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Come, for her child.Because of the experience of losing two children, the mother especially cherishes the time with her children.Although her character has been worn very rough, she always puts her children first.In her heart, no matter how hard it is, having children by her side is a blessing, and being able to watch children grow up is the greatest blessing.

The mother has been suffering like this until her two sons are both admitted to college.The children were gone, the mother's life was empty, and a year later, she was gone too, forever...

I looked at the woman in front of me, and felt unspeakable pain in my heart. My mother's love is to be with the child, but her love is to be separated from the child.What exactly is maternal love?What is love?

"I'm sorry, I lost my temper." She finally raised her head and smiled at me embarrassedly.

"It's okay, just cry when you're sad." I also smiled at her.

"The people who are with you are very happy, you are considerate and tolerant." She said suddenly.

"You have also brought happiness to many people. You have made so many women beautiful and regained their confidence."

"This is also something that comforts me. I haven't remarried... My career is my only sustenance."

"It's good to have sustenance."

"Yes. Thank you. I feel relieved that Pei Fei has a teacher like you. As a mother, I am ashamed... I have a very selfish request. I hope you can watch Pei Fei grow up and grow up healthy, please. You!" She stood up suddenly and bowed deeply to me.

I stood up a little bit at a loss: "You're welcome! I will definitely!"

We went back very late, watching the back of her leaving my community, I felt an indescribable heaviness. "I can't give her a complete home, and I don't want to affect the home she's used to." I recalled what she said just now, thinking about what kind of concept a home is.

Is Pei Fei really as sunny as she appears?I know not.Does she really have no other thoughts about home?Certainly not.How much did she imagine about her mother?How much do you feel?I don't dare to think about it anymore, I can't bear the heartache of thinking about it anymore.If I could, I would give you everything you want!Pei Fei, how should I love you?like a teacher?like a friend?like mom?Like elders?Like a lover?Or like your mother, leave forever if you can't give?What kind of love won't hurt you?What should I do?

"Chen Yu, we haven't been together for a long time, come here, Yun and I are having afternoon tea." Good friend Xia Qing called.

Yes, I haven't contacted you for a long time, maybe three or four months.

"Okay, I'll come."

The conversation with Pei Fei's mother yesterday made me feel very uncomfortable and confused, I was very depressed, and I really wanted to find a place to adjust.

10 minutes later I saw them in that quiet teahouse.Still fashionable clothes, still charming smiling face, still enthusiastic and warm eyes.These two women, who are several years older than me, are much more energetic than me.

"Baby, what are you up to lately? You'll disappear if we don't contact you, huh?" Xia Qing said while pouring me tea.

"That's right, is there a new relationship?" Yun teased.

"No, you know I don't like to move."

"This won't work, you're almost becoming a hermit. What if you get sick? Your health isn't very good." Xia Qing blamed.

"I'm discussing with Xia Qing to find a time to go shopping and buy clothes. I want to draw you in."

"You guys want to work together to reform me again?"

"That is, I want to transform you into a more ladylike woman, and don't always be so casual and plain-faced." Xia Qing said.

"No, let me go, I'm used to this."

"No, we feel uncomfortable seeing you looking so depressed and depressed. If you don't take the initiative to change, we will do it." Xia Qing pouted and said domineeringly.

"Hey, what's the matter with you? You look very bad today." Yun said, who had been looking at the teacup and smiling.

I didn't make a sound, I really didn't know how to say it.I am grateful that they knew about my sexual orientation and are still friends with me, but there are some things they cannot understand.

"Hey, talk! How worried we are by seeing your bitter face!" Xia Qing rubbed me with his elbow.

I took a few sips from my teacup, trying not to get too excited and let my tears flow.

"If your daughter's female teacher fell in love with your baby, how would you react?" I asked, staring at the teacup in my hand.They both have a teenage daughter.

"That's okay! Report it to the higher authorities! This kind of person cannot be a teacher!" Xia Qing's reaction was fierce.

"That's not necessary, as long as she doesn't harass the children, it doesn't matter. But it's better to transfer to another school, at least to transfer classes, it's too dangerous." Yun said.

"It's terrible! I don't even dare to think about such a thing." Xia Qing still stared wide-eyed.

"Oh my God, you couldn't be the one who fell in love with the student, right?" Yun suddenly woke up.

"Ah?" Xia Qing opened his mouth wide, so surprised that his eyeballs almost fell out.

"No, a friend encountered this kind of thing, and I am worried for her." I smiled at them.

"Oh my God, don't scare me. Don't be stupid about such a thing. Besides, children don't know how to love. Loving a child is simply stupid." Xia Qing finally relaxed.

"Since it's not your business, don't worry about it. No one can control this matter. Anyone who plays with fire must die." Yun picked up the teapot and poured tea for us, "Xia Qing, go and order some snacks. Give this guy some energy."

Pei Fei, is loving you like playing with fire?Am I fucking?I know the answer and how to do it.

I am destined to die, but I can only burn my "self".

Part [-] Days on the Clouds [-]. Behind Time and Space

"The three-day college entrance examination has ended, and everything in the city is normal." The news broadcast program reported in the evening.

I lay quietly on the sofa, staring at the expressionless face of the announcer, and fell into a state of no thought...

[-]. Behind the time and space

I turned up the volume of the TV and switched to the sports channel. The program on this station only has dizzying movements, and it will never use a certain scene, a plot, or a sentence to sensationalize, so that people's emotions fluctuate between the program and their own in real life.It is objective, rational, and what I need.

In fact, I am not keen on TV programs. I can watch almost all the programs. Sometimes I just need an environment and a feeling, such as when I need to feel at home, when I need someone to accompany me, and when I am very lost. …I need some people, some images, some words to fill my house, so that my life will turn from thought to matter, from imaginary to real.

I lie on the sofa, looking at the ceiling, while "listening" to the TV.I actually couldn't see or hear anything, it was just a relaxing warm background that made me feel safe.

Suddenly, the phone on the coffee table heard the sound of receiving a text message.

I reached out and grabbed the phone.From Pei Fei.

I sat up quickly, and the text on the display read: Are you free tomorrow night?

As long as you are looking for it, it is available.I will reply right away.The college entrance examination has just ended today, and tomorrow is Saturday, we are all free... I lay down again holding my phone, I don't want to reply right away, although I know what I will reply.

In the past three years, we have had very little contact, but occasionally she would send me a message, and the content was always weird.For example: "I want to go back and change your composition." "I want to plant the kind of jasmine in your community. You can dig one for me. I'll get it later." "Do you know where there is dogtail grass? ""You come to hold a parent-teacher meeting for me." "I want to eat your cooking." "I'm so busy." "What does 'like a beautiful family like a flower, like a fleeting year' mean?" "My grandpa is here, The table at home was overturned again." "What if I can't sleep?" "What if I have a severe sore throat?" "I can go to bed early if you help me with my homework." "Grandma is watching the Lantern Festival Gala. I I plan to put up the Kongming lanterns, and I don’t know what wish I can make this year..."... After I replied to her seriously, she fell silent again.Sometimes it would suddenly appear in front of me, and then "disappear" again after a short stay.

As for my active contact with her, it is basically limited to two days: Christmas and her birthday.This is my annual holiday.On those two days, I can confidently send my gifts and blessings.Let her feel that I love her like a mother loves a child, although my heart is full of love.I spent a year and a year waiting and looking forward to these two days, repeatedly calculating how far those numbers are from "now".To research things she might like, to keep an eye out for all the things I see, to compare things that might be gifts, to happily prepare those things that are selected, to patiently wrap things that have been cuddled and even kissed many times , enjoying imagining the surprises these things brought her.In fact, every day she received a gift, she would not reply to me with a single word.

In the days when there is no contact, all I can do is chew on the appearance of her recently.The bad way she snapped her fingers, the heartless way she refused to get off the bicycle, the way she turned around rudely, the way she yelled at me... spent every 360 days of my life.

I'm still lost in her world.

"What's the matter?" I finally replied to her message.

"Tomorrow there will be Fu Cong's piano solo performance, which is Chopin's piano piece. I want to go with you."

"But no tickets, Fu Cong played