the girl i had a crush on

Chen Jinliang has more friends, and I can spend less time with her, especially in the third year of junior high school, with heavy schoolwork and a race against time to sleep every day.

In the third year of junior high school, I started to go to evening self-study. Class ends at 10:10 every night. There are three periods in total. The first and second periods are supervised by the teacher, and the third period is self-review. Therefore, many students will leave class early and leave at 10 o’clock in the evening. , in order to be able to buy some supper from the stall outside the school with the person I secretly dated, and then take advantage of the dark and cool wind to press down on the road for a while.

Chen Jinliang made a boyfriend, I only found out after a long time.

The boy was also in the third year of junior high school. Chen Jinliang and him participated in a debate competition organized by the city during the summer vacation. He was the second debater and Chen Jinliang was the final debater. They often discussed debate topics together, so they met.

They were a little bit ambiguous during the summer vacation, and they often chatted on Q=Q. There was a little spark when they came and went. When the summer vacation was about to end, the boy confessed to Chen Jinliang, and Chen Jinliang accepted it, and they stayed together.

I don't know why Chen Jinliang didn't tell me, until the next evening, I was in charge of the self-study, and I left late. When I went out, I saw Chen Jinliang and a boy chatting at the school gate. I thought she was being bullied, so hurry up Going up to block between the two, he turned his head and asked, "Chen Jinliang, are you okay?"

Chen Jinliang looked at me with surprise in his eyes, "Qi Xuan? Why are you here?"

"I'm on duty. I just came out. How are you? Have you been bullied? Don't be afraid, I'm here."

"I... No, you misunderstood..." Chen Jinliang hesitated to speak, her boyfriend pulled her into his arms and squinted at me: "Who are you? Mind your own business."

I sneered: "Seeing that your school uniform is also from No. [-] Middle School, I advise you to be more behaved, what is it to harass female classmates at night?"

"Oh Qi Xuan, what are you talking about? What harassment...you... are not what you think at all..." Chen Jinliang stomped his feet anxiously.

The boy sneered: "What harassment? Xiaoliang and I are serious about dating, okay? What are you calling out suddenly? We are dating, do you have a place to talk?"

I was stunned, and looked at Chen Jinliang in disbelief: "This man is your boyfriend?"

Chen Jinliang didn't speak, just lowered his eyes and nodded his head lightly.

I don't know how I got home that night. I was numb in my head, as if I had been hit hard by a sap, my ears were buzzing, and I was about to have a concussion. I lay on the bed at night, my mind was full of Chen Jinliang and her boyfriend.

I knew that there would be a day when Chen Jinliang was different from me. She was not gay. Sooner or later, she would fall in love, have a boyfriend, get married, have children, and have a beautiful family.

I didn't expect this day to come so soon.

No wonder Chen Jinliang has been sneaky lately, and even left alone for dinner, it turned out that it was because there was someone more important.

That boy didn't look very good, with two eyes and one nose, and many pimples on his face, he looked like a low-quality gangster. I don't know why Chen Jinliang fell in love with him.

I was so stuffed up in my heart that I jumped fast and slow and then had no rhythm, as if I had a heart attack. I felt a sense of shame at being betrayed by her in my heart. I didn't sleep well that night, and I had two dark circles under my eyes the next day. At school, Chen Jinliang took the initiative to come to me with a sad face, saying that he didn't tell me on purpose, because he was afraid that I would be angry if I found out.

"Why am I angry?" False words.

"It's too late for me to be happy when you have someone you like." A lie among lies.

Although I refuted her with a smile, my heart was in pain. I couldn't describe the feeling, as if there was a ball of cotton stuck in my chest, which couldn't go up or down. It made me feel a dull pain even when I was breathing, and I was angry with her.

I'm angry that she doesn't like me and forgets that she doesn't even consider me a friend. Such a big thing about dating has been kept from me so much. If she didn't meet me by chance, she probably didn't plan to tell me.

How much weight do I have in her heart if I like her so much?

I feel stupid, stupid and cheap.