Pandora's Box

On this day, I finally remembered the game live broadcast that had been put on hold for many days.Realizing that because of that incident, my motivation for daily life has been seriously affected, I quickly got up to clean up my mood and resume my old business.

As soon as the live broadcast started, what followed naturally was a bunch of "Fuck, scam corpse!" "Grandma, the live broadcast host you chased has finally started broadcasting!" "The missing person is back!" Alright?" the bullet screen complained.Then, caught off guard, popped out with a bunch of rewards.

Me: "...Thank you Mr. X for sending fifty planes!!"

Too rich, old man.

Relying on his generous rewards before, I have gradually lived a life without pocket money, and I can generously buy some cakes and chocolates from time to time to go home to honor Cheng Yichen.

This resumption of work, I will serve you directly and generously. Mr. X is simply my food and clothing.

I looked at the row of rewarding gifts, and thought movedly, this is not an exaggeration to call me daddy, right?

In order to repay the gifts of the veterans, I played the game diligently all night, ate nine chickens, and did not download the broadcast until late at night.

When I was eating the barbecue supper that I secretly ordered, I received a private chat message from Mr. X.

He asked: "You haven't started the broadcast for a while, are you busy?"

I suddenly realized that Mr. X didn't seem to dare to talk to me on days when I wasn't live broadcasting.

On weekdays, if I want to chat, he is almost there on call, but if I don't take the initiative to find him, he just waits quietly, as if afraid of disturbing me.

Mr. X is such a considerate and sensible hardcore fan, but I completely forgot about him because of the distraction these days.

I couldn't help but feel guilty, so I explained: "Something happened a while ago, which made me a little upset, so I didn't want to live broadcast."

After a while, he replied: "Is there anything I can do to help?"

"..."

I am used to all kinds of speeches from elementary school students who say "Daddy, I like you so much, can you do me a favor?" "I'm your old fan, can you lend me some money, I hope you don't know how to compliment you", X Such mature humanistic care from Jun is simply a clear stream.

"If you need my help, you can just say it. Or if you just want to find someone to talk to, I can do it too, although I may not be very good at explaining it."

I deliberated for a while, and tried to speak: "I just found out that a friend was raped before."

"What?!" Mr. X was obviously taken aback, "Did you call the police?"

"No, I can't call the police."

"why?"

"It's been a while, and the evidence is long gone. The situation is more complicated. In short, she can't do anything."

Mr. X immediately asked: "Is there no way to get justice? Can't the other party pay the price?"

"There should be no way," I said, "Actually, she doesn't want any justice. She just wants to get rid of this psychological shadow, after all, this matter makes her very sad."

I said again: "You don't have to worry about her. She has almost digested it for a while, and I think she will recover soon. The only thing she is struggling with is that the person who hurt her will still appear in her life." inside."

"What?" Mr. X was shocked again, "Is he still threatening her?"

"No, that person has changed his ways. He won't do any harm to her now. We can be sure of that. It's just that she doesn't know how to get rid of this person. "

"Do you have to let go of the past? What is there to let go of the past with that kind of person?"

Feeling the righteous indignation of Mr. X penetrating the screen, I felt a little relieved and amused.

"It's necessary. If you don't let go, you can't move forward."

Mr. X was silent for a while, and said, "This reminds me of a friend of mine who was also seriously hurt by someone he knew before."

I asked cautiously, "Is it physical or psychological?"

"Both physical and psychological," Mr. X said, "he was almost permanently disabled. He was originally a very proud, confident, and a little arrogant person. He was young and full of vigor, thinking that he had a bright future. The sudden paralysis made him He suffered a huge blow, and he was severely depressed at that time, and thought of death from time to time."

"Oh my God..." That was much worse than mine.

"Fortunately, his lover has been with him very firmly. Before he can cure his physical disability, at least he can heal his mind first, so that he will not completely collapse."

"and after?"

"Later, in the process of seeking medical treatment in many ways, his health also improved, and he finally lived a normal life again. But just like your friend, the person who hurt him also reappeared in his life many years later. .”

"Wow!" Enemy meet, extremely jealous!

I asked excitedly: "Did he take revenge on that person?!"

"No," Mr. X said, "he can't take revenge, and he doesn't want to take revenge, too many years have passed, many things have become less persistent, and even the feeling of hatred has been diluted by time. He can even do it now , to live in peace with the one who hurt him."

"That's all right?" I was shocked. "How did he manage to forgive that person?"

"It's not a forgiveness, it should be a kind of reconciliation," he said. "After all, if he is too obsessed with the past, he will not be able to live well in the present and in the future."

"Hmm..." I thought the same thing myself.

"Also, in many cases, the power of love will eventually outweigh hate."

I was shocked again: "?? You mean he fell in love with the person who hurt him?" Stockholm?

"Of course not!" Mr. X immediately exuded strong disgust and rejection between the lines, "How is it possible!"

He said: "It's just that people will give up what they hate for what they love."

Mr. X seemed to say something very philosophical.

I meditated while eating barbecue.

After eating the grilled eggplant, I started to eat fried instant noodles with sausage.

Knowing that there are people in this world who have experienced more pain than me and made similar choices as me, it makes me feel that the joys and sorrows of human beings are actually common, and I am not so alone.

This gave me a lot of comfort, and even the cold instant noodles seemed to be delicious.

After being quiet for a while, Mr. X suddenly said: "My friend actually encountered another thing."

"what's up?"

"I said, don't laugh at him."

"how could be?"

Mr. X said: "He was raped by a woman while he was paralyzed."

The chow mein almost spewed out of my nostrils.

"Sounds hard to accept, right? He felt the same way. So this incident made him very broken, and he was ashamed to think about it, let alone mention it."

I said cautiously: "He should have already digested it, right? After all, he has survived even more painful things."

"Yes, he has let go of it now. But for a long time back then, he couldn't face it. Because for him, it was not an ordinary violation, but when he was already desperate and powerless, he fell into the The last straw on his back, allowing him to witness the extent of his own incompetence. It may not be so bad for others, but for him it was the darkest shadow of those days."

I imagined it and found it understandable.

"But this matter is more complicated because the woman later became pregnant and gave birth to a child."

"..." I suddenly felt that the development of this situation was incomprehensible, "Is it... his child?"

"Yes."

This is too twists and turns!

Dog blood novels dare not write like this!

"Then, what happened later? Will the family of three live a happy life from now on?"

"Of course not," Mr. X said, "the child's mother quickly left the child and left, probably to her, it was the product of her impulsive madness, it was an unbearable memory, and she didn't want to face it. "

"Ah?" I was stunned, "Then, what about the child? What about the child?"

What is the product of impulse?For her, it was just a momentary impulse, but for a child, it was a life she could not choose!

Are these adults so irresponsible?

"The child was raised by another person. This matter has been kept from my friend. He didn't know he had such a child until many years later."

"So, did they recognize each other?"

"No," Mr. X said, "at first, my friend couldn't accept it, but after he finally opened his heart, he realized that he didn't deserve to accept it. The child is doing well now, healthy and lovely, smart and outstanding. My friend thinks , he himself has not fulfilled any father's responsibilities for so many years, and now he hastily disturbed the other party, it should be unwelcome."

"That's for sure."

Who wants to have a cheap dad?

I said: "Although I don't understand the situation, it is common sense that the life of that child has not been very good these years. He has not received the love of his parents since he was a child, and he has struggled to grow into a healthy person physically and mentally. , Suddenly someone jumped out and declared 'I am your father', this is too redundant, it is better not to."

Mr. X was silent for a long time before he said, "I think so."

After eating the fried instant noodles in three mouthfuls, I suddenly remembered, and reminded Mr. X: "What I told you just now, about my friend, don't tell anyone else."

"Ok, I know."

"I'm only talking to you about this."

"Really?" Mr. X seemed to be a little happy, and said after a while, "I only told you about my friend."

"Hahaha, don't worry, I will definitely not say it outside, I am very strict with my mouth."

"Uh-huh."

My feeling for Mr. X seems to have become closer again.Exchanging secrets is indeed a shortcut for people to get closer.

Cheng Yichen's voice came from outside the door: "Xiao Jing, haven't you slept yet? It's almost three o'clock. Don't forget that there is morning class tomorrow."

It's over, staying up all night was caught on the spot.

I hurriedly said good night to Mr. X, turned off the computer, turned off the lights, and put my tail between my legs to enter a state of suspended animation.