The honest person is you

-07-

Dao Chong, but use it or not profit.Yuanxi, like the ancestor of all things. *

In the past, a master named Kong Hai went to the Tang Dynasty, just to obtain the supreme esoteric method of Buddhism from Qinglong Temple in Chang'an.

But until now, no one knows what the legendary "Supreme Secret" is.

After his identity was exposed, Junyou Fujiwara cast a question-and-answer curse on Minamoto, asking him why he wanted to live in this world, but Minamoto broke the curse with a pure heart and turned defeat into victory.

It has never been an easy task to see the mysteries of the world clearly and understand the supreme truth.

But for you, the "Tao" between heaven and earth was once so clear, just like the expectation of the master when he named you, you were originally a Taoist who had the opportunity to truly understand the truth of the immortal way.

But now you are completely unable to see through the hearts of others. You suddenly realize that the human heart is a more difficult puzzle to solve than the immortal way.

You caress the cheeks of Su Nuo on both sides. On this human body, his face also shows signs of aging.

Thinking of the contract between you, you asked the two-faced Su Nuo what he wanted.

He asked you back: "Whatever I want, can you give me?"

This makes you unable to answer for a while.

Two-faced Su Nuo turned to ask, "What do you want?"

You've told him that from the beginning, so now just repeat: "I want to resurrect that man."

"Besides this, earlier on," Liangmian Su Nuo asked you, "what did you want at that time?"

You haven't mentioned the matter of Penglai to Liangmian Sunuo, and he knows very little about your past.

Before you met that person, what you wanted was to become a god, but before you met a master, what you wanted was to survive.

This is also human desire, greed that cannot be satisfied.

You think of the scene of Xianyang in the past, it was like a dream from another world, misty and swaying shadows, you raised your face, and an alchemist told your parents that you were doomed to die young.

He said it was your life.

So your parents ran around for you, and finally asked someone to come to the Grand Master, and the Grand Master promised to see you.

He asks what you are asking for.

This is how it all started.

You look to your parents and remember the words they taught you back home.They teach you sentence by sentence, telling you how to answer after meeting the master.

"Those who care about their own hearts, sorrow and joy are not easy to put in front of them, knowing what to do and being at ease..." *

But you don't think so at all.

You are afraid of what the alchemist said, you are afraid of the "fate" of premature death, and you are even more terrified that your own destiny depends on only a light word, just like a fallen leaf mayfly.

This has rooted in the awe of "Tao" in your young heart.

But even the alchemist who asserted that you died young can't compare to a few words from the master.

Your parents were overjoyed when the master decided to take you into his sect.

Since then, you've longed to be like the Grand Master...or a warlock better than him.

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You yearn for strength, but you are disturbed by love and desire. The fear of death entrenched in the bottom of your heart like a gangrene becomes more and more obvious under the stimulation of the two-faced Nuo.

So you started to create the "Rongshen" driven by the Tao, and you also cultivated the "Bliss Butterfly" that spread the "flower seeds".

On the top of the mountain where Nuo sits on both sides, there are strange monsters with fish body and bergamot standing upright. They may have the head of Buddha, or be decorated with robes and rosary beads...

Two-faced Su Nuo commented on them: "It looks disgusting."

You just pretend you didn't hear it.

"So," Liangmiansu Nuo asked you, "what are these things used for?"

You reply, "Now is not the time to use them."

This is not a satisfactory answer for the two-faced Su Nuo. He stared at you with displeasure, and he didn't like your concealed appearance at all.

"What about this?"

Two-faced Su Nuo reached out to grab a butterfly with colorful patterns on its wings, and it was still stained with special pollen, so only Two-faced Su Nuo dared to touch them with bare hands.

His movements were not light at all, so the butterfly quickly lost its vitality, its wings were crushed and crushed to death in his hands—it was a butterfly with a human face.

Strange creatures that fall into the eyes of ordinary people are frightening and frightening, but they are as fragile as ordinary butterflies in the hands of the double-faced Su Nuo.

You are quite critical of his behavior, but that is the "Bliss Butterfly" you have cultivated with great difficulty.

However, you didn't get angry with him, instead you calmly wiped the butterfly wing phosphorus powder between his fingers with a handkerchief, and said to him: "These are living creatures that only exist in the dry lake. Fairyland is a unique paradise. Incomparably gorgeous flowers bloom all over the island, and the depths shrouded in mist are the dwellings of immortals, and people there can even live to a thousand years without dying."

Two-faced Su Nuo just thinks you are joking.

But you are the only one who is extremely clear that everything you said is true, but... the "immortal" there is not the same as the "becoming immortal" that you (the master) pursue.

Grandmaster and Mrs. Bian once cultivated new creatures on the Tao. They combined the "qi" of humans and the "qi" of plants, and finally produced another creature that is stronger and more perfect than human beings.

They were given the name of "Master Tianxian".

The master devoted great enthusiasm to the "Master Tianxian". He and Mrs. Bian took good care of them, watched them grow up from the appearance of children, and even asked you to give them lectures from time to time.

It was at that time that you met Mei who took care of "Master Tianxian" with you.

When you were about to leave Penglai, you asked her if she wanted to go with you, but she refused you. Even if she knew the truth, she still wanted to stay in Penglai.

Mei always felt that there must be a turning point in things.

But you don't think so, you always feel that things will always go in the worst direction.So you didn't persuade her anymore, and jumped into the river alone with the secret scroll left by the master.

You never regret the choice you made at that time, even if you do it again, you will still leave Penglai.

It's just that after leaving Penglai, you will make the same decision as Mrs. Bian earlier.

"Dan" can easily prolong the lifespan of human beings, but it cannot achieve true immortality, so you will still continue to worry for a long time, but that is better than watching that person die.

This is the only thing that makes you regret it.

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Two-faced Su Nuo asked why you know the legend of "Kuenze" so well, it's almost as if you have been there.

You lowered your eyes and didn't answer him.

You know that he doesn't care about your past, and he doesn't care about your future. The two-faced Su Nuo only cares about the present enjoyment, which is what you hate the most.

That person—the person you admire, he often shows a gentle and sad look, stroking your face and temples with great concentration.

You like that look in his eyes, you like his eyes full of you, and you like him kissing you while saying your name from his lips and teeth.

It was a gentle and lingering voice, like the mist in the forest in the morning, or like the sound of falling snow.

The onmyojis here say that the name is the shortest mantra.

A rare and powerful magician in the world, who can even curse and kill others just by knowing their names.In the past, when Fujiwara Tadahei and Hira Sadamori crusaded Heirashomon, Master Jingzang joined forces with other magicians to break Heirashomon's "invulnerability" body with a spell.

When he taught you the language here, he held your hand and wrote his name stroke by stroke on the paper with pen and ink.

And you also wrote your own name next to his name.

You said to him, "I want to be with you forever."

At that moment, the invisible curse bound you tightly together.

You want him to keep his eyes on you...just on you.

When he was sick, the maids were sent out of the house by you, and the elders of the clan gathered to discuss the ownership of the head of the house. For this reason, there was a dark tide in the mansion, but you ignored them at all.

You just stay by his side, and he no longer tells you about his worries about the family, nor about the situation in the court.

You think of the first time, when he held your hand and taught you to write stroke by stroke, his voice was like a weeping willow caressing the river.

At that moment, he seemed to have forgotten his family, His Majesty, and his vision. You are his everything.

You want him to love you as you love him.

As you forsake your "way" for him, so he should forsake his way for you.

You want him to be only you.

As if he is your everything.

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That person can understand your heart and understand what you desire, and he is willing to respond to you and promise you love forever.

So this one and only love you have is a treasure that you can't give up no matter what.

However, Su Nuo on both sides scoffed at this.

But what does he know?

In your eyes, the two-faced Nuo is ignorant, ignorant, brutal as a beast, and as vulgar as rock sand.

So he can't understand your heart, and can't empathize with your miserable love.

"But Rime, you can understand?"

You hold the hand of this young magician dressed as a monk. He has a pair of white hands like a nobleman, but the temperature is like ice and snow.

It made one wonder whether his heart was as cold as his fingers.

But you think of that person, and the fire of crazy yearning burns in your chest, and you desperately need someone who is willing to identify with you.

Two-faced Su Nuo is not that person, but Li Mei can be.

You try to seek approval from him, but he doesn't say a word.

An ugly expression emerged from your face, making you almost scratch his head and ask him why he didn't answer you.

But at this moment, you calmed down.

It shouldn't be like this.You think, you shouldn't be such a person who loses control easily.

You have been infinitely close to the truth of immortality, and life, old age, sickness and death, joys and sorrows cannot make your heart move.

But now you have become like this...

At this moment, you finally realize that you really have no possibility of becoming a half immortal anymore.