lonely patient

Am I eligible to be dissatisfied?

I do not know.

Being misunderstood, suspicious, and cold-eyed by him is all because of my past dissoluteness and willfulness.Even if he doesn't trust me anymore, it's my own fault.

I took a step back to the side, lowered my head to avoid Wen Luming's gaze, and said, "If you have something to do, go and do it. Say hello to Auntie for me."

Wen Luming didn't say anything in the end, took a deep look at me, and then left.

I sat back on the bench and buried my face in my palms wearily.

—Do you want to give up?

A person's life is not as bad as imagined, when I can take care of myself, I can change to a smaller house, raise a new cat, or a lively and lovely puppy, no matter what would be too lonely.

— but is this what I want?

……no.

I haven't really fallen in love with Wen Luming yet, and I don't want to give up.

After a long time, my emotions gradually subsided.Tao Yuanyuan came out of the consultation room, walked over to me cautiously, and said, "Mr. Yan..."

I raised my head, my expression and tone had returned to normal, "how's it going?"

"I've decided to take this child away." Tao Yuanyuan bit her lip, her eyes turned red again, "The doctor arranged for the operation the day after tomorrow."

My heart was touched, and I sighed and said: "That's fine, you are so young, and the child is not responsible to anyone after birth. You don't have to worry about the company, I will help you arrange vacations, and if you have financial difficulties, you must Tell me."

"Thank you, Mr. Yan." After Tao Yuanyuan finished speaking, she hesitated for a moment and asked, "Are you okay..."

"Me?" I was stunned, remembering the scene just now, "I'm fine, I'll let you watch the joke."

"At first I thought it would be difficult to give up, but the moment I made the decision, I was much more relaxed than I imagined." Tao Yuanyuan said meaningfully, "No matter what, life must go on."

Being enlightened by a young girl several years younger than myself, I couldn't help laughing, and deliberately asked: "Don't you jump off the building?"

Tao Yuanyuan was taken aback, then stroked her hair embarrassingly, and said, "I'm sorry, Mr. Yan, for causing you trouble."

There was a dinner in the evening. I called Luna to settle down with Tao Yuanyuan and left with the driver.During this period of time, I quit smoking and drinking, and every time someone asked me the reason when I went out, I half-truthfully said that I was preparing for pregnancy.

"I almost forgot that you are getting married, congratulations." The other party always said this.

The only advantage of this marriage contract is probably here, it helps me avoid a lot of unnecessary troubles, allows me to go home on time before ten o'clock, and send a bouquet of flowers to Wen Luming on the way.

But today I don't want to send it.

I was in the car with a bunch of tied eustomas in the passenger seat.The owner of the florist already knows me, and every day he leaves the freshest and fullest flowers waiting for me to pick them up. He also joked to me that he looks forward to the day when I buy red roses.

Thinking of this, I unconsciously showed a sour smile, looked up and saw the warm yellow light behind the familiar window, and my eye sockets were covered with mist.

He doesn't even want me anymore, so why would he care about the flowers I sent?

I got out of the car with the flower in my arms, walked to the trash can, raised my hand slightly, and watched it fall into the dust.

A corner of the blank card was exposed, and I didn't miss it today.

When I got home, I saw several unread messages on my phone. Tao Yuanyuan said that after I left, she ran into Mr. Alpha again.

"He seemed to have said something to the doctor who examined me, but I didn't hear it clearly in the lounge."

"Later Miss Luna came over and they greeted each other. He asked Miss Luna if you were okay, and Miss Luna said: 'Since you care about Mr. Yan, you might as well ask yourself.'"

"'I don't know how you feel now, maybe you have the pleasure of seeing the person who hurt you sad, or maybe you feel a little distressed, in any case, as an alpha, I don't agree with your approach, and I don't think that the other party has nothing to do with you. Without knowing it, it is a responsible behavior to put one's heavy emotions on the other party, and then decide to end it and get out. Of course, my position cannot be fair, and I am sorry if I offended you.' Miss Luna said so .”

Looking at the text on the screen, I could almost imagine how Luna said these words, and sighed helplessly.

To a certain extent, Luna has protected me very well these past few years. She will solve all the problems she can solve for me, and never let me have any troubles, even those bastard things I used to hook up with, she They can help me deal with it without changing my face.

It seems that she is blaming Wen Luming, but in fact, she also does not recognize my humbleness and tolerance.

If she wasn't my assistant, she might point to my nose and ask, "What about your backbone and pride, Yan Qiao? How did you become like this?"

I don't want to be like this either, it's just that I want Wen Luming more than my backbone and pride.

On the day of the operation, I asked Luna to go to the hospital to accompany Tao Yuanyuan. After I was busy with work in the morning, I was not at ease, so I decided to go and see for myself.

Tao Yuanyuan is young and in good health. After the operation, she is lying on the hospital bed. Except for a little white lips, she can hardly see any weakness.I was a little relieved, told her to take a good rest, and then left the ward.

The atmosphere in the obstetrics department was still embarrassing for me. I walked out quickly and bumped into the oncoming doctor.

"Sorry." I quickly apologized.

"Huh?" The other party stopped me.I raised my head and found that the person in front of me looked familiar, it seemed to be the doctor who greeted Wen Luming that day.

But he didn't mention Wen Luming, but thought for a while and asked, "You...are Xiao Xu's boyfriend?"

Xiao Xu... No one mentioned these two words for a long time, I was in a daze for a while, and after a long time of reaction, I tentatively asked: "Do you know Xu Yang?"

The man showed a clear look: "It really is you. I felt a little familiar when I saw you the day before yesterday. I am Xiao Xu's colleague. My surname is Zhao. We met, but you were not in a good mood at the time, maybe you didn't Notice me."

I realized that what he was talking about was the day Xu Yang's accident happened. When I rushed to the hospital, many people had already gathered, so naturally I wouldn't remember their faces one by one.

"Do you still have contact with Professor Wen?" Dr. Zhao asked again, "I saw you together the day before yesterday."

I didn't understand the meaning of "and" very much, and I was puzzled and said, "I have known Professor Wen not long ago."

Dr. Zhao seemed surprised: "Why? Didn't he go to you because of Xiao Xu?"

Wen Luming?Xu Yang?

I was even more confused: "What did he ask me for...does he know Xu Yang?"

"You don't know?!" Doctor Zhao's astonishment was beyond words, "Xiao Xu saved Professor Wen's grandfather at the time, and the reason why the rescue failed because of excessive blood loss... Sigh, I can't say anything about it. If you know Professor Wen, Didn't he mention it to you?"

……No.

Apart from the same pheromone, I don't know of any other connection between Wen Luming and Xu Yang.

What did he hide from me?

Dr. Zhao realized that he seemed to have said something that should not be said, and he showed embarrassment, and said: "He may have his reasons for not saying it... It has been so long, Xiao Xu knows that you have a new life, and will help you happy."

I smiled politely and said absent-mindedly, "Yes. Thank you."

Back in the car, I was still thinking about what Dr. Zhao said just now.

The encounter in the cemetery was not a coincidence. Wen Luming knew about my relationship with Xu Yang a long time ago, but he never mentioned it...Why, if he is only grateful and regretful to Xu Yang, what can he not say?

And what is the reason for "excessive blood loss and rescue are ineffective"...

Thinking of the scene at that time, I retched and dizzy reflexively, grabbed the mineral water next to me, unscrewed it, and took a big sip, before I suppressed the desire to vomit.

No matter how many times you touch the scar buried deep, it is still the same unbearable pain.

I leaned my head back on the backrest, closed my eyes and took a deep breath. After slowly recovering, my palms were cold and a thin layer of sweat appeared on my forehead.

Maybe Wen Luming just hoped that I would not be sad again...

But my gut tells me it's more than that.

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Invitations... coming soon... (sigh