The honest person is you

-08-

Love is so bitter; how can you die with your head resting on a rock on a high mountain. *

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Once again, you were tormented by that painful relationship and couldn't sleep at night. You opened your eyes in the bedding, and you didn't feel sleepy at all.

From childhood to adulthood, you have never suffered much setbacks. When you were young, you were born in Xianyang, the capital of the Qin Kingdom. Even though you were declared to have died young in the past, you quickly gained the favor of your master.Later, you followed the master into the sea to seek immortality, and settled in Penglai for 1000 years.

You still remember that the master once watched you while he was preaching, and gave you a new name, that is his greatest expectation for you.

You also remember that Mrs. Bian once stroked your head, tied your hair and inserted hairpins as a gift, and she also treated you like her own daughter.

You, who were separated from your biological parents when you were young, have received the love and care of your family from the master and Mrs. Bian.So you left your home in Xianyang and got your home in Penglai.

But now, you experience the greatest pain in your life from this only love affair.

You don't regret falling in love with that person, you just...

Miss him so much.

You, who failed to get sustenance from the two-faced Su Nuo, and couldn't get half of the comfort from him, began to miss that person more and more.

He and Liangmian Su Nuo are completely different people.

In the past when he was still alive, during the countless nights when he slept with you, he would always hold your body gently, stick to your ear and tell you words full of love, those words seemed like Silk wraps you gently.

You tuck into his arms in the bedding, or hold him in your arms. At that moment, you seem to be a part of each other, so you are a part of each other.

But the two-faced Su Nuo never said such things to you, and he couldn't communicate with you.

He will only hold you tightly, or laugh at your love affair that is as fragile and pitiful as fireflies in his opinion.

Because the two-faced Su Nuo didn't understand at all.

You touched his face, that strange face with four eyes.

You say to him, "So no one will love you, and you will love no one."

Just like you don't love him at all, and he doesn't love you at all.

Thinking of this for some reason, you turned your face slightly and looked at the man lying next to you, the continuous heat emanating from his body made your mind that could not calm down even more chaotic.

The body of the two-faced Su Nuo is as hot as an unknown fire burning, which is the complete opposite of the person whose hands and feet are always cold due to illness.

You remembered that you once hugged his body that could not be warmed up even late at night, and used your own body temperature to relieve his coldness. You also once pressed against his cheek and rubbed against his ear, and made a wish to be with him forever.

You love him more than anything in the world.

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In order to calm down, you recite scriptures every day like you did when you were still in Penglai.

But the content is very different from before.

When Lime brought you the wine-making utensils, it happened that you were chanting sutras.

"If there are sentient beings who commit serious crimes, practice evil methods, insult sages and sages, and slander the righteous Dharma, they will fall into the Great Hell, and suffer all kinds of suffering for countless kalpas. , but cannot save..."*

Limei quietly guarded the door, and waited until your voice stopped before putting the things down in front of you.

Probably because you seem to be in a very peaceful state today, that's why he dared to talk to you. He asked you why you bother, if you just want to drink, it's easier to get ready-made ones.

You didn't answer him, didn't even look at him, and dropped your eyes to the brewing vessel, then closed your eyes again.

The sound of chanting continues to emerge from your mouth.

Li Mei stood there and looked at you for a while, and finally left without saying anything.

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In the past, you never drank alcohol.The innocence and asceticism developed in Penglai did not change until he met that man, but his body was too weak, and you could only see him drinking medicine like water.

But the two-faced Su Nuo likes it-he likes everything you don't like.

Su Nuo on both sides is staring at you, because you put on the twelve single clothes that you haven't worn for a long time today, as if you are about to go to an important banquet.

However, when Liangmian Su Nuo gave you this dress, you didn't even look at it.

The four eyes on that weird face looked at you with something that you couldn't understand.

This reminds you of your first encounter with the two-faced Su Nuo. It was your posture after being carefully dressed for a long time, which is completely opposite to the appearance when you met that person in the past.

Two-faced Su Nuo stretched out his hand, and you put your fingers in his palm, and he asked you what day it is today.

"Today is a special day."

As you said this, you kept pouring wine for him and asked him to drink a few more glasses.But the two-faced Su Nuo asked you to come along. You obviously didn't drink much, but you soon felt dizzy.

Probably very drunk, and your hands start shaking.

The heart in the chest is beating like a drum, and the blood in the whole body starts to heat up. At this moment, you think of a lot, Xianyang, Grand Master, Mrs. Bian... and that person.

You seem to see him looking at you with a gentle smile again.

You say, "I want to resurrect him."

A long time ago, you confessed to the two-faced Su Nuo that this is your only wish.

You will do anything for it.

"I have also said that your strength is far greater than the sum of all the magicians I have seen."

You stare deeply at the two-faced Su Nuo, watching the worm-like undulations under his skin, as if some living thing is hidden in his flesh and blood, and will break out at any time.

This is not an ordinary drink, it is mixed with a lot of pollen and flower seeds.The smell of wine covers part of the flowery scent, and you carry this scent on your body all year round, and this is the wine you brewed yourself, so it's not surprising that it smells like "flowers".

The smell of alcohol lingers around you, but you can already smell the faint fragrance of flowers emanating from Liangmian Su Nuo.

"Is this what you want?"

Even at this point, the tone of the two-faced Su Nuo hasn't changed much. He doesn't seem to care about your schemes against him at all. He sits a little lazily, with his head half-raised, even looking at you. Same as usual.

With a bit of interest, mixed with some more incomprehensible emotions.

Two-faced Su Nuo doesn't care about other people's lives, and he doesn't care about his own life either.But you care more about his life than he does.

You don't want him to die like an ordinary person, or die at the hands of other magicians. He must be alive. Only in this way can your wish be fulfilled.

Because: "Dead people cannot be used to cultivate raw materials for alchemy, and people's birth, old age, sickness and death are the norm in the world. If you say you don't desire eternal life, then there will always be a time when you will die..."

Before you finished speaking, he laughed wildly again, and the hearty laughter echoed around, as if he had encountered a rare and interesting event in the world.

Su Nuo on both sides said, you are quite right.

You stared at him calmly and said to him: "In this case, it's better to fulfill me."

Since he is going to die sooner or later, it is better to let you plant "flowers" on him and become the raw material for your alchemy.

This is your real purpose.

To achieve resurrection from the dead, a large amount of high-concentration "Qi" is needed, but the "Qi" of an ordinary magician is just a drop in the bucket for your needs. If this continues, you may never be able to realize the "resurrection" of that person .

So from the very beginning, you have taken a fancy to the two-faced Su Nuo itself, and you came here to use him to make alchemy.

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When you first decided to refine medicine, you didn't know how much "Qi" you needed. You only knew that Mrs. Bian had been practicing alchemy for a hundred years and failed to achieve the resurrection of the master, but Kuize is already the place with the most "Qi" in the world.

When you were in Penglai, you knew your talent very clearly. Everyone said that you were a rare genius of cultivation in the world, but after you came outside, the strange environment made you feel confused.

When you hear people say that the two-faced Su Nuo is the pinnacle of current spells, you think he is the strongest magician that no one can surpass. In fact, there is not much difference in the origin of Tao.

The sorcerers in this world are so weak, and there are only a handful of human beings who can refine high-quality "pills". That's why the existence of the two-faced Su Nuo is needed, because this is the "balance" of the world.

Because there are too powerful curse masters, equally powerful curse spirits and magicians will be born. Only in this way can you continuously obtain high-quality "raw materials".

But the two-faced Su Nuo is only a human being after all, and even if you keep procrastinating, you can't cover up the fact that he is getting old.

Besides, he's far less powerful than you originally imagined.

Therefore, you have to let him "reincarnate" as a "flower" before his life ends.

However, this is not something that can be easily achieved. The two-faced Su Nuo is the unpredictable "King of Curses", and you deeply agree with this.

When those "flowers" gradually burst out from under his skin and tender green shoots began to emerge, you stroked his face and watched the soft and slender green stems spread out from his eye sockets.

The moment you touch it, love the house and the crow, you feel as if you have also developed a little love for the two-faced Su Nuo.

You were overjoyed, and felt your hands shaking more and more.

However, in just a short time, the green shoots that were originally vigorously growing outside withered and drooped in an instant, losing their vitality.

When you come to your senses, the two-faced Su Nuo is dead.

"do not die……"

You gripped his head tightly, staring at him almost ferociously.

"do not do that……"

How could he treat you like this...

"Why are you unwilling to fulfill me..."

You finally understand that it is precisely because he doesn't love you at all that he is unwilling to fulfill you.

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"I hate you."

You cast the most vicious curse on the double-faced Su Nuo, cursing that even if he dies, he will not be able to obtain reincarnation and salvation.

But he didn't respond.

Because he is dead.

You finally burst into tears uncontrollably.