the girl i had a crush on

I think Chen Jinliang didn't really treat me as a friend, and wanted to ignore her from now on, but he couldn't make up his mind.

If I ignore her, I won't even be qualified to be her friend in the future, I can't bear it.

I really like her. From the first to the third year of junior high school, I have liked her for three years. I dare not tell her. I think it is not bad to be a buddy by her side. At least I can get along with her day and night. I can be the first if she is uncomfortable or unhappy. Time knows, take care of her, make her happy.

If it is now, there is a very precise word to describe a person like me - licking a dog.

Fortunately, the Internet was not well developed back then, and vocabulary such as surfing, pouring water, and magic horse were still popular, and no such sharp and sharp nouns were developed.

I don't know why I like Chen Jinliang, but I just fell in love with her so much. The longer I get along with her, the more I think she is very good. She has an optimistic and soft personality, and loves to laugh. I have a small dimple, and I am very happy when I am with her. Sometimes she accidentally touches my hand when she asks me to borrow a pen for my homework. I was so dazed, my eyes were glued to her back in a daze.

Even the scrunchie on her head is more beautiful than others.

How could I make up my mind to ignore her?

Chen Jinliang is a considerate girl. She knew that I was not angry when I said I was happy for her, and she must have felt uncomfortable. Instead of going to dinner with her boyfriend, she carried me to the cafeteria forcibly.

This is the first time she has invited me to have dinner with her this month. I understand her intentions, and I still jump up shamefully, thinking that I still have a little weight in her heart.

The canteen of No. [-] Middle School is always crowded like sardines. She and I finally found two seats at the corner near the trash can. We sat down next to each other, our elbows could touch each other, and there was a lot of people around us, wanting to talk. Can't hear what the other party said.

Chen Jinliang didn't try to chat with me in the crowded cafeteria either. He came out after dinner and went to the subway (note) at the school gate to buy two cups of iced green tea. money.

From my second year of junior high school, my dad stopped working as a cement worker. He tried to take over the work by himself as a contractor. Because of his meticulous and honest character, after doing several home renovations, the owner introduced him to Without their colleagues and friends, my dad has done more projects, and the family is not as tight as it used to be. Not only have the foreign debts been paid off, but there is finally some balance in the savings account, and my mother no longer serves dishes to small restaurants. , She accumulated a lot of experience in other restaurants, and used the remaining money to set up a rice noodle shop, selling soup noodles. The income was flat in the first month, and it started to make a profit in the second month. They actually made a small [-] yuan, plus my dad's engineering work, the combined income of the two is almost ten times that of my family's most difficult time!

So in the third year of junior high, my family began to get out of poverty = to become well-off = well-off, and I had more pocket money in my pocket. It was no longer a big deal to treat Chen Jinliang to a drink.

She and I each held a cup of tea, walked slowly to the edge of the playground, found a place to sit down, and quietly watched the students exercising around the playground.

When it was getting dark, Chen Jinliang spoke first, and the first sentence was sorry.

The cup of tea in my hand was very cold and bitter. I smiled and asked her why she was apologizing, and she did nothing wrong.

She said: "I didn't mean not to tell you that I was in a relationship. I wanted to say it during the summer vacation, but you usually don't use the Internet, and you don't have a mobile phone, so you put it off until the start of school... Later... Then I I don't know how to speak..."

I asked her, "How long have you been together?"

"Two months," she said.

I figured it out, it was the end of the summer vacation, and she didn't lie to me.

I asked again, "Do you like him?"

Chen Jinliang blushed and remained silent.

My heart skipped a beat, and I thought about it.

Chen Jinliang likes him very much, and the shyness and secret joy in her eyes cannot be fooled.

I took a big sip of the tea, it was cold and bitter, and even my brain hurt from the cold. After swallowing it with my neck stuck, the astringent taste remained on the coating of my tongue, which could not be subsided.

I laughed and teased her: "Haha, so you know how to be shy, you blushed like a monkey's ass."

She pursed her lips in embarrassment and pinched me, "You...you're still talking nonsense!"

I looked up and laughed loudly on the grass. The afterglow of the setting sun was very dazzling. I covered my eyes and laughed for a long time.

Chen Jinliang told me how good her boyfriend is. He held an umbrella for her on a rainy day. The boy was soaked through, but she was not wet at all. Knowing that she likes to eat oranges, but doesn't like the silk on the outside of oranges, give her the The oranges were picked clean and handed to her. When they were dating, the boy never failed to remember her favorite dishes, and picked the coriander she didn't like into his bowl for her...

She is so precious, I put my hands on my eyes and listened, the corners of my mouth were getting more and more parted.

I haven't done any of these things for her. In fact, they are all ordinary things. It's just that the people who do them are different, and the meanings of these things are also very different.

I originally wanted to confess to her after the high school entrance examination. It doesn't matter whether she accepts it or not. Now it seems that there is no need to confess. She already has a boyfriend. If I talk about those, it will only add to her troubles. What else? It doesn't work either.

It was the setting sun that day was so glaring that it kept me in tears.

The author has something to say:

感谢在2020-06-2623:52:45~2020-06-2723:10:13期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 1 uncle in pants;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!