no one save me

Five evils (4)

It takes an hour to drive from the company to my residence, and it will be infinitely extended in traffic jams. I originally planned to drive back by myself, but because of too many nosebleeds, I was even a little unsteady, so I had to ask someone to make a temporary arrangement The driver comes over.

The driver helped me into the car. When there was a traffic jam on the road, he probably saw that my expression was not right, so he asked me worriedly: "Mr. Zuo, do you want to go to the hospital first?"

These words are inexplicably familiar. These days, many people always say these words to me. I realize that my body is really not as good as before, but I am only in my 20s, and I have just entered the best age .

"Assistant Zhu called and said that you are prone to get sick every year during the spring and summer exchange season. Let me tell you that if you go out at night, you must wear a coat, otherwise you will easily develop a fever if you catch a cold." The driver looked at the back Looking at me in the mirror, I thought for a while and continued: "Assistant Zhu said she will be back in two days."

"Let her take a good vacation." I had a headache, leaning against the car window, and said weakly: "Don't worry about it."

"She has already booked the ticket." The driver said to me while driving closely, "Assistant Zhu is very worried about you."

Although Xiao Zhu graduated from the same university as Jiang Yihang, she never favored Jiang Yihang. I know that she wanted to tell me many times that Jiang Yihang was not as good as I saw on the surface.

I thought at the time that the Jiang Yihang in the past was not like this. The Jiang Yihang in the past was really kind to me. Maybe before that, we fought and were hostile to each other, but after we got together, he has done what he can Well, even arguing with my parents for me, no one can do this for me except grandma.

But now I understand that those favors are all fake, or in other words, I was just lucky, I got Zuo Lin's luck and got his favors.

The sky outside has already darkened, and it looks like a storm is about to happen. I can faintly see lightning in the clouds, and the taillights of the car are on. He opened the window and took a deep breath of fresh car exhaust.

This city is really prosperous, so prosperous that it has nothing to do with death.

"Mr. Zuo, there seems to be a car accident ahead. I don't know how long the traffic jam will be. Should we change lanes?" the driver asked.

"Well, it's fine." I'm not in a hurry to go back, I can be anywhere.

The driver turned on the turn signal on the left and was about to turn and change lanes. Unexpectedly, a motorcycle rushed over from behind. The driver stepped on the brakes immediately, and then narrowly escaped. My body slightly bumped to the side, but it was not much It hurts, and then I heard the driver say angrily: "Why did you drive the motorcycle on this road? Are you not afraid of accidents?"

I looked in the direction he pointed, and the motorcycle ran through the red light again and sped off into the distance.

"Mr. Zuo, are you okay, did you hit something?" the driver asked me nervously.

I shook my head. Although I was not in good health, I was not so fragile. After waving my hands casually, I leaned on the back seat for a short rest. At this moment, the lane on the left was also blocked, and the sky thundered. , After a bang, I woke up, and the heavy rain fell and hit the window glass, which sounded like someone was hitting the window with stones.

"The summer rain stopped soon, and it came and went quickly." The driver adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner in the car, and he said: "The ambulance just passed by, and it will probably be unblocked soon."

"Yeah." I closed my eyes, and out of the corner of my eye, I glanced at the front not far away. Two ambulances were flashing blue and red lights, which looked a little dazzling.

When the traffic was passing through this intersection, I saw a white car collided with a battery car. There was no major problem with the car, but the battery car was almost torn apart.

I saw shoes on the ground, a shattered helmet, and blood.

After I looked away, the rain continued to hit the glass. The summer rain was too heavy and the visibility was very low. Everyone was driving at a slow speed. The driver asked me if I wanted to listen to music. After getting a certain answer from me, he drove. a song.

I don't know the name of this song, but it does have a hypnotic effect, at least it made me fall asleep directly at home.

After the driver woke me up, the rain had stopped, but the ground was still wet. I went home, and the stupid dog jumped at me when I opened the door, and almost made me fall down the stairs. railing.

When I came back from the outside, even if I didn’t take a shower, I always felt a little cold on my body. It would be better after taking a hot bath. The stupid dog changed his usual livelyness, and at this moment he tilted his head, and then walked to me for a rub , I thought it was hungry, so I gave it dog food and snacks, but it refused to eat. I sat on the floor of the living room, smoking a cigarette and watching TV, and it curled up next to me, whimpering softly.

"Interlude a piece of news. A traffic accident occurred on Yanjiang East Road in this city. A white car with a Wing A license plate collided with an electric car. The collision caused two deaths and two injuries. The electric car was a father and son. After being rescued by the hospital, the father was under observation, and his son died on the spot. A couple was in the car, and both husband and wife were sent to the hospital. The wife was a pregnant woman who was about to give birth.

I looked at the news screen and paused slightly with the hand holding the remote control. I felt that the sound was unreal, but I couldn’t explain it clearly. After wiping my face, I was about to get up to pour a glass of water, but I didn’t want my feet to go limp and fall on the ground. on the ground.

This movement startled the stupid dog. It stood up and tilted its head to look at me, then tentatively pushed me.

The TV screen was mosaiced, and I subconsciously remembered the scene I saw when I passed by, as if the screen reappeared in front of my eyes, and the bloody smell wafting in from the open car window seemed to be right in front of me, and my stomach began to churn again , one after another, even the internal organs are tossing.

I stood up abruptly and rushed to the bathroom, then leaned on the sink and vomited with a "wow". The food residue was connected with the acid water in my stomach. In the end, there was nothing left. I gasped violently, trying to think Calm yourself down.

"...his son died on the spot...the pregnant woman bled profusely and died after rescue efforts failed..."

"...death...death..."

"Sorry, we tried our best."

"...Death notice, please sign it..."

"Hello……"

"Wow" I leaned on the sink and retched again. There was nothing left in my stomach, only tears and snot mixed together, my whole body was trembling slightly, and I couldn't control my tears.

"My name is Jiang Yihang... I mean..." The Jiang Yihang in my memory seemed to be standing in front of me, he looked at me as before, with a smile on his face, he Said: "Let's give it a try? Try dating... I think I should like you."

I stared blankly at "him", and I twisted in the mirror, turning into "him", I watched his face change from a smile to indifference, and finally mocked, he looked at me frowning , One word at a time: "Take back your words, he is your younger brother, he is your younger brother!"

My unsmooth breathing became more and more uncomfortable, as if what I was breathing was not air, but sulfuric acid, which would burn my trachea to rot and stink until I would gradually lose consciousness.

Maybe in the end I am no longer me, but a handful of ashes buried in the ground in my dream.

I stood up almost staggeringly, I saw Jiang Yihang in the mirror looking at me, I saw his face gradually changed into that of Lu Qiao, and then into that of my parents, they watched Me, some people call me "Wang Bo", some people call me "Zuo Lin"...but no one really calls me by my name.

what--

It was the first time I heard myself roaring like this, my fist smashed into the mirror on the wall almost irrationally, accompanied by the sound of shattering, the glass scratched my hands without pain, it was more like doing a painless A senseless dream.

I saw the blood gushing out from the back of my hand, my arm, and my palm, scrambling to get out of my body. After a while, the sink was full of glass shards and blood, and the whole room was filled with the smell of blood that made me sick.

I was crying, I don't know why I cried, it seems that I haven't cried since my grandma passed away, the tears of these years have been contributed to these few days, I can't control it, I can only use blood Hands to wipe face.

The sticky and warm touch made me a little overwhelmed. I wiped my face hastily, not knowing whether it was tears or blood.

Later, when I looked at myself in the mirror, at the brow bone, there was a deep wound that was cut by debris and blood was gushing out, and I realized, oh, I didn’t shed tears, it was just a cut, and there were tears in my eyes. It was the blood that poured in.

I looked down at the countless shards of glass, and they reflected my hideous appearance, like a failed and pitiful monster.

I reached out to hold the fragment, the blood stained on the fragment was mine, I knew this clearly, but I couldn't help but hug this fragment in the palm of my hand slowly, slowly, eagerly and resistingly into my own mouth.

"Ding dong! Ding dong!" The doorbell rang outside, pulling my mind back suddenly. I suddenly turned around and heard a voice from outside: "Is anyone home? I left your takeaway at the door, please Sign for it."

The footsteps of the delivery boy gradually faded away. I looked at the pile of debris in my palm, took a deep breath, and clenched it tightly, as if I got another kind of pleasure from it.

Blood gushed out from between my fingers, and dripped onto the ground along the soaked clothes. The veins on the back of my hands were bulging, and the pieces almost pierced into the flesh, deep into the texture. damage.

But I also suddenly realized that maybe I had to go to the hospital again, but this time I was not going to see Dr. Xu, but a psychiatrist.

I thought that what Jiang Yihang and the others brought me was only white hair, which was just embarrassing, but now I suddenly realized that this is not the case.

Some things you think you have come out of, and you think they won’t hurt you anymore, but it’s not, it’s just that your own feelings are numb and you don’t feel the pain, but the pain has always been there, and it’s even getting worse. But you have lost the ability to discern it.

I need someone to rescue me.

I need someone to come and save me, anyone will do, as long as they can save me.

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又是想要看评论的一天，每天都会刷八百遍评论，求评论了！【乖巧蹲】感谢在2022-03-2221:01:37~2022-03-2300:09:08期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 20 bottles of Senyu; 3 bottles of Missing People; 1 bottle of Gu Jiuxi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!