lonely patient

It was Luna who noticed the change in me first. She said that I became less and less talkative, as if I became a mature adult overnight.

"Is it a good thing to be mature?" I lowered my head and flipped through the documents, and said softly, "Not necessarily."

When Wen Luming liked me, I was selfish, vicious, flamboyant, and now I try to learn to be mature and calm, but he doesn't like me anymore.

"By the way, how is the matter entrusted to you?" I raised my head and asked,

"We're still talking. The other party may still have some concerns." After Luna finished speaking, he hesitated and asked, "Are you really going to do this? It's too risky."

I sighed, "Although it's a risk, it's once and for all. Even if it fails, the worst thing is to be kicked out of the house."

"...What did Miss Cheng say?"

I closed the document and replied lightly: "She agrees."

After being bored in the office all afternoon, I wanted to go out to get some air and smoke a cigarette, so I went up to the roof alone.

From the day I decided to work hard for my relationship with Wen Luming again, I started to quit smoking and drinking. I haven't touched a drop of alcohol for a month, not even on my birthday.Quitting smoking is relatively difficult, especially when you are depressed. Without the comfort of nicotine for a long time, people will become more irritable and unable to concentrate.

In order to control myself, I bought a lot of snacks and candies and put them in the office drawer. I also developed the habit of drinking tea. From this morning until now, this is the first cigarette I took out.

The roof has a wide view, and the evening breeze blows away some dullness. I lean on the railing and look at the sunset in the distance. I gradually feel relaxed and comfortable in the gorgeous orange-pink, but looking down, I see the crowded city and the bustling traffic. Another inexplicable depression came to my heart.

I slowly exhaled a puff of smoke, and suddenly noticed a thin figure with long hair and a windbreaker on the other side of the roof.

Taking a closer look, the figure looked familiar. It seemed to be the front desk lady who praised my sunglasses for looking good just a few days ago.And her upper body has already protruded from the railing, and her whole body is shaking in the evening wind.

My intuition told me something was wrong.I quickly put out the cigarette butt and ran over there, waving and shouting as I ran, "Wait!"

She turned her head when she heard my voice, staggered accidentally, then grabbed the railing next to her and said loudly, "Don't come over!"

I stopped a few steps away from her, raised my hand with lingering fear, and said, "I won't go, don't be impulsive."

Her long hair was disheveled by the wind, there were still wet tears on her face, and her eyes were red and swollen.After seeing it was me, he was stunned for a moment, and said, "Mr. Yan..."

"You..." I searched hard for her name in my mind, and finally remembered, "Yuanyuan, don't be impulsive, you can tell me about anything you encounter."

Tao Yuanyuan was dazed for a moment, then shook her head, flattened her mouth as if she was about to cry, and said, "I don't want to live anymore..."

Seeing that she was about to poke her head out again, and even wanted to lift her leg to step over the guardrail, I said anxiously, "You've done it all in one jump, have you ever thought about what I should do, what should the company do?"

Tao Yuanyuan stopped again and looked back at me.

I took a deep breath and said as calmly as possible: "You also know that people in this industry are superstitious. According to them, people who commit suicide do not enter reincarnation, and their souls are always trapped in the place where they died, so the building under your feet Feng Shui is completely ruined, and I, your unlucky boss, has just started my career, and now my luck is completely ruined because of you."

Of course I don't know about souls or reincarnation, and it's all nonsense when I'm in a hurry. Fortunately, Tao Yuanyuan didn't have extra rational thinking about whether I was right or not, and was stunned by me.

"I consider myself a good boss. I treat you well. As long as you think of me a little bit, you shouldn't jump down so irresponsibly." I took the opportunity to extend my hand to her, "Come on, it's dangerous over there. What's the matter?" Tell me what happened, and I will help you if I can."

Unless the person who seeks death has been tortured for a long time, it is difficult to have a firm belief. Often, the courage will gradually fade after the most impulsive few minutes.

Tao Yuanyuan obviously acted impulsively. Hesitation and fear have gradually replaced grief and indignation with the wind blowing on the roof tens of meters high for so long.She grabbed the railing, looked at me suspiciously, and asked, "Really?"

I tentatively took half a step forward and said, "I won't lie to you."

After confronting for a long time, Tao Yuanyuan chose to believe me, and handed over my hand carefully.I didn't hesitate to grab her and pull her back, directly dragging her out of the dangerous range.

She staggered two steps and fell to the ground, and after being dazed for a few seconds, she burst into tears regardless of her image.I shook my head and felt a thin layer of sweat on the palm of my hand, only to realize that I had been holding my breath and not daring to relax.

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the tree shadows and traffic downstairs. The exhaustion of these days suddenly invaded my body. I unconsciously approached the edge of the roof, and my eyes were in a trance. ——I don’t know when it started, I always tend to have the idea of ​​jumping from a high place.

If it falls like this, will my soul become a damp wind, cross the city to embrace the one I love...

"Mr. Yan...?" Tao Yuanyuan's voice called me back from my trance.

I turned my head and saw her teary eyes, the windbreaker was covered with dust, and she looked extremely embarrassed.

"What's wrong with you..." She still has time to care about me.

I shook my head and forced a smile: "It's okay."

After asking, she found out that she had an unexpected pregnancy and was abandoned by her boyfriend, and her boyfriend who had been in love for many years had already cheated before that.

"..." Pregnancy really touched my blind spot of knowledge, and I tried to ask: "How long?"

Tao Yuanyuan replied with red eyes: "Five weeks... I'm only 22 years old, I don't want this child, my parents will beat me to death if they find out..."

With sobs in my voice again, I patted her on the back and said, "Don't be afraid, I'll take you to the hospital first."

On the way, her mood stabilized a lot, and she told me about her and her boyfriend intermittently.

"I'm a beta, the person he cheated on is an omega, they have a high degree of pheromone matching, I really don't know what to do..."

"I used to think that it was enough for two people to fall in love, and pheromones were not important, but then I found out that he never thought of marrying me."

"Does alpha have to be with omega..."

I listened and sighed: "I'm also a beta."

Tao Yuanyuan was slightly taken aback, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that... But Mr. Yan, we are different. Your family background is good and rich, gender is not so important anymore."

"Gender is not the only obstacle." I reluctantly smiled wryly, shook my head and said, "If you have money, you will also suffer from love. Everyone can't ask for it."

The car stopped slowly, and the moment I opened the door, I was stunned - the driver took us to the Affiliated Hospital of University A, that is... the hospital where Xu Yang's accident happened.

The obstetrics department of University A is famous all over the country, and I can't blame the driver.

Tao Yuanyuan has already got out of the car.I was sitting on the seat and couldn't move my feet. The driver saw this and asked, "How about I go with Miss Tao, and you, Mr. Yan, can rest in the car?"

I came back to my senses, shook my head and said, "No."

This was the first time I stepped into the obstetrics building. I met many pregnant women on the way and felt uncomfortable all over my body.Tao Yuanyuan saw my embarrassment, and offered to go in for an inspection by herself, and asked me to wait outside.

I sat on a bench in the corridor, swiping my phone aimlessly, trying to hide my embarrassment.From the corner of the eye, seeing other pregnant women accompanied by their partners, it suddenly occurred to them that it was not a good idea for a little girl to inquire about the miscarriage by herself. She was about to get up and go in to have a look, when a voice sounded not far away: "Professor Wen, come to Director Cen." Deliver food?"

The uncommon surname made me alert. I looked up and saw that the person who was speaking was a young doctor, and the tall figure opposite him carrying an insulated lunch box was indeed Wen Luming.

Come to think of it, Wen Luming's mother is the director of the obstetrics department.

I wanted to hide reflexively, and I didn't know what I was nervous about.However, Wen Luming didn't give me a chance, he looked towards this side as if he had a feeling, and caught my gaze in the crowd.

He said "yes" to the doctor and walked towards me.

I didn't expect to meet him here, so I panicked and stood up helplessly.

"Yan Qiao," he looked at me and at the consulting room across the corridor, frowned, and asked, "What are you doing here?"

"I... I'm waiting for someone." I replied in a low voice.

"Waiting for someone?" He repeated my words, the suspicion evident on his face.

At this moment, Tao Yuanyuan came out, Wen Luming followed my gaze and frowned even tighter.

Tao Yuanyuan didn't notice him, and was about to say something to me, but just as soon as she uttered the sound of "word", she noticed the unkind eyes from her side, subconsciously swallowed the words behind her, showing doubts on her face.

Wen Luming looked back at me, with a sneer on the corner of his lips, nodded and said to himself, "Wait for someone."

I was slow to realize what he had misunderstood, and hurriedly explained: "It's not what you think."

Wen Luming obviously didn't believe it, his face was still indifferent.

I was stabbed by his icy blade-like gaze, and my heart throbbed in the invisible place. I didn't know whether it was irony or sadness for a while.

"That's how you miss me... In your heart, after I say I like you, you can continue to mess around with others, right?" The corners of my lips curled up, and my nose was sore when I wanted to laugh, "I know, don't you Believe me, I deserve it."

Seeing that Tao Yuanyuan had quietly returned to the consulting room, she wished she could cover her eyes and plug her ears to keep her job.

Wen Luming's face gradually softened, he opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't make any excuses.

I took a deep breath and tried my best to calmly say: "She is the front desk of my company. She wanted to commit suicide because of an unwanted pregnancy. I happened to see her, so I took her to the hospital for examination. Whether you believe it or not, the fact is like this. "

I looked up at Wen Luming, my nails were almost digging into my flesh, "After I'm with you, there's no one else around me. I'm a jerk, but I've never done anything like two boats .”

There were people coming and going in the hospital, and I was shrouded in the shadow of Wen Luming, as if isolated in a vacuum, and even my breathing was painful.

It turned out that in his heart, I was worse than I thought.

"Sorry, I misunderstood," he said.

"It's okay." I shook my head softly, "I like you, and I deserve it when I send you to your door to rape you."