wildfire in the heart

Lou Qin, who has always been hard-nosed, has not looked well in the past few days, so I called her into the office.

"You look very tired, do you want to rest for a few days?" I asked her.

Lou Qin sat across from me and said, "No, I'm fine."

"No problem?" I raised my voice, "Look at yourself, the dark circles under your eyes haven't disappeared these days."

Lou Qin finally confessed honestly: "The child is noisy at night and has to wake up many times."

"What about your husband, doesn't he care?" I asked immediately.

"He often travels on business and is not at home. When I am at home, I am afraid that he will not sleep well, so I ask him to sleep in another room."

I was shocked by Lou Qin's greatness: "Your husband just went to sleep by himself?"

Listening to my question, Lou Qin's expression became a little unnatural, not because I defended her so much and she was so touched, but because she was obviously not used to me criticizing her husband, and she heard something from my words. The implication is that she chose the wrong man, so her life is not good enough.

I didn't realize that I was meddling at the moment. I thought I was very close to her, and I was her boss. She shouldn't be disgusted by my care, but it seemed that was not the case.

Lou Qin no longer tried to defend her husband, but changed her perspective and told me that she would not affect her work: "My mother-in-law will come to help recently, so I should be more relaxed. Thank you Mr. An for your concern, I will do well own work."

Hearing this "thank you", I felt a little inexplicably awkward. I didn't intend to embarrass her, but I really shouldn't dwell on this issue anymore.

My fight against injustice has become overstepping the boundaries, I decided to restrain myself: "Lou Qin, I believe in you. Pay more attention to rest and talk when you have something to do."

"Okay, then I'm going out." Lou Qin gave me a peaceful smile, got up and left my office.

When I got home at night, I told You Yu about Lou Qin's dark circles, and You Yu asked me, "Do you think her husband doesn't love her enough?"

"It's not just that I don't love her enough, I think her husband didn't want to marry her in the first place. The man probably just weighed the pros and cons before deciding to get married." I told You Yu the true thoughts that had been hidden in my heart all along.

"Really?" You Yu asked, "Then do you think Lou Qin knows?"

I thought about it: "Based on what I know about Lou Qin, she shouldn't be aware of it. I think she is the kind of person who is a little simple and persistent in her feelings. She probably hasn't been in love much before."

"Well," Youyu nodded, "There are indeed such girls. Their families are strictly controlled, and they spend most of their time studying, and missed the best time for dating. When they are about to start a serious relationship, due to lack of experience And I’m often brainwashed by romantic dramas, so when I meet someone, I think it’s a lifetime.”

Hearing You Yu speak clearly and logically, I turned sideways, pinched one side of her cheek and asked, "Since when did you become a love expert? It seems that you are still sober in the world."

You Yu smiled lightly, and said, "It's not a love expert, it's true to have experienced setbacks."

I didn't want to ask about Youyu's past, because I was afraid that my heart would hurt, and second, I was afraid that she would feel uncomfortable, but when I got to this point, I couldn't help it, and I asked her in a low voice, "What setback?"

You Yu raised his eyes and looked at me seriously: "Do you want to hear it?"

"Well, if you don't mind talking." I started to build myself up, I was afraid to hear about her past.

"It was about high school," You Yu sighed slightly, "At that time, my parents let me board at the home of a former colleague of my dad, because my home was too far away from the school." You Yu's thoughts drifted to her high school days.

"My dad's ex-colleagues and family were very kind to me, especially their daughter, she was my classmate with me, her name was Li Shu," she went on to say, "but life in high school was really hard, and sometimes it made me It felt like an endless hell, the teacher was very strict, we could hardly do anything except study, but I knew I had to carry on. At that time, my only warmth was from Li Shu, because my parents hardly came to see I.

"One winter, it was very cold and there was no heating. My body was cold, my hands and feet were cold, and the quilt was very hard. I couldn't keep warm. I couldn't sleep because of the cold..."

Before she finished speaking, I interrupted her: "So you have a cold!"

"No," You Yu didn't look at me, just stared at the carpet under the coffee table and continued, "I don't have a cold, Li Shu saw that I was turning over all the time, and knew that I was too cold to sleep, so she asked me to squeeze in with her Bed."

My heart skipped a beat, and my intuition told me that the girl had an unusual relationship with You Yu.

"Li Shu was as warm as a fire. I slept well that winter. She always took good care of me. She often smiled at me. When she smiled, her teeth were like braided shells. I was timid and sensitive at that time. , but there is always an inexplicable closeness to her. I don't know when the girls in the class started making fun of us.

"Their jokes were all well-intentioned, and I didn't feel uncomfortable. One day during class, Li Shu and I were standing in the corridor at the door of the classroom, leaning on the railing to bask in the sun. When we heard the jokes of the classmates, she She turned her head to me and showed her plaid-like teeth. She smiled. There was embarrassment in that smile, and there was joy that I didn't understand at that moment.

"Later, the arts and sciences were separated, and I left the original class, and she was also assigned to another class. But when we returned to her home at night, we still had a lot to talk about.

"She has a very good temper. Once I was capricious during my period and lost my temper for no reason. After a fight with her, I realized that I also had feelings for her. Later, due to some reasons, we separated completely... .”

You Yu stopped talking, I probably understood the regretful past of You Yu when she was young, she didn't continue to talk, but she has successfully made me feel strong jealousy towards the girl named Li Shu.

My high school was lacklustre, and it was over after playing around. There was no unforgettable experience like You Yu, only all kinds of silly embarrassing things, so I didn't have any emotional stories to share with You Yu.

"Were you two together?" I still wonder.

"No, we didn't make it clear, but there are still rumors. My parents heard something for some reason, and they said something to me, which made me very scared and sad." You Yu's voice had A slight tremor.

I can't imagine what her parents said to her. My parents found out a long time ago that I am not an ordinary girl, so when they knew about me, they were not surprised at all, and only said "that's how it is".

Youyu adjusted his emotions and said: "Actually, I am not so easily afraid after I went to college. I found that the atmosphere of the university is much more relaxed, the academic pressure is not so great, and the social life is very rich. I also slowly came into contact with more people."

I asked a little sourly: "Are there a lot of people chasing you?" I knew that Youyu must be very attractive.

"One or two, not many." You Yu was very honest.

"Are there any girls?" I decided to untie all the knots at once today.

"Well, yes. She is very like a big sister in the underworld. She told me that when she fights with her roommate, she always swings the chair. Her roommate locks her out of the door, and she kicks the door frantically."

"Hey, these ladies are interesting." Realizing that she is definitely not You Yu's type, I began to tease.

"I was a little afraid of her, so I kept a distance from her afterwards."

It was exactly as I expected.

"Is she the only one in college?" I pretended to ask casually.

"I don't have much impression of anything else. After I went to L country in my junior year, I forgot a lot of things." You Yu said, "Sometimes I also feel very strange. How could I forget so many things in just over two years? The past is forgotten."

Later, I found out that she really forgot a lot of things, and seemed to be selectively blocking the unpleasant experiences in the past.

I didn't know at the time that she had been traumatized before, and I didn't realize it until I got to know her better.

"Good," I commented, "forgot to say it's not important."

"Well, it should be." You Yu began to turn the topic to me, "I've finished talking, do you have anything to say?"

At this point, if I don’t say something real, I really can’t justify it. I decided to be honest: “I was an idiot in high school, and I didn’t find anyone who liked me, and I didn’t like anyone. In college I had an affair with Shu Ci, but it didn't work out."

"Shu Ci?" You Yu was a little surprised, "Is that the Shu Ci who went to country L to look for you last time?"

"Well, it's her." I honestly confessed.

"No wonder," You Yu seemed to have solved a mystery in his heart, "I thought there was something weird between you at that time."

My back was sweating immediately, and I explained with my eyes wide open: "We have nothing, we are just friends now, don't get me wrong, I swear."

Seeing that I was anxious to defend with a pale face, You Yu smiled and said, "Of course I believe you, what's the rush?"

Hearing what she said, I added, "Say, what oath do you need me to swear?"

"What are you swearing, there's no need for it!" It seemed that You Yu really trusted me, so I felt relieved.

While talking about Cao Cao, Cao Cao sent a message, and I heard my cell phone vibrate in the bedroom.

You Yu got up to pour water, I hurried to the bedroom to check my phone.

After a few minutes, I walked out slowly.

"Is something wrong?" You Yu asked me.

"It's okay." I concealed it.

Noisy, the phone rang hard, this time it was either a message or a call, so I quickly hung up the phone.

"Why didn't you pick it up, who is it?" You Yu asked me curiously.

As soon as I was nervous, I missed the truth: "It's Shu Ci."

"She has something to do with you?" It seems that You Yu doesn't mind me continuing to keep in touch with Shu Ci.

"Well, that..." I started to falter nervously, with an unnatural expression, "She asked me to meet."

"Oh, yes. By the way, does she know I'm back?" You Yu asked.

"know."

"Then does she know about our relationship?"

"I know, I knew it a long time ago."

You Yu seemed satisfied with my answer, "Then who else did she date?" From You Yu's voice, I realized that she wanted to be invited.

"Ah? There is no one else." I began to feel more guilty.

You Yu froze for a moment, with a disappointed expression on his face: "Then are you going?"

I panicked and only knew what to ask and what to answer: "I have already promised her."

You Yu's voice was a little tense: "Then I asked you just now, why did you say it's okay?"

She stopped me all of a sudden, I hurriedly took out my mobile phone, sent Shu Ci a message "I'm not going", and then said to You Yu: "I rejected her again, if you don't believe me, you can see. "

Now I completely angered Youyu. She wasn't angry at first, but now she is really angry: "You do this, it embarrasses me so much. I didn't let you go."

I was getting more and more panicked, and the more I panicked, the more mistakes I made, and I just poked a hole in my good life.Just now Shu Ci sent me a message to tell me that she came back from a business trip and wanted to see me. She finally asked me out recently.

I'm completely baffled by this situation.