Love you as life

"Sister Hong, do you think I'm dirty?" I stopped my story, looked at my sister-in-law and smiled.

"No, Wenqing, my heart aches." My sister-in-law hugged me tightly.

"I hurt a child, I shouldn't love a child." I cried.

"Wen Qing, it's not your fault, don't blame yourself, huh?" My sister-in-law patted me on the shoulder.

"If a woman treats Wen Yue like this, can you bear it?"

"This...Wen Yue can't." The sister-in-law pondered for a while, "If a child can get enough love and love from his parents

Caring doesn't work that way. "

"An'an is an unfortunate child..." My tears kept sliding down.

"No, she is a happy child, and she has received the most sincere and deepest love."

"Sister Hong..."

"Childhood is too important to children, and parents are too important to children. Many sufferings are the continuation of unfortunate childhood, and many misfortunes are the result of parents' negligence. Because of you, An An can grow so well. An An is really Happy." My sister-in-law continued to comfort me.

"You don't blame me?"

"If there is an effect, there must be a cause, and the cause is not all yours."

"Then who is it?"

"I can't tell, there are many aspects..." Sister-in-law sighed.

"If it's Wen Yue, would you accept it?" I still want to know her clear attitude.

"I...accept." The sister-in-law said softly.

"Why?" I was taken aback.

"It must be something wrong with my education, or I didn't create a better environment for her. I can only blame myself." The sister-in-law said, "If these are all right, it is her nature. Since it is nature, Just go with it."

"Sister Hong..." I hugged my sister-in-law tightly, deeply moved.

"Wenqing, your story is really beautiful. Then you..." the sister-in-law said cautiously.

later--

During the winter vacation in the first year of high school, An An completely lost her freedom. Whether it was studying, visiting friends or family activities, Xin Dekang made all the arrangements.In order to keep An An from being too sad, I said that I would also go back to my hometown for the New Year, and I would leave as soon as she was on vacation until she started school.

I never told them where my hometown is, but I often describe the beauty of my hometown, interesting stories about my parents, brothers and sisters. Every time I come back from my "hometown", I will bring some "hometown specialties".When I was still in Liba Village, every time I came back, the house was full of children. Those children in the mountainous area loved Wenqing’s "hometown specialties" and the small gifts that Wenqing's "hometown children" gave them.Wenqing has a happy hometown, which is their unanimous concept.An An is a clever child. She has many questions about my origin, hometown, past... and believes that I hide many secrets.She had repeatedly questioned and inquired around, but to no avail, so she had to put it down for the time being.Her deeply compassionate eyes and deep mature thoughts let me know that I can't lie to her, she is just waiting, and I believe that one day I will tell her.

This is the An An I love. We seem to have no age difference. We seem to be two souls who have wandered for a long time and finally found our own souls. We met, we fell in love, and we forgot time and space, and everything in the world.

For the first half of the winter vacation, I still went on a trip, as a backpacker to travel independently, where to eat, where to live, and where to live.Running like this every year, I found that my mobility is quite good, and my adaptability is also good, but when I took out the photos when I was studying, I found that my face was full of weather, and I was thousands of miles away from the pure and young girl in the photos. "Even if you don't know each other when you meet, your face is covered with dust, and your temples are like frost", my parents may not recognize me immediately when they see me.

Thinking of their older parents, what kind of "dusty faces and frosty temples" will they be?Wen Jing said that everyone is still healthy, but the appearance is definitely not what it used to be.How many ten years are there in life, and how many Spring Festivals can parents celebrate?I know that my eldest brother Wenzhong, my sister Wen Jing and my younger sister Wen Jing have gone abroad long ago, and only my second brother Wenhua is at home. Parents will miss me very much, right?Especially my mother, every time I call back during Chinese New Year, she will cry.I really want to go home... If I want to go home, it is extremely simple. I buy a plane ticket and fly for a few hours. I can see my parents, my brothers, and all my old friends. Now that I have relatives and friends, I can spend a new year in my hometown, and I can turn myself back into the quiet and well-behaved child... If my father tells me to go back, maybe I will go back...

I don't know why this winter vacation is so homesick, and I want to go home so much.I know that if I go back, I won't come back.An An, I can't let you go, An An, I can't live without you...

After the winter vacation, I returned to City S, and after school started, An An returned to my arms.

The parting was not too long, but we felt that it was extremely long.After An An entered the house, we stood by the door and hugged each other. We couldn't let go, and we met with tears in the end.Me, I kissed Ann.I don't know why I kissed Ann!The moment I touched her pink, warm and soft lips, I quickly moved my head to the side like an electric shock, put it on Ann's shoulder, and took a deep breath.

"Wen Qing, I want it." An An said in a low voice, leaning on me.

"An'an, I'm sorry." I woke up and let out a long sigh of relief.

"Wen Qing..." An An cried.I was speechless, I just gently rubbed her back.I started to be very scared, worried that one day I would suddenly do something bad, this kind of getting along is too easy to happen in case!And An An is still a 16-year-old middle school student!

But the more cautious you are, the more you remind yourself to be calm and restrained, the more likely problems will occur.

The day of April is clear, fresh and warm.On that brilliant sunset evening, An An appeared at my door again with her schoolbag on her back.

An An was sweating profusely, her clothes were wet, and she was panting heavily.

"What's the matter? Are you competing again?" I took the schoolbag off her sweaty back.

"Yeah, I played for a week in a row. I guarded the goal for a week with my hands open like an old hen, and I had to pounce forward and backward. I was almost exhausted." An An walked over and collapsed. sit on my couch.

I took a towel and handed it to her, and then went to bring two chocolates and a cup of coffee, and put them on the table.

"Okay, replenish your energy, and then take a hot shower, and I'll make the meal more fragrant." I said, brushing her wet hair.

"Wen Qing." An An leaned her head on me.

"Ok?"

"Nice to have you."

"Well, of course, it's the blessing you cultivated in three lifetimes." I joked, taking a towel from her hand and wiping the sweat off her neck.

"I'll do it myself, my sweat smells so sour." An An snatched the towel from my hand.

"I've been smelling your sweat for ten years, it smells so good!" After I finished speaking, I realized how nasty my words were, so I laughed and fled to the kitchen.

After dinner, An An didn't want to do anything, and said that today she wanted to relax completely, so the two of them stayed on the sofa and watched DVDs, including Disney's cartoon "The Adventures of Cats".After reading it, it was getting late, so An An just lay on the sofa and couldn't get up, saying that Lai was too comfortable here, unless I carried her back.He pulled me again and said, "You are not allowed to go to sleep, you just stay here and watch over me."

"Is it true that people are overbearing when they are tired?" I said with a smile.

"Well, I'm so domineering whether I'm tired or not. Haven't you been bullied for ten years?" An'an buried her head on the sofa and put one of my hands on my chest.

"Go back to your room and lie down. I'll give you a massage." I stroked her hair.When An An was young, she liked me to pat her to sleep, saying that it was the happiest feeling.

"My Wenqing is so nice." An An immediately got up.Obediently go back to her "Xiaoqing's room" - this is her "nickname" for her room.

I put her on the bed and massaged her through the pajamas.She opened her body into a stretched "big" character.I patted her strong limbs, and then went to loosen her shoulders and neck.An An's skin is delicate and fair. Although she was a little tanned by sports, she is still beautiful, even more beautiful.We are not used to wearing a bra after taking a bath. I was very careful not to touch her front when I was massaging her back, but my mind didn't obey me. The more I avoided it, the more I thought about it.I stopped, An An has not moved, I guess she has fallen asleep.

"Wen Qing, I want more, I want more." An An called softly as soon as I stopped.

"Well, I thought you were asleep."

"I can't sleep anymore." An An suddenly turned over, and my hands on her back naturally slipped to her breasts.My heart was beating wildly, my face was hot, and my whole body became hot.

"Wen Qing, I love you." An An's eyes are very special, I can understand...

"Don't go, yours... don't go away." She murmured, like dreaming, her eyes were full of longing, but her face was flushed.

I heard what she wanted to say: "Your...hand...don't move away..."

"An'an..." My eyes were hot, and I couldn't think or act for a while.

Suddenly An An stretched out her arms and hugged me onto her body, her body was right under my body, her breasts were right under my breasts, her lips were right under my lips, her eyes were quiet looking at me...

"An'an..." I gently stroked her hair, her face, and her neck.An An hugged me gently, her eyes were like two mountain springs, deep and clear, frank and full of innocence.My child, my true love, blooms so purely in front of me.I painted her eyebrows, her so moving eyes, I brushed her face like a spring flower like an autumn moon, and imprinted a kiss on her lips...

An An kissed me back, her lips were trembling slightly, and her body was trembling slightly.I stopped.

"Wen Qing, what should I do, what should I do?" An An's expression was very painful.She looked at me helplessly with her eyes wide open, as if she wanted to melt me ​​into it, but she didn't know how to melt it.

Ann, I know what to do, I know, I want to let you go and make you happy.

I put aside all worries and thoughts that have nothing to do with the present, and there is only one idea left in my whole body and mind: I want to be happy, I want to be happy in peace, and we want to travel together to the most beautiful world, where there are exotic flowers and plants, There are springs ding-dong, birds singing in quiet paths, mountains and seas, we will shout there, I love you, I love life, I love this magical and happy world!

We call each other's name, we say I love you to each other, we pant together, we writhe together, we tremble together, we sink into the wonderland of incomparable joy and sweetness together...

"An'an, are you tired?" I stroked her wet hair.

"Not tired...Wen Qing, I love you." An An's eyes were like water rippling slightly, with still burning desire flowing, she hugged my head, slightly parted her delicious lips, I kissed it again... ...That night, we hardly slept much, we were so lingering, tender, releasing, kissing, loving...we didn't fall asleep until it was almost dawn.

It was already noon when we woke up, and we looked at each other sideways. An An's eyes were a little shy, but they were quickly covered by enthusiasm.One night passed, and they still couldn't take their eyes off each other.An An turned over and put her arms around my neck and said softly, "Wen Qing, this is my happiest day..." I hugged this innocent girl tightly, my beloved An An, and felt a piercing pain.I sinned, I hurt the most beautiful girl in the world!

"An'an, I'm sorry." I stroked her hair.

"Wen Qing, don't say that, don't think like that!" An An left my arms, held my face and stared at me: "Wen Qing, if you make a mistake, it's my fault, I love you, I want you to love me!" I..." An An said with tears streaming down her face, "We can never be separated, and you are never allowed to leave me..."

"An'an, I won't leave you, I can't leave you anymore." I caressed the face of my beloved girl Xianyan.

An An came home after lunch and took a good shower. She said, "I don't want to go home at all. I'm going to be scolded anyway. How about..." Seeing my heartbroken and pleading eyes, she said "Okay, my dear Wenqing, I'm going home." After speaking, he suddenly hugged me tightly and kissed me hard like I kissed her last night. I pushed her away with great effort, and kissed me again Not letting her go, An An turned and went out the door with a blushing face.

My heart is completely confused. I know the saying "If you have the first day, you will have fifteen." As long as we start, we will no longer restrain ourselves, and we will no longer be rational.An An, this 16-year-old pure child!

An An, you were 16 years old that year.You have truly become my love, my dear sweet love, the love that makes my heart ache...

"Wen Qing!" My sister-in-law grabbed my trembling arms, "If it's too uncomfortable, don't talk about it, huh?"

"Let me finish." I clenched my hands tightly, I couldn't hold it back, I want to tell, I must tell...

[-]. Blizzard

We don't have fifteen.

On the following Friday, An An came to my place on time, and we still hugged in the aisle, but there was one more action: we kissed each other, very lingering and sexy.

At the moment of forgetting love, the door of my house was suddenly opened, and Xin Dekang stood in front of us. He stared at the scene in front of him dumbfounded, his face turned from white to red and then to blue. The three of us stood there for a long time before we could react to each other. .

"Xin An! Come home with me!" Xin Dekang burst out a few words suddenly and severely.

"No!" An An instinctively hid behind me, apparently terrified by her father's appearance.

"Come here! Go back!" Xin Dekang was so angry that his veins were exposed.

"No!" An An's voice was trembling.

"Mr. Xin..."

"Shut up!" I was interrupted by him before I finished speaking. He rushed to me, grabbed An An's arm, picked up An An's schoolbag by the door, and bumped me into the ground roughly. As he went, he dragged An'an and walked out the door.

"Mr. Xin! Listen to me!" I chased and shouted at him, and hugged An An.

"Go away! Literary **!" Xin Dekang turned his head and yelled at me, and dragged An An out of my arms while I was in a daze.

"Mr. Xin!" I was about to tremble, feeling weak all over.

Xin Dekang seemed not to hear, striding away without looking back, An An kept twisting her body and turned her head to look at me, with such desperate eyes!

An'an... I closed my eyes, and my internal organs were smashed to pieces.

I didn't know the ins and outs of the matter until later.

After returning home that afternoon, An An was severely interrogated by Xin Dekang and taught a lesson. An An lied for the second time that day.

Next, Xin Dekang secretly went to the school to check on An'an's situation. Knowing that An'an had been out of bed every Friday night for more than half a year, he was furious and wanted to find out the truth.I gave An An a set of keys. He took the keys away when he was looking through An An's schoolbag. An An wondered why her keys were missing. She had been carefully putting them in the dark compartment of her schoolbag...

I saw An An again at noon two days later, in the city hospital.

An An's face was pale, her eyes were sleepy and empty, her lips were bloodless, and her wrists were wrapped with thick gauze.Seeing me, she held the corner of her mouth, tears streaming down her face.

"An'an." I took her other hand and held it to my lips, and tears immediately wet her hand.

"An'an, do you want me to die?" After a while, I reached out to wipe her tears.

"You can't die, I can't fail to see you." An An struggled to focus all her eyes on mine.

"Then, if you die, how will I live." I held her hand tightly, "We must live well! No matter what happens!"

"Wen Qing." An An shed two more tears.

"Promise me that no matter what happens, you will love life!" I wiped away her tears, and took her hand again, "In my heart, you have always been an angel, an angel with great vitality, like an angel growing in the wilderness. An angel who is as strong as a wild chrysanthemum is the god in my heart...you can't let me down." I buried my face in her palm and let the tears pour down.

"Wen Qing, don't be sad. I promise you." An An's weak voice drifted to my ears, she pulled out her cold hand and touched my face lightly, "I won't die again, I'm dead , I will never see you again."

I raised my head, looked at this silly girl, and couldn't speak anymore.

After An An was dragged home by her father that day, she was locked in the room. Xin Dekang "interrogated" her in a rage, and stipulated that she would never see me again. Make me notorious and even go to court for sexually assaulting teenage girls.An An couldn't leave me, and she couldn't let me be degraded. Sadness and despair made her cut her wrist.An An, has been lying in the hospital for two days, and just woke up.After An An was taken away, I called Xin Dekang countless times, but he refused to listen.Until An An woke up, he was terrified when he saw his daughter's state, so he came to me.

Xin Dekang tacitly allowed me to take care of An An, and he asked An An for two weeks' leave.I just go to their house every day to accompany An An for a while, and get some food for her to recover. Fang Shujuan is very good at cooking, but what An An needs now is me.Two weeks later, An An went to school, and Xin Dekang asked her to stay at home for a month, and then consider the issue of living in school after recuperating her body.I knew he didn't want An An to come to my place again, and "invited" me to his house in order to temporarily relieve An An's excessive emotions.

A month later, An An gradually recovered her physical strength, her face turned red, and her mood stabilized.But I felt that her whole person had changed, she became silent, always sad, sentimental, and often shed tears for no reason when she looked at me.My child who is so cute, so lively and so full of life, I don't know where he has gone.

"An An, I can't laugh if you don't smile, and I can't be happy if you are not happy." Once I faced her sad face and said, "I will be happy only when you are happy." This is what An An wrote to her when she graduated from elementary school. my words……

"You have to wait for me to grow up, I really can't live without you..." An An's eyes were as deep as a bottomless black hole.

"I'll wait for you, can I wait for you somewhere else?"

"Are you leaving S city?" An'an bit her lip, and tears rolled down immediately.

"I don't know." I held her hand, "If I really leave, you must live a good life and cherish life." My lips were trembling, and I turned my head away immediately, my tears burst like a bank river.

"Wen Qing, don't be sad, you can't be sad like this. I promise you everything, everything." An An hugged me tightly, tears wet my neck all of a sudden.

Another half month later, Xin Dekang talked to me once.First an apology that he was so rude that day.Then thank you, saying that I have taken good care of An An for so many years, even sacrificing my youth, and he will never forget my kindness to their family.Then he took a good look at himself, saying that he was not a competent father, and he was very responsible for An An's affairs.In the end, he begged me to leave An An, saying that he could not let his daughter ruin his future.

I said that if I can wait patiently for An An to grow up, and we will no longer have too close contact before An An grows up, will he accept it?

He said that An An is still young, she doesn't know what love is, but when I am a relative who cannot leave, and I am not around, maybe she will consider a new life, a life in the mainstream of society, and I should give her such an opportunity.

His words are sincere and reasonable, maybe An An is not as fragile as I imagined... But when I think of leaving, and leaving forever, I feel heartbreaking pain, and feel that life is no longer interesting, even like An An thinks of death like that...

One morning a few days later, I unexpectedly received a letter from An An, which contained only two sentences:

Wenqing, I wish you happiness.I will live well.Ann

I wonder, how could An An write such a letter?But it was An An's handwriting, and it was the stationery that An An liked to use.I was flustered and didn't know what happened.

At noon, Xin Dekang knocked on my door again.

Not long after I sat down, he handed me a letter, a copy.I was startled when I unfolded it, it was my handwriting!I read it quickly. The letter was long, covering three pages.After watching it I stayed there unable to speak.I understood the meaning of An An's words, which was her reply to "my letter".This brilliant man used all my handwriting, all my tone, all my style of writing, and even his thoughts were stolen from me. "I" said a lot of earnest words, encouraging words, heart-rending words in the letter, but there is a very fatal paragraph:

I also want to wait for you to grow up, but I will be 40 years old when you graduate from college, and my youth will be completely gone.You have never understood the needs of a grown woman. What I want is not just spiritual love. You can't satisfy my desire... I am often so depressed that I can't bear it, and I still have to endure it for so many years.An An, I have been an ascetic monk for more than ten years...

"Wen Qing, I'm sorry, I have no choice but to do this. I asked a friend in the literary circle to help you write this letter to An An. I believe An An can let it go, and you can rest assured to do what you want Live." Xin Dekang said clearly, and deliberately added the accent on the words "the life you want".

The life I really want is to have an An'an life, even if I live as an ascetic for the rest of my life.

"Give An An a chance! She has calmed down, and she will definitely be able to live a normal life. Please help me and her too." Xin Dekang's words are very important.

After he finished speaking, he stood up, took out a thick envelope from his purse and put it on my son: "Wen Qing, I also hope you are happy, I hope everyone is at peace. Don't misunderstand me, I am really sorry for you! "After speaking, he bowed deeply to me.I know what is in that letter, and I understand his difficulties and understand his intentions.I also stood up, silently watching his back as he left, but my heart was churning with the words he scolded me: "Literary bomber!" I really want to know which literary bandit made this letter.

Ann, do you believe it?An An, can you really let go?An An, should I really give you such a chance?An'an, your future, my future... Do we have to separate?Will you live a good life?You are a child who can't lie.

I left City S, in May when catkins are flying all over the city.

Last year, I sent you off, outside the gate of Yuhang, the snow was like poplar flowers.At the end of spring this year, the poplar flowers are like snow, and I still don't see them returning home.Invite the bright moon to the wine curtain, and the wind reveals through the screen.It's just like Heng'e pitying the two swallows, shining brightly and painting beams obliquely.

Flying snow is like poplar flowers, and poplar flowers are like snow.In the snowy winter of last year, the heart warmed and the flowers bloomed. This year, at the end of the spring full of poplar flowers, the sky is freezing cold...

"Wenqing..." My sister-in-law hugged me who was crying, "Wenqing, cry, cry hard!" She patted my back, and my back slowly became wet, it was my sister-in-law's tears.

[-]. The sound of the waves is still

I didn't wake up until very late the next day. It was pleasant to vent, painful to look back on, and even more painful to miss.I feel like I'm going to explode again, like six years ago...

"Wen Qing, can we go for a walk together after breakfast? It's been a long time since I went shopping." The sister-in-law came in and said that she got up early, and a woman who is a mother is always very great, and she changed her habit of sleeping late.

"Okay." I replied, although I felt that it was useless, it was better than being at home.

My sister-in-law is very good at shopping, as if she already has the whole county in her chest, all the markets, shopping malls, shops, streets and alleys are clearly highlighted in her mind, and what needs to be bought, what is suitable for buying, what style, color and price, She is also precocious.So she doesn't talk long and slow when shopping, which is why I like going out with her.

My sister-in-law didn't buy much, just two small bags.We each carry a bag.

"Would you like to take a walk by the Qingjiang River?" Sister-in-law suggested.

"Okay, I'm just afraid you're hot, don't do it for me..." I said.

"It's okay. There are many trees along the river and the wind blows from the river. It's very comfortable. I haven't gone for a walk there for a long time. I really want to go for a walk." The sister-in-law smiled gently.

In fact, I am a little afraid of going to the riverside now. When I go to the riverside, I think of "the first love", and when I get to the "first love", I want to buy chrysanthemums. When I look at those chrysanthemums, I can't help but think about An'an. The thinking is crazy and painful. .

In the end, I still couldn't help but came to "First Love", and bought a lot of chrysanthemums.My sister-in-law wanted to prevent me from buying it again, but in the end I let myself be fascinated by it in a trance.I was crazy today, I hugged a lot, my arms were full like a child, and I was still hugging tightly, smelling crazy.

"Wen Qing..." My sister-in-law called me softly.I looked up, two cool tears slid down my face, and I knew I was crying.

The sister-in-law paid the money quickly, and left with my arm.After walking a few steps, my sister-in-law called out: "Hey, you forgot to take that bag of things. I'll go back and get it." Then she turned back to "the first love".I turned around and waited for her, only to find that the flower girl was standing among the flowers, "looking" straight at me with her big black glasses.Sorry, you are not An An, you are not my An An, so I will not come again, this is the last time to buy chrysanthemums...

"Wen Qing, let's go on a trip together for a few days, shall we?" When we got home, my sister-in-law said.

In fact, it is the same wherever I go, because the sky and the ground are full of An An, no matter where I escape, An An is always in my heart.

"Okay." I mechanically agreed.

"Where do you want to go? You decide."

"Beach." The endless sea six years ago appeared in front of my eyes.

"Okay!" My sister-in-law said happily, "The sea in summer is very charming..." Suddenly she stopped.

"It's okay, I want to go." I understand her suspension, she must be thinking of me six years ago.

"Okay. Tentatively go to see the sea." My sister-in-law smiled at me.

After dinner, my sister-in-law said she had a date with a friend, so she went out.I don't know what kind of friends I made an appointment with. After I came back, I was always in high spirits. I said, let's go to the beach and have fun, and leave tomorrow.

"I want to go to the sea outside the city of N." All I could think about was the sea.

"Oh...Okay, let's take a car to the provincial capital and transfer to the plane after booking the air ticket tomorrow." The sister-in-law didn't mind my waywardness.

The sea outside the city of N is far away from the urban area, and it is actually a very remote place, but as a natural landscape, the more remote the place, the more beautiful it is.This sea is very special. There is a crescent-shaped island in the center of the sea. The back and back of the island are two completely different worlds.There are steep cliffs and forests on the convex surface of the crescent moon. When the water is heavy in the morning and evening, it is a bit like Cao Cao's "Guan Canghai" "The water is so calm, and the mountains and islands stand erect. The autumn wind is bleak, and the waves are surging." The sea here is pure and clear, with white sand , clear water, blue sky, white clouds, transparent air, shining shells... The concave side of the crescent is a fishing village, the sea water is turbid, has a strong fishy smell, and the sand is dull in color.The coastline here is very long, and the island is scattered with low and simple houses. The place where the beach meets the sea is full of boats. Every evening, it looks particularly spectacular, solemn and dignified. When the lights are on, the lights on the island are like beans. The fishing fires on the sea are a little bit quiet, warm and tender.

It was originally an unnoticed virgin island, but tourists appeared later, at first they lived in fishermen's homes, then fishermen built some simple inns, and later developers built hotels...

We found a hotel and asked for a double suite.

"Wen Qing, this island is so beautiful. How did you find it?" My sister-in-law asked me after I settled down.

"Think about it, I travel around twice a year, add up to one or two months, and travel for ten years, where do I not know?" I smiled.

"It's very happy to travel all over the world." Sister-in-law sighed.

"There are countless ways to be happy. You are happiest with a warm home, right?" I laughed.Tolstoy said that all happy families are alike, but every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.In fact, it is not true, misfortune and happiness are in different forms.

"Wen Qing, it's great to be with such a considerate person like you!" My sister-in-law looked at me.

"It's especially good to be with someone like you who knows how to appreciate education!" I also looked at her and laughed.

"You used to live in this hotel too?"

"No. I live in a fishing village." My eyes dimmed.

"It's dusk now, the sea view is the best, right? Shall we go for a walk by the seaside?" My sister-in-law carefully noticed the change in me.

"Well. Good." I said.

The seascape at dusk is the most beautiful, the consensus of the world.Especially the people of our time, everyone is obsessed with "Grandma's Penghu Bay", the white waves chasing the beach, a piece of blue sea, my grandma holding my hand gently with a stick, there are two and a half pairs of footprints, and cactus And the Penghu Bay of the old captain.Joyful, happy, carefree, and of course romantic and charming.

But in this sea in my heart, sadness has already covered romance thickly.

There are many people on the beach in summer, so we try to avoid places with many tourists.My sister-in-law is like a child, running barefoot on the beach, sometimes running to the water's edge to chase the waves, and when the waves really come, she runs away desperately, shouting: "Ah—my trouser legs!" Enough is enough, and I look for shells everywhere. I know that the shells here are beautiful, clean, and have a particularly good luster.She will pick up enough for a few days.It's easy to appreciate her childishness.

After going crazy for a long time, my sister-in-law remembered me who was "cool" facing the sea: no running on the beach, no chasing waves, no picking up shells, no breathing, just standing there and looking at the sea.

I am not looking at the sea, but listening to the sea, listening to its whimpering, weeping, whining, and the sound of its white, blue, and golden tears falling.

"Wen Qing, what's the matter?" My sister-in-law walked up to me, not yet fully transformed from a child into an adult.

"It's nothing, I've seen a lot." I smiled.

"Do you always do this when you come to the beach? Just stand and watch?" The sister-in-law also laughed.

"Almost." I like to listen to the sound of the waves, near, far, big, small, the sound of the waves.Hear it on the beach, on the mountain, in the woods, in the house, on the boat, the sound of the waves.Standing, sitting, lying down, eyes open, eyes closed, listening to the waves...

"Go and play, don't worry about me, I'm fine." I smiled and sat down.

"No, I'm tired too." The sister-in-law said and sat down.

"Do you mind lying down? It's very comfortable to lie on the beach and listen to the waves blowing the sea breeze." I turned to my sister-in-law, and the golden sunset covered her face.This beach is very large, and our location is far from the sea, and the tide cannot reach this place.

"Okay, I really want to try it." She said and lay down carefully.

I spread my hands and feet and posed a big character on the warm and soft sand.Sunshine, sand, waves, cacti...fly around with the sea breeze.I closed my eyes and was completely immersed in a world of nothingness, endless thoughts, and nothingness.

When I first came here six years ago, I lay here listening to the tide every day, every evening, until it was dark.Listen to it one more night in the fishermen's low inn while you sleep, until you blur into dreams.I heard it ringing in my ears again before I opened my eyes in the morning.Waves is a boundless living world, a huge cradle, it is screaming, whistling, rolling, accompanying and comforting my lonely soul, so that I will not be overly afraid, and make me feel that I still have a " Home", a "home" with a sound.

The strong need for a home came after Xin Dekang talked to me for the last time.

His words and An An's letter left me at a loss as to what to do. I knew I had to leave S City, but I couldn't leave. My whole world was here. If I left, I would be just an empty shell without a soul. . After graduating from university 11 years ago, I walked into Lili Village with a new heart, and now my heart