wall window

I found a sentence.

"Well, but I didn't participate." She said lightly.

"?" I looked at her suspiciously.

"I've been in your office, waiting for you." She still had no expression.

"Wait until dark?"

"No, I saw you in your neighborhood, and I was sitting in that gazebo." Her voice became quieter.

"Until just now?" My heart was throbbing.

"Yeah." She lowered her head and played with her fingers.

"You don't go home at night, does your family know?" After being silent for a while, I looked out the window at the dark night with lights.

"I told my grandma, I'll come to you." She didn't look at me either.

"I'm sorry, I just..." I looked at my twisted hands.

"I love this plate," she said, evading my apology, smiling. "It reminds me of my childhood, so innocent and silly."

"Hmm." I responded. "Do you still feel relaxed with me now?" I asked after a pause.

"It's easy." She didn't want to say it.

"It's late, let's take a shower and go to bed." I was really tired.

"Yeah." She agreed, stood up slowly, took the clothes I found out, hugged her chest, and walked into the bathroom.I took a couple of sleeping pills while she was in the shower, and opened the spare sofa bed next to mine.

By the time I got out of the shower too, I found my eyelids fighting and I was glad I was that way, so I would be absolutely quiet and she would be absolutely safe.

"You are a guest, you should sleep on the bed, I will sleep on the sofa bed." I lay down under the quilt.She was sitting by the window, watching me quietly.The wind from the air conditioner gently blows her short hair.

"Promise me, be nice to yourself and be happy. Don't let me worry." She continued to look at me.

"Well, you too, you have to be good, you have to be happy, and you have to study hard..." I yawned.

"Well, we're all going to be fine. Good night, Mu Chenyu." She was lying on the bed, looking sideways at me.I was taken aback for a moment. It was the first time I heard her call my name directly. It felt very fresh and comfortable.

"Good night, Pei Fei." I smiled and whispered to her like a child.Her large eyes and serene features began to blur. "Good night, Pei Fei..." I couldn't hold on any longer.

This sleep was very deep and sound, and when I woke up, Pei Fei was no longer in bed.She made my bed very neatly.I turned my head quickly to the door and was relieved to see her clothes still hanging there.I didn't want to move, so I just lay there lazily, she was still there, in my house, not far from me.I unconsciously closed my eyes again.

"Get up." Her voice rang in her ear.

I opened my eyes and stared at her without blinking, staring at this beloved girl who I haven't been able to stare at for a long time.Her face was red with embarrassment that had not been seen for a long time.I love you, Pei Fei.This is the only sentence left in my mind.

"I'm leaving. I made breakfast, you can eat later." She finally avoided my gaze and turned her eyes to the summer sun outside the curtains.

My heart fell to the bottom in an instant, and then a coldness permeated my whole body.She was leaving again, and she didn't know if she would come back or see each other.I didn't make a sound, I didn't know what to say, I couldn't say anything, I just bit my lips hard, turned my head to the other side, and grasped the edge of the sofa bed tightly with both hands, I was very afraid that I would jump up suddenly, Suddenly he hugged her and refused to let her go, and suddenly said a lot of impulsive words out of control.Her complexion also dimmed, and then she went to the door to get some clothes to change.My tears flowed down quickly, I don't know what to do, I don't want her to see me like this.

I ** got up by myself, quickly drew the curtains, and opened the window.The sky in June is very blue and bright, the cicadas are buzzing in June, the morning sun in June is already very bright, there is a pleasant breeze in the morning in June, and everything in June is extremely clear.I rubbed my eyes, breathed in the summer air vigorously, and quickly responded to the resolute and calm Mu Chenyu.

I picked up her schoolbag from the desk and walked to the living room. She also came out and was walking around in my small hall.

"Well, your schoolbag." I said loudly.She turned her head, surprised at how quickly my mood changed.

"I haven't congratulated you yet! You are so good, you were admitted to the best key middle school! You are indeed my student!" I laughed.

"It's an honor to be your student." She came back to her senses and smiled.

"And the best student I've ever taught." I continued to laugh.

"Well, I will make you continue to be proud of me." She finally showed a bright smile.Such a beautiful smile that filled my heart with sunshine and shuddered at the same time.

"I believe it!" I said, "Do you want to take the music disc of Joe Hisaishi and Hayao Miyazaki away?" I looked at the corner of the curtain blowing in the breeze behind her, and the disc was being gently blown by the curtain* *.

"Okay, I like those songs very much." She was very happy, "It sounds very happy and relaxing." Then she took the plate and walked out. I stood at the door until she walked into the elevator and turned to look at me. Until the doors on both sides of the elevator slowly cut off her face and her eyes, which had lost her smile, and covered them.

[-]. What is love?

In the afternoon, the strange number from last night appeared on my phone again.

I pressed the answer button.

"Hi, I'm Pei Fei's mother." A mezzo-soprano said.

I was startled, my scalp went numb and my mind went blank.

"Hey, hello, teacher Mu?" The other side kept asking.

"Well, yes." My brain can finally move.

"I want to meet you, can I?"

"Yeah." I mechanically agreed, my scalp tingling again.

"Okay, then I'll pick you up at your house."

……

Half an hour later, she appeared at the door of my community.I recognized her without an introduction.That woman in her 40s has the same eyes as Pei Fei, is as beautiful as Pei Fei, and is as tall as Pei Fei.It's just that she lacks the sunshine and clarity of Pei Fei. She looks like a melancholy and indifferent woman isolated from the world, which makes people feel chills at first sight.

"Teacher Mu is very young and beautiful!" She came to me and shook my hand with a slight smile.

I suddenly had an illusion, as if it was Pei Fei who pulled me in front of me.

"Thank you, you are really beautiful!" I also smiled.

"Ms. Mu is working hard, right? So thin!" She looked me up and down.

"Fortunately."

"Let's find a restaurant and sit down, shall we?"

"Okay." I took her to the elegant western restaurant near me.Faint and warm lighting, soft coffee-colored sofas, white dining tables, white napkins embroidered with dark flowers, white porcelain tableware with shining white light, red roses in small vases on the table...my heart gradually settled down Come down and sit down across from her.

"What should I call you?" I asked.

"Oh, my surname is Chen, you can call me Miss Chen." She smiled faintly.

"Is Miss Chen also working in this city?"

"I'm in Singapore." Her answer was beyond my expectation. "I've lived in Singapore for ten years, opened a fashion company, and recently went back to my hometown to visit my parents."

"Yes, that's great."

"Forced by life, there is no way." She picked up the teacup and lowered her head to take a sip.

"Thank you for your concern for Pei Fei, she often mentions you." She said sincerely.

I am stunned.

"Grandma Pei Fei said, I keep in touch with her often." She smiled slightly.

"Oh." I looked at her haggard face, which had been put on makeup but could not be concealed.

"How is Pei Fei at school?" She asked with concern.

"Very good. She is motivated, has clear learning goals, has ideals, and has excellent grades."

"How's your mental state?" She was suddenly a little nervous.

"No problem, very healthy and sunny!" I was very surprised by her question.

"That's good, that's good," she murmured with her head down, "as long as she's mentally healthy, and not like her father or me..." She stopped suddenly, and looked at me with flickering eyes.

"It's okay." I smiled at her, but my heart was full of doubts.

"Divorced families have a great impact on children, but I can't help it." Her trance eyes make people feel as if she is living in ancient times.

"Pei Fei's grandma is a very healthy old man. Pei Fei is taken care of very well by her. You don't have to worry too much."

"Yeah, her grandmother's belt is better than mine... I, I have severe depression and have been taking medicine for more than ten years." She said blankly.

"But you make me feel good!"

"I'm emotionally unstable, and I dare not approach Pei Fei. She was only two years old when I divorced. I haven't seen her since then, and I can only look at her photos..." She burst into tears, and I didn't know for a while. What to do.

"I came back this time and saw that she has grown up so much. I really want to meet her, but I can't..." She lowered her head.

"Why not? Surely she will be delighted!"

"I'm afraid I'll lose control of my emotions, and I can't bring her anything. I'm very satisfied if I don't affect her..." Her tears flowed even harder.

I handed her a pack of tissues and quietly watched her vent.

I thought of my mother.

The mother lost two daughters and two husbands, and children are the spiritual pillar of her life.She was reluctant to part with our three sisters, and after being forced to separate, she would often go to the village of those two families to peek at her daughter from a distance. One "peeking" seemed to make her intoxicated for a long time, and when the intoxication passed, she would peek again... The death of her stepfather made her look like a wooden person, but she still endured it silently.