no one save me

I just want to hold him, I want to stop him from letting him go, I know very well that once he walks out of this door, he will treat me as a stranger if he doesn't kill me in the future, when I think of this result, I will suffer no.

But I didn't expect that he would fall down the stairs, and I didn't expect that he was injured. When I touched a hand of blood, I was stunned.

It's not that I haven't seen him injured, even worse than this one, but the first time I saw him because I was injured, I watched him fall, and my heart almost stopped at that moment It took half a beat.

He was hospitalized, but I couldn't get in. I kept guard outside and kept calling, but he refused to answer.

This is the first time we've had a fight like this, and I even have a strong feeling it might be the last.

When I saw him again, he was leaning on the hospital bed, his face was pale, and his eyes were unprecedentedly indifferent. I really couldn't stand him looking at me like this. It was so uncomfortable. His heart seemed to be tightly clenched by something. Always remind me——

He doesn't want you anymore, you lost him.

I tried everything I could think of to keep him, but it was useless. I saw that he was obviously unable to stand still, but he grabbed an ashtray and smashed it heavily on my head.

It was really painful, and I felt dizzy for a while before I put my hands on the ground, and the blood dripped down my face.

He has never touched me like this before, even if he is angry again, he knows how to measure it. Of course, this is what I realized later. It turns out that every time we fight, he is really giving way to me.

He looked at me with a cold, condescending face, like a wolf watching a prey, but soon he looked away from me, he didn't even want to look at me.

I called him "Brother Qi" in a low voice. In the past at this time, he would soften his heart, but this time he didn't. His hand hanging by his side was trembling uncontrollably, and he told me to get out.

I don't want to leave, but if I don't leave, he will get up. I'm afraid his wound will open, so I can only take a step back.

I thought we would calm down, and then I admit my mistake, I admit my mistake, he will give me a chance, I really don't want to lose him, in every sense, I don't want to lose him.

I stubbornly thought it was because he was Zuo Lin's elder brother, but it wasn't until later, when we both came to the last step, that I realized that I was wrong, I was always wrong.

It's not Zuo Lin's brother that I don't want to lose, it's just him.

But by that time, it was already too late.

He was discharged from the hospital later, but he was with Lu Qiao. When I knew they went to Suzhou together, I couldn't describe my state at that time. I didn't stay in school at all, and my mind was full of Brother Qi.

I want to see him, I want to see him right away.

But the breaking point of everything was when I knew that he and Lu Qiao had returned to his hometown, which was the place where he grew up, a place I had never even been to. At that moment, my scalp almost exploded, a kind of A sense of extreme danger approached me, and I clearly realized that he was real, and that he was really going to be with Lu Qiao this time.

He once told me that when I was free and summer vacation was over, he would take me back to see his grandma and tell her grandma that he had a companion, but I didn't expect that it was not me but Lu Qiao who went back with him in the end.

Almost without thinking, I asked for leave immediately and went to his hometown.

It was a dilapidated small town, almost all the people in it were demolished, and the remaining houses were crumbling. Only a five-story building in the middle was regarded as the central building. The old sense of shabby.

It is very similar to his temperament, like a cage, but also like a truly free place.

I saw the two of them living together, very close, I wanted to rush out, but I knew I couldn't, if Zuo Qi knew that I was here, he would leave immediately, but I saw how they were together , could barely breathe.

I'm madly jealous of Lu Qiao, why has he known Zuo Qi for so long, Zuo Qi can bring him here, when did they meet, and when did they get together, I hate having another person take over After leaving Zuo Qi, I hate Zuo Qi, who should have his heart and eyes full of me, but now he keeps looking at others.

But I have nothing to do, I can't force him to look at me, in fact, I wish I could lock him with an iron chain, so that he can only look at me, forever only at me.

It’s not that I haven’t tried to forget him, but I can’t, I really can’t, I used to think that if we were separated one day, maybe I just couldn’t let go of him for a while, but then I realized that I couldn’t forget him at all How could he like others after owning someone like Zuo Qi?

He is too special, so special that I can no longer use him as Zuo Lin's substitute, and I can't even deceive myself any longer.

After I calmed down, I knew that if I wanted to get Zuo Qi back, I had to separate him from Lu Qiao, so I went to find some things about Lu Qiao. , It is not difficult to find, not to mention, when I was looking for Zuo Qi, I also met another party, Wang Bo.

I didn't continue to intervene between Lu Qiao and Zuo Qi, but I knew that they would not go for long because of Wang Bo, because Wang Bo was sick and had no cure. I don't know why Wang Bo returned to China at this point, but this It's none of my business, he's doing his thing, I just need to take Zuo Qi away.

As I expected, Lu Qiao finally chose Wang Bo between Zuo Qi and Wang Bo.

I saw Zuo Qi drinking heavily, I saw him sick, he was so sick that he couldn't walk steadily, I took him back to the hotel, at that time he was already unconscious and couldn't recognize who I was.

This is the first time I've seen him up close after three months.

But he has become thinner, much thinner. I used to think that his body was very good, and he would be able to bear it even if the sky fell, but now I feel the almost protruding spine on his back, and suddenly I feel a little scared.

It dawned on me that he was a human being, a flesh and blood man who would get hurt, suffer, get sick, and lose weight, not a god.

Everything is going according to my plan, I even took a long vacation at school, I didn't expect my parents to come and make trouble, but it's okay, I can stop them, I can let Zuo Qi step into my trap for the first time, I It can also let him step in for the second time. I calculated well, and every step is very precise. I know that his character is very stubborn, but I also know where he is most soft-hearted.

But I never expected that Wang Bo was not only a knife that I used to attack Lu Qiao and cut the relationship between Lu Qiao and Zuo Qi, but also became a knife that cut between me and Zuo Qi.

Because he said Zuo Lin.

He... said Zuo Lin!

After many years, I heard this name again. My first reaction was to look at Zuo Qi. This was more panic than when I was caught cheating. My whole body was like falling into an ice cellar. I even stopped breathing for a moment. .

I watched Zuo Qi's straight back slightly arched, he stretched out his hand to support the table, and he seemed a little unstable.

At that moment, I really regretted it.

When he pointed at me and said something about Zuo Lin, I looked at him almost in panic, and when he roared out "Zuo Lin is dead", I suddenly felt a void in my heart, but I stared at him, and I felt Guilty, I realized that he should know why we were together in the first place, and I didn't even know how much he knew.

He thought I turned around and ran away because I couldn't accept the news of Zuo Lin's death, but in fact I ran away... because I couldn't face him.

This secret that has been hidden for so many years finally came out in such an unbearable way, leaving me no chance to buffer. I was just planning how to exclude the land bridge, but now the retribution falls on me on the head.

My worst fears came out in a way I least wanted to see, unprepared.

This means that maybe I could rely on memories to pull in the relationship with Zuo Qi and slowly repair it, but now, this memory is full of bloody deception, and for Zuo Qi, this deception is almost impossible. is fatal.

The way he looked at me was no longer unfamiliar, not even cold, but the kind of disgust that I couldn't express, and even ashamed. leave in front of you.

I didn't even have the courage to reach out to stop him, and I couldn't find any reason. I really had no choice but to ask him to forgive me this time.

I broke his heart, I tore up the things he once mistakenly thought to be beautiful in front of him, and I turned his last hope into self-deception, into a ridiculous lie.

This time, I chose the last path and risked my life.

Apart from this, I really can't think of any way, whether it makes him feel guilty or distressed, even if it's just for responsibility, or to pity me, as long as he stays by my side, I will dare to do anything.

I knew that the Shen family would not let him go, so that day, when I saw that car rushing towards me, I stepped on the gas pedal without any hesitation. I didn't know whether I would die or be disabled after the collision. If he survived by luck, he might be able to take a look at me. I really... really have no choice. If I can, I wish I could go back to the person who used Zuo Qi as a substitute a few years ago, and ruthlessly Woke myself up.

Later, I saved my life in this car accident. I knew that I could finally see him, but I only knew from Dr. Xu how deeply he was injured, and I knew how far he had gone.

It's hard for me to imagine that someone who used to be able to fight fiercely in a group of people will end up in this situation.

I thought at the time that I would have a long time to make up for it, that I could slowly nourish his body, that I could atone for his sins little by little, that I wanted to be with him, and that I couldn't accept the days without him.

I thought... it would be a long time, but I didn't expect, tomorrow or accident, you never know which will come first.

All my plots and plans were turned into ashes in the police announcement. None of us, Lu Qiao, and even Shen Jiajia, could help Zuo Qi win this battle.

Because the opponent this time is the god of death, we all lost.

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