Pandora's Box

I looked at LEE, and LEE looked at me.

He and I know each other so well that we can read each other's emotions.

I asked: "Is that part of my past not good?"

At the same time, LEE also said: "If it is a bad memory, do you want to get it back?"

We both spoke together, and then fell silent together.

My heart became very heavy, sinking quietly.

This is something I hadn't expected.

I thought my life was absurd enough, "not good" is the norm, and under such a normal state, what is the extent of "not good" that LEE doesn't want me to know?

So what did I do in those years?

I pretended to be relaxed and said, "What heinous and absurd thing did I do? Is it so unbearable?"

LEE was silent for a while, and said, "Actually, you didn't do anything ridiculous. You just encountered some bad luck."

"is it?"

"Besides, when you have completely lost your memory, you will believe and accept what others tell you?" LEE looked at me, "If you have the heart, it is very easy to collude to forge your memory. How do you tell the difference? Is it true or false?"

I was a little confused for a while.

"So, have you ever thought about those things in the past, maybe the point is not what others tell you happened, but what you can accept."

"..."

"For example, if I told you that I actually had an affair with Zhuo Wenyang, would you accept it?"

I glared at him immediately.

LEE immediately said, "I'm just giving you an example!"

"In this case, don't you think it's better to just ignore what happened before?"

I stared at him: "So you really have an affair with Zhuo Wenyang?"

LEE immediately raised his hands, proving his innocence: "I don't! I'm not interested in that frigid style!"

I still stared at him suspiciously.

LEE said: "Look, even what I tell you, you may not be willing to believe it. Then who else in your heart is more credible than me?"

"..."

"So it doesn't make much sense to spend a lot of energy chasing the past, but it will only damage your trust in the people around you."

"..."

"I personally think that you are very good and happy now. You should live like this and look forward without being disturbed by unhappy memories."

The milk tea in his hand gradually lost its cool and pleasant temperature, and even became hot.I asked him, "Is that memory of mine really that bad?"

LEE was silent for a while, and said: "I am not the person involved, and I am not qualified to judge for you. But I think that your amnesia may be because you subconsciously don't want to remember it. You chose to block that memory. Then It's your self-protection mechanism."

"..."

"In that case, why crack it?"

"..."

"I know," LEE said, "it's impossible for people not to be curious. The more I discourage you, the more you want to know the truth. Even if I refuse to tell you, you will ask other people. But I hope you understand , the memories that others tell you may be false."

"..."

"And your life now is real."

After this side with LEE, I always have that heavy feeling in my heart.

I understand what LEE said is right.

Although LEE has had many unreliable times, since he said that retrieving my memory is not good for me, it must not be good.

But, can people really stop thinking about things they are curious about because they are not good for them?

I picked out those old wine and meat friends who were still on the friend list and asked them.

Unsurprisingly, their impression of my life at that time was nothing more than eating, drinking and having fun without worrying about my work.As far as I can remember, every day before, there is no difference.

That being the case, what is the unspeakable "badness"?

Or, the only insiders are LEE and Zhuo Wenyang?

Lying on the grass, they can't really be together, right? !

The calmer the part that can be touched, the more people wonder where the undercurrents under the water surface come from.

While I was determined not to mention the past to LEE and Zhuo Wenyang, I couldn't help asking around secretly.

Just like the Pandora guarding the magic box, she is fighting against her eager curiosity all day long.

That night, I sneakily stood in front of the narcissicm store.

I lied to my family that I was going to watch the fireworks ceremony at Xuankong Bridge with my classmates, and slipped out.Cheng Yichen didn't get suspicious either, he just told me to be careful when going out at night, and pay attention to safety in crowded places.

After thinking about it for a while, I finally opened the door and stepped in.

After going through the security inspection and walking through a long, well-designed passageway, I was caught off guard by the overwhelming excitement and bright colors, as if I had entered a whole new world in an instant.

Wherever you look, there are beauties and wine, and the lights on the top are like stars, everything is beautiful and intoxicating.

And amidst the eccentricity, my eyes and ears actually felt slightly uncomfortable.

I felt uneasy and restrained, as well as an inexplicable timidity like wanting to escape instinctively.

It's strange that nightclub masters like me, who were said to be at home in water, now have symptoms of acclimatization.

Could it be because I have lived with Cheng Yichen and the others for too long and have aged prematurely?

I walked uncomfortably to the bar and sat down.The bartender was a handsome young boy, and he gave me a business smile: "What would you like to drink?"

I can't help but think of the health drinks I drink the most at home - boiled water, and the goji berries in the LEE thermos.

In fact, I am not here to drink, nor to hunt for beauty.

I just thought that as a frequent visitor here, I came to have a look, maybe I could find something I had forgotten.

In fact, I still heard about the fact that I am a frequent visitor to narcissicm from old friends.This is not difficult to imagine, because I also remember that I have been eagerly thinking about getting in since a long time ago, but I couldn't get it because of my age and connections.I still remember that I pestered LEE for a long time, asking him to bring me here, and he finally agreed.

However, from the day Lee took me to see narcissicm to the day of the car accident, I don't remember anything in between.

And it is said that on the day of the car accident, it happened after I got out of narcissicm.I probably drank too much, so I walked to the middle of the road in a daze.It sounds a lot like what I would have done back in the day.

Come to think of it, the memory I lost was from narcissicm to narcissicm.

So much so that in my memory, everything related to the time after I opened the door disappeared.It's kind of weird.

And because of that, I thought this place might mean something to me.Maybe there have been some key points here that I don't want to recall?

I ordered a Long Island iced tea, took a small, cautious sip, and looked around.

Some eyes in the store stayed on me for a while, and some people came to strike up a conversation with me. I knew it was because I looked decent, but they didn't show any look of deja vu.

Maybe it's because the customers in the store have changed over the past few years, or maybe I didn't have anything to impress them back then?

I sat for a while, seeing the time getting later and later, the biological clock even made me yawn, but there was no gain.

When I was about to give up and stood up to leave, I vaguely noticed that someone was following me.

I turned my head to look at the corner where the light was not very bright, and my eyes met. The man didn't dodge or avoid it, and he raised his glass at me and smiled.

I quickly searched that face in my mind, and suddenly realized that this person knew me.

This is the man we met when our family went to the island for vacation.

When my thoughts turned sharply, the man smiled at me and said, "Come for a drink?"

I hesitated a little, but walked over pretending to be generous.

The man waved away a beautiful child who was sitting next to him serving wine.So I sat down opposite him, and he said very kindly, "Why are you here?"

I said, "Come here for a drink, didn't I come here often?"

He smiled: "So you remember?"

I don't know why, but suddenly the alarm bells went off in my heart.

I said calmly, "What do you remember?"

He still smiled: "It seems not."

"..."

"But you will come here, does it mean that you want to know about the past?"

I didn't answer him, just said: "Why, do you know a lot about my past?"

"I knew you before, but you obviously forgot," he said.

"Oh……"

"It can be seen that you have forgotten some important things," he looked very sincere, "If you have any questions, I can tell you everything, and I can talk endlessly."

I said coldly: "It's okay, I don't have any strong intentions. I'm living a good life now. Since some things are forgotten and don't affect my life, it's not that important. Besides, what you said , must it be true?"

He smiled: "It makes sense."

Then he said: "Then what if you think about it and find that the people around you are demons?"

"..."

"I'm just hypothesizing," he laughed. "What I said may not be true."

"..."

He straightened his face: "Or you can go to Lu Feng to verify it. I think with his self-esteem, I don't even bother to lie to you."

My eyes suddenly widened.

He laughed again: "I'm just kidding, you don't need to startle the snake, it's not good for you."

"..."

"I suggest you don't mention this to anyone, it's good for you and me."

"..."

"Come to me when you're ready to trust me, and I'll do my best to help you," he said with a smile. "Of course, you can never trust me. But there is one request, that is, don't betray me. I don't want to Because of good intentions, you will be killed. Moreover, it will not only harm me, but also yourself."

Before I left, he forced me a business card, smiled kindly and said, "You can keep it, after all, I am sincerely making friends with you."