my sick white moonlight

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In order to prove that he shouldn't feel guilty, Shi Zhiqing simply didn't take the initiative to contact Zhang Youming, and didn't reply Zhang Youming's text message seemingly coolly.

Seeing that Shi Zhiqing didn't reply, Zhang Youming didn't send again. He restrained himself a lot more than Shi Zhiqing.

However, it is not so much restraint as it is self-esteem, a weak, sensitive and sad heart, which often becomes a stumbling block in life, and this is fully reflected when Zhang Youming went to see Chen Yandu's performance.

His inconvenient legs made it impossible for him to participate in the on-site interaction. Moreover, he really seemed out of place with young people in their early twenties. Most people in their 27 and [-]s are working hard in the workplace and running around for a living. Even if there was a performance, they would wait in the rest area after a few jumps.

But Zhang Youming was not reconciled. He just came here to see what kind of charm Chen Yan had. Seeing Chen Yan radiating energy on the stage, Zhang Youming felt a sense of gap in his heart, which made him very uncomfortable.

In the crowd, he couldn't get excited at all. The restless music beat hit his heart like a slap in the face. There is no happiness under the hammer. Obviously, there is another benefit, a clear understanding of reality.

Normal people should be with normal people and live a normal life. What does it matter if you are not a ghost or a ghost?Is it really going to be staged a ghostly affair?Give me a break.

Although there are often ambivalences, most of the time, Zhang Youming thinks that reason will overcome emotion, which is very good, and Chen Yan is indeed very good.

Zhang Youming walked back, without the desire to stay any longer, the cheers and screams from around him made him feel uncomfortable, someone pulled his sleeves, he felt anxious and wanted to shake off, but after looking up, He was stunned, it was Chen Yan who held him back, and they were also on the big screen.

"You came alone?" Chen Yandu pulled Zhang Youming outside, and whispered loudly in his ear.

Zhang Youming nodded. He didn't like to lie, and he didn't want to take the initiative to tell the truth. He came to see Chen Yandu, but he didn't want to say anything, and he didn't want to make his purpose so clear.

"You should tell me in advance, so you can order inside and take the convenient passage, but you don't have my contact information." Chen Yan is very enthusiastic, and he is a little sun in front of outsiders.

It was completely different from what Zhang Youming saw that night, in front of Shi Zhiqing, Chen Yan showed weakness.

The sharp-eyed Zhang Youming found the golden pendant, which originally belonged to him.

"It's okay, I should go back too." Zhang Youming was a little bit taller than Chen Yan, and he was thankful that this was an advantage.

"Hey, wait, brother, let's go get something to drink over there." Chen Yan was very polite.

But of course there are more important factors. Chen Yan went back to the place where Shi Zhiqing was waiting that night, which was Zhang Youming's shop. When he saw Zhang Youming who was helping others to pack things in the shop, suddenly realized.

The reason why Shi Zhiqing stood there was waiting for Zhang Youming, right?As for that gift, maybe it was intended for Zhang Youming at the beginning, but I just happened to catch up.

So, Shi Zhiqing secretly likes Zhang Youming, right?

Of course, it might not be secretly. This is all Chen Yandu's guess. When he saw Zhang Youming in the crowd, he had an idea in his heart, and he wanted to talk to Zhang Youming.

"I asked Brother Qing to come with you last time, but he seems to be very busy recently." Chen Yan ordered two glasses of lemonade, handed one to Zhang Youming, and then sat on the high stool with one hand propped up.

Zhang Youming didn't know what Chen Yan was selling. After taking a sip of lemonade, he said calmly, "He's very busy."

"Are you two high school classmates?" Chen Yan asked suddenly.

Zhang Youming frowned unconsciously, Shi Zhiqing actually mentioned herself in front of Chen Yandu. "Um."

"No wonder." Chen Yan said in a low voice.

"No wonder what?" Zhang Youming asked.

Chen Yan smiled and said, "It's nothing, but I'm curious, brother Qing has been single for so many years, do you know why?"

Zhang Youming had no idea about this kind of thing. When he was studying, Zhang Youming always thought that Shi Zhiqing liked girls.

"I don't know, we haven't seen each other for many years."

This Shi Zhiqing never mentioned it to him, Chen Yan got off the high stool, sat on the chair flush with Zhang Youming, leaned closer, stared at Zhang Youming, as if he was afraid that he would lie, Chen Yan asked :"Why?"

"Because of me, I can't live in Yuyun." After a pause for two seconds, Zhang Youming said again: "I went to another place."

Seeing that Zhang Youming had some unspeakable secrets, Chen Yan didn't even ask. This is the basic principle of life.

But Chen Yan was not silent, he talked about how he and Shi Zhiqing met, and also talked a lot about their situation as a group, and finally expressed his love for Shi Zhiqing as a matter of course.

Zhang Youming, who was listening in a cloud, seemed to be wandering. About Shi Zhiqing's liking for men, he only found out later. Whether there will be further development with Chen Yan.

Moreover, Chen Yan didn't seem to realize that Shi Zhiqing hadn't come out in front of anyone other than him, including Zhang Youming, although Zhang Youming knew it all along.

"What about you? I heard from Brother Qing that you are still single, and he also said that his mother is urging you two to find a partner." Chen Yan laughed as he spoke, as if thinking of Shi Zhiqing saying this Annoyed and cute expression when talking.

Zhang Youming hasn't fully recovered from his nerves yet. When some things are not brought up on the table, he feels indifferent, but now that someone asks about it, he doesn't say it, and he doesn't say it.

And he always felt that Chen Yan was testing him.

"As for emotional matters, let nature take its course." Zhang Youming replied.

There was nothing wrong with this answer, but it didn't give Chen Yan any useful information, but according to Zhang Youming's reaction, he felt that Zhang Youming probably didn't know that Shi Zhiqing liked him.

Otherwise, Shi Zhiqing wouldn't have been waiting at the door of his shop in the middle of the night.

"Do you like men?" Chen Yandu asked.

Generally speaking, this kind of question is too rude and stupid for people like them who have only encountered it twice, but sometimes think about it in a different direction, if you don’t ask this time, I don’t know when it will be There will be a chance to know the truth.

Although most of the time it is a waste of time to ask.

Zhang Youming looked at Chen Yan and laughed, with an attitude of someone who came before, aloof, the love in this world is so complicated, how can it be covered by a single sentence, do you like men?

"How should I put it? I can accept diversity, but there is a very real problem that, no matter a man or a woman, he has to accept my disability first. Look at this leg." Zhang Youming laughed again after speaking, and tried to Lift your left leg up a bit. "Also, I'm poor and have no money. I can't move an inch in this world."

"I'm sorry, I didn't think about it that much." Chen Yan really didn't think about it that much. In his opinion, being liked by Shi Zhiqing is already the greatest advantage.

Zhang Youming took a deep breath, looked into the distance, moved his lips, but still didn't ask the question he wanted to ask Chen Yandu.

Forget it, even if you know the answer, it won't change anything.

No matter what choice Shi Zhiqing made, Zhang Youming would not feel better. All this started from the car accident, and the fate of the two of them had already been decided.