wildfire in the heart

That was the first intense conflict between us. Youyu felt that we should be honest with each other. She never hid anything from me, but I always looked forward and backward, and ended up not pleasing either side.

But that was five years ago, when she was 22 and I was 27, and we saw each other as an integral part of who we were, so there was no room for separation.

After Youyu got angry that day, I reacted very quickly. I first apologized deeply, and then I started to punish myself. Seeing the fine beads of sweat on my forehead, Youyu's heart softened instantly, so we quickly Just make up.

Reconciliation is reconciliation, and I have learned a lesson, but this does not prevent me from changing my tricks along the way to disappoint Youyu. I really didn't mean it, but sometimes I just can't control myself.I attribute my shortcomings to my parents. They put me in my grandmother's house when I was a child, and they didn't give me enough sense of security. That's why I sometimes become self-willed and do whatever I want.

In fact, I have reflected on it, and I have no right to blame anyone. Youyu should have felt more insecure than me when I was a child, but when the two of us were together, it was more she who tolerated me, took care of me, and comforted my occasional irritable emotions. It is really in vain that she is five years older.

I like You Yu because she never fights with me. I tried to fight with her once, and she took the initiative to communicate with me. She said that the cold war made her very uncomfortable. If there is a problem, she must explain it clearly. If it is her fault She will admit it.

Under her demonstration, I admit my mistakes faster and faster, and I have less and less psychological barriers, so our communication is very smooth, and there is almost no gap.

She laid a good foundation for our relationship. Every time a conflict occurs, we will analyze the conflict itself. Occasionally we will be emotional, but we can take the initiative to say sorry to the other party after analyzing the problem clearly, and then make up. Then get closer.

Now I am 32 years old, but I suddenly lost that stable intimate relationship. Now I have nothing and become a lonely person.

In the six months since You Yu left, my spirits have been low, and I didn't bother to go to the gym, and my body was not up to date. When the seasons changed, I started to runny nose and sneeze desperately.

I was not immune to the change of seasons this time. Autumn came unexpectedly. My throat started to be dry and astringent.

After staying up for two consecutive nights for work, I found that I had no strength in my whole body, my throat was completely hoarse, and my nose was not ventilated. It must be a cold.When I woke up in the morning, I had a huge pimple on the left side of my nose. Coupled with the gloomy weather, I couldn't lift my emotions at all, so I decided not to go to the company.

I didn't want to eat breakfast, so I barely ate something at noon. After eating, my stomach hurt and my condition became more and more serious. I had thick phlegm, sweating profusely, and my spirit completely collapsed. I fell into a coma for two days in the following days. I just felt warm under the thick two-layer quilt.

At night I dreamed of Youyu, she came, she lifted my quilt layer by layer, and made me shiver with cold, I stretched out my hand to hug her to keep warm, but she suddenly disappeared.

After suffering in sleep for a long time, I finally woke up.

When I woke up in the morning, because I dreamed about You Yu, I felt refreshed, so I took out my laptop and prepared to do some work.

I am drinking the water soaked in red dates and longan. I am going to replenish my water and replenish my blood. I hope to get better soon. There are still many things waiting for me to do in the company. The company has grown stronger over the years, and I need to devote more energy To assist in the development of all aspects of the company.

It's time to take a step forward at work, there is no excuse to be lazy, but staring at the computer, my thoughts wandered inadvertently, and I thought of many past events, big and small.

After working for a while, my hands started to get dirty. I couldn't help but search for Youyu on the social network. After searching several social apps, I finally found a photo of her that I hadn't seen for a long time.

In the photo, Yu Yu didn’t look at the camera. She was wearing a fisherman’s hat and a navy blue long dress with floral flowers. Looking at the background, she seemed to be playing in the countryside. The photo was not a selfie. I was wondering who took it for her.

I tried to find some clues, and finally I saw a hand in the corner of the photo, and my intuition told me that this person had an unusual relationship with Youyu.

The sense of crisis made the blood in my whole body start to boil, too strong emotion invaded me, my body trembled slightly, and I tried to suppress it.

My mind is in chaos, all kinds of past are intertwined, and many good times with You Yu come from the depths of memory.

In the past, I took her to play everywhere. We climbed mountains and visited the park, and went boating to visit the ancient city. All these memories clearly questioned my heart, asking me whether I have regretted it or cherished it.

I had no intention of working, and just wanted to listen to music to soothe my restless emotions. I turned on the music player, and sad music streamed from the speakers:

"A heart repeats

no way to stop

all kinds of nostalgia in memory

but it has become long

Reality is only used to heal past wounds

But the rest of my life is still so long

how to live frankly

illusions people see

projected where it shouldn't be. "

Just when I was immersed in my emotions and couldn't extricate myself, my mother came.

Seeing my ghostly appearance, she put a coat on me directly, took me out and called a taxi to the hospital.

In the car, she told me that she had just stopped by my company for shopping, but after hearing from Lou Qin that I hadn't gone to work for two days, she found her home.

In the hospital, seeing a doctor went well. The doctor said that my resistance was a little weak, and prescribed some medicine for me, and asked me to go home and take medicine on time, eat well, and rest well.

After seeing the illness, we left the consulting room, we came to the corridor, my mother went to get the medicine, and I sat alone in a row of chairs and waited for her.

When my eyes swept over the front right, I suddenly caught a navy blue floral dress, which was the back that I was familiar with. I stood up, ignoring the crowd, and chased after him, but the figure disappeared in a blink of an eye. Yes, when I chased to the corner, I found that all the people had entered the elevator, and the elevator room was empty.

I stood at the door of the elevator in a daze, and realized that Youyu didn't seem to be alone just now, she was walking side by side with another person.

Is she sick?Or did you come with someone else?The more I think about it, the more my mind becomes a mess.

At this time, with a "ding", the elevator door opened, and I didn't move. My narrator muttered, what's wrong with this man?

I stared at the elevator and looked at everyone in the elevator until the elevator door slowly and completely closed in front of my eyes.

My mother searched around and found me in the elevator room. She complained to me: "I'm such a big person, I don't know how to say anything when I run around, which makes me look everywhere."

Yeah, I'm such a big person, I don't have my own partner yet, and I go to the doctor with my mother, I'm such a complete loser.

Seeing that I seemed to be crying, my mother sighed, stopped talking, just patted me on the back, and led me out of the hospital.