Lai say that Yu Zhiyi was often helped in high school, combined with the things Shen Lai said, he finally remembered Yu Zhiyi.

He didn't expect that the frail young man in the past would lose his current tall, thin and beautiful appearance.

Yu Zhiyi was so different from before, he was completely two people.

Yu Zhiyi's eyes were blank, obviously he didn't expect Meng Chan to recognize him as the little guy from before.

"So we've met each other a long time ago." Meng Chan stroked his delicate and cold face.

It turned out that a long time ago, he was remembered by a young boy, and then he approached him step by step.

Although the process was indecent, Meng Chan didn't care.

He only had that innocent and stupid boy in his heart.

"Are you okay now?" Meng Chan said softly, with a calm and calm tone, "Will no one bully you anymore?"

Meng Chan's belated greeting made Yu Zhiyi's eyes turn red, and the eyeballs popped out, "No more..."

"No one bullies me anymore."

"Why do you cry so much?" Meng Chan looked calm, willing to coax him, "Why are you crying?"

"Because...I'm so sorry, brother." Yu Zhiyi said sobbingly, "My brother is very good to me, but I have hallucinations because of my obsession, and I stalk you to death."

"I'm repaying my kindness with my revenge."

The rain outside was dripping on the window, like the sound of Yu Zhiyi's tears falling on Meng Chan's heart.

"Are you in pain?" Meng Chan also sat on the bed, facing him.

Yu Zhiyi was stunned for a moment, blinked his eyes, and a tear rolled down his cheek, "It's very painful."

"Why the pain?"

"I can't get it because of love, I just woke up from a big dream."

Meng Chan pinched his white earlobe, but said nothing.

"Who am I to you?" After a brief silence, he opened his mouth, stroking Yu Zhiyi's soft long hair with his fingers, twirling it intentionally or unintentionally, his tone seemed to be coaxing.

Yu Zhiyi blinked, pursed his lower lip, and said, "You are mine."

"My pain, desire, uneasiness, and joy all come from you."

You are my candy, my flower, my source of dopamine, my straw, my desire, my disaster.

His tone was sincere without falsehood.

Meng Chan's heart seemed to be filled with something, he really wanted to ask Yu Zhiyi, since I am yours, why do you always cry when you are with me.

Why do you like me, I am always ignoring you, I am the source of your pain, why do you think I am all yours without shame.

stupid puppy.

"I made you suffer so much, do you still like me?"

"I love you." Yu Zhiyi broke the can, since they were going to be separated anyway, why not say everything today, "You do make me suffer, but you also make me happy."

"If I had to choose, I could choose to love you while crying."

bang——

It was as if someone had set off a handful of fireworks in Meng Chan's indifferent heart.

He laughed suddenly, and Yu Zhiyi was startled by his smile, thinking that he had said something ugly again, and quickly said, "Brother, I don't mean anything, if you want to break up with me, I will agree, and I won't." Forcing you to like me, I just—”

He was suddenly speechless because Meng Chan pinched his chin and kissed his forehead.

Yu Zhiyi was completely dumbfounded.

I don't know how to love, and I don't know if I love you. "His voice is as cold as ever. It is different from the usual coldness. This coldness is mixed with strong and hidden affection. Meng Chao's generous and warm palm caressed Yu Zhiyi's cheek, caressing His delicate skin was like some kind of comforting comfort.

"But I want to be nice to you."

He said, "I won't cut you off."

The eyes are a kind of sharp firmness.

"Stay by my side." He turned to rub Yu Zhiyi's earlobe, leaned over, and gently kissed his brow, his voice was hoarse, "I will spoil you."

Meng Chan didn't know why he did these things, he just kissed her as soon as his brain got hot.

This was the first time he kissed a man, but he didn't feel disgusted, the moment was completely driven by desire in his heart, he wanted to do that.

He has no regrets.

Yu Zhiyi is different from others, no one has ever relied on him so much, and no one has ever loved him so much.

The love experiences he had received since he was a child were all failures. The failed marriage of his parents made him have no expectations for love. He never believed that someone would love another person for a long time.

After all, there are many people who play with their sincerity in this world, they are too disgusting.

Before meeting Yu Zhiyi, he was already prepared to be alone for the rest of his life, his desolate and lonely heart was dead.

It was Yu Zhiyi who rushed in recklessly, adding a touch of color to his gray heart with his childish clinginess.

He is always different, and Yu Zhiyi let himself know that it is also very happy to have someone to accompany him.

He is used to being alone, but he prefers to be with Yu Zhiyi.

He didn't know if this counted as love, in short, he must have Yu Zhiyi by his side, and he was not allowed to leave him for half a step.

Meng Chan didn't know when his feelings for Yu Zhiyi changed. Emotions are too complicated for Meng Chan to figure out.

Maybe it's because Yu Zhiyi's taste changed after crying again and again, or because the fireworks in his eyes are too gorgeous, or maybe the boy with white camellia in his ears is very beautiful.In short, in countless moments, they are all witnesses to his slowly changing emotions.

No matter how cold the heart is, it will be slowly melted by the heat.

Yu Zhiyi is special, even though he is selfish and hypocritical, mentally ill, mentally fragile, and has many bad, even bad, shortcomings, but these are not important.

Strong emotions blind people and make fools of rational people.

If there is a person who loves him enough, for his pain, happiness, struggle and uneasiness, Meng Chan can let go of his indifference and touch him.

Yu Zhiyi and Meng Chan are two different kinds of disabled people, but they are both disabled puppies for love.

Lonely, loveless.

But they lean on each other and can construct a utopia that belongs to them.

For Meng Chan, all things are but weeds, while Yu Zhiyi is layers upon layers of bright red.

Yu Zhiyi walked a long, long way for him. The journey was long and full of thorns, and he was very tired from walking.

As an elderly man, Meng Chan has no reason to let his puppy continue to walk with difficulty. He wants to take the initiative to embark on the journey and finish the rest of the road for Yu Zhiyi.

Yu Zhiyi was in a daze for a long time, and in a daze, two tears flowed down his pale cheeks, as if some kind of switch, all the unspeakable pain in the past opened the gate, turning into endless tears, accumulating In the eye sockets, the whole face was wet.

He originally thought that all the truths would be stripped away, and what greeted him would be a gloomy and hopeless future. He had already made preparations to not be loved in this life, and he also thought that in the long years, he would secretly be an unrelated stranger. Take a look at Meng Chan.

He has accepted this dull and hopeless life.

He doesn't blame anyone.

But his luck finally came, and his fate pointed to the reward he wanted, and he got a candy.

Overjoyed, happy almost crazy.

He even felt like he was dreaming.

"Brother..." Yu Zhiyi's voice was choked up, and he covered his face with a low wry smile, "What are you talking about? Shouldn't you hate me? I... lied to you."

Meng Chan brushed his hair for him, and said, "It's okay, I know you're having a hard time too."

"Don't you like me?" Meng Chan asked patiently, "If that's the case, then stay by my side, and I won't hate you."

Yu Zhiyi's nerves were disturbed by Meng Chan's words, and he was at a loss. It may be too unexpected, and he never thought it would be this result.After realizing it, the grievances that I realized belatedly flooded up, and I couldn't help crying again.

He is like a child who has been wronged for a long time, and at this moment he can wantonly vent all the negative emotions he has accumulated.

He has been suppressed by all kinds of pain all his life, and now the long pain has finally come to an end.

He was crying so pitifully, his eyes were red, and his face was full of tears.

Miserable and beautiful.

Meng Chan kept wiping away his tears, "Don't cry, I will be very sad if you cry like this."

"Don't think about leaving me." He gently hugged Yu Zhiyi.

The tone is strong, with irresistible sharpness.

You are so lovable, let me love you a lot.

Be my cute puppy.

My forever puppy.

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The author has something to say: the main text is over, and the extra episode will be updated tomorrow.