Love you as life

of?What do you think! "

"Father, brother is just worried about you, afraid that others will irritate you with harsh words! We all know what kind of person brother is!" I am afraid that my father will show his posture of lecturing others again. It has been a long time since such a situation has appeared in our family Now, we need everyone's unity as one.

"I know," Dad breathed a sigh of relief, "I also thought that I would encounter a lot of bad words, but there is no escape! We only have this way to go, we can't hide passively, we can only walk positively Go out, find a way to solve the problem, there must be a way for the car to reach the mountain. Don’t worry too much about me, I can survive everything, give us more confidence in ourselves! Song, what do you think?” Dad turned to The silent mother.

"You've always been right. No one can stop you from doing what you want! You like to be brave all day long!" Mom was clearly angry but worried.

"Okay, I'm really strong. If I'm not strong, why would you marry me?" Dad touched his mother's face and said with a smile. Dad's "revolutionary optimism" is always very powerful and can be adjusted every time. Everyone's mood.

When the six of us appeared at the tea market together, it really caused quite a "sensation". It should be said that we were "welcome in the lane" on the way. Many people came to see Wenqing and her girlfriend, and observed my parents. There are a lot of people with facial expressions, and most people comment on An’an and despise Wenqing... We try our best to keep ourselves relaxed and happy without giving people the feeling of being ostentatious. Of course, in the eyes of everyone, we have already "extremely ostentatious".

When we first entered the teahouse, everyone who spotted us turned their heads to look, some even stood up to look at it, and some simply ran over to look at it. The waitress was also busy looking at it. We asked several times if there was a large table for seating. Did not hear clearly.Once we all sat down, most people started whispering about some very "controversial" issues:

Is Wen Qing's girlfriend pretty?Is it a good match with Wen Qing?

Where did Wenqing's girlfriend come from?How did the story with Wenqing begin?

How does homosexuality "love"?How did they "do it"?

Which one is the "male" and which one is the "female" between Wen Qing and Xin An?

Why do people get gay?

What are Secretary Wen and Gu Song thinking?Why would they agree?

What does it mean for their family to come to the tea market like this?

What will happen to them in the future?

……

While discussing the issues, the tea guests made various comments, such as:

It's so fresh, it's the first time I've seen it!If only I could see how they hug and kiss, hahaha!

Disgusting!No shame!

Well, my chicken skin rice is up...

She looks good on the outside, but she's so dirty behind her back.

Are there no men in this world?To do such a thing that insults the dignity of a man!

That old secretary was so useless that he let his daughter run amok!

This pair of parents is really old and confused!

They should throw this daughter out of the house and leave it in shame.

If it were me, I would rather strangle the child than do such a shameful thing for her!

Let's see how they end up!Maybe he will be kicked out of the county if he is so arrogant!

Yeah, it's too bad for young people!

It is estimated that they will not have good results. Unlike foreign countries, China is not so open!

……

We have been concentrating on eating our breakfast and talking about our days, but our ears can't help but "receive" various sounds.Fortunately, we have been mentally prepared for a long time, and because An An and I were present, most of the focus of discussion fell on us, and there were not many words to stimulate our parents.

The business of the tea market is very good today. Not only is there no empty seats, but there are also many people waiting in line...

"Homosexuality, shameless!" A four or five-year-old child suddenly ran over.

"Gay, shameless!" Another one came running.

Then three, four, five, a whole bunch.They are shouting happily:

"Gays, shameless!"

"Gay, pervert!"

"Gay, disgusting!"

"Shameless! Shameless!"

"Pervert! Pervert!"

"Disgusting! Disgusting!"

……

After they ran over excitedly and threw out a sentence, they turned around and ran away with a smile. They turned back and yelled again after not running far. There is nothing to say, but our patience and silence made them more excited and presumptuous. The children's voices became louder and louder one by one, like a relay. Even go up together in all directions...

The whole tea market is like a boiling pot, people are laughing, there are all kinds of laughter, after they hand over the task to the children, they can enjoy their breakfast with peace of mind, and talk about the joy of people and things... Of course there are also Some people are scolding, scolding the parents of those children is too much...

There are many acquaintances of us in the tea market, as well as many old friends and subordinates of my father. When we first came in, they were all stunned, and the "sensation effect" we created also made it difficult for them to say hello. I don't know what to do, just eat their meal silently...

We hurriedly finished our meal in embarrassment, paid the bill and left immediately. Of course, we were not disheartened, but just as energetic as when we came.As a result, not only a large group of children chased us, but also some adults who couldn’t stand our “arrogance” also followed the children’s shouts and scolded others...

As soon as I came out of the tea market, my mother's eye circles turned red.

"Song! Don't cry!" Dad's voice was low and severe.

My mother held back her fists tightly, her eyes could be set on fire.

My brother has been walking next to my father, and I have been walking next to my mother.The journey home is very long, and the "spectators" I meet on the way are more and more presumptuous.I couldn't help thinking, if Xiao Ling was here, how would she feel when she saw this scene?This is the road I have traveled thousands of times with her...

When we got home, our tense cells were fully relaxed, my brother and sister-in-law were sweating, my father and mother sat softly on the sofa, and An An and I stood stupidly.

"Dad, Mom, are you all right?" My brother asked.

"It's okay." Dad leaned back on the sofa, closed his eyes, and looked very tired.

Mom kept her face sullen and silent, her eyes still burning.

"Mom, if you feel sad or wronged, just say it, huh?" I went over and put my arms around her shoulders.

Mom remained silent, her eyes fixed on the coffee table in front of her.

"Let's go to the tea market every day from now on, okay?" Mom suddenly turned to Dad.

"Huh?" Dad opened his eyes and looked at Mom thoughtfully. "I thought so too...but can you help it?"

"I have endured it all my life, and you know the hardships I have endured. This time I don't believe that I can't bear it! I want to see who can last longer! See if they have It’s so hard to see how embarrassed they are to scold every day! Can they really talk until their lips are rotten!"

"Mom, don't get mad at yourself, eh?" I looked at them both worriedly.

"Is your mother so easy to break? After decades of suffering, she will be broken soon! These people are too forgetful! Your father has fought for this county for decades and done so many good things , have helped so many people, and we have never bullied or hurt anyone, why can't they be more tolerant? Why are they so heartless! Treat us so coldly!"

Dad looked at Mom in silence for a while, and then looked at us: "What do you all think? We often go out together, like all families, do you have any opinions?" Dad's consulting eyes finally settled on me and An An: " What mother said makes sense, as long as we don't conflict with them, maybe they will get used to it after a long time."

What do we have to say?Do we have a way out?

1. Exile ([-])

In the following days, my brother went to work normally, and my sister-in-law, An An, and I accompanied our parents for morning exercise and morning tea. The "legal army" team we met was still huge, and the language we heard was roughly the same, and some were more ugly and friendly. of.We start to turn a blind eye when we watch too much, and calluses grow on our ears when we hear too much.Those spectators and commentators have gradually become quieter. Like what my mother said, no matter how busy they are, they can’t do this every day. Seeing our silence and patience, they are really embarrassed to talk and scold every day. No one wants to Talk about rotten lips...

The days are gradually getting better. When my mother and sister-in-law are not free, An An and I will accompany Dad to drink tea, and sometimes we will sit with Dad’s old friends. An An went shopping for groceries and went to a coffee shop together... We bought a laptop computer and connected a network cable at home. An An used my original desktop computer for design, and I used my laptop for writing...

Joy and happiness are slowly approaching.

A week or so passed, and one afternoon, after taking a nap, Dad received a call from the current secretary of the municipal party committee, saying that he and several leaders of the municipal party committee wanted to invite us to dinner, and hoped that we could all be there.The current secretary of the municipal party committee is a former subordinate of my father, and my father is also very familiar with several leaders of the municipal party committee, and sometimes has dinner with them during big festivals.But today's "date" is very strange, it tastes like a grand banquet.But no matter what kind of banquet, we can only go there according to the appointment.

The hotel they made an appointment with is a place near the mountains and rivers, where An An and I meet again...

As soon as the door was opened, four or five men's faces and their sturdy bodies stood up.

"Secretary Wen, hello! Hello!" The current secretary of the municipal party committee, Yan Liben, walked over quickly and held Dad's hand, and the others also hurriedly and enthusiastically greeted us to sit down.

"Secretary Wen, I'm sorry to ask you out so hastily. I was forced to do so." Secretary Yan poured tea for his father himself.

Following his words "forced to helplessness", the atmosphere in the room suddenly became tense.

"Really? Just tell me if you have anything to say." Dad was very calm.

"Secretary Wen, it's like this." Gao Minqiang, director of the Cultural Bureau, glanced around at us, and said in a low voice, "Both the Municipal Party Committee and our Cultural Bureau have received many letters from citizens. We originally wanted to put it aside for a while, but There are more and more letters, forcing us to not know what to do..." He lowered his head and sighed.

"Secretary Wen, alas, you are my old superior, the parent officer of the poor county in the past. It can be said that without your drastic reforms, our county would not be where it is today. I really hope that you can enjoy your old age peacefully without any interference. But there is really nothing I can do about it, it’s hard for me to do it, even if I tell you 1 sorrys, I can’t express my apology..." Secretary Yan looked at his father with sincerity and apology.

"You're welcome. Let's find out what's going on." Dad's old and quiet face is like the bark of an old banyan tree. The ravines and ravines are full of vicissitudes of time, but his two contemplative eyes are still sharp, clear and deep. And wise.

"Xiao Wu, take out all the materials." Secretary Yan said to the party secretary beside him.

"Secretary Chen, take out ours too." Director Gao said to the personnel secretary beside him.

The huge dining table was instantly filled with letters, as well as some newspapers and typed articles.

"Secretary Wen, these are all letters from the citizens, and there are still a lot of them piled up on us, so we just brought some here." Director Gao said, "We want to give you some feedback, so you can just take a look." Bar."

"Secretary Wen, Song Gu, we know that you have encountered a lot of trouble recently, and we don't want to make things worse for you. You must be open and treat these letters with a normal heart. You know, most of these citizens are educated The level is not high, the thinking is narrow and old-fashioned, and many of the words may be inappropriate, so please don’t mind.” Secretary Yan said to his parents, and then turned to me: “Wen Qing, you have to calm down, I remember when you were studying. Your father often praises you for being calm and calm in front of us, you are a cultural person, you should look at things from a higher level..."

In the next more than an hour, our whole family was reading these letters, newspapers and printed materials.There are roughly several aspects of content and viewpoints:

Wen Chuji, the former secretary of the municipal party committee, took the lead in going astray, causing bad influence and should be severely punished;

Wen Chuji's family flaunts their homosexuality all day long and affects the morality of the society. This kind of arrogance should be combated;

Wen Qing and Xin An are openly intimate on the street and in coffee shops, the influence is extremely bad, and their actions should be punished;

The homosexual relationship between Wen Qing and Xin An has affected many teenagers. There are many same-sex men and women holding hands and hugging in the streets and parks. Can our future generations be saved?

The advertising photo posted by the photo studio uses an intimate photo of two beautiful girls. This is the result of the bad influence of the Wen family. Is there a bottom line for the morality of the hometown?

Wen's actions diverted people's interest and affected work efficiency;

Wenhua’s interest classes and cram schools can’t continue, what should our children do?

My daughter has been dazed and blushing a lot lately, and it's all caused by those two perverted women, who drove the perverted women away;

Homosexuality is AIDS;

Homosexuality means killing offspring;

All the parents in the urban area jointly protested and demanded that the two women from the Wen family be kicked out!

We, the people of the city, strongly demand that homosexuals be kicked out!

……

We put the letter down after reading the letter at random, and no one was excited, because everyone was stunned, not petrified, but lost enthusiasm for this place and life here, a kind of emptiness and burnout The emotion filled the room, and no one said a word.

"Secretary Wen, Gu Song, you..." Secretary Yan asked in a low voice, a little embarrassed.

"We're fine." Dad kept his eyes on the table.

"Secretary Wen, I know this matter is difficult for you, and I don't want to make it difficult for you. You are my old superior, and Wen Qing was also raised by me. I know what kind of people you are, but now I can't do it. We have the final say, we can't ignore the opinions of the people..." Secretary Yan also looked at the desktop, "I shouldn't have made any demands on you, and several leaders of the Municipal Party Committee and the Cultural Bureau met for a small meeting this morning , everyone thinks it's better for you to avoid the limelight..."

"How do you think we can avoid the limelight?" Dad still didn't look at them.

"Everyone thinks that at least Wen Qing and Xin An will leave for a while." Secretary Yan finally mustered up the courage to say.

"How long is this temporarily?" Dad turned to look at him.

"This..." Secretary Yan was a little embarrassed.

"Secretary Wen, this is a difficult question. We all know that this is a private matter of your family, outsiders should not interfere, especially for veteran cadres like you, you should be given more protection, so that you can live together with your children, Now this is the only solution. No one is sure how long we will be away. If the fate is completely in our own hands, it will be easy to handle, but how is it possible?" Chen Ping, who has been silent all the time The secretary sighed helplessly, "Secretary Wen, you have done a lot for this county, now we can only look forward to your high morals and make another sacrifice."

"Okay, we've finished talking, how about we eat first?" Director Gao looked at everyone and wanted to adjust the atmosphere.

"Yes, it's late, everyone is hungry, right? Xiao Wu has already ordered the menu, let's ask them to serve it now. Xiao Wu, you go!" Secretary Yan said to his secretary.

This meal is the most sumptuous meal I have ever eaten, and it is also the most tasteless meal. I believe our family has this experience.

Soon the dinner was over, and the dishes on the table were still full. Secretary Yan and Director Gao had no intention of leaving after the meal, and looked at Dad expectantly, earnestly, and demandingly.

"Don't worry," Dad smiled and glanced at them, "We will take care of things."

As soon as these words came out, several people stood up. Secretary Yan tightly held Dad's hand, pursed his mouth and said nothing, but his eyes were red.

Our people are very smart: if verbal criticism is not enough, then the pen will be punished, and if the public opinion at the lower level cannot be effective, then the upper level will be mobilized, because no one can resist the upper level... The original meaning of the phrase "the people can carry a boat, but they can also capsize it" is used here Not very appropriate, but I still think of it, the power of the people is too great, whether it is positive or negative, aggressive or passive, civilized or backward...

This night was a sleepless night for our whole family. I can’t say what I have given my parents in the six years since I came back to my hometown. It should be said that they gave me life again, gave me confidence and hope.During the six years we have been together, we have really walked into each other's hearts again, and we all cherish it because we lost it and found it again.I once swore that I would never leave my parents as long as they lived. Wen Zhong, Wen Jing and Wen Jing are all in another distant country. As a homeless person, I am attached to this home with strong family ties...

None of us mentioned the word of leaving, fearing that everyone would be sad, so we mechanically and silently repeated the necessary and trivial actions and events in life.

We no longer go out, just want to stay at home, stay at home together, and slowly digest the sadness and heaviness in our hearts.

2. Exile ([-])

One night two days later, several good friends of my father came to our house.Apparently they knew what had happened in the past two days, so they came to visit Dad specially.

An An stayed in the room with Wen Yue and Wen Jun reading, while my parents, brother, sister-in-law and I stayed in the living room to accompany the guests.

"Old Wen, are you okay?" Zheng Da patted his father on the shoulder.

"Did you say it will be all right?" Dad smiled bitterly.

"Oh, there's no way to do it, let's take it easy."

"I really can't figure it out," Dad kept shaking his head gently, "what is the purpose of my whole life?"

"Who knows what this life is for." Zheng Da leaned on the back of the sofa, "who knows what he will encounter in the future, as long as he can have a clear conscience. I'm right, I'm right, I'm right It’s enough to live with relatives and friends.”

"To heaven and earth, to friends and outsiders, I have a clear conscience, but I am sorry for my relatives. The biggest failure in my life is not being able to protect my relatives." Dad was jealous.

"Old Wen, it's not your fault. What are you guilty of? Song Gu and Wenhua Wenqing have always been proud of you, and your image is so noble in their hearts!" Another friend, former Shi Port The director of the office, Lao Cen, said.

"I'm in my seventies and I still want to force my daughter to wander..."

"Dad, it's all my own fault." I said, "I'm sorry for you..."

"Wen Qing is right, the reason is not yours, why are you blaming yourself?" Director Cen said, "Of course, you love your daughter very much, but Wen Qing will feel even more uncomfortable now that you are like this!"

"Yeah, Lao Wen, let go of it." The former director of the Public Security Bureau, Lao Huang, said, "Why do I find that you never seem to be flexible? Your hair and beard are all white, and you still handle things like a child! Always Thinking about things so naively! From a legal point of view, you can live the life you want, and no one can interfere, but can this society tolerate it? How many years have we reformed and opened up? How deep-rooted are our traditional ideas? It’s not that I don’t know. When you were the secretary of the district party committee in the 80s, in order to establish good relations with some coastal cities to develop the economy, you continuously introduced technology and sent a large number of students to study abroad. You even took the lead in running around. How much did you spend? Time, energy and hard work, what happened in the end? 'A party secretary who is not doing business properly'! Do you remember this title? In the 90s, you bought real estate everywhere to reserve for the city. You have a good vision, and what you buy is the most developed Potential sites and buildings, do you know how people scold you? They say that you are using the public for personal gain, that you are not doing a good job in the construction of this city, but you are diverting funds all over the world. Think about it, the document issued by the central government says to reform, and the privileges granted by the provincial party committee need to be reformed. You, the secretary of the party committee and the secretary of the municipal party committee, are criticized and criticized for implementing the policies of the party and the country. What's more, what you want to change now is China and even The concept that the world has not been able to change for thousands of years! This is easier said than done! To put it bluntly, it is very rare that this kind of thing can be done secretly, and you want it to be made public! Challenge the tradition? Challenge the ideas of the world? Old man Ah, I'm not saying you, you think the 'communist ideal' is so easy to achieve!"

"Old Huang, tell me, I live like a tortoise every day, what kind of life is this!" Dad began to get excited.

"Well, if Wenqing had lived in a place where no one knew them, this could have been avoided..." Director Huang glanced at me, "If this kind of thing is covered up, people won't react too much. Once it is open and aboveboard They can’t bear it. You think you are frank, but others think you are arrogant. You have encountered this kind of thing! And you don’t know how many of us can live openly and aboveboard? People can tolerate Secretly stealing, I just can’t stand being robbed in the open, or where does the word “broad daylight” come from, huh? It means that some things can’t be done in the sun but can be done in secret. Gentlemen are magnanimous. How many real gentlemen are there in this society? Even if you want to be a gentleman, no one will give it to you! This society is like this-those who are 'frank' are often hypocrites, but real gentlemen can't be frank! You are so straight! You have been doing it for decades Why didn’t the cadres learn how to hide and protect themselves wisely!”

"That's right. You can't show your sharpness. Once you expose it, you will break it. This is the golden mean that has been practiced in China for thousands of years. Why can't you learn it?" Director Cen said.

"Don't always think about charging into battle. You are no longer thinking about being a hero now than when you were young! How many people must die to succeed in a revolution? What are you doing so bravely rushing to the gun!" Director Huang continued to educate dad.

"You don't understand." Dad shook his head slightly again, and looked at me with tears in his eyes, "I've been thinking about this question for the past few years, are there some people who are as kind, hardworking, and excellent as we are? People who contribute to society must live in a dark corner and suffer several times more than ordinary people because they are different from ordinary people in some aspects? Is such a society a reasonable society? I have always wondered If I don’t come out, I have no ability to change anything, I’m just not reconciled..."

"Hey, old man, after all, you are still too idealistic. If everyone looked at things like you, the world would have been peaceful long ago, and it would be more communism than communism." Zheng Da said.

"It's not that I'm too idealistic. If your daughter is like Wenqing, you will be so idealistic..." Dad finally shed two lines of tears.

"I know, I know, everyone understands your feelings. Don't be too sad. Wen Qing just moved to another place. You and Aunt Song can visit her often in the future." Zheng Da comforted his father by patting his father's back.

"I don't want to stay here anymore." Dad shook his head again, "It's boring, very boring..."

"Dad?" My brother and I cried out in surprise at the same time.

"I've already discussed with your mother, I won't stay here anymore, I don't want to stay here anymore." Dad looked down at the coffee table.

The room was very quiet, and no one spoke again.

"I am a smart father. I gave birth to five children and let them live in different places and different countries, so that I can travel to many countries in my later years and live in different places with my children..."

"Old Wen...have you thought it through?" Director Huang asked after a while.

"I have thought about it carefully, and I want to live a more relaxed life." Dad said, "A Song and I have been to New Zealand to visit relatives, and now we will be approved soon, and it will take about a month. If it is suitable, we will apply for immigration. "Dad looked up at me: "We will live in New Zealand for a while, then we will live in Wenqing's new home for a while, then we will come back to live with Wenhua for a while, and then we will live in Wenzhong's home in the United States for a while..." Dad didn't say anything more, because Mom is crying.

"That's fine, when people forget about these things in the future, you can come back again..." Director Cen said in a deep voice.

Dad didn't speak anymore, just looked at me silently, then at my brother and sister-in-law, and finally at my mother with tears in my eyes.

1. Fish hidden in the water ([-])

This is the last month in my hometown. An'an and I no longer go out, and my parents basically stay at home.We still don't mention the separation and the future, and just live every day with our hearts.An An is sometimes with her father and sometimes with her mother, asking them to talk about my childhood and our family's past.Still like when she was a child, she wanted to know "all" about me and "all" about my family.Father and mother always satisfied her concerns and curiosity patiently and meticulously, An An had a way to make them quiet and happy in the process of narrating.Her cuteness and enthusiasm infected her parents and everyone in the family, and injected warmth and optimism into everyone's tacitly sad hearts.My mother often couldn't help hugging An An and said: "An An is such a good boy. It is a blessing for all of us that Wen Qing found you back. I am relieved to have you." Rippled with bright tear stains.My mother is many years younger than my father, but looks older than my father who is running around. This is caused by the sun and rain in the rural life, and it is also the fate of the wife of a leader who only cares about the country and does not care about the family.In the eyes of outsiders, Dad is an excellent, gentle, enthusiastic, and magnanimous successful man. Mom is the ordinary woman behind him. , The real great thing is the mother, without the mother, there would be no family, let alone the "success" of the father.It is also because my mother is "ordinary" so she is more caring. After growing up, my mother became a close friend of our five siblings.

An An is like the sun and rain, shining and nourishing our hearts covered in haze and cracked wounds, and it also allows me to spend every day in peace—opening my eyes in An An’s kiss every morning, and in An An’s arms every night fall asleep.I often can't help but sigh: Since God has given me such a gift, why doesn't my parents share it with me?

After the sister-in-law took Wen Yue Wenjun back, she has been staying at her parents' house.Soon Wen Yue Wenjun knew about the family affairs.For a long time, Wen Yue didn't take the initiative to talk to me, and always had a half-evasive and half-scrutinizing attitude towards An An and me, while the naive Wen Jun insisted on clinging to An An as always.

One day Wen Yue finally took the initiative to "talk" to me alone.

"Second aunt, are you really gay?"

"Ah."

"Why do you like gays?"

"I do not know either."

"Can't you like men?"

"There's no way to like it."

"Usually our classmates also talked about this. Everyone said that homosexuality is...perverted."

"What do you think?"

"do not know."

"Do you think Second Aunt and Sister An An are perverted?"

Wen Yue didn't speak, just looked at me quietly.

"What kind of people do you think Second Aunt and Sister An An are?"

"You're all wonderful, beautiful and knowledgeable, and kind."

"If we're happy together, should we be apart?"

"Can everyone do this?"

"It's up to him, but it's better to be straight."

"why?"

"This is life in the mainstream society, and you will get blessings from more people, and your life will be smoother."

"Second aunt, I wish you all the best." Wen Yue hugged me suddenly, "You are all good and excellent people, and you deserve happiness."

"Thank you, Wen Yue." I hugged the 15-year-old girl, my eyes were wet, "Second Aunt hopes that you all live the lives of mainstream society..."

"Second aunt..." Wen Yue cried, "Is it true that you will never come back again?"

"I'll be back." I kissed her hair.I'm sure I'll be back, this is my home...

2. Fish hidden in the water ([-])

I called Qiuping and said that I would not go to the Federation of Literary and Art Circles anymore, and that I would be away for a long time, so I asked her to tell He Yuewen.

I once took An An to Wenlian, He Yuewen's eyes widened in surprise, and he didn't say a word for a long time.Then he said in a dull tone, "Wen Qing, you and...Xin An are welcome to be our guests..."

"This is my 'work unit', how do you call it a guest?" I pretended to laugh easily, and then said to my friends in the Federation of Literary and Art Circles: "Come on, this is my girlfriend Xin An, let's get to know each other."

He Yuewen said with a little embarrassment: "Oh, I'm sorry..."

He didn't accept such a thing, just because he was a brother and friend, he didn't have any objection to me to show respect.The other friends of the Federation of Literary and Art Circles are also very friendly, but I can still see their awkwardness.Qiuping and Xiaoya are exceptions.As a "fashion girl", it is not surprising that Xiaoya is open-minded and tolerant, but the kindness and understanding shown by the traditional Qiuping surprised me and moved me very much.

In order not to embarrass He Yuewen and other human friends, I asked Qiuping to transfer the conversation.

"Come out to sit at night?" Qiuping was uncharacteristically enthusiastic.

"I...it's inconvenient to go out."

"Oh..." Qiuping was disappointed.

"How about you come to my house? I like to entertain guests."

"Okay, I'll come over after dinner."

Qiuping is very good at picking the time. When we came, we had finished watching the news and had a rest. It was the time when energy was transferred from the digestive system to the brain.After saying hello, An An went to the living room to accompany Mom and Dad in a very considerate manner, leaving Qiuping and me alone in the room.

"Where are you planning to go?" After I briefly explained our situation, Qiuping asked directly, omitting her usual reserve.

"I can go anywhere, I plan to travel all over the world." I smiled.

"I really admire you for being so brave." Qiuping looked at me frankly.

"That's no way, others force me to be brave."

"It's brave enough to dare to confess to someone you love."

"That's no way, I can't stand it if I don't confess." I laughed.

"No." Qiuping turned to look at my window sill, "There are many fish eager to see the sun, but they dare not jump out of the water anyway."

"Because its desire for sunlight is not strong enough."

Qiuping shook her head: "It's not that it's not strong enough, it's too strong, so strong that I would rather hide at the bottom of the water forever and watch the phantom of the sun in the water than try to jump once, because if the sun is scared away, it won't be able to survive. "

I stopped laughing and just stared at Qiuping's dim face.

"I'm just that kind of fish that hides in the bottom of the water." Qiuping didn't avoid my gaze, "I like her so much, I've never told her, besides me, you are the second person who knows." Qiuping Looking up at my ceiling, I paused for a while before continuing: "She is my classmate in high school. I have only loved one person in my life, and that is her. I think about her every day and every moment, and I think very hard. But I didn't dare to tell her, I was afraid that if she knew that we wouldn't even be friends, then I would die. In order to be able to see her forever, hear her, and play with her during the holidays, I I am willing to be tortured like this..." Two lines of tears trickled down Qiuping's face.

I was surprised that Qiuping, a mature, agile and steady elder sister whom we all recognized, a "leader inside and outside" with full femininity is also gay, and a "big girl" who is so wronged and infatuated!I looked at her silently, and said after a long time: "Maybe she is the same as you, it might be better if you say it..."

"No," Qiuping shook her head, "I dare not take the risk, without her I would