Pandora's Box

I walked out of the store as if fleeing, and walked quickly to the road, only to feel more at ease in my heart.

The streets are still lively late at night. Even at this time, the center of the city is brightly lit, even as bright as day, as if it never enters the night.

But the light didn't have any heat, the air under the bright light was extremely cold, making people shiver unavoidably, even the bone marrow felt chilly.

I walked briskly for a long time, but I couldn't get warm at all.

What this man said, and what LEE said, were not many and very cryptic.

However, the combination of those words and the clues I vaguely remembered created a vague outline in my mind.

Is it Lu Feng?

The only one who can make them keep such a secret is Lu Feng.

I remember the interest that Lu Feng showed in me in the early years.It's just that when I think about it, I don't take it seriously. After all, Lufeng's harem is full of talents, and I'm not a rare beauty, so I may not be worthy of his attention.

But that doesn't mean I was safe back then.

What if Lu Feng really did to me?

I think of Lu Feng's brutality, viciousness, coldness, and almost perverted distortion at that time.

If I have been tortured by him, it is normal for the subconscious to close itself and discard that memory.

My back was wet and cold, like a snake crawling across.

I think of the slaps Lu Feng received at night when I first came to Cheng Yichen's house; I think of Cheng Yichen's abnormality during that time; I think of the knife wound on Lu Feng's neck; I found out, I made Cheng Yichen anxious"; I remembered him saying to me: "It's better if you don't know, when you know, you will regret knowing."

It could only be Lu Feng.

I sat down on a bench by the side of the road.

After the tide of hatred and loathing surged up like a mad tide, the fear of the night swept over me again.

I don't know exactly what Lu Feng did to me, and I'm glad I don't remember what he did to me.But I understand that it must have caused me a lot of pain.

Just imagining possible processes and scenarios made my stomach feel like being tightened, and a dense layer of goose bumps appeared on my body.

And how can the imagined and the actual experience be compared?Can one accurately imagine what it would be like to be torn apart and devoured by a lion?

I felt sorry for my weaker self back then, and I also hated the brutal and crazy Lu Feng back then.

But I couldn't reciprocate the hatred that I gnashed my teeth.

What can I do to Lu Feng?

I can't even think of how I could get back at him.

Even though he's acting quiet and safe now, like a fully tamed domestic beast, I can't forget how terrifying his nature is.

As long as he wants, he can easily crush me to death with just two fingers.

When the time comes, who will stand by my side and help me seek justice from him?

He is Ke Luo's father, Cheng Yichen's lover, and LEE's immediate boss.

In fact, I am an outsider in this family.

I sat in this knife-like night wind until I lost consciousness on my cheeks.

When I got home, I didn't know what time it was.I groped and opened the door with my frozen hands, but the living room was not completely dark, but the night light was still on.

I am a little surprised.

Then the door of the opposite bedroom opened slightly, and Cheng Yichen came out wearing a thick nightgown.

He closed the door again with his backhand, and whispered, "Are you back?"

"Um……"

Is he waiting for me to come home?

Cheng Yichen buttoned up his nightgown out of fear of the cold, and said, "You're hungry, do you want me to cook something for you before going to sleep?"

"Did I wake you up?" I asked.

Cheng Yichen said: "No, it's because I'm a light sleeper. Thinking about forgetting to let you bring a thicker coat to go out, I can't sleep well. The temperature has dropped tonight, and it's freezing outside."

He said, stretched out his hand to shake my hand, and then said in surprise: "Why is it so cold?"

"This doesn't work, you'll get sick," he immediately urged, "Hurry up and take a hot bath and drink something hot."

I shook my head.

He said helplessly: "You don't have to take a bath, then you put on this robe quickly, and I'll make ginger soup for you."

Cheng Yichen went to work in the kitchen without saying anything.I sat in a daze for a while.

That's all for Lu Feng, but I can't ignore Cheng Yichen's feelings.

Facing this matter again, attacking Lu Feng for me again, it must have made him very painful.It was like asking him to beat an old dog he had tamed with his own hands.

What's more, he already tried to kill Lu Feng for me.What more could I ask for?

Although Lu Feng was hateful, he was not guilty of death.Cheng Yichen treats me as if he is his own, and he is doing his best. I shouldn't push him to the point where he has no way out.

And Cheng Yichen's torment will also be magnified and projected on Zhuo Wenyang.

I know very well that as long as I open my mouth to bring up the past, the peace and tranquility of this family will never come back again.

And the way he and Lu Feng get along with each other every day makes me feel that if I destroy their hard-won ordinary life in their later years, then I will be the cruel sinner.

is it?

Cheng Yichen brought out a bowl of brown sugar ginger water, put it in front of me, and urged me: "Drink it quickly, don't catch a cold."

I didn't reach out to take the bowl, I just leaned over weakly and pressed my face against his stomach.

He froze for a moment, then quickly reached out and touched my head, I could feel his uneasiness.

Probably because he noticed my tears soaking his pajamas, I heard his voice tense.

"What's wrong?" he said, "What wronged you?"

I shook my head, and after a while, I whispered, "I just heard about a friend's past incident tonight, and I feel sorry for him. But there is nothing I can do."

Cheng Yichen held my head and asked me to bury my face on his belly just like that.

I heard him sigh softly: "Xiao Jing, you are a kind child."

I slept very restlessly that night, struggling repeatedly in the nightmare of being forcibly tortured, and pulling back and forth between letting go and unwillingness.

After sleeping until midnight, I began to feel extremely cold. Even though I tried my best to tuck the quilt into the crevice of my neck, I was still shivering.

I don't know how long I slept intermittently, and I seemed to hear someone calling my name in a daze.

I managed to open my eyes, and in my blurred vision, it seemed to be the outline of Zhuo Wenyang.

A hand was placed on my forehead and I felt the cool touch.Makes me feel comfortable and longing.

He said, "You have a fever."

In a daze, I put my face in his palm and dawdled: "Why are you here?"

"My dad went out to see the bookseller. He was worried about you and asked me to come and have a look." He bent down, as if watching me carefully, "Can you wake up? I'll take you to see a doctor."

I said, "Zhuo Wenyang, I'm so cold."

"Then, should I send the doctor over?"

I shook my head and just said, "Zhuo Wenyang, I'm so cold."

He wrapped me tightly with a quilt, and asked softly, "How about taking an antipyretic first?"

I muttered: "I'm so cold, Zhuo Wenyang."

After a while, I felt him get under the covers and hug me.

I can almost feel the heat of his chest through the shirt.That temperature is obviously lower than my body temperature, but it can make me feel warmer.

It made me feel safe, relaxed, and vulnerable with that relaxation.

I suddenly choked up: "Am I bad, Zhuo Wenyang?"

"How?" he said immediately, "Why do you ask that?"

"Then I used to suck?"

He suddenly hugged me tightly and whispered, "Of course not."

He's such a nice guy, I thought to myself.

He is such a down-to-earth person, yet he still lies to give me such tenderness.

Although maybe, what he can give me is only this, but I still feel very happy.

It's nice to have such happiness.

I try to unravel myself.Maybe I still have to blame myself for being too slutty back then to encounter that kind of thing.If I study and go to school in a regular manner, like Zhuo Wenyang, and never go to those places at all, I won't be targeted by Lu Feng, and all the misfortunes will never happen.

However, does a person deserve that kind of torture just because he is frivolous and frivolous?

I do not know.

I only know that as long as I can reconcile with myself and let go of this, everything will pass, and everyone's current little happiness will not be destroyed.

I closed my eyes in his arms and whispered, "That's good."

The day was very peaceful, I behaved as if nothing had happened, except that I would instinctively avoid Lu Feng.

And that's not surprising, no one noticed anything unusual, because Lu Feng and I were not close in the first place.

To be precise, except for Cheng Yichen and Ke Luo, no one would take the initiative to get close to him.He didn't care about it, he just quietly lived his and Cheng Yichen's life under this roof, as if all other things in this world had nothing to do with him.

Today it was LEE's turn to ask me out.

LEE is more generous than me, and the place he invites is the high-end seafood city.

At noon, there are steamed king crab, Dongxing Ban, Tai Olong, fresh abalone, and tiger prawns. There is a table full of them, as if they want to fill me up and send me on my way.

I said, "Why is it so rich? Is this the last meal for me?"

"That can't be, the last meal will definitely be more expensive for you," LEE said, "I just want to remind you, have you thought about the things you forgot before? Is there anything you need to ask me?"

I could feel the slight tension in his pretendingly calm tone.

I said in a relaxed tone, "No need, I've figured it out, and I don't worry about the past anymore."

"is it?"

"As you said, the present life is real, isn't it?" I chewed on the king crab leg meat, "Isn't this life very good now, what do you think about the past?"

LEE looked at me carefully.I know he can tell if I'm lying.

After a while, he seemed to breathe a sigh of relief: "That's good."

That's good.

That's all.

I looked outside, the sky outside the window was very blue, high and far away.

I suddenly feel sad, but relieved.

I think I've come through this very well and maturely.

The only sadness left is that I can only quietly digest all this by myself.

I can't open my mouth to tell anyone.

It made me feel lonely like never before.