don't like me

I stood outside in a corner smoking a cigarette.

A woman passed by, wearing a heavy padded jacket. When she arrived at the entrance of the club, she took off the padded jacket, and inside was a slim sexy dress, which instantly changed her temperament. Then she put on her makeup, looked at me without paying attention, and walked in. .

The weather is cold, and the embarrassing weather makes the pedestrians on the road live in two seasons. I don't know what temperature it is today, and my hands are almost numb.

"Not cold?" Yang Xiao found me and put his clothes on me. I should have refused, but this time I didn't. He was right, I was very cold.

"You can only wake up when it's cold." I flicked the cigarette ash, but I didn't see anyone else around him.

Yang Xiao caught my gaze. His clothes were hanging on my shoulders, and they weren't too thick, but they were still warmer than my deliberate dressing, which required style rather than temperature.

I looked at the shirt on his body, puzzled and said, "Why are you here at work?"

Who wants to dress so formally during the break?

Yang Xiao said: "I will come here in the future, no matter the time."

After I asked more questions, I stopped talking and smoked.

Yang Xiao sharpened his eyes and saw that my raised hand was injured. He grabbed my wrist, turned my cigarette-holding hand over, spread it out, and looked at me with a frown: "What's going on?"

I withdrew and said, "It's okay, I messed around on my own."

He didn't let me pull it back smoothly, he held it tightly and said, "Why don't you deal with it?"

His thumb rubbed lightly around the scar on my palm.

I said, "It's already been treated, I washed the blood away."

"That's called processing?" Yang Xiao was speechless to me. He probably wanted to kill me, but he held back. He dragged me in, and we re-entered the club. I wanted to go home and sleep, but he said he would let me go home after the treatment.

I was forced to follow him back again.

He found the gauze from nowhere, and bandaged me in a quiet room. I didn’t feel any pain before, maybe my hands were frozen and I didn’t feel it anymore. Now he uses the gauze to hold my palm, but I feel a little pain .

"Take it easy." I reminded him.

"It's not very heavy." Yang Xiao said, he did try to lighten it as much as possible, it's because my reflex arc is too long, I feel the pain now.

After he finished bandaging me, he didn't mean to send me home right away, we both had something on our minds, he looked at me, and I looked away.

Weird atmosphere.

"You saw it just now," Yang Xiao mentioned: "Is he the person you are looking for?"

I've seen every scene, but I'm stubborn, I just don't want to admit it, "It just shows your appetite for him."

"Really?" Yang Xiao grabbed my chin and made me face him. I didn't dare to look at him openly. Yang Xiao hung his hands by his legs, stared into my eyes and said: " No honest person can kiss or have sex with a stranger in less than 5 minutes."

I knew what he meant, and in just a few moments they'd be rolling in bed, and it got out of hand enough to convince me of their passion.

"I'm not looking for an honest man," I murmured, "I'm just looking for someone to marry."

"The one who can get married is an honest person," Yang Xiao said firmly, "No one wants to get married because he wants to be more romantic in the future. When we identify a person, we want to marry him. Take the one just now. If you have already married him Married, so today's thing is what he should do?"

"But I didn't marry him."

"It won't change anything. Even if he's married, I can still hook him up. Don't you understand what that means?" Yang Xiao asked me.

I don't understand?

I know better than anyone.

Because we don’t love, because we don’t love enough, because our instincts outweigh our responsibilities, getting married is not an easy task, and there are so many good-looking, interesting and fresh people in the world, we can’t convince ourselves that it’s inevitable that we will be attracted to others for a moment, because the inside is still outside Nothing is important, what is important is loyalty to marriage and responsibility to the other half. What makes marriage more sacred than love is that we have to resist all temptations and tests from the outside world for each other.

"It's just that he doesn't like me, I'll just change someone." I know everything, but I don't want to say it.

Yang Xiao just dared to say everything, he didn't hide it, "Don't deceive yourself, none of the marriage partners you have found is honest, why are you in a hurry? You are not a person who is anxious because of your age."

"I am," I said firmly, "Why do you say I'm not? Just because you don't want to get married doesn't mean I don't want to."

"Who said I don't want to?" Yang Xiao's voice suddenly rose, and when I looked at him, he restrained himself a little, and lowered his voice: "I just don't want to force you."

After a few seconds of silence, I felt that if I sat down again, something would happen to both of us.

I quickly stood up and said I was going home.

But he stretched out his hand and grabbed my wrist, I bent my fingers, instinctively, I didn't catch anything, just touched his palm, Yang Xiao grabbed me and said: "Should we talk again."

Yang Xiao stood up, passed me, and walked towards the door. He closed the door to block the noise outside, and leaned against the door panel, blocking my way.

I resigned to my fate, I can't leave today, I sighed, I didn't want to spend any more time, I said in a low voice: "I don't want to."

"Come closer to me." Yang Xiao commanded me.

I didn't move, he came over, approached step by step, and still didn't stop when he came to me. I was forced to back up and back up until I touched the table, and I couldn't stabilize my footsteps and sat on it.

He bent down, pressed his hands from my side, put his hands on the table, lowered his head and asked me: "You love me, don't you? Why don't you want to say it?"

"Get up," I couldn't keep this position for long, neither sitting nor lying down, it was very uncomfortable, I pushed him, Yang Xiao didn't understand me, so he left me and asked me to get up, I warned: "I fucking kicked you."

Because I was not serious, because I didn't answer his words, his face sank, and his eyes became fierce, and then he grabbed my calf, threw me down on the table, and something fell, " "Click" to the floor.

"You fucking..."

"My mother also wants to hear from you," Yang Xiao pressed down and said, "Say, there's nothing wrong with it."

"What do you want to do?"

Yang Xiao followed my clothes, his gaze was like a knife's edge, cutting off my buttons, his hand ran down my neckline, "I haven't done something for a long time, guess what it is?"

"Don't be in heat with me," I stepped on his side, no, it was the hip bone, Yang Xiao glanced along my leg, and I threatened him: "Get up."

Or I'll crush his bones, if I can.

Yang Xiao came up with an idea: "I think you can go to the middle."

"You think I dare not?" I moved my foot to another place, and I warned him again: "I will make you extinct, believe it or not."

He didn't seem to care, and he was not afraid of my threats, so he said mischievously: "Can you give birth? Can't you? I have already become extinct in my life, and I have nothing to lose, but if you step down, you will lose your sex_Fu It's you."

"Who needs you!" I glared, "There are so many people in this world..."

Before I finished speaking, all the vulgar words were drowned in my throat, and then swallowed back into my stomach. His hand quickly moved away from my foot that was in a dangerous place, and pulled my calf towards him. My whole body The person slid along the glass table, the cold down my waist, the clothes were rubbed off, and the cold glass table stuck to my lower back, which made me shiver, but I didn't have much time to feel it. The kiss swept across, feeling the two heavens of ice and fire.

I wanted to kick him, but his body pressed down, and resistance seemed like an invitation.

It's nothing, my reserved and rational strings broke, and I was completely caught in his emotional vortex.

Needless to say, the strength of his kiss will definitely leave traces tomorrow.

I am sinking today, sober today, repeatedly, tortured by the same person, he told me the reality, conquered me with his body, blamed myself for being worthless, the unfinished emotions of the past ten years are intertwined, and the intimacy with him is full of familiarity and Stimulation, how many years can a person's goodwill last?As far as the two of us are concerned, it's time to let go of all the troubles these years.

But no, he touched me, I touched him, the fiery heat that was on the verge of breaking out did not make people worry, and even the last string of reason that was tense could be easily broken.

I can hardly tell who is seducing whom.

"Hmm..." I yelled, my teeth not tight enough.

Yang Xiao let out a low laugh.

He raised his head, "And said you didn't want to."

Thinking of my stubbornness just now, my sense of shame came up now, I covered my eyes with my hands, and angrily accused him: "Who can resist you doing this?! It's so annoying."

Yang Xiao grabbed my wrist, wanting to take it off, but I don't want it, so I just pushed his hand away, I don't want him to see me now, that dog mouth is dishonest.

"Wen Zhixing, I love you." He confessed to me at this time, I have heard it many times, and it is not new at all.

I was very helpless to him, "Don't you be ashamed..."

Yang Xiao said, "I don't think so."

"But I think," my hand tightened for a moment, my arm became stiff, and my voice trembled a little. I didn't think of this, but he forced me to this point, what can I do?Almost uncontrollably, I expressed my concern and grievance, "It's so embarrassing, it's you again..."

Yang Xiao suddenly laughed. He rubbed my wrist and said comfortingly, "Is it my fault? It's the person you love. Is this bad?"

"No, I don't want you. It's you every time. Why? I want to marry someone else. I want to punish you. I'll punish you and leave me alone for ten years. You don't even want to get me in your life..." I Childishly speaking, naively contesting with him, the more I talked, the more I thought about it, the more angry I became. In the end, I didn't know whether I shed tears because of grievance or anger.

Yang Xiao lifted my arm, he put away his joking look, and looked at me quietly, his eyes became more and more dangerous, his hand touched the end of my eyes, and the person reflected in his eyes at that moment was Who, I feel ashamed when I see it myself.

The redness at the end of my eyes has not faded, like a layer of make-up, and because of the tears in my eyes, it always looks pitiful, so what is the appearance of a 30-year-old person?That's the fragility that a 13-year-old would hide.

When I realized my embarrassment, and was stared at by his fiery eyes again, my self-esteem was crushed to the ground, and I had to reach out to block it, "What are you looking at..."

Yang Xiao pressed his lips against my chin and rubbed his nose against my cheek. He lowered his head and said with difficulty, "Okay, it's my fault. Don't punish me. Will you be punished later? Feel good, I, I..."

He hesitated for a long time, unable to say anything, his Adam's apple slipped and twitched, "Can we talk about other things later? I now... want to fuck you."

I didn't give an answer for a long time, but just stared blankly. He hasn't acted yet, and the atmosphere is getting warmer.

"You have to nod." Yang Xiao's hair on his forehead was wet, his eyes were infected by me, and his eyes were a little red, "You nod, it will be better for both of us."

I put my hand on his chest, my consideration was to torture both of us, and the emotional involvement dragged both of us, I said softly: "You...you have to marry me."

……

He pressed me on the table and said in a low voice: "Remember, I wanted to marry you very early on. When I was 17, as long as you are willing, we can have a wedding tomorrow."

I lost my temper and said: "It's not legal..."

Yang Xiao protected the back of my head: "I don't care if it's legal or not, I love you, and it's not an unreasonable thing."

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It's over.

Be honest, be safe, and enjoy the new year with everyone.