the girl i had a crush on

In the second year of junior high school, we moved the campus, and Chen Jinliang and I also changed seats, and we were no longer at the same table.

This year, some of the girls in our class fell in love with a Korean group called Super Junior, and in just one month, most of the girls in the class began to fall in love with the members of this group.The magazines about this combination have replaced comic books and become a new hot commodity in the class. Chen Jinliang also likes one of them. It has long hair, big eyes, and thick lips. It looks pretty, not like a boy. She showed it to me for the first time. When I watched it, I was still shocked, thinking that Chen Jinliang liked girls just like me, but later I realized that it was my wishful thinking, the one she liked was just a man with a delicate appearance.

Chen Jinliang stopped buying comic books and bought Super Junior-related magazines instead. The songs in the mp3 were replaced with Korean songs that Jay Chou could not understand. I understand the Korean lyrics, not only that, but also bought a lot of stickers for the group, and pasted them on her books and notebooks, and asked me after I posted them, whether her idol is handsome or not.

"It's ugly," I said.

Chen Jinliang snorted, "No taste."

I felt uncomfortable, so I stabbed her with words: "So you like this kind of people who are neither male nor female."

"How handsome he is, you are not a man or a woman!"

What Chen Jinliang said was an unintentional mistake, and he just caught up with the fastest, but I was taken aback when I heard it.

I have overheard the words that I am a man or a man or a woman. I have overheard it several times. It was the girls in the class who got together to gossip. Then some of the most naughty boys scolded me in front of my face. It was Chen Jinliang Angrily, he fought back for me.

Looking back now, they would say that because I had very few feminine features at that time. I didn’t have long hair like ordinary girls, and my stunted breasts didn’t show much, and I was taller than ordinary women. Among a group of thirteen and fourteen-year-old girls, he looked like an outlier.

When I was a student, my appearance that was different from ordinary people would always attract more criticism, such as my tall, such as Chen Jinliang's black.

But Chen Jinliang is cheerful by nature, and already has a group of friends besides me in the class. I am introverted and not good at socializing, and I have already entered the second grade of junior high school. My friend is still only Chen Jinliang.

More than a friend, I also like her.

So I don't care if others say that I am not a man or a woman. Once Chen Jinliang said this, I just felt that she had seen through my impure motives for her, and suddenly felt guilty and timid, with cold hands and feet.

Probably my complexion was too ugly, Chen Jinliang also panicked, and quickly apologized to me: "I'm sorry, Qi Xuan, I didn't mean to say these words, I... I..." She was so anxious that her forehead was sweating, and she didn't know how to explain it. Jin said sorry to me.

"What a big deal." I forced a smile and comforted her, "I was wrong first, and I shouldn't slander your idol."

I understand that Chen Jinliang is a different person from me.