don't like me

The room was filled with a pungent smell.

Things on the table fell to the ground.

Although the lights were dim, it didn't stop me from seeing the tragedy in the room.

I curled up on the sofa to rest, and when I saw this scene, I couldn't help but let out a low laugh.

Yang Xiao was bending over to clean up. When he heard me laugh, he asked me what I was laughing at.

"It's not funny? I've never seen someone in such a hurry." You can wait until you get home to talk about it, but you just start working here, and you have to clean it yourself afterwards. How funny you think.

But I have no intention of helping.

Yang Xiao came over to hug me, I was already cold, and I was so hot that I was sweating, he felt uncomfortable when he got close to me, I pushed him away, he said that I didn't admit it afterwards.

"What's wrong with the denial? It's not once or twice." I have a lot of denials, and if he wants to settle with me like this, the days to come will be miserable.

"You can deny everything, but there is one thing you must accept. We are together." He said word by word, for fear that I could not hear clearly enough.

I said, "You forced me."

Yang Xiao lay on top of me and hugged my neck. We squeezed on the sofa, and he said, "Oh, I forced you? Did I force you again? I forced you to be so happy?"

"You're seductive," I said, "no one can resist."

"You are the one who seduced me," Yang Xiao retorted, "Why don't you just start doing it here."

I still wanted to talk to him, but it was impossible. Someone came, and the door was knocked. I was shocked. When Yang Xiao found out, he laughed and said, "Are you afraid?"

I looked at the table made by the two of us, and found that although the things were neat, the smell was too...

"What are you afraid of? I'm not that shameless." I pushed him.

Yang Xiao stood up, got down from me, and opened the door of the room. There was a young man standing outside the door. Seeing someone, he quickly apologized: "Sorry, I thought there was no one."

"We'll be leaving right away, you came just in time." Yang Xiao turned around, at this time I had already arranged my clothes and stood up from the sofa, walking towards him.

"Mobile phone." Yang Xiao reminded me.

It was only then that I came to my senses, followed his line of sight, found my cell phone that I had dropped on the floor, picked it up, searched it, nothing was left behind, and then went out with him one after the other.

Xiaosheng's expression is worth trying to figure out, secretly observing us, but none of us minded.

Once outside, I took off his clothes and threw them to him.

Yang Xiao went on to say, "I don't need it anymore?"

I took out a cigarette, smoking afterwards was the same pleasure as smoking after a meal, I put it in my mouth, and said rudely: "It's dry by _, I don't need it, thank you."

Yang Xiao put on his clothes and instructed me: "Go and drive, I'll go home with you and pick up Xuxu."

I looked at him: "Why?"

Yang Xiao said grandly: "Go to my place."

I frowned: "What are you doing there?"

Yang Xiao turned around and faced me: "Is it convenient to do things?"

I can understand what he means, we are not so measured in our speech, one is more rude than the other, but I have an objection, in this matter.

"Making love with you doesn't mean following you. I'm used to being alone, so I won't go." I ruthlessly rejected his proposal, and put the enthusiasm just now behind me.

Putting on my pants and denying people, I am the king of scum today.

"Then I'll go to your place?" Yang Xiao said, "Would you choose one?"

"Climb home, don't bother me," I walked back to my car, opened the door, stood in front of the car door, blocked the cold wind with the door, put one hand on the car door, and said to Yang Xiao: "I will call you again if I need you. Your technique is quite good, I should bark more diligently recently."

From such a distance, I can feel the murderous look in that gaze.

I didn't care, got into the car, no longer felt the sharp sight, started the car, but the sky was going against me, the car didn't even respond.

"Damn," I checked, but I can't find any problems for the time being, is it out of gas?No way, it's no use just listening to the noise and not leaving. When I was sure that I fell, I patted the steering wheel as if to vent my anger, "You are not as good as me above."

I opened the door and got out of the car, but Yang Xiao was no longer there. After watching for a while, I found his car, knocked on the window, and Yang Xiao lowered the window, revealing a surprised face.

He propped his head up and asked meanly, "What's the matter, wife?"

"Get out, don't yell," I leaned against his body, although I didn't care much about face, it would still be a little embarrassing, but I could still insist on being shameless, my voice was full of orders It meant that he didn't have the politeness to ask for help at all, "Send me back."

He glanced at my car, "What happened to your car?"

I said, "I don't know, the flame is turned off, and there is no response."

Yang Xiao raised his head and said, "You just left it here?"

I didn't care and said, "Then what should I do? You drag it away? I'll contact the master later."

The co-driver's door slammed, Yang Xiao lifted his chin and let me pass.

I went around, he started the car, we left the club smoothly, he didn't even need a navigation, he was completely familiar with the route of my house.

Halfway through, someone called him, but he didn't know who it was.

"The day after tomorrow. I have something to do tomorrow and I don't have time to go there. You can ask Zheng Dai and Brother Li to go." After Yang Xiao finished speaking, the other party asked back, and he said in a skillful tone: "I may have to go get a certificate."

I immediately guessed what they were talking about, and I frowned. Yang Xiao hadn't finished talking on the phone, but I didn't want to listen to it. I touched his thigh and pinched him. Yang Xiao hissed, and he While driving, answering the phone at the same time, you have to find time to deal with me. It is not worth learning the practice of throwing away my life at any time.

He mouthed an insult to me, and before he finished speaking on the phone, he told the person over there that he had something to do, and hung up the call.

He rubbed his thigh and said, "Can you be a little, a little more merciful?"

"Don't fucking talk nonsense to me outside." I warned him.

Yang Xiao was dissatisfied and said, "What did I say nonsense? It's not that you want to get married, you agreed to me marrying you, I said there is a problem with obtaining the certificate? It's been more than ten years, what are you embarrassed about?"

"Who is embarrassed! I just don't want to be with you. What are you? You want to marry me after sleeping with me a few times. How big is your face?" I said unreasonably.

Yang Xiao is used to the speed at which I turn my face, he has never been used to me, and said: "Go ahead, just see if I get the certificate and it's over."

So I slapped him a few more words, but he didn't respond to me. I sprayed him for a long time by myself, until I felt bored, so I folded my arms and behaved in the passenger seat.

Yang Xiao glanced at me.

"What are you looking at?!" I found him peeping.

The battle that had finally extinguished was rekindled, and Yang Xiao said, "If you don't look at me, you know that I look at you?"

"You didn't look at me to know that I found out?" We two were arguing endlessly over this same kind of question of "which came first, the chicken or the egg", and we couldn't get over it. From spittle flying all over the sky to when he took a step back and I pushed my nose on my face, Soon, the only voice in the car was my own.

"...Look at the fucking ten years and I'm not tired of it. I'm really promising." I scolded until I reached the door of the house, so I stopped, pushed the door and wanted to go in, but found that it couldn't be pushed, so I was caught. The agitation that had calmed down rose again, "What car door did you close?"

Yang Xiao ignored me, took the phone to make a call, and called my sister, "I'm downstairs, I have what you need, and I'll take you to buy the rest tomorrow, you don't need to bring your brother's things, I'm here I'll wait for you below, he's here too."

"Open the door." I reached out to press the switch, but Yang Xiao grabbed my wrist and threw it back.

He just said: "Did you hear that? Pack it up and come down."

After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone, turned his cell phone, and looked at me, "You're making trouble."

I ignored him and said, "Open the door for me."

Yang Xiao lay on the steering wheel, stared at me and said, "Brother Xing, what are you embarrassed about?"

"You are sorry, your whole family is sorry."

Yang Xiao was not affected by my words, he looked at it for a while and said: "You seem to have changed, but you don't seem to have changed. Now you are just too irritable and awkward, but I still like you. Change."

"I beg you to like me?"

"I beg you to like me," Yang Xiao emphasized, I glanced at him and stopped talking, Yang Xiao said, "I know a lot has happened in the past ten years, we are not what we were when we were teenagers, but I love you, you don't have to doubt it at all."

"I think you should doubt whether I still love you or not."

"You have admitted it yourself, do you want to say that is a lie?"

"I don't know how many lies I have told, but this time you believe it?" I said, "You are really a severe patient with selective deafness."

No matter what I say about Yang Xiao, he doesn't want to talk to me about whether I love him or not. He intends to convince me, "Brother Xing, you don't have to love me. I didn't ask you to love me very much. You only need to love me." You can still accept me, accept my wish to be good to you, and the fact that there will be me in the future."

"That's terrible to me." I just looked out of the window, and the impetuousness in my heart subsided. In the dead of night, I seemed to have had enough trouble.

"Shame? Embarrassment? Is it hard to accept that I will still be me after ten years?" Yang Xiao said, "If you are because of these reasons, I ask you to overcome it yourself."

"It's not because of these..." I just said something, Wen Zhixu came and stood in front of the car door, carrying her schoolbag, our sight was taken away, and my conversation with Yang Xiao was interrupted.

He opened the car door, Wen Zhixu got into the car, and Yang Xiao asked her to put her things aside.

I adjusted my voice, turned around, and glanced at the little girl who was disturbed late at night, "Is the door locked?"

Wen Zhixu nodded.

I said, "You can still receive calls so late, why did you stay up all night?"

Wen Zhixu explained: "You haven't come back yet..."

I stopped reprimanding her and turned my head to look straight ahead.

We lived in Yang Xiao's house so unnaturally.

In the middle of the night, Wen Zhixu was packing up. She also packed some clothes for me, but she didn’t take too much. Yang Xiao said it’s okay, and she will take us to buy the things we need tomorrow. Here, he said yes, this is her home, and she will be here in the future, going to and from school, and doing everything.

"Brother doesn't seem very happy." Wen Zhixu said in a low voice, and she glanced into the room.

"It's me." Yang Xiao patted her head, "Go to sleep, I still have things to do tomorrow."

I just sat in the room and listened to their conversation. Because it was too quiet, I could hear them clearly even though they lowered their voices.

Yang Xiao walked in and put his clothes aside, "Aren't you sleepy so late? It's almost two o'clock."

I sat on the plush carpet, with a floor-to-ceiling window in front of me, and a desk next to it. The environment was surprisingly good, and the cold moonlight reflected on how many withered roses.

"Come here, I have something to tell you." I don't want to make trouble anymore, if this goes on, I guess he will never understand.

Yang Xiao came over, he took off his coat, it wasn't that cold in the room, he only wore thin clothes, squatted down next to me, and knelt on the blanket on one knee.

"You say." He said softly.

I pointed out the window and said to him: "Your flowers are starting to wither."

Yang Xiao followed my line of sight, "Because it's cold, I ignored them recently, and the master will come to maintain them tomorrow."

I looked at the withered flowers quietly, trying to raise my head, but I couldn't. I was exhausted physically and mentally, and I was defeated by the winter cold.

"That's what you want to tell me?" He asked knowingly. I raised my eyes and looked at him. Yang Xiao's eyes are really beautiful. Docile.

I reached out to touch his face and asked, "Are we together?"

He nodded and said, "Yes."

I feel like everything is like a fantasy, "Are we really together?" After ten years, can we still be together?Can my love that died without a cause back then be able to continue?Can I start over with that obedient little police dog?

Yang Xiao held my hand and said, "Really, we are together."

He held my hand with relief and gratitude. I should be infected by him and be happy with him, but no, I didn't feel very happy, but something that was worrying me all day long was bothering me.

"You, you," I have been talking for a long time, but I still can't find the right words, how can I not show my sense of panic?If it's a good way of expressing it, it's best to just say it straight: "Have you thought about it yet?"

Yang Xiao withdrew his hand, he came directly opposite to me, blocking the outside scenery, "It's you who never thought about it."

I lowered my eyes, and Yang Xiao said sensitively: "If you have any scruples, you have to tell me, Brother Xing, can we face all problems together in the future?"

He paused, and continued: "We don't have so many years to waste, ten years is enough for us to see our own hearts clearly."

"But," I grabbed my hair unbearably, "I am...not the one I was ten years ago..."

"You are Wen Zhixing. You were the one who fell in love with me ten years ago, right?" Yang Xiao said, but I didn't answer him. He grabbed my wrist and put my hand down, "Don't worry about these illusory things. .”

"Why don't you have any scruples? Am I the same as ten years ago? Is it the person you like? Is it the student with high hopes? Are you the same as ten years ago? Are you the scum they looked down upon? I'm still with you Are you worthy?!" My emotions gradually became agitated, I have never said these things to anyone, is it a shame?Isn't it shameful?Anyone can do it, why Yang Xiao?He has witnessed my past, he once fell in love with the best me, and now this person who has nothing, even his soul is dirty...

Why deserve it?

It’s okay to change someone, I don’t care what other people think of me, but Yang Xiao can’t, he can only have two emotions towards me in his life, one is to like me, the other is to hate me, but if he thinks that I am not as good as before , Dislike me as before, even if he doesn't say it, how long can this relationship last?

Maybe those words he once said will become true, his freshness will completely dissipate, and someone better than me and more suitable for him will appear, and he and I are just playing for fun, just to die without a problem back then Feelings are finally willing.

Willingly give up on me.

"Can you have a little confidence in me?" Yang Xiao's voice was sullen, and he suddenly raised his voice: "Is it worthy? You tell me whether I am worthy? What was I like back then, the social scum that the principal and the whole school criticized by name? , why don’t you think I’m unworthy?! Aren’t you the one who opposes the whole school?! Aren’t you the one who publicly admits that you like me?! Do you think I’m unworthy?! You don’t think so, you just tell me you like it, So now I want to be with you, what does it have to do with whether I like you or not?!"

There were sounds of walking outside, only Wen Zhixu was left, Yang Xiao's roar had scared her, she was knocking on the door, Yang Xiao didn't respond to her, neither did I, we looked at each other, turbulent emotions erupted.

"Brother..." There was a panic from the knocking on the door outside.

Yang Xiao tried his best to calm himself down, he looked at the carpet, he didn't speak for a long time, breathing heavily, then his voice sank, "I'll say it again, I love you, don't tell me if you deserve it, I don't want to discuss it with you The second time, you are the one who is unhealthy. If you think that I am not worthy of you, then tell me, what kind of me will not make you feel worthy? Nothing? Or what? If You think it will be psychologically balanced, and I will quit my job tomorrow."

He didn't joke with me, his emotions were suppressed deeper than mine, but he didn't explode. This is the second dispute between us due to suspicion.

Yang Xiao whispered, "Brother Xing, guess what saved me all these years? Guess what I was like in school when you disappeared?"

Han Yizhou mentioned it occasionally, but I didn't pursue it. He just said that Yang Xiao was driven crazy by me. I didn't understand the content behind this sentence.

Yang Xiao suppressed his emotions and said: "It's like being abandoned for the second time. I have no relationship with my parents, so when you disappear, I feel like the sky is falling... I can't tell why I like you, then When you played the piano on the stage in [-], I was like a demon, I was full of you, but I knew I was not worthy, you are like a star in the sky, people can't touch, I think if I don't take the initiative, we will never There is an intersection, we are originally... two kinds of people, I just wanted to know you, and a word with you would be enough, but I am too greedy, I can't control the raging love for you at all..."

"Do you remember what you said to me? Sorry, I laughed at you at that time, I couldn't listen to what others said, but now, I think you are right, no matter what kind of background is the reason for our depravity, I can't always ...want to be with you, but empty-handed and have nothing, right?"

I couldn't take my eyes off him for a moment.

Yang Xiao paused and said: "According to your original plan, now my grades are just enough to catch you. If you graduate from a prestigious school, no matter where you go, I will never catch up with you. You may be What famous professor or academic elite, I know you can do it, because you work hard enough and have that talent, what about me? I am still the one who is incompatible with you, isn’t it me who should feel unworthy? "

Many unbalanced things in my heart collapsed in an instant, and I can't even remember what they were built for in the first place. In my eyes, there is only this humble person who is telling me the secret he hides in his heart.

Yang Xiao smiled stiffly: "I really hate people telling me who I am and what achievements I have. No matter what, I will never hold my head up in front of you. Nouveau riche and scientist are always two worlds and two natures. Spiritually rich people and materially rich people are not at the same level of thought, you are downwardly compatible with me, and I have to work very hard to match you on the surface."

I haven't heard what he said, and I didn't even realize that he would have such an idea, but this idea has existed for more than ten years, and there is no trace of it. Will I hide it?No, compared to him, his ability to endure is really terrifying.

"You let me love you once, okay..." With a hint of discussion, he bowed his knees and begged me to give him a chance to love me.

I thought my ears were hard now, but isn't it so worthless?I just can't hear him humiliating me, looking at him, my restless and unbalanced emotions are instantly suppressed.

I slipped my Adam's apple.

There are no words to comfort him, nothing is as meaningful as a hug and a kiss, I hugged his neck, as if afraid of disturbing his emotions, the kiss was very light, just like stamping a seal, and then left quickly.

My hands rubbed against his face, touching his forehead.

"Don't tell me that you are talking about these deceitful things just to convince me."

Yang Xiao raised his eyes, and gently rubbed his hands on the back of my head, interspersed with my hair, "Did you fool me?"

I lowered my eyes, held his chin with both hands, my eyelashes hit his cheek, and said in a low voice, "Mmm."

I covered my lips again, this time violently, leading him to respond forcefully, I knelt in front of him, was pushed down by him, and fell asleep in the plush carpet, his hand just came in , The knocking on the door rang again.

Yang Xiao was forced to stop, and I, like him, ignored the sounds outside.

"Wait for me." He stood up and wanted to go over.

He was not willing to make Wen Zhixu worry, but I was willing to, I grabbed his hand, not letting him waste that effort, I raised my voice, and rushed: "Wen Zhixu, I will give you three seconds, get out of here !"

Then I started the countdown, and as soon as the three hit the ground, the knock on the door disappeared, and the sound of walking sounded in front of the door, gradually drifting away.

After it completely dissipated, Yang Xiao turned around, eyes full of dissatisfaction, and said, "If you do this way, I'll open the door myself next time."

"Never mind her." I tugged him, Yang Xiao knelt down cooperatively, and I stretched out my hand: "Go to bed."

Yang Xiao picked me up, and I hung on him shamelessly, staring at the window, "The curtains..."

Yang Xiao threw me on the bed, started to beat me up and down, and responded with the same tone, "You don't care."

Okay, enough of my fuss.

This time it is estimated that it was really planted.

Both times for the same reason.

Soft words.

I always scold him for being worthless, and scold him for not making any progress in my relationship in the past ten years. In fact, I should be the one who should reflect on myself the most.

Am I making progress?Good for nothing, still love him.

Sarcastically sarcastic at him, it was she who cheered in his arms.

Wen Zhixing, Wen Zhixing, you can really do it.