Yu Xin like congratulations

In the countryside in winter, there is cold air and bright sunshine, and all the small dirt roads extending in all directions are very clean by the north wind.Occasionally, one or two wild rabbits can be seen looking for food in the field, and they are not afraid to watch you walk past from a distance, nor do they run away.I rode my bicycle alone, went to my aunt's house, went to my uncle's house, my aunt's house, and told all my relatives and friends that I was getting married.Except my aunt, aunt, and uncle had lunch at noon.The rest of the relatives and friends told me, sat down for a while, drank a cup of hot water or tea, and then excused that there were a lot of things to do at home, and when they got away, they knew that they didn't want to stay.But arranging a marriage is actually a very busy thing, and parents are very happy about it.

Before this, I had a talk with my mother once.At that time my father came back and told me the date of the wedding that had been set.Ask me if I am satisfied.At that time, I was eating with my head down, speechless.The next morning, I received a text message from Ya'er, saying this.I didn't reply.Mother came in and woke me up.Open the curtains and it's gloomy outside.I asked her if it was going to snow.She said it made sense.Mom said to get up and eat quickly, and finish the busy things that should be done.Said to go out.I called my mother.She looked back at me and asked me what was going on.I said you sit down for a while, I have something to tell you.Mom sat next to me.Ask me what's wrong.I almost plucked up my courage, and desperately asked her if it was okay for me not to get married.The voice was very low, but I'm sure she could hear it.Mother paused for a moment and asked me what you said.I repeated it again.Her eyes just looked into mine, and I didn't know what my mother was looking for in my eyes.Maybe she still didn't find the answer she was looking for after all.Simply ask me.

is why.

I do not want to get married.

Is it because I feel that I am still young and I still haven't played enough.

I said neither.

My mother tucked me in and said I don't know what you think.In fact, we don't have a problem with how you want to live your life.Your father and I will only have two sons, you and Chenchen, for the rest of our lives.Your dad wants to hug his grandson very much.Even if you don’t get married, living alone is not a thing. Even if you can bear the loneliness, have you ever thought that one day you will be old and unable to move, who will take care of you, and your father and I will be gone by then, When you are old, who will take care of you.Since I was a child, everyone in the world has come here.Unless you have a way to solve those concerns that mom just had.Otherwise, Mom would not agree.Moreover, you have picked my heart and liver, so that your father and I will not be able to close our eyes until we die.Furthermore, you think that if you don't get married, it will be unprecedented.Your father will never agree.

I don't know how to tell my mother about my affairs.Mom asked me if you don't like Ya'er.I said no, I just don't want to get married.That tells me why.Are you a body?I said no.

There has to be a reason for that.You see, Mom has made you a new quilt for your wedding and the anticlimactic pillow you want.You should also do what you promised your mother, right?If you have anything else, just tell me directly, since you came back to your ten-day long trip, I think you have something on your mind.There is no great truth in my mother's words, but they are the most sincere words in her heart, with an indescribable strength and tenderness. I think I have let them worry about me for many years, and I am the eldest son. I understand, and I am well aware of their situation and aspirations.

I shook my head and said no.Mom asked me if I really didn't?I nodded and said no.To tell the truth, I fell into the entanglement of that irresolvable contradiction again.I feel that love always has to make sacrifices, and life always has to be sacrificed.Do what I have to do, do what I can.The future is really unpredictable.I am a simple person.

If Mom said no, then get up early, go to take wedding photos with Ya'er first, and then go to inform relatives and friends.I nodded.After Mom got up and went out, I called Chenchen and told him about my marriage in a very calm voice.He let out a oh, and said that I got it, and would go back early then.do not worry.I lit a cigarette, and felt that I had nothing to worry about now.

It took two days to take pictures with Ya'er. We went to the provincial capital and spent a whole day.It was already night when I came back, and she cooked for me at their house.That steaming feeling is so good.And for the first time, I think the food cooked by girls is extraordinarily delicious.I was so full and she seemed happy.I said that I will go to inform relatives and friends starting tomorrow.She asked me if I had written the invitation.I said that relatives and friends who are all bulky don’t need those.She nodded, I looked at the time, told her it was getting late, I went back and had an early rest.She got up and unzipped the down jacket for me.I just remembered that when I was taking wedding photos in the provincial capital today, she arranged my clothes several times, and I also remembered the same situation in Shiyang, Beidi.I subconsciously felt that I shouldn't think about Shiyang anymore.If I want to get married and become the husband of this woman in front of me, I should treat her sincerely and unanimously, at least live a good life.I put as much thought into her as I can.But Shiyang, how do I arrange it, how do I arrange it.Do I treat him like a younger brother, or treat him as something, and my entanglement and love for Shiyang and Wu Xin, how to get over it as soon as possible.Ya'er asked me what you were thinking.I smiled and said it's okay, go back quickly, don't catch a cold.She said you too.

I went to the peach blossom grove, it was very quiet, the lights of the occasional vehicles passing by on the distant road looked like a beetle with a lantern and could not find its way, scrambling around in a hurry at night.At this time, I feel like I am facing a big enemy. It is an unprecedented thing, and I have no clue about many things.To be honest, I’m not worried about these things, I’m only worried about the warm but strange day I’m about to walk into, the situation without air and vitality.After thinking a lot in a mess, I felt like someone was coming from a distance, so I rode back and felt a little cold, and it was time to go back.I thought it was a bit funny, I needed to come here urgently at that time, but after I came here, I found that the days were cold and the nights were long, disturbed, bored, and lonely.If I had known that I would have to go back when I came here, what would I have come here in the first place.But clearly remember, I really want to come here, any time.Behind me, someone was holding a flashlight from a distance and shining towards me at the place where I stayed just now.The phone rang, and it was my mother who asked me where I was, and I said I was on my way back.Mother said come back soon, she called Ya'er just now and said that you have been out for a long time.I hummed.Ya'er's phone call came.I said I'm fine and I'm going back soon.She guessed where I was.Ask me if you are afraid of such a dark person.I said not afraid.Maybe she wanted to ask me why I was there.The night is so cold, when I saw the door of the house, I suddenly felt like this.

...I'm looking for a place for you in my heart...

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