no one save me

Soon it was time for Shen Jiajia's high school entrance examination, and the weather was hot. I had someone prepare the test supplies for her, but I never contacted her again. I was worried that she would be alone in Beijing, and there would be no one to take care of her when she went to high school. , now it seems that she is completely fine by herself.

She calls every day but I don't answer anymore.

"Azzie."

When I was playing in Guangzhou last month, I met Yuan He, and we got together after going back and forth.

"Why did you get up early in the morning?" Yuan He came over with the porridge and put it aside: "Don't sleep a little longer? Didn't you say that there is a meeting in the afternoon?"

I yawned, glanced at him, looked him up and down and smiled, "Shouldn't you be the one who wants to sleep more?"

He smiled, came up to kiss me, sniffed lightly and said, "Next time, it's me, okay?"

"Not good." I pushed him away, got up to wash, and casually put on a bathrobe. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw that his walking posture was still a little strange, so I smiled and said, "I will lie on the bed, and I will Go to the pharmacy and buy some ointment."

"Okay, I'm so lucky to have met such a considerate Aqi." Yuan He took off his clothes, and he came to lean on me: "Kiss me, good morning kiss."

I just finished washing here, and I was almost staggered by him, so I had no choice but to turn around and peck him gently on the face twice, which was regarded as a good morning kiss.

"Are you perfunctory?" He laughed lowly, and coquettishly: "Mr. Zuo, my back hurts. You really tortured me to death last night. You are afraid that I will wake up the next day, aren't you?"

"Aren't you up yet? Looks like you didn't have enough fun." I looked at the porridge on the table, and for some reason my stomach was churning, so I poured a glass of warm water and drank it, then leaned against the sofa smokes.

"Who is still watching from the other side? Does he have nothing serious to do all day? Just watch us show our affection every day?" Yuan He laughed.

He was referring to Lu Qiao, Lu Qiao followed me lingeringly, causing the Lu family to call me, it was really annoying.

"Leave him alone." When Yuan He approached, I pushed his head away, turned my head and flicked the cigarette ash, and said with a smile: "Don't touch me, I don't feel well."

His face changed slightly, and he immediately got up to get the medicine, walked over with warm water, and asked, "Is it a stomachache, or is it uncomfortable? Which medicine do you want to take?"

I saw that his footsteps were still a little unsteady, his calves were trembling slightly, so I sighed in a low voice, took the tray from his hand and put it beside me, and then pulled him to sit on my lap.

"Hey!" He staggered for a moment, and then said in surprise, "What are you doing? Don't you take the medicine first?"

"Well, take the medicine, you feed me." I crushed out the cigarette butt, and gently stroked his outline, which is the one I like. His face was a little red, and I smiled and patted his back lightly. Waist, he handed me a few pills with trembling hands. After I swallowed them with water, I got up and picked him up by the waist, and walked to the bed. His body trembled in my arms, holding me tightly. Clothes: "Don't...don't..."

I couldn't help laughing, and after putting him on the bed, he didn't move, and sighed: "Go to sleep."

After pulling down the curtains and window screens, he casually changed his clothes and prepared to go downstairs to the pharmacy to buy medicine.

After buying the medicine, I turned around and saw the shadow behind me, and then I walked around a corner, turned around and said, "You've been with me for so long, don't you get tired of being crooked?"

Lu Qiao was much more haggard than before, and the clothes that used to fit him now looked baggy. He stared at me, his eyes were bloodshot, and he said after a while, "You have changed again."

"Well, is there a problem?" I laughed.

"Can't I?" His lips moved slightly, and then trembled: "Am I not as good as them? Am I not good?"

"It's not as good as it is." I shook the medicine bag in my hand, and then said with a smile: "Instead of wasting time with me, you might as well go back, your parents, your grandparents have all found me."

His hands were still wrapped in bandages, it's not that I didn't see it, but I just didn't want to ask.

"What should I do so that you can forgive me?" He choked with sobs: "Zuo Qi, don't want someone else, okay, I...I really..."

I didn't speak, just leaned against the wall and looked at him.

"I... really love you." He seemed to be suppressing his emotions, and said word by word: "I've been with someone like you, how do you want me to like others?"

The last time I heard this, I was still in Suzhou. If we had opened up the conversation at that time, wouldn’t there be no such troubles later.

"You hate me, you don't want me, what should I do? I can only follow you, I can't do anything." He took a deep breath, his eyes were bloodshot, it could be seen that he hadn't had a good rest for a long time: "I My mind is full of you, I can't accept not seeing you for a day, I am too uncomfortable."

"Yeah." I patted his shoulder, and then said: "After a long time, you will forget."

"I can't forget!" He roared, "I can't forget you! What to do...what do you want me to do..."

How the hell do I know what you're going to do?Speaking of your love, I wish you were the first to pick things up. Now you tell me here that you don't know what to do. Why didn't you think about it then?

I wanted to laugh, but couldn't.

After bypassing him and going back to the residence, the lights in the room were still off, and the curtains were all drawn down. Yuan He was lying on the bed and taking a nap. It must be because he really tossed hard last night. He slept deeply, and I didn't want to disturb him. He took a pack of cigarettes and went to the balcony and stayed alone.

The phone vibrated aside, I looked at the caller ID, it was from Xiao Zhu, and then I answered the call.

Xiao Zhu told me after reporting on her work there, she said: "Boss, Mr. Jiang must see you. He has been squatting in the company for a week."

Jiang Yihang was discharged from the hospital, but he hasn't fully recovered yet, he still has to sit in a wheelchair, otherwise I have to deal with not only Lu Qiao, but also Jiang Yihang.

In fact, when Lu Qiao’s elders called, it was difficult for me. I remember that his grandparents were very good people. I didn’t want to make them sad, but there was no possibility between me and Lu Qiao. Anything related to Jiang Yihang and the others will make me very sad.

Just think of me as a tortoise, I can only choose to avoid things that I can't face.

It was already evening when Yuan He woke up, he applied the medicine, and lay back on the bed again, I checked to see if he had a fever, and after making sure he didn't have a low-grade fever, I felt relieved.

"Aqi." He lay on the bed and looked at me: "How long can we talk?"

"Anytime," I said.

"I suddenly feel a little regretful." He smiled.

"Regret with me?" I asked.

"No," he sighed deeply: "I regret that I promised you that you can stop at any time, and you can break up at any time. You only care about your kidneys but not your heart... Where did you get so much reason? If you said that you don't want me later, I will what to do?"

I didn't respond, just lowered my eyes.

"How about a little longer? Longer, I don't want to leave you so soon." He laughed, and the look in my eyes made me subconsciously want to escape: "Ah Qi, who would be willing to Break up? Those who were with you before are reluctant."

"I don't know." I responded.

"Actually, I know, the one on the opposite side is always following you. He likes you very much. Is it your first love? I know who he is, and I can find it by searching online." He raised his hand to rub the back of my hand, and gently tugged , and then said; "I love you."

I pursed my lips slightly, and said before going out: "He is not my first love."

I didn’t do anything with Hara Tsuru at night, I just sat on the balcony and smoked a cigarette, the suite behind me was brightly lit, the tall buildings in the distance were all lit up, countless office workers were working overtime, and my company was like this , but recently I did not go.

Dr. Xu called me to ask if I had a nosebleed recently. I really haven’t had a nosebleed recently, and my body is gradually recovering. It’s just an indescribable feeling, as if I’m alive, but my living body is not my own body. , or I am alive, but I am not me, I think I am living in the body of another person with the same name as me.

Very weird feeling.

When I told the psychiatrist about this feeling, she was silent on the phone for 2 minutes before saying, "You need to come back for another mental test."

In the morning, I woke up on the sofa on the balcony, covered with a quilt, and there was a letter next to it. When I opened the letter, I saw Yuan He’s words. He left, but he didn’t tell me where he went , and didn't tell me if he would come back.

He said that when I saw the letter, he should be on the plane, because he bought a morning flight and went wherever he wanted without a specific goal.

It was also at this time that we also broke up. He said that he knew very well that it might be time for his experience voucher, so he chose to leave.

I put the letter aside, the ashtray was full of my cigarette butts, and even my hair smelled of smoke.

——Boss, someone sent a document to the company, saying that it will be handed over to you.

I glanced at the message from Xiao Zhu, then leaned on the sofa with half-closed eyes, my body sank slightly, fell asleep with sleeping pills, and woke up with alcohol and tobacco. I don't know how long this kind of life will last.

After a while, I subconsciously raised my hand to touch my mouth, and sure enough, I felt blood on my hand. I have to say, just now I told Dr. Xu that I was not having a nosebleed.

When I went to the company the next day, I saw the document and the date of delivery. It was sent three days ago by ordinary express, so it took two days in the city before it arrived in my hands.

It was sent by Yuan He, and the mailing address was the hotel where I stayed with him before. There was nothing in it, only the bank card, car key, house key, and a delicate safety amulet I gave him.

I lowered my head, held this thing, said I was happy, but I was not happy, and I said sad, but it was not sad. I had mixed feelings, and I could no longer taste what it was like.

"Mr. Jiang said he wanted to see you, boss..." Xiao Zhu looked at him and asked in a low voice.

"No." I replied in a low voice, "I don't want to see anyone, so let's postpone the afternoon arrangement."

"...Okay, boss." Xiao Zhu said.

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Hahahahahaha the end is coming soon

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