Lord Grimth Returns - It seems like an old friend is coming

The waiting time is always extremely long, and if it happens to be rainy during this waiting time, then this long time will be extended to give you a feeling of loneliness and desolation.

In the past two days, I had a lot of dreams, some long and lingering, some short and desperate, they chased me like a race with missing, declared, or proved something, until I woke up deeply.Everything returns to nothingness.

Just like the back, stitches are inevitable on the forehead, and the possibility of concussion has been temporarily ruled out. The bloated thick bandage has been removed, and a square plaster is pasted on the forehead in a funny way, and then sealed with criss-cross adhesive tape—see It just sounds silly.

But there is at least one advantage, that is, I can be discharged from the hospital. If I am away from home for too long, even if I have enough food and clean water, I am afraid that Man Man will go crazy.Back at my home with Suman, I went to the garage almost immediately to see if her car was there.After getting used to disappointment, I will not despair easily. Faced with the still empty parking space, I can even smile faintly, and then ask myself what I want to eat at night.

Zhong Xia would come to accompany me every day, and Miao Sa would come immediately after work, calling it Cengfan, but I knew that they were all worried that I would hurt themselves again.For them, I am grateful, but most of the time I just keep silent, holding the phone and writing word by word what I want to say to Suman—I have given up calling, texting is the safest and most effective way. The practice of healing.

It was cloudy in the afternoon, low pressure was lurking in the air, and the face was cautiously gloomy, looking like it was going to rain all the time. Sure enough, after dinner, the rain had already spread all over the sky.

"It's raining again, it's really annoying." Miao Sa stood at the window and looked out, clasped her fingers rhythmically on the glass, "Tsk, I'd rather have a heavy rain than such a sticky drizzle. "

There was a window beside me, so I also leaned over.The rain was thin and dense, and the sporadic pedestrians downstairs stopped and went.

Suddenly, I remembered what Zhong Xia choked up that day: Only fools like us are always left behind.So, it's like a stick in the throat.

I really want to cry bitterly, but my eyes seem to be terminally ill, even though the grief surging in my heart is almost destructive, I can only swell and ache, and I can't shed a single tear.I could only murmur, "Me too."

"What?" Miao Sa was taken aback.

"I'd rather have a torrential downpour and get enough of it all at once than a protracted drizzle." I said ambiguously.

Miao Sa understood, she snorted, and said coldly: "If she comes back this time, if she finds you, what are you going to do?"

"I've been waiting for her." I said softly.Isn't that obvious?I refused the doctor's well-intentioned suggestion to stay in the hospital for observation for a few more days and chose to come back here, not to save hospitalization expenses.

"Why don't you listen to persuasion?" Miao Sa was suddenly depressed. "Do you have to wait until she comes back and ask you to go?"

"Yes." I nodded quietly, "Unless she says it herself, I will never leave."

"Musa!" Zhong Xia couldn't help but said, "Can you stop fanning the flames?"

"I fanned the flames?" Miao Sa said angrily, "I left people without saying a word? Was it my fiancé and girlfriend who grabbed both hands? Is it because I am selfish and cold-blooded and only care about myself?"

"I don't believe Vanessa would do this." Zhong Xia supported his head in distress, "She must have a reason, she is not that kind of person."

"There is no reason for it." Miao Sa said, "Even if she got angry because I brought Si back to the race car, what can't I say clearly in person? Who is this embarrassing?"

"You still have the nerve to mention the racing car?" Zhong Xia was also angry, and stared straight at Miao Sa. "Don't talk about Vanessa, even I was scared to death when I saw the video! You have good skills, you are amazing, you can pat your chest to make sure you are safe! But have you ever thought about Sigui? As long as you make a little mistake, she may die Yes! You haven’t seen death with your own eyes, have you? Shall I tell you how tragic and desolate it is to be hit by a car? When you saw a life that was alive and kicking a minute ago, it turned into a bloody mess..."

"Zhong Xia..." I didn't know that Zhong Xia had such an experience, but I was shocked by the lack of words when I wanted to comfort him. What kind of comfort can heal the pain of losing a loved one?

"I'm fine, Xiaomi has been gone for a long time..." Zhong Xia lowered her head melancholy.

"Xiaomi is a dog." Miao Sa said coolly.

"What's wrong with the dog? A dog is not life?" Zhong Xia yelled, "Anyway, this time when Vanessa comes back, Musa, you have to apologize to her, do you hear me? If you don't do it, we will kick you out in the future, and you will never Not our friend anymore!"

"Why? Did I hit her with my bike?" Miao Sa also yelled.

"You hit someone she loves!" Zhong Xia shouted to her without showing any weakness, "Ling Miaosa, let me ask you, if the person you cared about the most was standing in front of your car, would you still be able to hit him? You guys, you have been the same since you were a child, you have no empathy at all, you only do things to please yourself, Sigui and Vanessa made this happen, you have to bear at least half of the responsibility!"

"Zhong Xia, stop talking." I didn't want to see the two of them arguing again, I wanted to call it a stop, but found that the flames of war had already ignited and could not be extinguished.

"Why..." Miao Sa's face was slightly moved, but she still refused to admit defeat.

"You don't know about Vanessa's temperament. When the sky falls, she will probably try to get rid of it first and then talk. She has been talking less since she was a child, but it doesn't mean she has no heart and no emotion! She is not as good-mouthed as you, so she was raped since she was a child." You bully, you used to make trouble lightly, we, including Vanessa, didn't mind, but now... you know that she doesn't like Sigui to play with you, why do you always drag Sigui to do something wrong? What about April or Six? Let’s not talk about it, let’s talk about this car race. You keep saying that Sigui is your apprentice, but do you regard her as your apprentice? Which master would put his apprentice in such a dangerous situation?"

"Even if I was wrong about this matter, then she came to argue with me, what's the matter if she left Sigui?" Miao Sa argued.

I have never seen such a sharp-tongued and aggressive Zhong Xia, who actually forced Miao Sa to give up her armor. "Noisy? Who can beat you, Lawyer Ling."

"If you have something to say, don't carry a gun with a stick." Miao Sa said angrily. "I just don't believe that she is sincere about Sigui. You are right. I have known her temperament since I was a child. Vanessa has always been the best in our group. She is smart, beautiful, and elegant. She is simply The perfect example of all kinds of big ladies, but so what? She has no heart at all! She is like an exquisite marionette, no matter how you treat her, she will always look at the target in front of her without squinting, and she will not Care about other scenery along the way."

She said, and suddenly turned to me again. "Don't you understand? Lin Xue's fate is a preview of your future. Even so, you still have to persevere?"

I didn't answer, and I heard Zhong Xia say again: "Don't compare Sigui with Xiaoxue, they are not alike at all, not to mention that even us outsiders can see that Vanessa is definitely different from Sigui."

"Why is it different? Isn't it all chasing her wishfully."

"Xiaoxue betrayed Vanessa first, but Sigui can wait for her to remain unchanged for two years, and I don't agree with what you said at all, why is Vanessa a marionette?"

"Isn't she?" Miao Sa retorted sharply, "She obviously likes music, but she can study business because of her mother's words. She obviously doesn't like men, but she got engaged because of her mother. I even remember her When she was a child, she obviously liked pink, but because her mother liked her to wear blue clothes, she changed herself to like blue. Don't you understand, Vanessa will be subject to her mother for the rest of her life, unless the old woman is dead!"

"Musa..." Zhong Xia frowned in embarrassment.I know it's because the attack on Suman's mother in Miao Sa's words made her embarrassed, and she didn't want to admit such extreme accusations but had to admit that she was right.

I suddenly had a strange feeling about Miao Sa. I always thought she hated Suman, maybe her willful and casual style was too incompatible with Suman's calm and self-sufficient style.But now I have to change my point of view. Although her evaluation of Suman is fierce and extreme, her intentions make people feel a hint of caring. If it is an annoying person, it is impossible to understand it so clearly. right?An annoying person wouldn't use such a regrettable expression to talk about the regrets in her life, right?

These two people were fighting back and forth, and it seemed impossible to stop. I turned from worry and worry to calmness at the beginning. I began to think about such a question: what is Suman in the eyes of others? What is it like?As Miao Sa said, she believes that Suman has been rigorous and rigid since she was a child, and she has a strong plan and purpose in doing things, so she believes that Suman will never let feelings become an obstacle in her life.But Zhong Xia denied this argument.In fact, I am the same as Zhong Xia. The Suman in my heart is definitely not the embodiment of cold-blooded and ruthless. Maybe it was caused by some unpleasant experiences in childhood, such as the divorce of her parents; Growing up steadily, enduring in the years, becoming excellent little by little, becoming radiant.Only those who walk into her heart can touch the gentle and delicate emotions under the calm and quiet surface, and touch the real her—not only is she not ruthless, but she has awe-inspiring and strong feelings that are even close to paranoia.

But this paranoia is clearly a double-edged sword, hurting the person who loves her and hurting herself at the same time.Just like all the decisions she has made in the past, she has always thought it through herself, as long as she thinks it is a good decision for everyone, she never discusses it with others, asks what others think what do you want.

Just like the heart-wrenching separation two years ago, if she was willing to give me more confidence, if she was willing to lower her posture and discuss with me, how could there be a split between us for two full years?She decides everything by herself. The beginning of a relationship requires the consent of two people, but it is enough for one person to stop it at the end. Is this fair to the other person?Is it fair to love?If this is considered selfish, then Suman, she is indeed selfish, but I can't hate such selfishness, I even feel pity and love for her, if there is one person in her life that she can completely rely on How could she use such an unquestionable attitude to wrap herself tightly into the appearance of an impenetrable strong woman?

Status and identity are her constraints, but they are also protection.And obviously, I'm not qualified to be that person, far from qualified.

The eye sockets suddenly became hot, and a little moisture gradually broke through the barrier and fell slowly.I was surprised to find that my eyes, which had been dry for two days, were able to shed tears again, and the reason that stimulated them was not because Suman left me and my fiancé to go to the United States.

Is it because of what?I know better than anyone, but I can't even speak.I knew that I was starting to feel uneasy again. After two years away, I thought I was calmer and better than before, but as long as the part involving love was involved, all my rationality and self-control disappeared. In front of Suman, in a possible crisis In front of me, I was still the old me, the fragile, vulnerable child who would hang around all night helplessly because Suman didn't come home once.It doesn't matter whether it's a sense of security or inferiority complex that caused the trouble, or the psychological shadow that she left behind, I just want to understand this very clearly. I don't have enough ability to bear with Suman like this. possibilities together.It was just a sudden parting and I made myself like this. If our affairs are revealed to the world in the future, the resistance of both families will impact at the same time...

It is completely unimaginable that at that time, I would still just get myself covered in scars and cry while hugging Suman, and while saying that I love her, I would throw all the tangible and invisible resistance on her weak shoulders, let her go all the way. to bear.

Suman, no matter what happened, whether it was because you were really angry with me or because of other reasons, if you don't come back, I won't be able to keep my feet on the ground.But don't worry, I will definitely not hurt myself again, if possible, I even hope to recover myself well before seeing you again, without any sign of depression or failure.If this is the test you gave me, no matter what decision you made this time and what thoughts you have in mind, I will wait until you come back and explain to you, or listen to your explanation.

It was getting late, I euphemistically expressed the need to rest, sent Miao Sa and Zhong Xia away, closed the door, and sat quietly in the living room alone, looking at the spacious and empty house, as if I could still grab the The breath left by the woman before she left.

The washroom had been cleaned and debris removed, the new mirror hadn't been delivered yet.

"Be quiet now, because I only like you.

It was because I missed you so much. "

I sent my last text message for the night.I thought I might need a little alcohol, not to get drunk, but just to be able to fall asleep quickly.

You are not here, I can only sleep in your nightdress.You are not here, I can only look for your residual body temperature from your pillow.You are not here, I can only stay alone in our common home.You are not here, I can only do this.You are not here, what else can I do?

Without you, I can't even smell the scent of flowers.Without you, I can't even taste the sweetness of water.

It will be my birthday in half an hour, Suman, if I start to make a wish at that time, will you on the other side of the ocean be able to feel my miss for you?